It's just you're Subconscious
Chapter Ten: Peace and imaginary Women.
"LILSY POOO!" Lily groaned as she sat in the library studying for her Potions assignment. She should have taken Sienna's and Ana's offer and studied in the girl's dorm room. Now she was stuck with an overly obnoxious James Potter who was screaming her name…right next to her.
She turned and glared making James flinch a little, "It's Lily, don't EVER call me Lilsy Poo, and why the BLOODY hell are you screaming at me; you're right next to me Potter!" She huffed returning to her book.
James only grinned and ruffled his hair, this annoyed Lily, he always did that around her; of course she hadn't been around him long enough to know James did that whether or not there was a girl in sight. "Can I call you Lily-Flower?" He asked.
"No Potter." She replied, feeling her blood boil with annoyance at his presence and his idiocy.
"What about Lily-Loo?" He asked happily.
"No James." She said, by using his first name, this usually meant she was pissed, and common sense would be to back off; sadly common sense was not something James Potter had most of the time.
"What about Lily-Billy?" He asked.
"Lets not and say you did." She replied trying really hard to concentrate on her homework.
"What about Silly-Lily?" Then he laughed, "Silly, Lily, Billy, Tilly, Nilly…" He laughed as if it was a funny joke.
"Potter 'Nilly' and 'Tilly' aren't EVEN WORDS." She said running her hands through her hair.
"Jeez don't need to be a Word Nazi. Oooh can I call you Orange Rose?" He asked.
Lily stared at her book for a moment, she was trying to comprehend why he would want to call her that, it was so… weird she didn't have a come back, "Orange Rose? Why?" She asked raising an eyebrow and finally looking up.
"Because you're spirit is fiery sort of in a way, and you're pretty like a Rose." He said smiling.
Lily looked back down, she hated to admit it, but she kind of liked it. Nooo. Lily, what's wrong with you, you're supposed to HATE EVERYTHING about POTTER.
"Eh… whatever." She said not really knowing what to say to it, she continued to study.
For a while Lily was starting to like James… a little till he opened his big mouth, "Oooh what does this button doooo?" He asked looking at the table, however there was nothing there.
"James, don't be stupid." She replied sighing, "Are you always this stupid? Do you ALWAYS say weird things like this?" She asked gathering her things going to make a run for the girl's dorm room. Heh, it was the only place he couldn't stalk her.
"Nah, only around you." He replied.
She tried to ignore the small flush around her cheeks, "Uh huh, well see you later James." She said grabbing her stuff and walking away.
"Bye Orange Rose!" He yelled waving at her jovially. She walked even faster he seemed to be the only boy that got her that nervous and wordless, unless she was really pissed.
Maybe James wasn't too bad.
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"TELL HER I'M NOT TALKING TO HER." Remus Lupin said looking at Ana and Sirius who were ready to scream.
"TELL HIM THAT'S NOT MATURE!" Sienna Costello said looking at Ana who was rubbing her temples.
"I'M TELLING YOU ALL I'M NOT A BLOODY OWL, oh hi Lily how was studying?" Ana said glaring at Remus and Sienna.
Lily raised an eyebrow, "Fine, I'm going to bed." She said walking up the stairs in a rush.
"LILY. Come on, we've had to deal with these two all night." Sirius whined at her.
Lily only ignored him as she raced up the steps, Ana close behind, Sienna got in right behind Ana, Lily and Ana both stared at Sienna who looked up, "What?" She asked taking her shoes off.
"Remus and you, that's what!" Ana replied crossing her arms.
"Fine, I'll deal with it on my own, I'm still not talking to him." Sienna said sighing.
"Why?" Lily asked.
"I told you, would you want to be with someone who didn't trust you?" Sienna asked.
"No…" Lily trailed off, "Is it because he's a werewolf?" Lily asked as Ana had finally confided in her a few nights ago, although she made Lily promise not to tell the Marauders. Ana was more loyal to Lily then the Marauders, besides she couldn't hold it in anymore.
"No, well…" Sienna said trailing off.
"Come on, you said you weren't prejudice!" Ana said glaring, placing her hands on her hips.
"I'm not, but I read up on werewolves recently…" Sienna said cryptically slowly taking her clothes off, and quickly putting her Pajama's on; she whipped open her bed curtain again once she was done.
Ana looked at her and said, "And?" She asked, wanting Sienna to continue on with what she read.
"Well, even in human form a person who is a werewolf can be set off. For instance, they maybe a nice person but if something angers them well… the 'werewolf' can come out in them. I'd be lying if I said that didn't scare me." Sienna replied looking at Lily and Ana.
Ana sighed, "Yeah, I guess that would scare me too." She admitted.
Sienna nodded, "I found out about it before we got into the fight, and I was okay; because Remus never got upset or at least, not that I knew of. So when we got in that fight, I saw his eyes, they were just… scary looking. It scared me that's why I was so quick to go off with Danny." Sienna said rubbing her face wryly.
Ana sat down on Sienna's bed next to her, Lily on the other side, "Do you love him?" Lily asked, looking at her.
"I'm not sure… I'm beginning to think it was just a mere crush." Sienna said truthfully, "I mean in all honesty we are two different people…very different people."
Ana nodded, "Okay, do you feel upset that you can't go out with him, or that you'll never be friends with him again?" She asked.
Sienna thought about it for a while, "That I won't be friends with him again… I mean I didn't even get my first date with him… but Lycanthropy is not something to joke around about… it's serious. I've been really digging up on it lately." Sienna said.
"I supposed you're right…" Lily replied, "Well, you gotta choose what you want to do. Because you can't string Danny along if you still want to go out with Remus. You can't lead Danny on, that could really hurt him in the long run." Lily said wisely.
Sienna sighed, "I don't know what I want." She replied frustrated at the whole situation. "I look at Remus in a new light now."
The room was quiet for a while as the girls thought on things before Sienna piped up, "If I really have a great time with Danny and I feel chemistry, I'll see if he wants another date, and I'll choose Danny. In all honesty conversation flows better with Danny." Sienna commented.
Ana nodded, "Okay, well Hogsmead is in like two days, so on Friday we should really pick out our outfits." Ana said excitedly.
Sienna giggled, "Yeah, I'm thinking I might wear my blue jeans, since I hear it's suppose to be cold." Sienna said, which was true, it had been snowing that past few days now.
"Yeah I may were like leggings with a skirt over them." Lily said smiling, "I'm actually excited for this blind date." She replied.
Sienna grinned, "Yay! We are too!" Sienna said bouncing softly on her bed like a kid at Christmas.
Ana laughed, "Yep I sure am, I can't wait to see what you think." Ana grinned.
Lily sighed, "I just hope he's not annoying or anything." Lily replied.
Sienna and Ana looked at each other and burst into fits of laughter at Lily's comment. Lily looked at her friends feeling a little afraid now, "What are you two laughing at?" She asked.
Ana and Sienna both straightened up and smiled innocently, "Oh nothing, time for bed!" Sienna said pushing both her friends off her bed and closing the curtains laughing.
"Thanks a lot!" Ana laughed getting up with Lily, they both got into their respective beds and soon all three girls were in a dreamless slumber.
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"Is she dead?"
"How should I know?"
"You're dads a Muggle Doctor!"
"And? Does that mean I should know everything about Muggle Medicine?"
"Yes, yes it does."
"No, you're being stupid!"
"Is she dead?"
"You asked that already, poke her and find out."
"You."
"No, I don't want to, you know how she can be! Let the record show," Sienna began smirking.
"Oh God, let the record show…"
"That in the summer of 75' you walked over to wake her up, you poked her in the side she flew up, grabbed you're hair, twisted you around; tackled you to the ground and sat on you're back, till she realized it was you." Sienna said looking at the peaceful looking Lily Evans.
Ana sighed, "I suppose you're right, but I we gotta go! McGonagall is gonna have our hide isn't she?" Ana said gloomily.
"No, see, she's gonna have us over for dinner." Sienna said sarcastically.
Ana huffed, "There was no need to be sarcastic!"
"Oh, there was." Sienna replied as they continued to stare at Lily trying to find out a way to wake her up.
"I know!" Ana said happily, she walked into the bathroom, she got some toilet paper. She then waked back out and kneeled in front of Lily she twirled the toilet paper into thin straight lines; then she took both pieces and shoved them up both of Lily's nostrils.
Sienna and Ana both stood up and waited and waited, and soon, Lily flew up, "EH! CAN'T BREATHE!" She said pulling the toilet paper out glaring at Sienna and Ana who were both trying to hold back their laughter.
"Heh, we got revenge for all those times you woke us up, in one of you're crazed hyper moods." Sienna said laughing.
"We should have thought to stupefy her." Ana said joining in the laughter.
Lily huffed, "You two are mean!" She said stomping buy, Ana and Sienna continued to laugh as Lily quickly took a shower.
Unusually both Ana and Sienna had been up early they had dressed and even had time to pick out cool hair styles and paint their nails. Ana had hers in a cool twirl bun that was held in by magic.
Sienna chose a pony-tail that was held in by magic, no painful hair pieces to hold it in.
Both Sienna and Ana decided to wait for Lily to come out, before going down to the common room.
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"Oh yeah, I might as well kiss heaven goodbye because it's gotta be a sin to look this sexy!" Sirius said examining himself in a mirror down in the common room.
James was rolling his eyes while playing Wizards Chess with an unusually happier Remus, it seemed he had forgotten about Sienna.
"Padfoot you're stuck on yourself." James said.
"Nah, I'm just practicing for Hogsmead on Saturday!" He said happily smoothing out his hair. He decided he didn't like that so he fluffed it up to look slightly like James.
Although when James did it, it was just… James. When Sirius did it, he looked like a bad boy. He turned and looked to his left, turned and looked to his right, both times in the mirror. "Prongs which do you think is my good side?" He asked seriously.
James sighed, "Neither you arrogant prat." He replied.
"Hey, looks whose talking, Mr. "Lily just loves the wild sexy look!" Psh." Sirius said rolling his eyes. He did a turn and then said, "Oh I'm sorry girl I forgot to write you let me make it up." He said weirdly and then wrapped his arms around himself as if he was making out with himself or an imaginary woman.
At this time Ana, Sienna and Lily chose to come down, Sirius was still making out with himself, "Heh…Hah…HAHAHA!" Sienna said looking at Sirius who stopped turned around and blushed.
"Oh dear God, I'm going to Hogsmead with a guy who kisses imaginary chicks." Ana said looking slightly amused.
"Er…um… well I was uh." He said trying to find a reason why he was making a complete idiot out of himself.
"Sirius there is no way to talk yourself out of this one!" Lily laughed sitting on the couch.
James laughed, "Said he was practicing." James said as Remus won the game, Sienna sat down on the couch happily, "JAMESY-POO!" She said hyperactively grabbing his arm and hugging it and then bouncing up and down.
James raised an eyebrow and then said, "SIENNA-POO!" And then hugged her equally as tight bouncing up and down.
Lily sighed and shook her head, "They are like two peas in a pod." She said looking at the two crazed friends in their hugging frenzy.
Ana smirked, "Losers." She laughed.
Even Remus was smirking a little as the two stood on the couch, grabbed hands and started jumping up and down.
"ALRIGHT CHILDREN. Time for Breakfast." Ana said motherly.
"Yes Mother!" They all laughed as Ana scowled.
"You people are a handful, I really feel bad for you're mothers!"
"Heh," Sienna said laughing at Ana, "Why do you think she shipped me off to Hogwarts?" She laughed.
Ana smirked, "You have a point, four words I rarely say." She laughed, they all walked down the halls towards the Great Hall. They were all famished. Sirius was still messing around with his hair, Lily was chatting with Ana and Sienna was talking with James.
Both of them were obsessed with Quidditch, Remus was staring at Sienna, he walked over, "Can I talk to you?" He asked.
Sienna raised an eyebrow, and parted with her friends, Ana and Lily gave her glances hoping she'd do the right thing, "What do you want?" Sienna asked.
"Well, I think we need to patch the friendship up, besides James and Sirius were really pissed at me last night."
"Yea, we do, and I talked with my friends last night." Sienna stated, she wasn't cold, but she wasn't smiling much either.
"Oh?" He said.
"Yes, I'm still going to go to Hogsmead with Danny." Sienna replied.
"Oh…" Remus said.
"I like you Remus, as a friend right now. You had no right to get jealous. Not only that, but you scared me, and I've been reading up on Lycanthropy…" Sienna replied.
Remus frowned, "So it is me being a werewolf?" He asked.
"No… well sort of, I like you, but there are some dangerous things to take into account Remus," Sienna said, "It says even in human form ones 'werewolf' can come out. That's scary, I'm not sure I can…really handle that." Sienna said.
"Oh…" Remus said looking crestfallen.
"I'm not saying we can't ever date, but right now, no. I'm giving it a chance with Danny."
"Sienna I'm not a violent person." Remus said in his defense.
"Well, in the library you should have seen the murderous look in you're eyes…can't stop you're instinct…" Sienna replied, "It's not like we can't be friends. It's hard in a relationship with this sort of thing." Sienna said trying to be kind.
Remus sighed and nodded, "I suppose you're right…I can be compassionate you know." Remus still looked really upset.
It made Sienna feel horrible she was breaking his heart, because in her heart; she still liked him a lot, but she felt for some reason this was the right thing to do, "I know you can, and you're the best guy friend a girl could have… I just think we should see other people and see how it goes." Sienna said smiling.
(Flashback 5th Year)
Quidditch Pitch is so damn cold. Sienna thought shivering as she watched James zoom around on his broom, along with the other Chasers. She felt something being draped over her. She looked up and saw Remus draping his coat over her.
"Uh… Remus, why the hell are you doing this?"
"Because." He had stated.
"Because why?"
"Because."
"Because isn't an answer."
"It is, it's just not the answer you want to hear." He had laughed.
Sienna laughed, "What's you're point?" She asked as Remus said down and put a scarf around her too.
Soon they heard, "THAT'S MY SAYING!" It was Ana who was glaring playfully at Sienna.
She looked over at Remus and smiled, "Thanks," She had blushed, "It's cold out." Remus smiled back, and for the first time she felt her heart pace quicken.
(End Flashback)
"How 'bout we go to breakfast?" She asked smiling at him remembering the memory, he smiled back, she extended her arm, "Escort a friend?" She asked in a posh British Accent.
"But of course." He laughed in an equally posh accent, taking her arm as they walked to breakfast.
When they arrived their friends raised eyebrows at the pair but said nothing, the owls flew in and Sienna realized she hadn't written back to her family, so she decided this morning was a good time; since she was in a good mood.
She had three letters fall into her empty plate, she picked them up and opened the first.
Dear Sienna,
Have you forgotten you're Mother? Tsk. Tsk. How is it going? Getting good grades? I hope you'll come home for Christmas again, bring you're friends. It's only a few months away so it will give you time to think. Boring as ever here!
Love,
Mum.
Sienna laughed and wrote a quick reply back, she borrowed a quill from Lily and got to writing.
Dear Mum,
I haven't forgotten about you! Been busy! It's going great, so far I'm doing good! I've got a date to Hogsmead which is exciting! I'll think about it and talk to my friends, but since we visit my house every year, I'm sure we will. Will send my answer by the first of December!
Love,
Sienna
Sienna then opened another letter, it was tough to open as the person had really taped the letter closed it was from her father.
Hey Sweetheart,
How are you doing? Things are going pretty good here! I had a patient, remember Mrs. Garvey? She came in and was wondering about you!
Love always,
Papa
Sienna smiled and quickly wrote another letter, this time to her Father she grabbed a piece of paper from her notebook and wrote.
Dear Pappy,
I'm doing great, getting good grades, going to Hogsmead Saturday! That's always fun. Yes, I remember Mrs. Garvey! Does she still have all those birds? I always liked Baby, she was such a cute Parrot.
Love always,
Sienna
Sienna then started on opening the other letter, Ana was busy writing back to her Mum and Sirius was trying to steal her bacon, Ana smacked his hand and glared, "Just because you don't have letters doesn't mean you can steal MY bacon." She said playfully.
Sienna laughed and opened the letter.
Sienna-
Carlos here, what is up? When was the last time we talked girl? Oh I don't know, FOREVER since we have? Thought you'd like to hear from you're best friend, I'm in France right now, Dad's been traveling a lot, might not be here for long. How 'bout them Beatle's though! Last time we went to a concert it got wild. Heh, I'm not big on the letter thing, you Witches and Wizards need to learn how to use the phone, anywhoo; is this a good pick up line? "Girl if there is anyone prettier then you, I hope God kept her for himself!" Heh, it's amazing isn't it?
Later,
Carlos
Sienna was grinning ear to ear, Carlos was her insane Mexican friend who sometimes came off as gay when he imitated women.
She grabbed her quill happily, and grabbed some more paper, she hadn't talked to Carlos in a long time his Dad was always moving around with his job and all so sometimes it proved hard to keep in contact.
She started to write as she put a piece of bacon in her mouth.
Carlos-
What is up? A whole lot! Argh this magic thing can be tough! I really hate History of Magic, of course I always hated Muggle History too, but that's beside the point. We haven't talked in forever I know, it's hard to keep up with you're moving; stay in one spot! However my Owl will know where to deliver this; it's just one of the perks of being a Witch. France sounds like fun! Yeah! I haven't had a chance to listen to any of their new albums sadly, electronics don't work at Hogwarts. Telephones my friend Sirius thought they were called, "Phellyphones" Of course he can be a dork. And no that is not a good pick up line Carlos, pick up lines are a turn off, just be yourself; so no, not amazing.
Later,
Sienna
Sienna finished writing and paid the owl, he took the three letters she wrote and flew off with them most of breakfast was spent with her writing letters, so she had to quickly eat.
The rest of the day was just as rushed by the time night came, Sienna had never been more thankful for a bed.
A/n: I am trying to be realistic about Remus' Lycanthropy, I'll try and update soon all, hope you enjoyed.
