It's Just you're Subconscious
Chapter Nine: Sienna's Spite. Remus' Anger.
If you watched Sienna, it would look like she was reading, but in fact she was ranting things over in her mind. She was still pretty pissed at Remus, and it would probably be a while till she cooled down. She hated someone that accused her of doing, something she hadn't done.
Sienna had said she would go to Hogsmead with Remus, and when she said it, she meant it. It also meant she wasn't going to go out with other guys. Sure she thought Danny was cute, but there was the rule of, "Look but don't touch". Remus was the last person she would have expected to be jealous, she would have thought that would have been more of a James or Sirius thing.
That was another thing, James and Lily. She didn't get why Lily hated him so much, or at least seemed like she hated him. Sure James had his arrogant moments, and stupid things he does, but James can be a caring, compassionate, and a funny guy.
He'd give the shirt of his back for Lily, and all the people he cares for. As far as his hair fluffing thing, most of the time he does it absentmindedly other times, he does it for what he calls, "The Wild Sexy Look".
Then there was Sirius and Ana, those two constantly fight, but of course it means they like it each other, Sienna was sure they secretly enjoyed it. Ana and her sneaky glances at Sirius; Sirius and his subtle ways of complimenting her. Hell he hasn't even been with a woman since school started; he's turned down at least five different dates; which is a shock.
This year was seemingly harder, not just school work, but with growing up, and different things happening. Some of things in the Wizarding world made her feel like she wished she was a Muggle, and never knew of Witches and Wizards.
However it wouldn't change the fact that He Who Must Not Be Named, would probably still attack and then she would be unprepared; at least as a Witch she was prepared.
Ana looked over and saw Sienna staring down at the book, not even blinking it was obvious she was lost in thought, "Sienna?" She asked softly.
Sienna blinked and then looked up, "Huh? Oh, sorry," She said realizing she had spaced out, "I was just thinking." She replied to her friend, giving her a smile.
Ana raised an eyebrow, "You okay?" She asked.
Sienna shrugged, "I'm still burning pissed, but other then that yeah." Sienna said sighing heavily, how could she let Remus go anyway? Sure he had hurt her when he said, "Fine, I'll find someone else to take me." His words were ringing in her mind.
She almost wanted to cry she didn't want Remus to go, Sienna sighed and leaned her head on her palms and swallowed hard to keep from crying, "I hate him." Sienna said angrily.
Ana looked up, "I say you try and move on." Ana replied.
Sienna looked hesitant, "I don't know…" She trailed off straightening up trying to ignore the pain in her throat to keep from crying. She kept saying, "If only I had never met Danny." Yet she told herself, she could say 'if only' forever; and it still wouldn't change it.
She felt guilty but she didn't know why, she didn't do anything wrong; it wasn't as if she was snogging him in the Library.
Ana sighed, "Come on, just ask Danny out, I think you should. Remus is just being a jerk; you did the right thing by telling him you weren't going to Hogsmead with him." She said reassuringly.
Sienna sighed shakily, "Ana," She said quickly wiping a tear away before Ana could see, "He told me, he'd find someone else to take him, I never said I didn't want to go with him. He called it off."
Ana sat there with her mouth hanging open, "He WHAT?" She spat, spitting a little at Sienna who wiped it off quickly.
"He said, 'I'll find someone else to take me'." She replied.
"What a jerk, go out with Danny. Come on, just once, if you don't like him, don't go out with him again. It will get you're mind of Jerk-face." Ana said rolling her eyes.
Sienna sighed and then smiled a little, "He was cute…" Sienna said smiling somewhat.
"Yeah, so what's the worst that can happen? You don't enjoy yourself, just ask!" Ana said excitedly.
Sienna smiled at her friend's excitement, Ana loved setting people up, "All right, maybe."
Ana smirked, "Yea!" She said happily, as she sat back down in her chair because she knew if she kept it up, they'd both be thrown out of the Library.
"I said maybe." Sienna laughed. Ana was busy reading something, Sienna looked at her with a raised eyebrow, "Did you find something?" She asked.
Ana looked up, "You said something about Sirius and a frame? Like a picture frame?" Ana asked.
Sienna shrugged, "Yeah…so?" She said highly confused yet curious.
Ana sighed, "Frames: They can mean two things: A memory, a picture in a frame signifies a memory, and often can mean you are subconsciously thinking about them," at this Ana glared at Sienna who put her hands up in defense, "The other means that said person is being framed for something they didn't do." She finished.
Sienna blinked and then placed her index finger on her chin, "I wonder which one my dream means…" She wondered.
"Well it better not be, that he's on you're mind!" Ana said raising an eyebrow so high her bangs covered it.
Sienna smirked, "Oh so you want him to be framed for something he didn't do, and be sent to Azkaban? Look, Sirius is my friend so of course he'll be on my mind." Sienna laughed.
Ana nodded, "True." She replied sighing.
Sienna continued to flip through the pages, Danny was right these books were very informative, "The Color Red: It usually means, evil, pain and death. Or means destruction." Sienna said reading it out loud, "Lovely…" She muttered sarcastically.
Ana sighed, "Jeez you have serious dreams…" She said staring at the book Sienna could tell there was a small hint of fear.
Sienna stared at her friend and sighed, "Look we could be reading into this? Y'know?" She said looking through and finding "hissing" as she remembered the hissing laugh. "I remember in one dream there was this cold evil hissing voice and laugh I found a passage on it: referring to a serpent, a serpent represents evil and or Satan."
Ana looked disgusted, "Ewww and why Satan?" She asked.
Sienna looked up, "I dunno, go look it up." Sienna said tiredly, in fact she did know, but she just didn't feel like going into an explanation about it, she was way too tired.
Ana nodded, "You always get mad when I say that to you." She said raising an eyebrow.
Sienna yawned, "Why don't we check out these books and go to bed?" She asked yawning again.
Ana nodded, "I'm with ya." She said, both girls grabbed the books and checked them out, the woman who helped them check them all out raised an eyebrow at all the books, but said nothing when the girls insisted that they were curious about dreams.
Both of them trudged up to the Fat Lady and muttered, "Fortuna Major." And walked in, the Common Room had Lily whom was still upset at Ana and Sienna, Sirius who was still hyper, James who was trying to flirt with Lily; but because of her bad mood, she was even worse to him. Peter had already gone to bed and Remus was staring at the fire looking a little upset.
Sienna glanced at him, and then straight forward and huffed, she walked up to the girls' dorm room and laid the books down on her trunk at the foot of her bed. She walked to the bathroom put her pajamas on and climbed into bed.
By the time she got into bed Ana was just turning the lights out, Lily had patrol tonight so she wouldn't be in the room anytime soon. Both Ana and Sienna were tired, so within moments, they were both out like lights.
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The middle of the night Sienna woke to Ana talking in her sleep. She was rolling around, the sheets were a mess and her hair was on her face. "Oooh, Sirius." She moaned.
Sienna's eyes grew wide, she wasn't sure she wanted to hear this, "Sirius, lower…" She moaned again.
Sienna closed the curtains but soon, a giggle and then, "Sirius you are seriously kinky." She giggled.
Sienna knew this was like spying, but she couldn't stop, it was so hilarious, she was biting her tongue to stop laughing.
Sienna continued to listen, "Hmmm, I just wanna…" Ana said, but she kept repeating it, Sienna wanted to know what she wanted to do.
However she started snoring again and there was complete silence again. Soon Sienna fell back to sleep but had weird dreams of dogs, demons and shards of purple.
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"SIENNA WAKE UP I'VE BEEN AT YOU FOR TWENTY MINUTES!" A screech was heard, it was Lily, probably fueled by annoyance and the fight yesterday.
Sienna sat up groggily and yawned ignoring Lily's lecture on being late and responsibility, Ana was already down in the Common Room, Sienna shut the bathroom door in Lily's face and a took a heck of a long shower.
By the time she came out Lily was sitting on the bed not saying a word, just glaring. Sienna sighed, "Look, sometimes we just have our off days, okay? Ana's just confused about Sirius," Sienna lied a little, "And I was upset over Remus." Sienna replied grabbing her school bag.
Lily looked over, she was no longer glaring, "What'd Remus do?" She asked.
"Well, I ran into a Ravenclaw in the Library, and Remus accused me of dating him behind his back. Basically he got jealous and said he'd find someone else to go to Hogsmead with him. I told him if he was gonna be like that, maybe we wouldn't work out." Sienna said sadly, wishing she hadn't said it.
"Oh," Lily said softly, "Sorry." She said sincerely.
Sienna shrugged, "Eh, Ana convinced me to find the Ravenclaw named Danny and ask him out, I'm pretty sure I will ask him to Hogsmead, if Remus is gonna be that way." Sienna said as if she wasn't bothered by the fact she wasn't going with Remus anymore.
Truth was it was eating her up inside.
Lily nodded, "Hope it works out," She said grabbing her school bag, "I'm still on for that date you and Ana set me on right?" She asked as they walked down to the Common Room.
Sienna nodded, "Yeah," She grinned, "You'll love him." Lily nodded and walked over to Ana who was painting her nails, and started a conversation with her.
Sienna walked over to a table and sat down laying her head on her bag, she was tired for some reason, she saw Remus walk down from the boy's dorm room, and she turned away from him as she saw him walk by. She was still pissed, he made a motion to sit next to her but she got up and walked away.
She told Ana and Lily she was going out into the halls for a walk before breakfast; she walked out of the portrait hole and just took a leisurely walk looking at all the moving paintings. They were absolutely enchanting to her.
A few of the students were wandering around as well before going into the Great Hall she looked around and spotted Danny the Ravenclaw wandering around alone.
She took her chance and ran up to him, "Hey," She said, he turned around and smiled at her widely, "Thanks for the books, they were great." She said thankfully.
He laughed, "Helped you out?" He asked.
Sienna nodded, "Yeah, I'm still reading through them." She replied he nodded smiling down at her.
"So what career you going for?" He asked trying to make conversation.
"Oh," Sienna said, "Auror, my friend Ana wants to be an Unspeakable." She replied, she had a feeling of being watched but shrugged it off.
Remus was following he had a scowl on his face watching the two converse easily and happily. They look perfect together, he looks perfect for her. He thought jealously watching as Danny made her laugh a few times.
Remus continued to follow, he was angry that Sienna had lied she had known Danny before him. He felt bile rise in his throat, he wanted to punch the guy out.
He felt like a beast or werewolf inside of him was roaring, he wanted to grab Sienna, pull her way and kill Danny, for even being around her, and taking her away from him.
Sienna was always quiet around Remus, but she seemed more outgoing around Danny, he made her laugh, the conversation seemed easier and she seemed happy and bright to see him.
"Bastard." Remus said he felt an inner beast was wanting to come out and brutally hurt Danny.
He felt hot and he was glaring so hard at Danny he could hardly see, which was not like Remus. He was normally a calm guy, and let things roll off his back; but for some reason he was fighting this, he was having trouble letting this go.
He was mad at Sienna for lying to him, he was mad at Danny for even existing he was mad at himself for believing Sienna liked him.
Sienna was finding it easy to talk to Danny, it was a lot easier to talk to Danny, he was a fun guy, not to mention cute and intelligent, she sighed happily, "Danny," She said feeling she should try and ask him.
"Hmm?" He asked as they continued to walk down the hall, he looked down at her.
"I was wondering, has anyone asked you to Hogsmead?" She asked curiously, looking straight ahead.
"Nope." He said matter of factly.
Sienna nodded, "Well, I was wondering if, maybe you'd like to go with me?" She asked nervously.
He was silent for a while, Sienna was so scared to look up, she didn't see the smile grace his face, "Sure it'd be fun." He replied.
Sienna looked up happily, "Really? I thought I was gonna totally embarrass myself." She laughed lightly.
Remus heard the conversation and punched a wall, only to groan in pain, as it shot through his arm and became really warm. He then kicked the wall only to have that be in just as much pain. "Fine." He muttered, "I'll find someone else too." He said spitefully.
Sienna and Remus were both good at holding grudges and being spiteful sometimes. So this was more then likely going to be a long drawn out war that could end up in a huge argument. That could either end their friendship, or it could be a truce but no dating, or it could have it end up as them a couple.
Right now subconsciously they both liked each other still, but too stubborn to admit it.
Lily, James, Ana, and Sirius all knew what this was going to be like: hell. Pure hell. They would be competitive they would each find a significant other to show off. Which could hurt the person being used; they wouldn't want to be in the same room with each other.
Their friends would have to spend separate time with each of them, because if they would be together it would be a huge argument and a ruined evening.
Sirius and James had watched Remus from afar with Ana and Lily they all sighed, "This is going to be hell." Sirius commented.
"They are going to make it hard on all of us." Lily said.
Ana nodded, "Of course I'll be made to take Sienna's side or death will cometh quickly. And in all honesty Remus is being a jerk." She replied.
Sirius sighed, "Yeah, but she's being spiteful."
James raised an eyebrow, "So is Remus." He commented.
"I say they are both being big babies about it." Lily said.
Ana smirked, "I couldn't have said it better Lily-flower, couldn't have said it better." She said sighing.
They all dreaded what was to come.
