I wish I could have put more story up last chapter but that was all I had finished and I was so tired from running around all day I couldn't even keep my eyes open to type more (I barely stayed awake long enough to upload what I did finish). I'm really, really sore today...my back's stiff...lucky for you guys the office chair is semi-comfortable.
This chapter contains even more stuff from the Ainulindale and Valaquenta...especially the Valaquenta where I am taking a (little) bit of artistic license with Varda's past experiences...but not much, it is in there!
Re-cap: Varda is going to show Arianell why she was brought to ME...we hope. Still in the dream sequence.
Arianell nodded as Varda walked around to the front of her, her hand still resting so lightly on Arianell's shoulder that Arianell had to look to make sure it was still there.Shesuddenly realized that they were moving, or rather that the mists were moving by them.
"Where are we going?"
Varda smiled and simply replied "To see what is."
Arianell watched the mists closely. Noticing that there were figures in them. She could see a group of people shinning like Varda and hear singing. The song, though faint, was so hauntingly beautiful Arianell knew she would never forget it. Which is why she was saddened moments later when another figure joined the group's singing and she, as well as the mist chorus, forgot the rhythm of the first song.
"The creation of Arda!" Arianell's eyes widened as she realized what she had been listening too.
"Yes Child, for these are the histories told by the mists of time, illuminated by the veil of stars and contained within the air you breathe. Yet even the Firstborn have forgotted how to breathe them." Varda's face saddened "But time will do what it wishes." She gestured towards the changing scenes. Arianell could see various Valar and Valari nuturing and caring for the newly created Arda.
Varda locked her eyes with Arianell's and inside them Arianell could see a vast galaxy of stars, as the stars faded Arianell noticed that the figures in the mists surrounding them were more modern, more familiar.
"Is that...?" she reached for the figures of her parents kneeling next to a celtic cross gravestone, almost knocking Varda's hand off of her shoulder. The hand tightened its grip, though it was still gentle.
"They are beyond your reach."
"Why, why was I taken from them...why was I not asked if I wanted to leave?" Varda's smile was soft "Would you have complied had you known you known you could never return? As it is even I who can see the farthest of the Ainur do not understand the manner in which Iluvatar set into motion your destiny."
A sweep of Varda's free hand changed the mist's shape. Arianell was re-living what had occured in the dance hall just a little while ago but it seemed like an eternity. "Please" her voice was cracked "I do not whish to see this! Not again." She tried but she could not close her eyes.
"I am sorry Arianell." Varda drew her attention to her face, shinning so bright with the light of Iluvatar, "But you must learn to overcome this, it must make you stronger...it has to."
Arianell nodded and watched as the events unfolded again "Like it wasn't hard enough living through it the first time!"
Varda smiled sadly before motioning for Arianell to look beyond the figures, there she could see Legolas looking around for her, like he had said, but Lothien had come and begun to speak with him and drew him away from her.
"I knew he was more trouble than he was worth." Varda turned her attention back to Arianell, "but the others believed since he was searching for you as well we could use him as your channel into Eru."
Varda sighed "I am sorry for what happened with Ochlan, I tried to strengthen you but could not intervene, it was Iluvatar's design for you to grow from this as I did."
"You...?"
Varda smiled sadly. "Do you remember the figure that sowed discord, Melkor? Long have I known him, too long in fact. Once I denied him as you have Ochlan, once I felt the fear you do now. I who am in command of the Stars of Eru and contain and channel the light of Ea felt the darkness. But now he fears me alone above all Ainur Eru has created though never forgetting my rejection or the fact that I have bound with his brother Manwe...for they were created kindrid in the thought of Iluvatar." Varda laughed again.
"One moment more here, Arianell. And you shall meet my husband." Varda motioned towards the mists.
Arianell peered into the depths and gasped "Is this now?" Varda nodded. She could see herself lying on a bed, but not her own, and there was a figure sitting in the chair next to her.
'Rest Arianell' Legolas' voice was faint through the mists 'Rest in knowing I love you.'
Arianell looked at Varda in shock "He loves me?"
"He is beginning to."
