I Wanna
I've always watched you play. Every game. You always triumph in victory, no matter how hard or strong the opponent is. I've always wondered if you noticed. Noticed me more than a kid sister of your friend.
You were always nice to me. Then, I think, I could actually have a chance with you. But my dreams are far from my grasp. You're an angel. You're a fantasy I couldn't have.
You were always nice to me. Even a simple 'hi' makes me all squirmed up inside. You're smile makes me wanna melt on your feet.
Every tournament, I'll be on the lookout for you. I wanna see you play like I do every time.
I've always tried to be the girl for you. Even though I know that is impossible. Then, I know I've no chance in the world with you.
So, I'm settling for the second best. But he's still not you. The one that I love. The one that my heart aches for.
Everyday, I tried to think that he is you. But, I can't. You're still the one I want. I tried to be happy with him. But I just can't do that when my heart doesn't let me.
You were happy for me. You don't know how it hurt me to lie to you. When, you say something like that, I just put on a fake smile. I don't think you know I love you every second since I met you for the first time.
One day, I just can't take it anymore. I just couldn't lie to him anymore. Lie to you. I've decided to end my relationship that is nothing but a mere affection. Not love.
I guess he understands me better than I credited him. I know he's nice, but just not you. I don't want him to suffer to be with someone who doesn't even love him. I know he can do better. He told me to go for you. "It doesn't hurt to try isn't it?"
That was his advice for me. I felt bad for him, but I just can't hurt him anymore.
Ever night, after I ended it, I cried until my eyes are red and puffy. I went out into the streets. I don't why, but I just needed to see you.
I poured out my heart to you. About everything. About how I loved someone, but he doesn't love me back. Then, I told you that I wanna tell how I wanna tell that someone that I loved him.
Suddenly, you put your arms on my shoulder. I looked at you with my tear-stained eyes. Then, you said something never thought of.
"You've already told him,"
I guess you knew it all along. All this time, you already knew. My feelings for you. The, you pulled me into your hug. The one I've been waiting all this time.
I just wanna time to stop. I want to be with you.
And never let go.
OWARI
A/N: My first FujiAn fic. Well, how was it? I know it's short. Anyway, this will be my last fic for the time being. My other stories will be on hiatus. I'll be having my final exam, so I need to study for it.
I also have a message for Rokugo-san readers. She said that her stories will also be on hiatus. She said that her stories my maid will be over in December, so wait for it. She will also be having an exam because she goes to the same school as me.
That's all, Ja!
