Petra: I decided to go ahead and post this since it's an incredibly small chapter. Don't expect much else from me for a while, probably not even until Jan. 2 becuase I will be visiting my brother and he's really touchy about when I get on the internet and what I do. But since he likes the idea of Duo and Heero as a couple, I might be able to persaude him! ^_- Luv you, Jos! I know you'll be reading this so... *blows kisses* My brother's the greatest everyone!

DEDICATED: For the gundam pilots; I would set them free of their memories and guilt if I could.
WARNING: War, cussing, shonen-ai
DISCLAIMER: No own. Except women. Don't write about women. Feel free to write lots of GW fics. Especially shonen-ai fics. Lots and lots of 1x2 fics!

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If You Could: What They're Fighting For

"But now all I feel is a shiver of empty fire running down my spine as your eyes cross mine, piercing and intense and colored with my dreams, before the space of a heartbeat rushes by like a thundering breath, and you turn away, everything else fluttering back into place in the wake of your lingering gaze." -Rhysenn; Someday (HP)

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When Odin awoke he was sure that he had relived more memories in his dreams, but they had been horrible ones, full of pain to him and pain he inflicted on others… and then, worst of all, had been a horrible hidden guilt for all the people he had killed. Oh, he remember partially what a gundam pilot was, he'd dreamed of a conversation with the violet-eyed one again, this time about what they stood for and what they fought for…

@~~~ Rustle of bed sheets as humming increased, violet eyes continuing to read book.
Typing on laptop but not really, instead listening to boy's surprisingly good voice humming. Surprise. The boy is now in sitting right before his eyes.
"Yo, 'Ro…"
Glare at nickname.
Mischievous/fake innocent/puzzled look. "What? Don't you like your new nick name?"
"…"
"I'll take that as 'I love it and want you to use it all the time'… now… where was I?"
Kiss or kill? Maybe just a hard surface to bang head against would work.
"Oh yeah!" Uncomfortable pause. " 'Ro… um… what do you fight for?"
Surprise. Eyes showing it, though not face. "Nani?" What?
"Well… you fight for the colonies right?"
Nod.
"Don't you… fight for anything else…?"
Confused look in eyes.
"I mean… if you fight for peace and all that you have to believe in things like… family and lo-peace." A little flustered.
Confused still. "What do you fight for?"
More flustered. "I… me…? I… fight so that no other kid has to go through what I went through… I fight for family…" Whispers. "And… love…"
"…"
"…"
"I guess I fight so that no one will have to go through what I went through too…"
"… That it?"
Confused yet again. "What else would I fight for?"
Flustered. "What about family?"
"I never had it, so I don't think I can fight for it…"
Looks away. "What… what about… love?"
"Ai?" Surprised. Corrects himself. "Love?"
"Yeah… love…"
"Like family, I've never had it…"
Surprised. "What about Relena?"
Glare. "What about 'Relena'?"
Nervous. "Doncha love her?"
Flatly. "Iie."
Perks up. "Really?"
"Hai."
"You're not just lying?"
"Iie."
Hugs Odin.
Surprised.
Chuckles nervously and draws away. "Sorry… but thanks…"
"What for?"
"Everything…" Walks back to bed.
Watches for a while, a wistful look in eyes, as he lets feelings surface. Pushes feelings down and turns back to laptop. Can't help it. Remembers hug. Whispers, "Ai…?" ~~~@

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Petra: I really like how this part turned out, actually. I think it's very cute. I like how I did the memories but it was really hard to do and still have it make sense.
Kati: If you haven't figured it out by now, every time it's a new line, it switched who it's talking about.
Petra: -_-; Actually... I doubt anyone's figured it out. Life is funny, ain't it? You know, it'll be a sad, sad world where the only one's fighting for freedom are fifteen year olds who are all very messed up. Like I said, if I could, I would set them all free. (Yes, I know it's not real, but it's still very sad.)

"I dream of a day when I can open my eyes, and my dreams won't disappear."
-Rose Marie Ledam

~Petra Megami Assari~
*The Gentle Tiger Goddess*