Petra: *face in hands* You guys are going to hate me! I gaurantee it! *sigh* Before you go onward just... promise not to kill me?
Kati: *laughing* You are SO DEAD!!
Petra: Oh god...
Kati: *falls on floor laughing*
Petra: Go on and read but... don't say I didn't warn you...
Kati: *crying and gasping for breath, she's laughing so hard*
Petra: *groan* I am so dead...
DEDICATED: To dreams, and those that do...
WARNING: Shonen-ai people. It's one-sided but it's there nonetheless.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own them!
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I'm Glad I Didn't Tell You: Dive In
"And I ask myself why I even bother, when you're there and I'm here and between us lies a chasm of uncertain chances bridged by nothing except the thought of you and my fear to let go." -Rhysenn; Someday (HP)
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I open my eyes and you're still standing there, but you're not drunk or hung-over, you're still laughing at what one of your classmates said. I can feel the tears bright in my eyes. The daydream, it had felt so real that for a minute, I was tempted to go over there and just sweep you up in my arms, kissing the living daylights out of you.
I had planned on telling you that I was here, but maybe not… I drift closer to you but make sure that I stay in the shadows, watching you talk to your friends. After a while you've got a small crowd around you and, suddenly, everyone's fists go up in the air as you cry out, "Party!" Within seconds, the room is almost empty and I'm left standing there, my mind caught in the memory of the way you had looked as you'd turn. The image of you, your violet eyes bright from the alcohol you had already consumed, wisps of hair framing your facing, burned onto the back of my eyelids.
I lean against the wall and close my eyes, trying to catch my breath. Four years; for four years I haven't heard your voice or seen your smile. I was surprised at the affect that it had had on me. I realized that I wasn't in control of my feelings yet, not enough to see you. Not yet. I'm stuck though, trapped leaning against this wall. I know that if I don't find you, you will think that I didn't come and that will hurt you. So I'm stuck, trapped between your pain and mine. It doesn't take much thought to realize exactly what I need to do.
With a sigh I push myself off the wall and reach into my pocket, looking down at the paper in my hand, your address scribbled across it in my short, spiky scrawl. It doesn't take me long to find the house that you've been renting; the noise coming from the music and the people are enough. The party is already well underway, despite the fact that the people have only been there for fifteen minutes at the most. You are, as always, in the middle of the fun, dancing in the middle of a large crowd with a drink in your hand.
You look up, laughter sparkling in your eyes, and then see me. "Heero!" you yell, stumbling slightly as you push through the crowd and run toward me. "Heero! You came!" You don't stop, you just run right into my arms and I can't help but feel a little light headed as I breathe in your scent. The feeling of you in my arms is almost more than I can bear and, before I can stop myself, I hug you tighter. You laugh and pull away, despite the reluctance of my arms. "Glad to see that you missed me too." You grab hold of my hand and pull me toward the large crowd of people, saying, "Come have a drink!"
My mind and body rebels at the idea of being around that many people. Don't you understand, Duo? The only person I like being around is you. I can't stand anyone else… you're the only one who's made it past my shell. You're the only one that makes me feel human. These past four years I've felt like a machine, just doing what I was programmed to do but, today, for the first time I feel alive. I let you pull me anyway, into the crowd where I feel like I can't breath but it doesn't matter, because when I'm around you I can never breath properly. I hold my breath, and dive in.
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IMPORTANT NOTE: For those of you that wish it, DUE TO MY SPORADIC postings, I am offering you, the readers, A MAILING LIST to sign up to. When I finally UPDATE, I will SEND OUT AN EMAIL informing those of you that are on the list that I have finally updated. I need you to EMAIL me, telling that you wish to sign up, and whether it's for ORIGINAL FICTION or FANFICTION. I WILL NOT accept those people that ask to be up on it in a review because I can't be sure that email is real. The mailing list will ALSO OFFER the TITLES of those works that I am posting, the COUPLES (if any) that are in it, which FANDOM it is from, and whether it is a SEQUEL to anything.
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Petra: *hiding behind a large barricade of metal* GOMEN NASAI!!!! GOMEN NASAI!!!! *sniffle* Don't kill me...
Kati: If you kill her, you won't get more... which there is more... ^_^
Petra: *ducks behind barricade and watches as knife flies overhead* Oh god... *whimpers in terror* I actually wrote this out and was going to end it at the second chapter and... then this came... BLAME IT ON HER!!! *points to Kati*
Kati: WHAT?!?!?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! *dives behind barricade* I'm going to kill you, Petra!
Petra: Get in line! Actually, an interesting little note, I actually have a hint that the last chapter wasn't what it seemed. If you'll just go back and read the quote, you'll see what I mean.
Kati: Well... um... though you probably hate us now... thanks to:
KARASUKO: Yeah... um... love 'em... -_-; You're going to murder me, aren't you? But, it was a nice chapter... right? *ducks behind barricade again*
VIC: *laugh* It happens, puking I mean. Talk about ruining the romance... that was never there to begin with... *sigh* Yeah... um... turns out... *ducks behind barricade yet again*
LBX: ^_^ Good characterization! Yay for me! Um... but I bet you wish I hadn't posted this chapter, ne? *sighs and ducks*
DREAM KEEPER: DON'T KILL ME!!! DON'T KILL ME!!! DON'T KILL ME!!! Gawd... if you were going to strangle me before... *shoves Kati in front of her* Take her instead! (Kati: Hey! Bitch! Fight your own battles! *runs away*) Yume-chan... *backing away* Remember if you kill me that you won't get the rest... *screams* DON'T KILL ME!!! *runs away*
"I dream of a day when I can open my eyes, and my dreams won't disappear."
-Rose Marie Ledam
~Petra Megami Assari~
*The Gentle Tiger Goddess*
Kati: *laughing* You are SO DEAD!!
Petra: Oh god...
Kati: *falls on floor laughing*
Petra: Go on and read but... don't say I didn't warn you...
Kati: *crying and gasping for breath, she's laughing so hard*
Petra: *groan* I am so dead...
DEDICATED: To dreams, and those that do...
WARNING: Shonen-ai people. It's one-sided but it's there nonetheless.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own them!
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I'm Glad I Didn't Tell You: Dive In
"And I ask myself why I even bother, when you're there and I'm here and between us lies a chasm of uncertain chances bridged by nothing except the thought of you and my fear to let go." -Rhysenn; Someday (HP)
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I open my eyes and you're still standing there, but you're not drunk or hung-over, you're still laughing at what one of your classmates said. I can feel the tears bright in my eyes. The daydream, it had felt so real that for a minute, I was tempted to go over there and just sweep you up in my arms, kissing the living daylights out of you.
I had planned on telling you that I was here, but maybe not… I drift closer to you but make sure that I stay in the shadows, watching you talk to your friends. After a while you've got a small crowd around you and, suddenly, everyone's fists go up in the air as you cry out, "Party!" Within seconds, the room is almost empty and I'm left standing there, my mind caught in the memory of the way you had looked as you'd turn. The image of you, your violet eyes bright from the alcohol you had already consumed, wisps of hair framing your facing, burned onto the back of my eyelids.
I lean against the wall and close my eyes, trying to catch my breath. Four years; for four years I haven't heard your voice or seen your smile. I was surprised at the affect that it had had on me. I realized that I wasn't in control of my feelings yet, not enough to see you. Not yet. I'm stuck though, trapped leaning against this wall. I know that if I don't find you, you will think that I didn't come and that will hurt you. So I'm stuck, trapped between your pain and mine. It doesn't take much thought to realize exactly what I need to do.
With a sigh I push myself off the wall and reach into my pocket, looking down at the paper in my hand, your address scribbled across it in my short, spiky scrawl. It doesn't take me long to find the house that you've been renting; the noise coming from the music and the people are enough. The party is already well underway, despite the fact that the people have only been there for fifteen minutes at the most. You are, as always, in the middle of the fun, dancing in the middle of a large crowd with a drink in your hand.
You look up, laughter sparkling in your eyes, and then see me. "Heero!" you yell, stumbling slightly as you push through the crowd and run toward me. "Heero! You came!" You don't stop, you just run right into my arms and I can't help but feel a little light headed as I breathe in your scent. The feeling of you in my arms is almost more than I can bear and, before I can stop myself, I hug you tighter. You laugh and pull away, despite the reluctance of my arms. "Glad to see that you missed me too." You grab hold of my hand and pull me toward the large crowd of people, saying, "Come have a drink!"
My mind and body rebels at the idea of being around that many people. Don't you understand, Duo? The only person I like being around is you. I can't stand anyone else… you're the only one who's made it past my shell. You're the only one that makes me feel human. These past four years I've felt like a machine, just doing what I was programmed to do but, today, for the first time I feel alive. I let you pull me anyway, into the crowd where I feel like I can't breath but it doesn't matter, because when I'm around you I can never breath properly. I hold my breath, and dive in.
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IMPORTANT NOTE: For those of you that wish it, DUE TO MY SPORADIC postings, I am offering you, the readers, A MAILING LIST to sign up to. When I finally UPDATE, I will SEND OUT AN EMAIL informing those of you that are on the list that I have finally updated. I need you to EMAIL me, telling that you wish to sign up, and whether it's for ORIGINAL FICTION or FANFICTION. I WILL NOT accept those people that ask to be up on it in a review because I can't be sure that email is real. The mailing list will ALSO OFFER the TITLES of those works that I am posting, the COUPLES (if any) that are in it, which FANDOM it is from, and whether it is a SEQUEL to anything.
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Petra: *hiding behind a large barricade of metal* GOMEN NASAI!!!! GOMEN NASAI!!!! *sniffle* Don't kill me...
Kati: If you kill her, you won't get more... which there is more... ^_^
Petra: *ducks behind barricade and watches as knife flies overhead* Oh god... *whimpers in terror* I actually wrote this out and was going to end it at the second chapter and... then this came... BLAME IT ON HER!!! *points to Kati*
Kati: WHAT?!?!?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! *dives behind barricade* I'm going to kill you, Petra!
Petra: Get in line! Actually, an interesting little note, I actually have a hint that the last chapter wasn't what it seemed. If you'll just go back and read the quote, you'll see what I mean.
Kati: Well... um... though you probably hate us now... thanks to:
KARASUKO: Yeah... um... love 'em... -_-; You're going to murder me, aren't you? But, it was a nice chapter... right? *ducks behind barricade again*
VIC: *laugh* It happens, puking I mean. Talk about ruining the romance... that was never there to begin with... *sigh* Yeah... um... turns out... *ducks behind barricade yet again*
LBX: ^_^ Good characterization! Yay for me! Um... but I bet you wish I hadn't posted this chapter, ne? *sighs and ducks*
DREAM KEEPER: DON'T KILL ME!!! DON'T KILL ME!!! DON'T KILL ME!!! Gawd... if you were going to strangle me before... *shoves Kati in front of her* Take her instead! (Kati: Hey! Bitch! Fight your own battles! *runs away*) Yume-chan... *backing away* Remember if you kill me that you won't get the rest... *screams* DON'T KILL ME!!! *runs away*
"I dream of a day when I can open my eyes, and my dreams won't disappear."
-Rose Marie Ledam
~Petra Megami Assari~
*The Gentle Tiger Goddess*
