AN: So this is rewrite #3. For some odd reason I had a horrible case of writers' block and I couldn't seem to shake it! But of course I was also plagued with the flu, a pulmonary infection, college applications, my new job, and school work during my two week break from school. So, I'm sorry this has taken so long to come out, I wanted it to be out two weeks ago, but just wasn't able to get around to it. Oh great! Now my web site is down *just received e-mail from host* because my host is switching servers… bugger! *sigh* oh well… so here are a couple responses to questions that were brought to my attention in the reviews and I must say that my bestest friend in the whole world, Ali (can't remember her login name for FF.net ^^; ), has helped cure my writer's block! If it weren't for her this chapter might not be out! Also, I'm glad everyone enjoyed Inuyasha's little impotence problem in the last chapter. I can't tell you how hard I was laughing, and crying, while writing that scene. That will be a classic!
Goddess InuYasha: Wow, I feel unbelievably honored (and embarrassed) to be compared to the legendary Rosefire1. I don't feel worthy of such praise ^^; and I definitely don't feel like I'm up to her standards yet, but thank you very much! My ego just went up ten notches!
carolyn cavalier: All of my fics will be Inuyasha/Kagome, I might throw some Miroku/Sango in here or there but rest assured… it will definitely be Inuyasha/Kagome.
inuyasha-1234: Yes, Sango will be in this story. She'll be introduced in either the next chapter or the chapter after that but she will be in this story.
Demonlover: Ya know, I've been wondering for a while now… how can characters in an AU fic be ooc? I mean, sure their personalities could be ooc, but the characters grow up in different environments. For example, in this story Kagome grows up with only her father, who happens to be a drunken bastard *grumbles*, and no mother or brother… whereas in the manga/anime she grows up with her grandfather, brother, and mother and doesn't have any of the problems she does in my story. Hmmm… you know what I mean? Or am I just crazy? o.ô
Tide_Moon_River: Sesshomaru? Eh… I don't really know if I'll put him into this story yet. If I do put him in then he'll have a very minor role. Sango will definitely be in this story. But no Shippou :( … sorry.
JustSomeGiRL: lol, don't worry; there will be a lemon, a couple of them actually. But it won't be a crappy lemon like in my other story, Take Me for Who I Am. I was writing that lemon based on FF.net's restrictions. For this story I will post the lemons on AdultFanFiction.net or my own server if AdultFanFiction.net is closed because of the whole /money issue.
Disclaimer: What are you talking about? I've never seen cows in red lingerie – erm… no, I don't own Inu Yasha.
Sex and Drugs
Chapter 3: No more hiding behind the mask
"If you value your dick then you'll stay away from her, Inuyasha!" Inuyasha's eyes watched Miroku's finger as it jabbed him in the chest relentlessly. His eyebrows rose in amusement because he knew very well that it was an empty threat.
"There's nothing you can do to harm me physically, Miroku." He replied, his mouth was perked upwards in a smirk and it only grew as he watched Miroku's obvious frustration. A vein was popping out of Miroku's neck and his face was flushed and spittle was beginning to drip from the corner of his mouth. He looked like a mad dog.
"But I can hurt your pride! Those girls at the bar we always go to? they seemed real keen on 'getting to know you better' but once they find out about your impotence problem I don't think they'll be sticking around much longer." This time it was Inuyasha's turn to get angry. He growled threateningly and his hands clenched into tight fists.
"You know as well as I do I don't have a fucking problem!" Inuyasha snarled in a dangerously low tone. Miroku merely smiled. "I just don't see what the big deal is. I only commented on how nice her chest would be to fondle…"
Miroku snorted in disgust and his smile turned back into a frown. "That's the problem. I don't want you to fondle her! I don't want you to even fantasize about fondling her! She's off-limits!"
"But what if she's the one doing the fondling?" Inuyasha asked innocently. As if on cue Kagome walked out of the bathroom, the toilet making an odd humming noise in the background.
"What's up, guys? Whoa, Miroku, why do you look as if you've just run a marathon?" She asked.
Inuyasha eyed Kagome, he noticed how 'tight' her shirt clung to her body and silently approved. He winked in her direction suggestively.
"Ugh. You are vile. You are disgusting. You are like the filth on the bottom of my shoe!" Kagome listed off disgustedly, but then she did something that shocked both Inuyasha and Miroku. She smirked and winked back.
Inuyasha gripped his heart and with a pained expression he toppled backwards on to the futon that was delivered three days ago. His feet went over his head and he fell on the floor with a loud 'thump'.
"Damn, Kagome! I think you killed him by doing something nice towards him! Why didn't I think of that?" Miroku asked.
Inuyasha groaned on the floor as an added sound effect. "Ooooh… my heart! My heart!" He cried out.
Kagome rolled her eyes, turned on her heel and walked away while muttering "Drama Queen" under her breath.
Inuyasha heard, of course, and let out a loud "Hey! Don't you mean King? Drama King?!"
"No, I think Queen suits you nicely!" Kagome smirked.
Inuyasha pulled himself back on to the futon and sat on it upside side down, his white mane fell on to the floor and his feet dangled where his head should have been. He heard the door to Miroku's room close with a quiet 'click' of the lock afterwards. He whistled a tune for a few moments and listened to Kagome rummage around in the kitchen in search of lunch.
"So when are you going to give in to my charms, angel?" Inuyasha decided to say at last. He heard Kagome snort derisively.
"What charms would those be, Inuyasha?" Her voice was calm and steady but there was an edge to it towards the end, almost like a warning.
He decided to ignore it and pursued. "The charms that'll get you to come see a movie in a dark theater with me."
He grinned and fiddled with his thumbs waiting for her response. He could mentally see her lips form into thin lines and her eyes turn to narrow slits. It was at that moment that Inuyasha realized how much he had depended on Kagome these last four days for a good time. Granted she may not have found it pleasurable to argue with him 24/7 but he found it to be highly amusing. He even found himself going out of his way to make her mad.
"I should let you know, though, that I don't usually make any moves on a first date." He heard Kagome snort again, but this time in disbelief. "Seriously. So you don't have to worry about that until the second date."
"Inuyasha, I will never go out with a perverted asshole such as yourself so you can forget it."
"Ouch, that hurts, angel. So how about casual sex then?" Inuyasha got up and walked into the kitchen and stood behind Kagome. He put his mouth next to her ear and breathed in and out heavily before whispering to her huskily. "I can give you private lessons if you like."
Kagome involuntarily shivered and felt her heart skip a beat… not that she'd ever admit it though. Her eyebrows lowered and with a shaky but defiant voice she said, "Screw you Inuyasha." Then she walked to the table with her bowel of ramen and sat down in the wood chair.
She glared at him and scowled when she saw the twinkle in his eye and the amused, but annoying, twitch of his lips. He stalked over to her, pulled out another chair and sat on it backwards while resting his chin on the back of the chair. He gave her a sad puppy dog face.
"Awe, you don't have to be so rude about it, sweet heart! I'm all over my problem now; I can show you if you like. Would you like to see?" He saw Kagome roll her eyes and put a large spoonful of ramen in her mouth.
"There's probably not much to see, Inuyasha, so I'll have to pass on the offer." She said. Inuyasha chuckled and picked up her hand but then frowned when he saw her wince.
"Wha's wrong? You got a bruise or something?" He let go of her hand and she immediately retracted it as if his touch was poisonous. She smiled weakly.
"Y-yeah, I've got a bruise. It's from last night – ran into the coffee table in the dark trying to find my way to the bathroom." Inuyasha noticed how she never once looked him in the eye. He knew she was lying.
He frowned and wondered what the hell he had done to make her flinch suddenly. I didn't scratch her with my claws did I? He wondered.
"What's up with you Kagome?" Apparently the sound of Kagome's name startled her. He watched her face go from a frown, to surprise, to a smile.
"You said my name for the first time, Inuyasha! I'm so proud of you! Would you like a biscuit? Maybe I can get you to say it more often now!" She said sarcastically.
"No, no biscuit, but I'll say it more often if you tell me what's wrong." He waited patiently while Kagome opened and closed her mouth a few times, but no words came out.
The door to Miroku's bedroom opened and out walked Miroku in a tuxedo. Kagome whistled and Inuyasha made a snide comment.
"Got a hot date tonight, Miroku?" Kagome grinned from her chair.
"I wish you'd give me a hot date tonight." Inuyasha muttered. He received a punch in the shoulder for his comment.
Miroku quickly explained that he did have a date for that night, but the date happened to be outside of Tokyo so he had to leave immediately. So after a few quick good-byes Miroku left. The moment the door closed Inuyasha rounded on Kagome again to continue his interrogation but found that she had already left and was sneaking towards Miroku's bedroom.
He conceded defeat and allowed Kagome to leave; he had some of his own pondering to do at the moment.
A few hours past and the sun was beginning to set. There was a warm glow in the living room, and the sun right on Inuyasha's back, making him sweat more than he already was. Damn a/c, just had to break today of all days, didn't it? It's gotta be at least a hundred outside.
The day had gone by slowly enough. Kagome only left Miroku's room to get a snack and go to the bathroom. Inuyasha spent the hours staring stupidly into space wondering what was with Kagome.
Whenever I mention something to Miroku he pales and changes the subject to something trivial, like ramen. Not that I don't like ramen, but I can only eat and talk about it so much in one day.
Whenever I try talking to angel about it she either ignores me or says it's not my business. Either that or she twists my words around and makes it sound like I'm trying to get her into bed with me… again… but I'm not…well, I am, but not when I ask what's wrong… I think. Hmmm.
Inuyasha stood up and pulled his hair back with a rubber band. His tank top was drenched with sweat so he took it off and let it fall to the floor with a wet 'plop'.
I've got to figure out what the hell is going on. She just showed up out of no where and starts living with me and Miroku. She's moody, well all bitches are moody but she's even more so, she flinches at the stupidest things, gets pissed off when I joke around with her, takes scalding hot showers for forty minutes… That's not normal.
Kagome exited Miroku's bedroom and walked down the hall. She needed something to drink; it was just too damn hot. She lifted her head to meet Inuyasha's penetrating gaze and nearly choked.
He stood in front of her, the glow from the sun on him. Kagome blinked a couple times and felt her face grow hot with embarrassment before turning away. A nonexistent spot on the immaculate wall caught her attention.
She couldn't help but take another quick glance and noticed he had not moved but was now grinning. He had caught her staring at his bare chest. A chiseled chest at that, a small voice in her head said. She felt her face grow hotter.
"What's wrong, angel? See something that interests you?" He teased. Kagome's face grew, if possible, even redder as he advanced. She took a step back as he took one forward. She took another step back and ran into the wall.
Don't look at him, just don't look. Kagome's heart began to race… half from fear, half from something she couldn't explain. This is not happening; please tell me this isn't happening. Onegai!
She couldn't help but lift her head once more and gasped when she saw how close he had gotten. He leaned forward and rested his arms on the wall on either side of her. She was trapped.
Kagome could smell his tangy sweat and saw it shine on his body wherever the light touched it. Be strong, Kagome, be strong. Don't let this get to you! Don't let this be a repeat of the last time.
"Please..." She started in a weak, shaky voice. She found that she couldn't continue. There was a lump in her throat, blocking air, blocking the ability to speak. Her heart thundered against her chest.
"Please… what, angel?" Inuyasha said seductively.
"Please don't do this." She stared him in the eye and saw him frown. Be strong, Kagome. "Please don't do this. I feel trapped. Don't put your arms on either side of me so I can't get by, please don't lean in like you did, please don't be this close! Don't make me feel helpless again!" She cried out, her voice still soft, still shaky.
Inuyasha immediately backed off and took a step back but continued to watch her.
"Please don't make me feel that way again, Inuyasha. I want to feel secure, and not taken advantage of," she continued "I want to love again, but I can't, not when I feel this way, so please don't!"
"Who took advantage of you, Kagome?" Inuyasha said. His voice was equally quiet but something inside him made him burn with anger. He couldn't stand it when men took advantage of their power. He couldn't stand it when they used their strength over women to their advantage. Inuyasha was beginning to put the pieces together.
"I can't! Just-Just don't make me, okay? Please! I shouldn't have said anything! Just pretend I didn't say a word; forget I said anything, okay? Please?" Kagome was fearful. I can't trust him with this. I feel guilty enough knowing that this happened to me and it's my fault; I don't want his sympathy too.
"I'll pretend nothing and I will forget nothing." Kagome's face fell at his words. "I won't stop until I find out what the hell is going on."
The august sun began to hide behind the clouds, creating shadows over the two of them. They stood in silence, Kagome fearful, Inuyasha seething with rage, his hands balled into fists.
"I'm going for a jog, I'll be back later." Kagome walked around Inuyasha and put her shoes on by the front door.
Inuyasha walked into the kitchen and began filling a plastic bottle with water. He walked over to where Kagome was tying her laces and kneeled down until he could see her eyes.
"Don't forget a water bottle." He said while handing her the bottle. He noticed the shock that played on her face before she accepted it and he smiled warmly even though he was still angry.
Kagome smiled back at him, an honest smile that made his stomach do flip-flops and his heart flutter ever so slightly. He swallowed and stood then opened the door for her.
"Arigatou." Kagome said as she walked out the door and towards the elevator. He waited for her to get on the elevator before closing the door and looking around the somewhat messy apartment.
"I don't have long," he said out loud to himself "but I need to find out what the fuck is going on. But where to start?"
Inuyasha went around the living room and searched through everyone, hoping to find some sort of clue. All he knew was that someone had done something to her but he didn't know what.
A few minutes slipped by and already the apartment was in complete disarray. As he searched his anger grew, and as his anger grew the more careless he became and the more careless he became the more things weren't put back where they belonged.
He searched through Kagome's dresser, under the futon and through the book shelves (which didn't have books, but Miroku and Inuyasha's collection of magazines), behind the tv… everywhere. He then searched in Miroku's room, turning it upside down in search of some kind of clue, any clue!
Inuyasha growled in frustration and nearly knocked over Miroku's lamp trying to stand up. It was then that he heard a loud clap of thunder and took a look outside. The sky was gray and a bit greenish, lightening flashed across the sky and heavy drops of rain began to pound on the cement below. Soon the window was opaque with the heavy downpour of rain.
He bit his lip and straightened up the room as quickly as he could and began to worry about Kagome being outside in this weather. But as soon as Inuyasha closed the bedroom door the front door opened and dripped wet Kagome walked in. Mud was splattered on her legs and she looked absolutely furious. Inuyasha couldn't help but laugh when she gave him the 'laugh and you die' glare.
She pulled a face at him and shook her head, like a dog would do, and muddy water droplets sprayed everywhere, including on Inuyasha. He only laughed harder. She stuck her tongue out at him.
She squeaked in alarm and dodged around him as he made a grab for her tongue. He laughed as she hurried into the bathroom, slammed the door, and locked it.
"Coward!" he yelled after her.
"Jackass!" She yelled back.
Now alone again he took a look at the trail of mud on the floor and shrugged then went over to the phone and ordered dinner. He looked through all the DVDs they owned (not his private stash) and picked out a horror flick and put it in the DVD player. He paused the movie as it started and went back into the kitchen for drinks and popcorn.
He paid for the food when the doorbell rang and not too long afterwards Kagome came back out of the bathroom with clouds of steam billowing out after her, the toilet still making an odd humming noise in the background.
Without saying a word they made their way over to the futon, sat down, and started watching the movie. The lights stayed on, at Kagome's request, while they watched the movie in silence.
It was at least an hour later when it happened. Right when the mad axe man came charging in through the window in the movie, the lights and the tv flickered. Kagome tensed, became still, and her face paled dramatically, but said nothing. Inuyasha acted as if nothing happened.
They flickered again and Kagome let out a little squeak of fright. Inuyasha looked at her quizzically then turned his attention back to the tv.
Once more they flickered, but this time the power went out. Immediately Kagome stood up in fright, her eyes darting back and forth. Her breathing became heavy, erratic, and her heart crashed violently against her chest. She let out a small whimper and immediately went over to one of the lamps and tried turning it on. It didn't go on.
Inuyasha stood up and watched as she paced back and forth, from lamp to lamp to tv until finally she stopped and ran a hand through her hair in defeat. She dropped to her knees and began to hyperventilate. She covered her eyes with trembling hands trying to block the mental images that had begun to reappear. She could barely breathe.
Inuyasha quickly walked over to her and kneeled down next to her. Putting an arm around her shoulders he crushed her small trembling form to him, trying to calm her by making "shh" noises over and over again.
He recognized this fear or this attack rather, as he had experienced something similar in the past. It was a panic attack and was triggered by almost anything that was associated with an intense fear.
Still she continued to breathe erratically, her body still shook and he could feel her pulse beating terrifyingly fast. Small whimpers and screams occasionally came out of her mouth and she started to sweat. If she doesn't calm down soon then… he couldn't finish the thought.
Inuyasha placed her head against his heart; something his mother had done when he was feeling overwhelmed, and rubbed her back while still making "shh" noises. He rocked her back and forth, hugging her as tight as possible without crushing her.
Her breathing had slowed and became even again but still felt the overwhelming urge to scream or jump out the window. Then the tears started to well up in her eyes and her vision became blurred. She was only faintly aware of the person she was wrapping her arms around in attempt to find security, some warmth, some safety.
Kagome cried on his shoulder, her sobs were loud and once more her breathing was erratic, but not as dangerously so.
He let her cry and continued rubbing her back in comforting circles and strokes and occasionally planted small kisses on top of her head, something else his mother used to do. He was surprised when she had wrapped her arms around his neck though, but couldn't help but feel warmth wash over him knowing that he could do something to help.
She continued to weep for a good while but when her sobs died down she didn't attempt to back away like he thought she would. No, instead she hugged him tighter, obvious, but silent, gratitude that he had stayed with her.
"Its okay, Kagome, nothing's going to happen, I won't let anything happen to you, okay? Just calm down." He cooed into her ear not really knowing what else he could say. In his mind he couldn't help but wonder, though. Would she have run to Miroku if he were here? And what exactly could have happened to her during a blackout to make her this scared?
Though her tears still poured from her eyes she was no longer sobbing uncontrollably and her body still shook from the exertion.
He held her until she had stopped crying completely and reluctantly drew away to see if she was okay now. She looked back at him with puffy red eyes and a tear stained face. She didn't smile, nor did she frown. She didn't draw away further, nor did she reach out for him.
A stray strand of hair fell in her face. Inuyasha pushed it aside and tucked it behind her ear then smiled reassuringly. "Daijoubouka?" He waited for her nod then smiled again. She turned her face away, he wasn't sure if it was from embarrassment, guilt, or both.
"Gomen ne, Inuyasha."
"Don't be sorry, Kagome, you couldn't help it. But can you at least tell me what that was all about?" he asked worriedly. She shook her head no and Inuyasha's ears drooped a little. "I can't help you if you don't tell me what's wrong."
"All you need to know is that I'm a-afraid of blackouts." Inuyasha helped Kagome off the floor and led her to the futon. She waited until he had it pulled down into a bed then laid down. He placed a blanket on top of her and placed her pillow beneath her head. She smiled gratefully back at him.
Inuyasha grabbed the remote control off the ground and clicked the power button. He didn't want Kagome to wake up in the middle of the night to a blood-curdling scream when the power came back on. When he began to walk away Kagome grabbed his hand roughly and sat up.
"Please, stay with me until I fall asleep? I don't want to be alone." Kagome pleaded. Inuyasha saw the panic in her eyes and agreed. He sat down on the floor and held her hand while her eyes slowly drifted close, a content smile on her face.
He smiled back but knew she couldn't see since her eyes were closed and pretty soon he let his head rest on the mattress even though she had fallen asleep the moment her eyes closed.
And with her small hand clasped in his he let his heavy eyes droop shut and fell into a dreamless sleep thinking unconsciously, this is how it's meant to be.
Awwwwwwe, isn't that cuuuuuute? *pinches sleeping Inu's cheeks* Adorable! :P Anyway, sorry this chappie wasn't as 'exciting' as the other two chapter, but I just had to write in some more plot and suspense which meant less funny scenes. But rest assured that the next chapter will not be as serious and will be funnier and lighter. Maybe I'll add in some 'cutesy' stuff, like I did at the end of this chapter, but it's still too early for some real fluff. I guess you can consider the above scene fluff but I don't really. I mean, she was all traumatized and scared shitless and he was just being a loyal puppy who wanted to make the hurt go away! Okay… fine, it was fluff :P And I'm sorry this chappie wasn't as long as the other two, I didn't know what else to write. Gomen. I'll make the next chapter longer, promise.
So anyway, I need some help. I'm still not completely over my writer's block and though I know what I want to happen I need some 'fillers' for in between the scenes, ya know? Just some random ideas or funny scenes (or quotes) that I can throw in here or there so the entire story isn't completely plot related and dull. Okay? Yay! Ja ne!
