It's Just Your Subconscious

Authors Note: Okay, I know it's been a while since an update, but I've really been busy, lazy and just… simply lazy. Anyway, this is a short filler chapter. Sorry for the shortness, enjoy nonetheless.

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, because if I did, I would not be writing this lame fan fiction, unless of course, I was the author, in disguise, trying to write a less then stellar fiction; but alas! I am simply an American Woman that has nothing better to do then write Fan Fiction in her spare time. Don't sue, because I have no money, and there is no money made in this.

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Chapter Nineteen: Remus Weed Whacker Lupin

Lily had always had this thing about the Hogwarts Express, she hated when it went across one of the bridges, she had this fear it was going to fall off the bridge, and they'd all die. Of course this bridge was high, and Lily had a fear of heights. She would never tell James this of course, because he would end up doing one of two things.

He could either go into his Hero-protective complex and be all over her for the rest of the train ride; (in which she would never admit she liked) and it would be a great effort to act as if she hated it.

Or he would end up teasing her about it for the rest of her life, and she'd probably end up murdering him, and she'd have to have her wand snapped, and the Ministry of Magic would be after her; and she'd have to go into hiding for the rest of her life to stay away from Dementor's. Either that or she'd be found, have her soul sucked out by a Dementor's Kiss, and be a lifeless being in a shell of a body spending the rest of her life in Azkaban.

She shuddered at the thought, and it would as always, be caused by James' incessant teasing, and her uncontrolled temper. Ana always said it was because she was a redhead, and she believed redhead's had tempers. Lily would always scowl at that stereotype, and tell her it wasn't true.

Lily, Ana, James, and Sirius sat in the compartment; James was staring out the window, while eating Chocolate Frogs. Ana was staring off into space, most likely daydreaming, and Sirius was bored out of his mind; and Remus and Sienna still had not come into the compartment with them.

Sirius being as bored as he was got an idea in his head to cure his boredom. He grinned widely, and Ana raised an eyebrow at this sudden jovial attitude. "What?" She asked somewhat afraid of the answer.

Sirius sometimes had odd cures for boredom. He stroked his imaginary goatee, "Sienna and Remus sure have been gone a while..." He trailed off. "I have my camera, and I bet they're in the middle of a serious snog session. I say we go in there and take a picture." He said grinning. Ana did think it was a fun idea, however the prospect of Sienna killing her, did not amuse her in the least. Sirius was giddy as he stood up and went for his camera, "This is gonna be good." He said grabbing it, and sliding the compartment door open. "Bwuahahaha." He said, causing Ana to roll her eyes.

James and Lily perked up at this, Ana stayed sitting as James and Lily stood up, Ana pouted, "Are you gonna leave me here?" She asked, not sure she wanted to see what Remus and Sienna were doing.

Lily looked over at her friend and said, "Of course not," with that she grabbed Ana by the sleeve of her jacket and dragged her down the pathway as they checked every compartment for them. By the time they got to the last compartment Ana had given up on protesting and walked with them willingly.

She had to admit, she was curious as to what they would be doing in there for so long, and she actually missed Sienna's insanity, it had been way too quite and boring without her. They came to the last compartment and Sirius had a broad grin on his face.

He readied his camera and slowly slid the door open, to see Sienna on Remus' lap, laying her head on his shoulder asleep. Remus had his head lying back against the wall, and was asleep his one hand resting on the small of her back and the other resting on her lap as they slept.

Neither was aware of their prying friends, Ana was slightly amused; Lily thought it was adorable, and Sirius and James were grinning from ear to ear. Sirius lifted his camera, focused in on them, and snapped the picture.

The minute it clicked both Sienna and Remus jolted out of their slumber, and looked over sleepily at their friends. Sienna shifted a little trying to focus her eyes as Sirius snapped another picture. This seemed to wake Sienna up fully; she stood up and turned to glare at her friends. "Honestly, can no one get any rest around here?" She asked, sounding like a snobby know it all.

Remus yawned and looked over at Sirius and James, "Looks like, she wants to take that camera and beat you with it." Remus chortled standing up, behind a fuming Sienna.

James sighed, "Aw, Sienna-Poo, it was all in good fun." He said flashing a grin, and running a hand through his hair, ruffling it up.

Sirius nodded, "Right, and in like 5 years from now, you'll see this picture and laugh, having fond memories of it." He said slinging an arm around Ana's shoulder.

Ana rolled her eyes and pushed him off of her, "In 5 years, they'll probably be married, and that picture will be like, a symbol of when Remus courted her." Ana teased.

Sienna and Remus both flushed, as Lily laughed, "Awww, this picture will be lovely to look at for years to come." She said.

Remus rolled his eyes, "So, if Sirius and I were to take a picture of you and James making out, it would be a lovely picture to look at for years to come?" He asked.

Sienna grinned at the smart retort as Lily scowled, "Oh shut up." She replied, as she turned around, her red hair fanning out, as she did so, she then marched back to their compartment, dragging a laughing Ana along.

James sniggered, "Nice comeback Moony." He said patting him on the back, as Remus and Sienna came out of their compartment. Sienna led the way back to the compartment where Ana and Lily were, it was easy to find with Lily's ranting and Ana's sniggering and wise ass comments.

Sienna slid into the compartment just before Remus and sat down, across from Lily and commenced kicking Lily. Lily looked over with a raised eyebrow and kicked her back in the legs, making Sienna snigger. She always did like to egg Lily on; Lily then stretched her legs out and laid them on Sienna's lap.

Sienna pushed them off with a grunt and scooted away, as James took her place, he didn't push her legs off when she laid them on his lap, resting her head against the wall behind her. She sighed, James had a comfortable lap.

He seemed pleased to have her legs on his lap, as he laid back and closed his eyes; Ana was already asleep on Sirius' shoulder that left Remus and Sienna.

Since they already had a sort of nap, they weren't really tired, for about five minutes they sat in comfortable silence, while their friends rested. Sienna sighed heavily, "Have a middle name?" Sienna asked out of the blue.

Remus looked over at her with a raised eyebrow, "Yep."

Sienna started at him for a moment, "Well, what is it?" She asked poking him in the side.

He batted her hand away, "Well, you didn't ask, what it was, just if I had a middle name." He replied.

Sienna rolled her eyes, "But one would assume, that if one is asking another if they have a middle name, that the one asking, would also like to know what that middle name is." She rattled off.

Remus stared at her, "No, not always, you're question did not tell me that you wanted to know my middle name, so no; one could not assume that one would want to know that ones middle name." He replied.

Sienna sighed, "Since the person even asked if one had a middle name, they must want to know what it would be, one can safely assume that." She said.

Remus shook his head, "The only sure thing you can assume from the question, is that the person wants to know whether or not one has a middle name." He replied.

Sienna was silent for a while, "Why are we having this conversation?" She asked blinking at him slightly.

"Because, you assumed that one would assume that one would know that the other wanted to know the ones middle name." He said.

"Well, we wouldn't have been having the conversation if you had just told me, you're middle name. You could have said, "Yes, it's Weed whacker" or something." She replied randomly.

Remus gave her a weird look, "First off, we would have solved this already if you wouldn't have had to go into this whole middle name stuff. Secondly, WEED WHACKER? Who the heck has a middle name like that?" He asked.

Sienna shrugged, "Well, we could have saved on not having the conversation, if you had just told me, you're middle name in the first place, and I don't know, it was off the top of my head; I'm sure someone somewhere has a middle name like that." She replied.

Remus turned to Sienna and looked at her bemusedly, "You started it by asking if I had a middle name, and I doubt anyone has the middle name, 'weed whacker' no parent would give their child that kind of name." He laughed.

"Again Remus my dear, you could have just told me you're middle name and be done with it, but you didn't, and I don't know." She said thoughtfully, "Remus Weed Whacker Lupin." She grinned, "I like it." She giggled, "I now dub thee, Remus Weed Whacker Lupin." She said bursting into a fit of giggles.

Remus shook his head and sighed, "It's Remus John Lupin, for you're information." He informed her.

Sienna shrugged, "You're Remus Weed Whacker Lupin, to me." She said grinning and batting her eyelashes at him.

He sighed, "Why do I put up with you?" He asked.

Sienna put her index finger on her chin thoughtfully and said, "Because I'm beautiful, intelligent, funny, awesome, enchanting…"

"…modest, don't forget modest." Remus said dryly.

Sienna chose to ignore it, "Yeah, and modest." She grinned.

Remus growled, "That was sarcastic." He replied.

Sienna shook her head, "No, I meant what I said." She teased.

He gave her a look that said, 'don't play stupid', "You know what I meant." He said poking her on the side of her stomach.

She shrugged, "Maybe I did, maybe I didn't." She started flicking him on the forehead, and then laughing at the expression on his face, which was a mixture of amusement and annoyance.

"Again, why do I put up with you?" He replied rhetorically.

Sienna shrugged, "Because you're Remus." She replied.

He raised an eyebrow, "And what's that supposed to mean?" He asked.

Again Sienna shrugged, "That you give you're friends and awful lot of slack." She said making funny faces at the sleeping Sirius Black, it was amusing her.

He tugged on her arm to get her attention, "So, is that necessarily a bad thing?" He asked.

"Depends." Was her cryptic response.

He groaned, she could never give a straight answer at times, "Sienna, what the hell do you mean?" He said growing annoyed.

She sighed heavily, "For heaven's sakes Remus." She said turning around so she could sit on the seat crossed legged, "Sometimes you're a doormat, and other times you're extremely forgiving, and you don't get angry over things." She replied getting annoyed as well.

"That doesn't answer my question."

"It should." She replied messing around with the laces of Remus' shoes.

He batted her hands away, "But it doesn't." He said.

She huffed, "Okay, sometimes James and Sirius do wrong things, and when you were a prefect you let those things slide when you probably shouldn't have. You sort of let them walk all over you, and although James and Sirius like you a lot, they sort of take you for granted sometimes. Just my opinion…" She trailed off thinking of what to say next, Remus was having mixed feelings about this. "Other times you give slack when it's needed. It's really hard to explain, I'm not saying it's bad thing." She finished.

Remus stared at her and said, "Well, what are you saying?" He asked.

She huffed, "I don't know Remus, I think because you don't always have a lot of friends, you tend to cut them slack, in fear of loosing them. In all honesty, James and Sirius would never leave you, and nor would Ana, Lily and myself. I'm sure you know that, but the insecure side seems to have more power over you. I'm not saying change, but it is okay to tell James and Sirius when they are out of line." She finished.

Remus was silent for a moment, Sienna looked over at him, and instantly knew he was upset, but he would never tell her that, because Remus was Remus, and he didn't really get angry very often if at all. He usually kept it to himself.

She put an arm around him and laid her head on his shoulder, "That's just you though, and I like you the way you are. I'm just saying that, a lot of other people in my life don't put up with my annoying ways, but since you are the way you are, that's why you put up with me." She said.

Remus was silent but Sienna knew he was thinking it through, "So, are Sirius and James bad friends?" He asked.

Sienna looked up, "They're human, and like anyone they do things that are wrong. Sometimes I think they just automatically expect you to cover for them." She replied.

Remus sighed as if something else was bothering him, he was silent for a few moments before saying, "It's gonna be hard for me to get a job in the Wizarding World. I'll have nothing to offer you." He said.

Sienna sat up and frowned, "But why?" She asked, "There's nothing wrong with you." It wasn't that she ignorant to prejudice, to her, Remus was great and to her anyone would have trouble not liking him.

He looked over at her, "Because of… what I am." He replied softly.

Sienna huffed, "Well, that's not fair! Do you have to tell, them you know… that you're…" She looked around in fear someone might hear.

Remus sighed, "I have to tell them, I am. People usually don't like to hire someone like me, because it can cause me to be very sick, and well, they're prejudice." He replied.

Sienna shook her head, "How stupid, and what do you mean you have nothing to offer me?" she asked confused.

"I won't be able to support you well enough." He replied.

He looked over and expected her to be upset, but the expression on her face was impassive, "Oh well, I can get a job, so who cares? I don't." She said picking at her nails calmly.

He could not understand how on earth she wasn't worried, somehow this comforted him a little, "I'll never understand you or you're logic." He said laughing lightly.

Ana by this time was rousing out of her sleep, she pushed herself off of Sirius and yawned, "That's because she has no logic." She said.

Sienna scoffed and shook her head, even when Ana was half a sleep she had a wise crack to make. The rest of the trip to Kings Cross was spent with Ana and Sienna driving Remus insane while James, Sirius and Lily slept.

"What lazy bums." Sienna said as they neared Kings Cross, she was staring at the three of them. Sirius somehow ended up on the floor sleeping, Ana was resting her feet on his stomach along with Sienna. Lily's legs were now resting on James' shoulders and she was slumped down laying her head on the seats to rest. James was sitting up, slouched a little and his head was lying against her ankle.

Ana snorted, "Lily is going to have one hell of a kink in her neck, when she wakes up." She said.

Remus had gone back to sleep, the girls had made him sleepy with their incessant ramblings, so his head was lying against the window, and his feet was lying against Sirius' collarbone.

The train came to a stop soon after, and Ana and Sienna could hear compartment doors opening and students filing out of the train.

It was now time to wake up the lazy people. Ana took her feet and pushed them into Sirius' stomach lightly; she then took her toes and wiggled them across his stomach tickling him. He laughed a little, drool falling out of his mouth, down the side of his face.

Ana crinkled her nose slightly, "Gross." She said pushing on him again, he mumbled something about women and their feet, before he opened his eyes and looked around.

"Where the hell am I?" He asked dazed.

Ana shook her head, "You're on the Hogwarts Express." She replied.

Sirius yawned, "Oh, well, wake me when we get to Kings Cross." He said oblivious to the fact they were already at Kings Cross.

Sienna pinched the bridge of her nose to keep from laughing at his stupidity, and his dazed stupor.

Ana huffed, "We're already there, idiot." She said kicking him lightly.

Sirius whined, "Well, why didn't you tell me that in the first place?" He asked.

"Because, you asked where you were, and I told you that you were on the Hogwarts Express, you never asked me if we were at Kings Cross." She said matter of factly.

Sirius wiped the drool off his face and said, "Well, I asked where I was, Kings Cross is a place, so you could have told me, 'you're on the Hogwarts Express at Kings Cross.' Hogwarts Express is not a place." He replied.

Ana raised an eyebrow, "Yeah it is, I could have either told you, we were at Kings Cross, or at the Hogwarts Express." She said.

Sirius shook his head, and slowly stood up, "You could have saved us this stupid conversation if you had just said, we were ON the Hogwarts Express AT Kings Cross." He replied.

Ana shrugged, "I could have also said, that you were on the floor, that's on the Hogwarts Express, that's at Kings Cross, if you wanted me to be specific, but you never told me to be specific." She countered.

Sirius sighed, "One would assume, to tell the person that they were at Kings Cross. It's common sense." He said.

Ana sighed, "No, one would not assume that unless they were told to be specific, you did not tell me to do so, that's all that counts."

Sienna was amused by this small argument, Remus was now awake and watching this conversation take place and shaking his head, they could just shut up and go. At this rate, they would be here for hours.

Sirius put his hands on his hips, "No sugar, it doesn't count; because you're wrong. We wouldn't be having this conversation if you had just told me we were at Kings Cross in the first place."

Ana glared, "Don't call me sugar, it does count because I'm a woman, and women are better then men, and if you had not asked, "Why didn't you tell me that in the first place" we would already be out of this dumb train; but no you had to make that stupid statement, and you had to be right, just like always." She replied.

Sirius raised an eyebrow, "I don't always have to be right, you always have to be right." He said.

Ana grinned, "You're catching on, I am always right." She laughed standing up.

Sirius stood up with her, and pushed Lily's legs off of James, waking them both up, James and Lily glared at Sirius and Ana as they walked out continuing to fight.

"I was having a really good dream." Lily pouted.

Sienna shrugged as Remus said, "We could have left you on the train back to Hogwarts." He said standing up, grabbing Sienna's hand and leading her out.

Lily sighed and straightened herself out with James as they followed the rest of the group off of the train.

Once they were off, they walked through the barrier to Platforms Nine and Ten, where their families would be waiting for them. Ana and Sirius was making out before going through the barrier. Ana's Father had a thing for boys being with his 'baby girl', and her older sister Raven would be giving her hell about it, teasing and generally getting Ana flustered.

Sienna sighed, and followed suit with Remus, her Father would be like a hawk, and she wasn't sure that she would get a chance to kiss Remus over the holidays with her Father watching over her. Her Father had a thing with her being with boys. He always said no boy was good enough for her. So unfair. She thought to herself as Remus was caught off guard by her spontaneous kiss.

He kissed her back and pulled away, "What's that for?" he asked dazed.

"Well, not sure when we'll be able to kiss next, my Dad's probably gonna give you hell. So, if I never see you again, after you meet him, it's been nice making out with you; and knowing you Remus Weed Whacker Lupin." She grinned at him cheekily.

Remus shook his head, "You're really making me paranoid about you're Father." He laughed as they heard a bark of laughter.

They looked over to see Ana and Sirius doubled over in laughter, "Weed Whacker?" Sirius choked out.

Sienna glared and flipped him off, "Shove it Black, or go hump a pole." She said a little amused.

Remus shook his head, "I'll never live this one down, I'll forever be known as Weed Whacker." He said sighing at his girlfriend's insanity.

Sirius and Ana were still laughing as they all walked through the barrier where James and Lily were already standing and waiting for them with their families.

"What took you so long, did you get into a serious sno-"James was about to say snog session, but Lily cut him off, by kicking him in the shin.

Only Sienna's mum was there, most likely because her Father had patients to attend to, during the day. Sienna said goodbye to Remus and that she would see him tomorrow or so, after Remus had said hello to Mrs. Costello.

With that they parted ways, and Ana and Sienna were the only ones left standing at the train station with their families.

Ana's sister Raven was there grinning from ear to ear, after Sirius followed James and his family out of the train station.

"Aw, does my wittle baby sister have a boyfriend?" She cooed making Ana glare at her older sister.

"Shut up, Rave." She growled.

Raven sniggered, "No, I'm older and therefore I get to torture you, it's my job as an elder sister." She teased.

Ana grumbled, "I need a little sister to torture." She muttered as Sienna came up to say goodbye, even though they would probably see each other tomorrow.

"Hey, Raven." Sienna said smiling, Sienna and Raven got along pretty well for the most part, "Nice to see you." She said.

"Ditto." Raven grinned as Sienna turned to Ana, "Well, I'm sure I'll see you tomorrow, but anyway, I'll give you a hug." Sienna said and then latched onto Ana.

"Jeez, don't get emotional; we'll se each other tomorrow." She laughed a little, as Sienna waved goodbye and walked out of the Train Station with her Mother. Sienna had to admit it was nice to see her mother. It was also a bother; her Mum was a Muggle so she wouldn't really be able to tell her Mother much about what she had learned.

She had tried once, but that ended up in a huge mess, because her Mother had no clue as to what Sienna was talking about. They ended up spending the whole night in her room, on her bed as Sienna went over some things from one of her text books till her Mother understood it a little bit.

Sienna smiled a little, it was actually a little fun teaching her Mother about her world, they had sat up with hot chocolate that night during a blizzard as she explained things. Sienna sighed actually happy to be around Muggles, they were ignorant to her world and for a while she could live as ignorant as them and not think about her problems with Voldemort and Dreams till she went back.

She sighed happily; it was good to be home for a while.