It's just you're Subconscious

Authors Note: Sorry for the short update, the next few chapters will get more interesting, and maybe a little more humorous.


Chapter Eighteen: Procrastination, Musing, and Elladan.

Weeks passed by quickly for Sienna, Remus and she had decided to try and take it slow, much to Sirius' disappointment. He seemed to have an obsession with Remus and Sienna 'taking it to the next level'. Sienna would simply point out that he was being a very perverted man. He seemed to swell with pride at this statement, making Ana give him some smart remark on the lines of, "Oh, that's something to be proud of." Things were going pretty good for the group, save for Sienna's grades slacking in History of Magic. Remus was forced to help her, since Professor Binns was loosing patience with her bad grades; it was mostly because Sienna didn't care, even though she knew she should. She still had no clue as to why she would take such a boring and difficult class.

When the second week of December came, Professor McGonagall came and took the names of the students who would be staying over the Christmas Holidays. Sienna, Remus, Ana, Lily, James, and Sirius were going home. Peter decided to stay behind at Hogwarts for some strange reason. Nevertheless Sienna was excited; she would be spending her holidays at home with her family and friends. Last year Sienna was over at James' house and they all got caught up in a snowball fight.

Finally the week came, to where they would leave Hogwarts till January 1st came, when terms would start again. Sirius, as usual, was bouncing off the walls, and asking if James was packed yet; Sirius seemed to really enjoy staying at the Potters. Ana on several occasions had to snog him, just to shut him up. However, after a while, the rest of the group was getting sick at the public display of affection…constantly. Sienna started to believe that Sirius did this, just to get snogged.

Kat the Slytherin girl gave Sienna the address to where the Christmas party would be held. Sirius had been a bit skeptical at going to a Slytherin's house, but in the end the rest of them convinced him to go. After Lily convinced James it would be okay, that they go.

Finally the day was there, they would be leaving. Was Sienna ready? No, she hadn't even begun packing, she was the queen of procrastination, and Ana had always told her one of these times; it would get in her trouble. Sienna flew out of bed, looking around frantically; Lily was already up packing a few last minute things. She looked up to see Sienna and she smiled with amusement, "Better start packing, or we'll leave without you." She teased.

This thought through Sienna into a panic attack, she started breathing raggedly, and making stupid mistakes; she whipped open the bathroom door and looked at all the things she needed to pack. She stood there for a moment frantically, as if her mind couldn't comprehend what she was supposed to be doing. Finally it seemed to click, and she scooped all her things into her arms, dropping things on the way to her trunk.

Cursing she turned around and started picking up all the items she had dropped, insulting each of them, as if they had caused her to be so lazy and put packing off at the last possible moment. Once she got all her bathroom supplies in her trunk (very sloppily, might I add), she started going though her nightstand drawer and small other drawers she had put things in. Ana ended up having to calm her down and talk her through it, as she was ready to pull her hair out; in her frenzy.

Finally, she brushed through her hair, and dressed quickly before putting everything else in her trunk and closing it. Once it was closed she heaved a huge sigh, rubbed her face wearily and threw herself down on to the drunk trying to calm her breathing. Ana raised an eyebrow, "If you wouldn't procrastinate, you wouldn't end up in these silly messes." Ana said laughing.

Lily nodded, "You've done this every year, yet you never learn." She teased, "Remember, last year? You were hopping around in Entrance Hall putting on you're sweater and shoes, and combing through you hair, in which you made me hold you're brush in my purse, because it was too late, to put it in you're trunk." She said.

Sienna grinned, "Well, I've improved! I won't be doing, no hopping in the Entrance Hall." She laughed as Ana and Lily shook their heads, sighing exasperatedly.

It was about fifteen minutes before they had to leave, so they hung out in the Common Room for a few minutes, letting Sienna catch her breath. She was in one of her hyper moods, and musing to herself about things.

For some reason she imagined she had razor sharp claws, that came in handy for slicing fruits, and that she went into a fruits slicing frenzy. She also mused that those claws could be used for kinky-ish reasons as well. She also found that they might be useful for slicing up, a girls ex-boyfriends clothing, in revenge for him cheating on her with some airhead bimbo. She giggled to herself; actually she giggled out loud getting strange looks from her friends.

"What on earth, are you laughing about?" Lily asked.

Ana shuddered, "Not sure I wanna know." She said raising an eyebrow.

Happy Hotel? Yes, only one today. Sienna Costello, here for slightly demented and weird musings, lock her up and put a straight jacket on her. Sienna thought again giggling.

Lily looked up again from filing her nails, "What are you smoking?" She asked, slightly amused at her friends random bouts of laughter.

Sienna shook her head, "Just musing to myself." She replied.

Ana sighed, "Now, I KNOW, I don't want to know." She said standing up and grabbing her coat, putting it on. She looked at her watch and saw they still had a few minutes to sit and do nothing.

Sienna was back to musing to herself, she wondered if those claws could be retractable, maybe she'd have pointy ears too, just because it sounded cool. Of course people might think she was some demented deformed human being, she crossed out the pointy ears. She then mused about pirates, yeah, she'd be a Muggle-Born/Witch/Pirate type person, and she'd use her amazing Witch-y powers to raid, pillage, plunder and otherwise pilfer her weasely black guts out. She would then find some debonair pirate man, to pillage and plunder with her, and she'd sweep him off his feet, with her retractable, blue painted finger nail claw type things. She then giggled to herself, this time not out loud.

Sometimes her musings got out of control and way… out there. Then Sienna's mind drifted to the Lord of the Rings. Her favorite character? Well, she had many, Elladan being her first favorite. She imagined him as some tall hot sexy debonair…elf. Except she was sure she would freak him out with her crazy ways, Remus seemed to be the only one that could handle the craziness that was Sienna.

Yes she'd be an elleth with dark hair, and she'd meet Elladan and they'd fall madly in love, and he'd show her…his sword. She'd meet Glorfindel, and she'd teach him how to do the Irish jig. She laughed out loud at the stupidity of that thought. The unrealistic points in that thought, made her laugh even harder. It was ridiculous, and idiotic. However, most of her musings were only to amuse herself, she was never trying to be realistic.

Ana huffed, "What the hell are you laughing about? I swear, something is eating at you're brain." She said rolling her eyes.

Sienna continued to giggle, "Elladan, elleth, claws, fruits, airhead bimbo!" She choked out, lying across her trunk, laughing herself to tears. What the heck was wrong with her anyway? Was she giddy to go home? Or was she just in one of her hyper moods.

Note to self: Hide all sugar from Sienna. Lily thought, watching her friend trying to regain control of herself.

Sienna soon calmed herself, wiping tears from her eyes as Sirius barreled in at mach one, he stopped in front of the red squishy arm chair, staring down at Ana, he was in a hyper mood like Sienna.

Sienna stood up and yelled, "WE GET TO GO HOME! WOOT!" She said Sirius looked over at her, a huge grin plastered on his face.

He ran over to her and took his hands in hers, as they began jumping up and down screaming, "YAY!" James feeling left out bolted over and soon all three of them were joined by hands, jumping up and down screaming, "YAY!" It was quite an immature moment for the three of them, I assure you.

Remus who was sitting on the armrest of the couch, stared at the three and shook his head, "I'm surrounded my crazies." He said.

Sienna stopped and turned towards him grinning, she wrapped her arms around him and kissed him fully on the lips, "Aw, but you like us crazies right, Remus?" She asked, pulling away.

Remus looked slightly dazed, "Of course." He replied, too dazed to say anything more coherent then that.

Sirius raised an eyebrow, as Lily stood up and said, "Well, we should get going. The Hogwarts Express is nearly here." She said. Everyone nodded, and Sienna grabbed her trunk. Sirius grabbed his and Ana's and dragged them down the halls like it was nothing. Sienna shook her head and wondered how he did it; most of those trunks were really heavy.

Sienna and Remus were lagging behind, Sienna all of a sudden felt extremely nervous, her parents had no clue she was dating Remus. Her Father hated the thought that she would date. Supposedly, no man was good enough for her.

She found this extremely unfair. She decided that once, they got onto the Hogwarts Express, her and Remus would find an empty compartment, so she could talk to him about it. He looked over at her, as they walked and noticed the anxiety on her face.

He took her hand and gripped it, "Are you alright?" She asked looking at her.

Sienna turned and looked up at him, she never noticed how tall Remus was, and of course Sienna was an extremely short person. She smiled weakly, "Yeah, look, I wanna talk to you about something, when we got on the train; so we'll need to find an empty compartment." She said.

Remus nodded, "Okay." He replied.

"Oy, Moony, can you stop staring at her for one moment, so we can go?" Sirius asked smirking.

Remus growled, "Why, I made friends with those idiots, I'll never know." He said, as they both picked up their pace.

Sienna shrugged, "Even in all their idiocy they're likeable. You can't help but like the dorks." She replied looking up at Remus and grinning.

Remus chuckled, "Yes, and they are extremely loyal to those they befriend, but still they put their friends through so much; with all their insane ways." He said. "One year, Sirius wanted to see how many Every Flavored Beans he could stick up his nose." He shook his head.

Sienna raised an eyebrow, "Are you serious how many did he get up his nose?"

"But of course, he got like 20, Madame Pomfrey had to do something to get them out; Sirius would never tell us what." He laughed.

Sienna giggled as they reached the group, they walked aways outside, before reaching the Hogwarts Express. There were students all around, on the platform. Some were happily talking, some had scowls on their faces and others just wanted to hurry up and get on the train.

Ana and Sirius were in the middle of a serious snog session even Lily and James were, so Remus and Sienna took it upon themselves to go ahead. Sienna, knowing that the rest would hunt them out, went over to Ana.

She tapped her on the shoulder, and Ana detached herself from Sirius for a few seconds so Sienna could say, "I'm gonna go talk to Remus about something, so don't come look for us." Sienna said, not really thinking about how that sounded.

Sirius grinned, "If you wanted privacy to snog, all you had to do was ask." He laughed along with Ana.

"Shove it, you two." Sienna snapped, glaring at Sirius and his implications, she turned on her heel and stomped towards Remus.

He raised an eyebrow, "He said something dirty didn't, he?" He asked referring to Sirius.

Sienna grabbed Remus' arm and dragged him inside the train and said, "Of course, this is Sirius Black we're talking about here." She replied.

She heard Remus chuckle a little, as they squeezed past students, to find an empty compartment, they didn't find one for at least two minutes, and when they did it was all the way in the back of the train. Which was perfectly fine for Sienna, finally arriving at said compartment, she opened it up, pulled on Remus' arm and pulled him in; shutting the door.

He was slightly surprised; she turned around to see his clothes all ruffled and his hair all messy. Damn, he's sexy. She thought looking him over.

For the first time she saw Remus smirk at little, "Are you done staring?" He asked, she looked up and decided he should smirk more often, it looked hot on him.

"Er, yeah," She blushed, motioning for him to sit down, which he did across from her, straightening himself out, much to Sienna's disappointment.

He leaned forward and rested his elbows on his legs and said, "What's up?" He asked.

"Well, as you know, I'm crazy," She began.

"Duh." He teased.

"Shut up." She glared.

"No." He laughed.

Sienna huffed a little and continued, "The same goes for my family, and they're VERY crazy. My Father is an overprotective…well, father. And when he finds out you and I are dating, heh, he might ask you some very personal questions." She said.

Remus raised an eyebrow, "Ah, I'll handle it."

Sienna raised an eyebrow, "I'm telling you Remus! They're crazy!" She said failing her arms about.

Remus chuckled again, "Ah can't be any worse then you." He teased.

Sienna crossed her arms, "I am not as bad as them!" She replied pouting at Remus.

He laughed again, so she hit him on the head, however he seemed to find this amusing, which caused her to hit him across his chest, very firm chest, if I may say. She thought, as he again laughed. "And what is so funny?" She asked.

"You." He replied.

"How am I funny?" Sienna asked.

"In many ways, Sienna." He laughed.

"Stop laughing." She commanded this only caused him to raise his eyebrow and lean back against the seat and laugh harder.

She glared, "I command thee to stop." She said looking out the window noticing the train was already on its way back to London, for the Christmas Holidays.

Remus rose an eyebrow grinning at her, "And what if I don't?" He asked challenging her.

Sienna stopped and thought about it for a moment, what could she do to stop him from laughing at her? She placed an index finger to her chin, and then a smirk spread across her face.

Remus looked a little afraid, "What are you thinking?" He asked leaning back a little.

She grinned and leaned forward, she grabbed the collar of his tan jacket he had on, and pulled him forward on top of her and kissed him, with all the passion she had, which was a big mistake, because Sienna had no self control whatsoever.

Remus braced his hands on either side of Sienna's hip, he was still standing and bent over her, at first he was surprised and didn't kiss back; but once it sunk in, at what she had done he kissed her back passionately.

Even though they both said they wouldn't kiss for a while, due to their problems. That was just thrown out the proverbial window.

Remus felt the beast inside him purring, he kissed her even more passionately, making her whimper a little. However, the need for air, made them break apart. Sienna was breathing heavily, her arms were around his neck, and he noticed how dark her eyes looked, they weren't their normal bright color. He was pretty sure his were looking dark too; she pulled him into another passionate kiss, this time letting her hands roam.

As bad as he wanted her to continue, he felt this needed to stop, he pulled away making her whimper a little, "Sienna…" He whispered trying to pull away from her.

She growled, "Damn it Remus, for once don't use you're head." She said, ignoring the ridiculousness of that statement.

He chuckled a little, "Anyone could walk in on us." He said huskily, trying to pull away from her grip.

She let him go, and he sat across from her, this time not bothering to straighten out his ruffled clothing. She glared and stood up walking over to him, (which wasn't a long walk), and pinned him against the seat and kissed him again.

He growled into her mouth, making it rumble against her chest, since she had herself pressed up against him. He pulled away again, and took her head in his hands, "Not here." He said more commandingly.

He let go of her and she leaned her head against he shoulder and said, "Then, where?" She asked.

She felt him chuckle, "Am I that desirable?" He asked.

Sienna lifted her head and said, "Hell yeah," she leaned in and kissed him again, she was driving him crazy, he knew this really needed to stop, but the more she kissed him the more he was feeling like he didn't want it to stop. His arms were wrapped loosely around her waist, as she trailed kisses down his jaw line.

"Sienna," This time he grabbed both her wrists and pulled her back, "No." She looked annoyed at him. "Trust me, it's not because I don't want to." He whispered.

She sat down next to him and leaned against his shoulder, "I can't stand these feelings Remus, and they drive me insane." She whispered.

He sighed leaning his head against hers, "I know…" he then chuckled a little, "I always thought I would be the one commanding to go further," He said looking down at Sienna.

She raised an eyebrow, "What can I say? I'm a demanding woman, when I want something really bad." She replied.

He chuckled a little, and they stayed like that for a little while, which left Sienna to muse again. She mused about Elladan and Remus fighting for her love. Remus with his awesome wand and Elladan with a beautiful bow and arrow, and it would be pouring rain out making them both look majorly sexy and wet. Instead of using weapons, they would be fighting over Sienna by rolling around in the mud, making them look dirty. Sienna had a dazed expression on her face, she had weird musings, and they all seemed to center on her, or at least please or amuse her in some way.

Remus looked down seeing this dazed expression, "What are you thinking about?" He asked, curious.

She looked up and said, "You and Elladan were mud wrestling." She in a complete serious tone, making him somewhat… afraid… confused?

He raised an eyebrow at her, "Who the heck is Elladan, and why am I mud wrestling with him?" He asked somewhat afraid.

"He's an elf in The Lord of the Rings. Though there is no picture of him, I imagine him to be quite sexy, and you were mud wrestling for me."

"I'm scared." Remus replied.

Sienna sat up and pouted at him, "What? A guy can fantasize about having two women, but a girl can't fantasize about two men fighting over her, looking extremely hot and dirty?" She asked.

Remus shook his head, "I have never fantasized about having two women, you must have me confused with Sirius, and I don't even wanna know where you come up with these fantasies." He said.

Sienna shrugged, "Bored, nothing to do, and I feel like being the center of attention. I tend to have a huge imagination." She replied.

Remus smirked, "No kidding." He laughed.

"Are you saying you've never fantasized about something, or someone?" She asked cheekily, leaning towards him.

"Of course, not!" He replied appalled.

"Oh come on, even Lily's fantasized! Yeah, I think it involved q-tips." Sienna said giggling remembering the whole conversation.

Remus looked down, "I don't want to know." He said, as Sienna made herself comfortable sitting in his lap.

"Aren't you the least bit curious?" She asked, raising an eyebrow at him.

He scoffed, "Of course not, why on earth, would I be?" He asked.

Sienna shrugged, as she felt Remus' arms wrap around her, "You're a male?" She offered, leaning against his shoulder playing with the zipper on his jacket. It was fun. It went up and down and made a funny zippy noise, making Sienna laugh.

"That's a stereotype; do you really intend to stereotype you're boyfriend?" He asked, looking down grabbing her hand from zipping his jacket up again.

She then amused herself by playing with his hair, and ruffling it up, "Of course not, and as you're girlfriend, I must tell you, my deep dark secret." She grinned.

He sighed, "Is this going to scar me for life?" He asked.

Sienna shook her head; "I'm having a secret love affair…" she trailed off, grinning a little, as she resumed laying her head on his shoulder and playing with his zipper. She liked it, it was all zippy like.

He raised an eyebrow, "Really?" He asked.

"Yep." She replied.

"With who?" He asked.

"You're Jacket." She replied and then burst into fits of giggles against his chest, wrapping her arms around his waist, trying to steady herself. She almost fell off his lap, but he had quick reflexes and grabbed her and held her tightly, this time so she wouldn't fall off.

He shook his head, "Sienna, are you ever serious?" He asked.

"No, does it look like I have black hair? Am I attached at the mouth, to Ana?" She asked laughing.

He glared and Sienna sighed, "Of course I am." She said running her fingers across his lips, still lying against his shoulder.

He kissed her fingertips making her giggle, he looked down with a raised eyebrow, "What?" He asked.

"That tickles." She replied.

He sighed shaking his head, "You're insane." He laughed.

Sienna grinned, "I know, that's why I like you, you keep my balanced with you're sanity." She said.

It was silent again for a while, before she said, "Thanks for helping me with my History of Magic report." She sighed.

He kissed her on the forehead, "No problem, besides if I hadn't, you would have failed, and then you would have ranted at me; I would have felt immensely guilty. James and Sirius would say I was a pansy, half the school would be against me, because I was a pansy, and I would have gone into a life as recluse." He said.

Sienna lifted her head from his shoulder and raised an eyebrow, "That's a bit dramatic, don't you think?" She asked.

He grinned, "Aw, but you love me anyway." He said, running his hands through her hair. He was silent for a while and Sienna swore she was going to fall asleep. He was relaxing her. "You have puffy hair." He commented.

Sienna raised an eyebrow, "Is this a bad thing?" she asked as he continued to mess around with her hair. What guy did that? Hell, if she knew, but she certainly wasn't going to stop him. It was really relaxing.

"No." He replied, as she laid her head back on his shoulder, after a few moments of him running his hands through her hair, she was fast asleep.