A/N: Hello! This is my very first song fics, so I'm just beginning! I really like the idea of song fics, and with High School Musical they haven't been done much around here. I know this is sad, but I'm hoping to make a happier one soon! Thanks for reading, leaving me comments and messaging!
Gabriella
A song fic based on "Lisa" by The Prayers and Tears of Arthur Digby Sellers.
Some lyrics were changed a little bit, to suit the story.
There's nothing I could call this
He sat on their bed. He looked at their walls. And yet again he found himself gasping for air.
No architecture for the order of things
The unfairness of the whole situation overtook him. He loved her. More than any other human being on this earth. She had loved him, too.
When I sat and watched you sleeping
There were mornings where they would have breakfast in bed. It's memories like that that allow him to smile, though the smile is quickly replaced by the unmistakeable loss he feels.
Before this fate arrived, shattering my life
I wrote you letters for a while
He had taken to writing in a journal. A journal for her. He started every entry with "Dear Gabriella.." It was his only way of surviving, feeling that he was still communicating with her.
Left to haunt this sad estate
Sometimes he found himself walking into the nursery they had been preparing for their little girl. He had expected this house to be full by now. How could he have ever known it would be so barren?
In hollow walls and empty halls
The irony of it all. A little girl was to be brought into this world. Instead, his world was taken from him. All in a few short hours.
But all I saw was
Some doll that you'd abandoned
People in the town talk, he knows it.
"What an attractive young man he was. So promising. Now he just sits in that house all day. Bless him."
So I crawled inside, where the stitching held me tight
And hoped that you'd come back to find me sometime
For so long he clung to those hallways and doors. It began to be tearing away at him though, everything was so empty. He considered moving across the country to Albequerque to be with those she had left behind, but he couldn't take the memories…
I hope that you'll forgive me for being so severe
You're proximity was clouding my account of what was real here
"Gaby! Gaby! Please stay here with me! I can't do this alone!" He cries out in the middle of the night, dreaming of that hospital room. All the concerned voices, the beeping machines.
You always talk but never hold me
Amidst all the sounds, it was the silence that was breaking him. His baby wouldn't cry. The nurses couldn't get him to cry. Please, just breathe! And his wife. Shes not smiling and rejoicing with him over their newborn. She can't.
And I wish that you would ask me how I'm feeling
There's so much I want to tell you about the way I'm disappearing
People had decided to give him space. He didn't need space. He needed to be loved, and held. He felt as though he was three again,
completely dependant and scared.
Things happen when your world falls down.
And so many years have passed since I left the house
I left a map to my new wall, you must have never found it
They first met at a New Years party. They'd had to sing karaoke…the memory made him smile. How nice things had been then. How different from now. When he sang with her, he felt something in him he had never felt before with anything. He became passionate. He began to see the world alive and colorful. And now…everything seems so lifeless. Pointless.
But I'm learning how to walk again, though its hard for me to fall asleep these days
He appreciated the phone calls, the flowers, the consoling cards. He appreciated the people who'd come by and try to bring him back in touch.
Cause I knew the words, when you were eight
He sat up on the bed. He stood up and looked himself in the eye in the mirror.
It's not what I imagined I'd become when we were younger
But I'm still in love with that one
He recognized that she was with him. He recognized that she still loved him, and would be with him no matter what. Their love went even beyond "'til death do us part". It ran deeper than that, and he could feel it. She was going to help him through this.
So sing me a sweet lullabye
My dear, you know I'm here now
We're alive and we're breathing…
