Petra: Originally, there was a very whiny, grouchy authors note.
Kati: We cringe looking back at them now.
Petra: Yep! So, we deleted them. Have fun reading!
DEDICATED: For the gundam pilots; I would set them free of their memories and guilt if I could.
WARNING: Love is love, people. If you're too biased, then leave.
DISCLAIMER: No own Gundam Wing. *cries*
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If You Could: Love is Love
"Man can fly into space and he can cure illnesses he never thought he'd overcome, but he can't forgive homosexuality." -Erin Cayce; Curing Homosexuality (GW)
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Odin awoke again in his bedroom and stared at the ceiling for a long moment, the ceiling of the room that had been his for a month… but he knew had to go. He couldn't stay here forever and, as he let his mind wander, he suddenly remembered what he had learned in his sleep.
"Maxwell Duo…" he softly whispered the name of the boy he had been dreaming about for the past month, and found that the name seemed to fit the boy. "Duo-kun…" He frowned slightly, it didn't sound right… A dangerous idea came to his mind and, he knew he shouldn't, but since when did he care if something was dangerous. "Duo-koi… koibito…" It sounded so right, calling this strange dream-boy his love and lover, and Odin wondered why he hadn't thought of it before… 'Because you were denying it,' a small voice reminded him and Odin turned on his stomach, staring unseeingly ahead, remembering when he had first discovered that his feelings for Duo were more than friendly.
He had been talking to Artemis, she was the easiest to talk to out of the group he'd found, and he had been telling her about what he remembered so far. He found that, though in most of his memories he didn't talk much and, in fact, hated it, now he loved talking with people and loved the idea that they were listening to him. So he was talking with Artemis and telling her his memories. She had been watching him differently that day, almost the same look as when they'd finished singing that first day; searchingly, almost as though she wanted to peer into his very soul. When he was done he stared at her a moment, a quizzical expression on his much more expressive face.
"Why are you looking at me like that, Arte-chan?" She had looked at him a moment more and then looked at the ground, before looking back up at him.
"Odin-kun, do you have any memory before you met this violet-eyed person or of you or any of the pilots together without him?" Odin looked at her in surprise. He had never noticed that before but... it was true, he didn't have any memories of any of the other pilots and him alone. The few memories he had of the other pilots, the violet-eyed boy had been there.
"Well, I have the one where I remembered my name, of someone, I think my father, introducing me but other than that, no. Why?" Odin said thoughtfully.
Artemis stared at him a moment, staring as though she herself would part the curtain that blocked his memory and then sighed, as though having had come to a hard decision. "Odin-kun, I'm going to ask you something and I want you to reply to me as open-mindedly and honestly as you can. Can you do that?" He had nodded his head, wondering what she was going to ask. She took a deep breath and then said, "Do you think you might be in love with this violet-eyed youth?"
He stared at her in shock, but there was no doubt in his mind that it was true, it felt so right and the word ran through his body like a string that had just been struck. "Demo… Takaga…" But… It's only… "I'm a boy, he's a boy…?" He looked at Artemis pleadingly.
She put a hand on his shoulder and smiled so sweetly it shocked him almost to tears. "Odin-kun, love can get past time and place and hatred and anything else that might be thrown in its path. Why should gender be any different?"
"Demo… the bible…" He had read the bible in one night, found it incredibly fascinating for understanding the people around him, and had done tons of research on it.
"No!" The vehemence and anger in the words almost made him jump away from Artemis in surprise. "PEOPLE say that it's wrong, nowhere in the bible does it say that! And if it does, I tell you right now, it is terribly wrong and it is blasphemy against the God I know and love!" She took a deep breath and seemed to consciously calm herself down. Frankly, he was surprised at how she acted, she was usually extremely calm and composed, unlike Hestia who usually had major mood-swings. "Listen, you know you love him, I know you love him… but be careful in front of Hestia, she says she understands, but I highly doubt she does…" She looked his eyes, saw the doubt, and then simply said, "If you ever start to doubt your love, remember: God loves you, and God would NEVER condemn you for loving anyone else… even if it's a he."
"How can you be so sure?" he asked, half of his mind picking up on the fact that Artemis was saying was being careful not to use 'he' or 'she'.
"Because, I believe that God loves me, that God loves everyone, that there is no such thing as hell, only heaven and rebirth, because God understands that sometimes we do things we regret. God never gives up on us, you know that… but you have to find God yourself… Start looking deep inside, deeper than you thought possible, and even deeper still. Keep looking, until you know, without a doubt, what you believe in." For a moment she looked so unlike the woman he had come to know and love that he was shocked.
Artemis smiled and then drew him into a tight hug. "Odin-kun, love, I love you… and if I can love you then so can whatever God or Goddess or whatever deity you believe in."
Odin stared at Artemis for a long moment and then asked, "And what if you don't know what to believe in? What if you don't believe in any kind of stuff like that?"
Artemis stared at him, slightly surprised at the fact that he was so serious and then smiled, a strange smile that was half happy, half sad. "Though it is sad to say so, that is the best way for you to get to know exactly what you believe in, because in that type of situation, you have no choice but to believe in yourself. A very wise actress, far behind your time, named Sandra Bullock, once said, 'And if you find your soulmate, it's because you've gotten to a place where you've figured out what your soul it.' I believe the same is true for God, also." She kissed him gently on the forehead, like a mother, and Odin felt a flash of warmth and belonging like he had never felt before. He stared at her in shock and she smiled at him and for a moment she seemed to glow with an inner light. Her hair moved in an unseen wind and her eyes suddenly seemed to a reflect a forest that was not there. "There is more to you than meets the eyes, Odin-kun, and I'm sure that everyone that meets you will love finding out what lies beneath the surface." Odin smiled at her, forgetting the moment when he thought he saw something more, and then started to walk off but, surprisingly Artemis suddenly stopped him. "Also, don't beat yourself up about it. You don't even know if he's the One. You're only fifteen, you have your whole life. You can't be sure that he's the one you want to spend your life with…" Odin nodded once, showing he understood, before walking away, Artemis' clear blue-green eyes watched him disappear and, for a minute, her eyes changed and one could almost see a forest reflected in their depths…
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IMPORTANT NOTE: For those of you that wish it, DUE TO MY SPORADIC postings, I am offering you, the readers, A MAILING LIST to sign up to. When I finally UPDATE, I will SEND OUT AN EMAIL informing those of you that are on the list that I have finally updated. I need you to EMAIL me, telling that you wish to sign up, and whether it's for ORIGINAL FICTION or FANFICTION. I WILL NOT accept those people that ask to be up on it in a review because I can't be sure that email is real. The mailing list will ALSO OFFER the TITLES of those works that I am posting, the COUPLES (if any) that are in it, which FANDOM it is from, and whether it is a SEQUEL to anything.
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Petra: I hope that you enjoyed this part.
Kati: Thanks to the people who did take the five seconds *glares at people who didn't review* to review:
ASAMI: ^_^ Thankie, thankie, thankie! Sadly, Duo and Heero haven't met yet... *giggle* Just wait... and it won't be that long of a wait either.
CJ: Thanks for the constructive critism. I was really glad to recieve it becuase I don't get it very often and I'm always looking for ways to improve, especially since I dream of one day writing a story that I can publish. And you're right, -_-; which is quite sad but it's been two years since I lived there and, with all the homework and the fact that it was a late night, I'm sorry that I made a mistake. I put it down as if Heero were introducing a third person... -_-; There is no way to explain how embaressed I feel at the moment... I will go back and correct it at once. Arigato gozaimasu! (Trust me, Jos won't stop remind me of it!)
"I dream of a day when I can open my eyes, and my dreams won't disappear."
-Rose Marie Ledam
~Petra Megami Assari~
*The Gentle Tiger Goddess*
Kati: We cringe looking back at them now.
Petra: Yep! So, we deleted them. Have fun reading!
DEDICATED: For the gundam pilots; I would set them free of their memories and guilt if I could.
WARNING: Love is love, people. If you're too biased, then leave.
DISCLAIMER: No own Gundam Wing. *cries*
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If You Could: Love is Love
"Man can fly into space and he can cure illnesses he never thought he'd overcome, but he can't forgive homosexuality." -Erin Cayce; Curing Homosexuality (GW)
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Odin awoke again in his bedroom and stared at the ceiling for a long moment, the ceiling of the room that had been his for a month… but he knew had to go. He couldn't stay here forever and, as he let his mind wander, he suddenly remembered what he had learned in his sleep.
"Maxwell Duo…" he softly whispered the name of the boy he had been dreaming about for the past month, and found that the name seemed to fit the boy. "Duo-kun…" He frowned slightly, it didn't sound right… A dangerous idea came to his mind and, he knew he shouldn't, but since when did he care if something was dangerous. "Duo-koi… koibito…" It sounded so right, calling this strange dream-boy his love and lover, and Odin wondered why he hadn't thought of it before… 'Because you were denying it,' a small voice reminded him and Odin turned on his stomach, staring unseeingly ahead, remembering when he had first discovered that his feelings for Duo were more than friendly.
He had been talking to Artemis, she was the easiest to talk to out of the group he'd found, and he had been telling her about what he remembered so far. He found that, though in most of his memories he didn't talk much and, in fact, hated it, now he loved talking with people and loved the idea that they were listening to him. So he was talking with Artemis and telling her his memories. She had been watching him differently that day, almost the same look as when they'd finished singing that first day; searchingly, almost as though she wanted to peer into his very soul. When he was done he stared at her a moment, a quizzical expression on his much more expressive face.
"Why are you looking at me like that, Arte-chan?" She had looked at him a moment more and then looked at the ground, before looking back up at him.
"Odin-kun, do you have any memory before you met this violet-eyed person or of you or any of the pilots together without him?" Odin looked at her in surprise. He had never noticed that before but... it was true, he didn't have any memories of any of the other pilots and him alone. The few memories he had of the other pilots, the violet-eyed boy had been there.
"Well, I have the one where I remembered my name, of someone, I think my father, introducing me but other than that, no. Why?" Odin said thoughtfully.
Artemis stared at him a moment, staring as though she herself would part the curtain that blocked his memory and then sighed, as though having had come to a hard decision. "Odin-kun, I'm going to ask you something and I want you to reply to me as open-mindedly and honestly as you can. Can you do that?" He had nodded his head, wondering what she was going to ask. She took a deep breath and then said, "Do you think you might be in love with this violet-eyed youth?"
He stared at her in shock, but there was no doubt in his mind that it was true, it felt so right and the word ran through his body like a string that had just been struck. "Demo… Takaga…" But… It's only… "I'm a boy, he's a boy…?" He looked at Artemis pleadingly.
She put a hand on his shoulder and smiled so sweetly it shocked him almost to tears. "Odin-kun, love can get past time and place and hatred and anything else that might be thrown in its path. Why should gender be any different?"
"Demo… the bible…" He had read the bible in one night, found it incredibly fascinating for understanding the people around him, and had done tons of research on it.
"No!" The vehemence and anger in the words almost made him jump away from Artemis in surprise. "PEOPLE say that it's wrong, nowhere in the bible does it say that! And if it does, I tell you right now, it is terribly wrong and it is blasphemy against the God I know and love!" She took a deep breath and seemed to consciously calm herself down. Frankly, he was surprised at how she acted, she was usually extremely calm and composed, unlike Hestia who usually had major mood-swings. "Listen, you know you love him, I know you love him… but be careful in front of Hestia, she says she understands, but I highly doubt she does…" She looked his eyes, saw the doubt, and then simply said, "If you ever start to doubt your love, remember: God loves you, and God would NEVER condemn you for loving anyone else… even if it's a he."
"How can you be so sure?" he asked, half of his mind picking up on the fact that Artemis was saying was being careful not to use 'he' or 'she'.
"Because, I believe that God loves me, that God loves everyone, that there is no such thing as hell, only heaven and rebirth, because God understands that sometimes we do things we regret. God never gives up on us, you know that… but you have to find God yourself… Start looking deep inside, deeper than you thought possible, and even deeper still. Keep looking, until you know, without a doubt, what you believe in." For a moment she looked so unlike the woman he had come to know and love that he was shocked.
Artemis smiled and then drew him into a tight hug. "Odin-kun, love, I love you… and if I can love you then so can whatever God or Goddess or whatever deity you believe in."
Odin stared at Artemis for a long moment and then asked, "And what if you don't know what to believe in? What if you don't believe in any kind of stuff like that?"
Artemis stared at him, slightly surprised at the fact that he was so serious and then smiled, a strange smile that was half happy, half sad. "Though it is sad to say so, that is the best way for you to get to know exactly what you believe in, because in that type of situation, you have no choice but to believe in yourself. A very wise actress, far behind your time, named Sandra Bullock, once said, 'And if you find your soulmate, it's because you've gotten to a place where you've figured out what your soul it.' I believe the same is true for God, also." She kissed him gently on the forehead, like a mother, and Odin felt a flash of warmth and belonging like he had never felt before. He stared at her in shock and she smiled at him and for a moment she seemed to glow with an inner light. Her hair moved in an unseen wind and her eyes suddenly seemed to a reflect a forest that was not there. "There is more to you than meets the eyes, Odin-kun, and I'm sure that everyone that meets you will love finding out what lies beneath the surface." Odin smiled at her, forgetting the moment when he thought he saw something more, and then started to walk off but, surprisingly Artemis suddenly stopped him. "Also, don't beat yourself up about it. You don't even know if he's the One. You're only fifteen, you have your whole life. You can't be sure that he's the one you want to spend your life with…" Odin nodded once, showing he understood, before walking away, Artemis' clear blue-green eyes watched him disappear and, for a minute, her eyes changed and one could almost see a forest reflected in their depths…
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IMPORTANT NOTE: For those of you that wish it, DUE TO MY SPORADIC postings, I am offering you, the readers, A MAILING LIST to sign up to. When I finally UPDATE, I will SEND OUT AN EMAIL informing those of you that are on the list that I have finally updated. I need you to EMAIL me, telling that you wish to sign up, and whether it's for ORIGINAL FICTION or FANFICTION. I WILL NOT accept those people that ask to be up on it in a review because I can't be sure that email is real. The mailing list will ALSO OFFER the TITLES of those works that I am posting, the COUPLES (if any) that are in it, which FANDOM it is from, and whether it is a SEQUEL to anything.
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Petra: I hope that you enjoyed this part.
Kati: Thanks to the people who did take the five seconds *glares at people who didn't review* to review:
ASAMI: ^_^ Thankie, thankie, thankie! Sadly, Duo and Heero haven't met yet... *giggle* Just wait... and it won't be that long of a wait either.
CJ: Thanks for the constructive critism. I was really glad to recieve it becuase I don't get it very often and I'm always looking for ways to improve, especially since I dream of one day writing a story that I can publish. And you're right, -_-; which is quite sad but it's been two years since I lived there and, with all the homework and the fact that it was a late night, I'm sorry that I made a mistake. I put it down as if Heero were introducing a third person... -_-; There is no way to explain how embaressed I feel at the moment... I will go back and correct it at once. Arigato gozaimasu! (Trust me, Jos won't stop remind me of it!)
"I dream of a day when I can open my eyes, and my dreams won't disappear."
-Rose Marie Ledam
~Petra Megami Assari~
*The Gentle Tiger Goddess*
