Petra: I am currently pissed at the girl who Iris represents but for reasons that I would care not to discuss. I actually like this part of the story. I think it is very well written. I think I captured Relena's character really well and, even though I don't like her, I have to admit that I do respect her for what she is trying to do. I read a story once where Relena said "I cannot be happy if the people I love aren't happy, which is something of a bitch when you love the whole world." I think that line, right there, summons up her personality. So what if she's annoying, she does get better. I don't know, I just can't bring myself to fully hate her becuase it takes so much strength for her to do what she has to do.
Kati: So, anyway, read and review dammit!
Petra: *cries* I thought this was a good story!
DEDICATED: For the gundam pilots; I would set them free of their memories and guilt if I could.
WARNING: If you don't get it by now, I'm sorry, but you never will!
DISCLAIMER: (fill in correct words here) ^_-
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If You Could: One Dreaming Heart; Two Conflicting Souls
"Sighing in defeat he rested his head against the wall, listening to the silent sound of shattered dreams." -SilverLady; Twisted Fates (GW)
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Relena stood on the doorstep at the closed door and tried, as hard as she could, to gain control of her jaw that, not only had lost feeling, but also the ability to stay closed. Had Heero just smiled? At Duo? Not at her? Had he just talked for an entire minute? About her? Leaving him alone? She blinked as she finally noticed the gloved hand that was waving in front of her and turned to look at her driver who was looking puzzled.
"Are you alright, Miss Relena?" he asked, looking with concern at the smaller blonde girl standing in front of him. "You look really pale…"
She shook her head, as though shaking herself out of a daze, and her eyes lost the glassy look that had been in them. "Yes, I'm fine… but I need to talk to Heero-kun…" She raised her hand to knock on the door again, only to find a strong hand clasped around her wrist keeping her from doing so. She turned to the driver, to ask why he had stopped her, only to see him staring in shock at someone behind her.
Relena turned to see a girl with curly golden brown hair pulled into a ponytail that fell to her shoulders, two long purple strands wafting gently on either side of her face to just below her bust, holding her wrist. She 'tsked', her blue eyes hinting just a bit toward violet as they sparkled mischievously. "Relena-san, you mustn't disturb Heero-kun at this point in time, he needs to tell the other pilots what happened and it's very important that he does so now, for a mission is about to come in."
Relena glared at the nerve of this girl standing in front of her and, as her blue eyes glinting dangerously, she yanked her hand out of the other's grip. "And who are you, that you think you can tell me what to do?!"
"I'm Iris," she said, flashing a smile at the younger girl, who sized Iris up with one quick flick of her eyes. The taller girl was wearing a pale violet dress that, as it reached her knees, began to form into a rainbow of colors. The sleeves bared her shoulders and faded to a rainbow as they reached her hands just as the bottom of her dress did. A multi-colored bow trailed from her ponytail to her knees. "Just Iris, I don't really feel like making up a last name."
Relena wrinkled her nose in disgust and then she softened in pity. "I'm sorry, you're an orphan?" she asked, reaching her hand out to the other girl.
Iris scoffed, dodging Relena's hand with as much as ease as a dolphin slips through the waves and with as much disgust as a lady dodging an unwanted suitor. "An orphan?!" Iris laughed out loud, a sound like that reminded Relena of rain, before answering, "Alas! If but I could choose to be, I would, for my family is a disgrace." She sighed dramatically, the back of her hand to her forehead. Relena was not amused.
"Well, Isis-san…"
"Iris!" the brunette interjected, sneering slightly.
"Iris-san, then," Relena said, her voice clearly telling the other girl she could care less. "Well, Iris-san, I don't see how any of this is your concern, now if you will just leave me be," Relena stepped past Iris and raised her hand again. "…I will…"
The blonde never got to finish, her sentence cut off by a pair of hands roughly grabbing her shoulders and turning her around to face a pair of blue eyes, brimming with violet flames and an unseen, unfelt wind making Iris's hair whip around her face angrily. "You have no right to tell me who and what is my business, la'rom!" Relena stared in shock as the woman yelled in fury in her at a language that the younger woman didn't recognize at all. Relena knew a bit of Japanese, a lot of French, English, and Spanish, not to mention a fair amount of Italian but she had never even heard this language before. The look on the girls face was enough to tell her that she should probably be glad that she didn't know what the taller girl was saying, for Relena was sure that it was derogatory. At some point she thought that she caught the name Zeus, but then was sure that she must have heard wrong, as Iris continued on her rant.
Iris stopped yelling and stood, staring at Relena furiously, the unseen and unfelt wind slowing to a stop and the fire in her eyes banking to hidden embers. "Relena-san. I am going to tell you only once more. You will go into your car and leave and you will not come back until they have left. Do you understand me?"
Relena tried to jerk out of the older woman's grip but found that Iris had suddenly grown incredibly strong. Glaring up with blue fury in her eyes, Relena tried to pull away one last time and, this time, Iris let her go and she went flying backwards and would have hit the door if Iris hadn't reached out and grabbed the lapel of her coat in time.
Relena grabbed her coat lapel and ripped it out of Iris's grasp. "You… you…" Relena could barely breathe, her rage was coursing through her veins too hard to catch. "How dare you touch me?!"
"How dare *I* touch *you*?! What about all the times you touched Heero-kun? Did he respond to you?" This new change of topic shocked Relena and she couldn't find the words to reply. "He didn't… because he's not INTERESTED!!!! Good goddesses, woman! He told you himself! He's not interested in you! At all! So just leave him in peace. If you really love him, you'll accept that he doesn't feel the same way!"
"But… but… he loves me…" Relena's muttered words didn't seem to hold any conviction even to her own ears. She kept hearing Heero's serious voice as it told her that he didn't like her, he liked brunettes. And the smile at Duo; he'd never smiled at her.
"Oh sweet Goddesses above, save me! He *doesn't* love you! Get over it!" Relena opened her mouth but Iris, all her own pain and own heartache entering in her own voice, as she yelled at the smaller girl, "He's not even interested in girls! He likes boys! He loves-" There was a pause as she almost let something slip before continuing, "He loves someone else and that someone else is A BOY!!!!!"
*Smack!* Iris stared in shock at Relena who was breathing heavily, her hand still raised from the slap. "Don't… ever… talk… about… Heero-kun… like that!" Iris's hand raised to her face, gingerly touching her still stinging cheek.
*Smack!* Relena's head snapped to right and stars danced before the blonde's eyes for a moment. An unsteady hand reached up and gingerly touched skin that was already reddening. Iris's blue-violet eyes were narrowed dangerously and Relena, who had never feared any of Heero's glares, found herself taking an involuntary step backward. "Do not EVER call me a liar and NEVER hit me! If I tell you something, it is in the full and honest truth. Do you think that I want Heero-kun to be… gay?! I mean, Goddesses, he's HOT! He's cute and I would love to see more of what's underneath that shell, especially now that he's showing his emotions more often, but that's just the way it turned out!" Relena felt tears pooling in her eyes and tried to blink them away to no avail. Maybe it was because Iris said it with such honesty in her voice that Relena had no chance but to believe her. Maybe it finally got through the thickness of Relena's head that Heero had smiled at someone else, Duo nonetheless, and not her. Maybe it was because, for the first time in her life, Relena had hit someone in an act of anger, acting in a flash of violent rage that she had never known existed within her. Or perhaps, as she told herself, it was just from that burning sensation on her cheek.
They stood there for a long moment, both of them not quite knowing what to say, just staring at each other. Two people, much alike, but extremely different in the same aspect, two souls, at war, from the moment that Relena had first seen Iris. Relena looked away first, noticing her driver standing frozen a few feet away for the first time since the conversation began. Was it true? Did Heero really not love her? It wasn't possible… was it? She didn't care at this point. All she knew was that she had to get away from this girl, this incredibly insightful person who knew where to put all the right barbs.
"I've got to go…" Relena whispered, rushing past Iris, hanging her head so that the older girl wouldn't see her tears. Her arms were wrapped around her waist as she tried to keep from being physically ill. Who was this woman, who seemed to know things that normally would take years to learn? Relena, using her hair as a shield, moved her head to take a quick look at Iris, only to brush the hair out of her face as she saw that the girl was gone without a trace.
As Relena got into the car she couldn't help but take a look back. As she did she thought she saw two shadows, one slightly rainbow colored, another a silvery-blue, talking together. She blinked and they were gone.
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Iris flickered in to the Otherworld for a moment and then flickered back to the shadows just outside the building where the pilots were staying. She felt a hand on her arm and turned to see Artemis staring at her, questions flickering across her face. Iris pouted playfully and asked, "Are you *sure* I can't have Heero?!"
Artemis almost tripped. "Iris-chan!" Iris managed to look somewhat repentant. "Iris-chan, I know you like him and of course he's to-die-for-hot, but the fact of the matter is that we can't have him. It wouldn't matter anyways… he belongs to an entirely different world, one where we don't exist."
"I could ask…"
"Ask who?" Artemis interrupted, "The Fates? They would laugh at you at best and strike you down like they did Zeus-baka for even daring to propose such a thing. The Fates cannot be persuaded from their path, anyways."
"It sucks being us, doesn't it?"
"Yeah… but you'd know better than me, I mean, technically, you're older."
Iris snorted. "Not by much. Besides, you like to take leadership, I just want to be left to my writing."
Artemis nodded, watching as Relena turned to look at Iris and then held back a laugh as the girl straightened and stared in shock at where Iris had stood. "What're you writing this time? And what name are you gonna use to publish it?"
Iris shrugged to the last question and replied, "It's the typical good versus bad. With elves and outcasts thrown in the mix." Artemis laughed. "As for the name… I don't know… I was thinking about Jenna Houston." Artemis shrugged and then watched as Relena turned and almost appeared to be looking at them.
"We should go," Artemis said and Iris shrugged before nodded. Their forms wavered and they were gone to the Otherworld, leaving behind the scent of vanilla mixed with strawberries.
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IMPORTANT NOTE: For those of you that wish it, DUE TO MY SPORADIC postings, I am offering you, the readers, A MAILING LIST to sign up to. When I finally UPDATE, I will SEND OUT AN EMAIL informing those of you that are on the list that I have finally updated. I need you to EMAIL me, telling that you wish to sign up, and whether it's for ORIGINAL FICTION or FANFICTION. I WILL NOT accept those people that ask to be up on it in a review because I can't be sure that email is real. The mailing list will ALSO OFFER the TITLES of those works that I am posting, the COUPLES (if any) that are in it, which FANDOM it is from, and whether it is a SEQUEL to anything.
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Petra: I hoped you liked this part, becuase I loved writing it!
Kati: Okay, people, REVIEW!!! Understand? REVIEW!!!
Petra: I'm getting depressed and a depressed Petra is not a fun Petra which means I'll just stop posting! In fact, I refuse to post more if I don't get at least five reviews, dammit! I really liked this story but now I feel like it's really bad because I don't get any reviews. *cries* Well, quick note on Iris: It was fun to make these two people, both obsessed with the same character. Yes, Iris aka Jen-chan is also like that in real life. She's totally addicted to Heero. She writes stories whose soul purpose is to get the two together! --- They're not very good but I'm working with her and hopefully she'll get better. Well... we can hope, ne? As an example of how obsessed she is with anime and manga in general, she's failed the second part of Algebra 1 (she's a senoir in high school) three or four times! *sigh* It is so sad! *groan* I've tried to tell her but I guess I'm going to have to end up hammering it into her skull!! What am I going to do! Lord...
Kati: Anyways, thanks to:
SERENASMI6: ^_^ Trust me, I don't plan on stopping this story. I'm just getting a little down in the dumps becuase no one's reviewing... *pouts*
SILVER ANGEL: Hey, girl, I feel so happy that you always review! ^_^ You liked the last chapter? I bet you loved this one. The things we (the fans) have always wanted to say to the bitch... I mean stalker... I mean Relena ^_^;
VIOLET TEARS: The new Heero? Lord what I wouldn't give to get my hands on a 'new Heero'! Hell, even the old grumpy, but cute Heero would do! He's so kawaii! Thanks for reviewing!
"I dream of a day when I can open my eyes, and my dreams won't disappear."
-Rose Marie Ledam
~Petra Megami Assari~
*The Gentle Tiger Goddess*
Kati: So, anyway, read and review dammit!
Petra: *cries* I thought this was a good story!
DEDICATED: For the gundam pilots; I would set them free of their memories and guilt if I could.
WARNING: If you don't get it by now, I'm sorry, but you never will!
DISCLAIMER: (fill in correct words here) ^_-
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If You Could: One Dreaming Heart; Two Conflicting Souls
"Sighing in defeat he rested his head against the wall, listening to the silent sound of shattered dreams." -SilverLady; Twisted Fates (GW)
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Relena stood on the doorstep at the closed door and tried, as hard as she could, to gain control of her jaw that, not only had lost feeling, but also the ability to stay closed. Had Heero just smiled? At Duo? Not at her? Had he just talked for an entire minute? About her? Leaving him alone? She blinked as she finally noticed the gloved hand that was waving in front of her and turned to look at her driver who was looking puzzled.
"Are you alright, Miss Relena?" he asked, looking with concern at the smaller blonde girl standing in front of him. "You look really pale…"
She shook her head, as though shaking herself out of a daze, and her eyes lost the glassy look that had been in them. "Yes, I'm fine… but I need to talk to Heero-kun…" She raised her hand to knock on the door again, only to find a strong hand clasped around her wrist keeping her from doing so. She turned to the driver, to ask why he had stopped her, only to see him staring in shock at someone behind her.
Relena turned to see a girl with curly golden brown hair pulled into a ponytail that fell to her shoulders, two long purple strands wafting gently on either side of her face to just below her bust, holding her wrist. She 'tsked', her blue eyes hinting just a bit toward violet as they sparkled mischievously. "Relena-san, you mustn't disturb Heero-kun at this point in time, he needs to tell the other pilots what happened and it's very important that he does so now, for a mission is about to come in."
Relena glared at the nerve of this girl standing in front of her and, as her blue eyes glinting dangerously, she yanked her hand out of the other's grip. "And who are you, that you think you can tell me what to do?!"
"I'm Iris," she said, flashing a smile at the younger girl, who sized Iris up with one quick flick of her eyes. The taller girl was wearing a pale violet dress that, as it reached her knees, began to form into a rainbow of colors. The sleeves bared her shoulders and faded to a rainbow as they reached her hands just as the bottom of her dress did. A multi-colored bow trailed from her ponytail to her knees. "Just Iris, I don't really feel like making up a last name."
Relena wrinkled her nose in disgust and then she softened in pity. "I'm sorry, you're an orphan?" she asked, reaching her hand out to the other girl.
Iris scoffed, dodging Relena's hand with as much as ease as a dolphin slips through the waves and with as much disgust as a lady dodging an unwanted suitor. "An orphan?!" Iris laughed out loud, a sound like that reminded Relena of rain, before answering, "Alas! If but I could choose to be, I would, for my family is a disgrace." She sighed dramatically, the back of her hand to her forehead. Relena was not amused.
"Well, Isis-san…"
"Iris!" the brunette interjected, sneering slightly.
"Iris-san, then," Relena said, her voice clearly telling the other girl she could care less. "Well, Iris-san, I don't see how any of this is your concern, now if you will just leave me be," Relena stepped past Iris and raised her hand again. "…I will…"
The blonde never got to finish, her sentence cut off by a pair of hands roughly grabbing her shoulders and turning her around to face a pair of blue eyes, brimming with violet flames and an unseen, unfelt wind making Iris's hair whip around her face angrily. "You have no right to tell me who and what is my business, la'rom!" Relena stared in shock as the woman yelled in fury in her at a language that the younger woman didn't recognize at all. Relena knew a bit of Japanese, a lot of French, English, and Spanish, not to mention a fair amount of Italian but she had never even heard this language before. The look on the girls face was enough to tell her that she should probably be glad that she didn't know what the taller girl was saying, for Relena was sure that it was derogatory. At some point she thought that she caught the name Zeus, but then was sure that she must have heard wrong, as Iris continued on her rant.
Iris stopped yelling and stood, staring at Relena furiously, the unseen and unfelt wind slowing to a stop and the fire in her eyes banking to hidden embers. "Relena-san. I am going to tell you only once more. You will go into your car and leave and you will not come back until they have left. Do you understand me?"
Relena tried to jerk out of the older woman's grip but found that Iris had suddenly grown incredibly strong. Glaring up with blue fury in her eyes, Relena tried to pull away one last time and, this time, Iris let her go and she went flying backwards and would have hit the door if Iris hadn't reached out and grabbed the lapel of her coat in time.
Relena grabbed her coat lapel and ripped it out of Iris's grasp. "You… you…" Relena could barely breathe, her rage was coursing through her veins too hard to catch. "How dare you touch me?!"
"How dare *I* touch *you*?! What about all the times you touched Heero-kun? Did he respond to you?" This new change of topic shocked Relena and she couldn't find the words to reply. "He didn't… because he's not INTERESTED!!!! Good goddesses, woman! He told you himself! He's not interested in you! At all! So just leave him in peace. If you really love him, you'll accept that he doesn't feel the same way!"
"But… but… he loves me…" Relena's muttered words didn't seem to hold any conviction even to her own ears. She kept hearing Heero's serious voice as it told her that he didn't like her, he liked brunettes. And the smile at Duo; he'd never smiled at her.
"Oh sweet Goddesses above, save me! He *doesn't* love you! Get over it!" Relena opened her mouth but Iris, all her own pain and own heartache entering in her own voice, as she yelled at the smaller girl, "He's not even interested in girls! He likes boys! He loves-" There was a pause as she almost let something slip before continuing, "He loves someone else and that someone else is A BOY!!!!!"
*Smack!* Iris stared in shock at Relena who was breathing heavily, her hand still raised from the slap. "Don't… ever… talk… about… Heero-kun… like that!" Iris's hand raised to her face, gingerly touching her still stinging cheek.
*Smack!* Relena's head snapped to right and stars danced before the blonde's eyes for a moment. An unsteady hand reached up and gingerly touched skin that was already reddening. Iris's blue-violet eyes were narrowed dangerously and Relena, who had never feared any of Heero's glares, found herself taking an involuntary step backward. "Do not EVER call me a liar and NEVER hit me! If I tell you something, it is in the full and honest truth. Do you think that I want Heero-kun to be… gay?! I mean, Goddesses, he's HOT! He's cute and I would love to see more of what's underneath that shell, especially now that he's showing his emotions more often, but that's just the way it turned out!" Relena felt tears pooling in her eyes and tried to blink them away to no avail. Maybe it was because Iris said it with such honesty in her voice that Relena had no chance but to believe her. Maybe it finally got through the thickness of Relena's head that Heero had smiled at someone else, Duo nonetheless, and not her. Maybe it was because, for the first time in her life, Relena had hit someone in an act of anger, acting in a flash of violent rage that she had never known existed within her. Or perhaps, as she told herself, it was just from that burning sensation on her cheek.
They stood there for a long moment, both of them not quite knowing what to say, just staring at each other. Two people, much alike, but extremely different in the same aspect, two souls, at war, from the moment that Relena had first seen Iris. Relena looked away first, noticing her driver standing frozen a few feet away for the first time since the conversation began. Was it true? Did Heero really not love her? It wasn't possible… was it? She didn't care at this point. All she knew was that she had to get away from this girl, this incredibly insightful person who knew where to put all the right barbs.
"I've got to go…" Relena whispered, rushing past Iris, hanging her head so that the older girl wouldn't see her tears. Her arms were wrapped around her waist as she tried to keep from being physically ill. Who was this woman, who seemed to know things that normally would take years to learn? Relena, using her hair as a shield, moved her head to take a quick look at Iris, only to brush the hair out of her face as she saw that the girl was gone without a trace.
As Relena got into the car she couldn't help but take a look back. As she did she thought she saw two shadows, one slightly rainbow colored, another a silvery-blue, talking together. She blinked and they were gone.
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Iris flickered in to the Otherworld for a moment and then flickered back to the shadows just outside the building where the pilots were staying. She felt a hand on her arm and turned to see Artemis staring at her, questions flickering across her face. Iris pouted playfully and asked, "Are you *sure* I can't have Heero?!"
Artemis almost tripped. "Iris-chan!" Iris managed to look somewhat repentant. "Iris-chan, I know you like him and of course he's to-die-for-hot, but the fact of the matter is that we can't have him. It wouldn't matter anyways… he belongs to an entirely different world, one where we don't exist."
"I could ask…"
"Ask who?" Artemis interrupted, "The Fates? They would laugh at you at best and strike you down like they did Zeus-baka for even daring to propose such a thing. The Fates cannot be persuaded from their path, anyways."
"It sucks being us, doesn't it?"
"Yeah… but you'd know better than me, I mean, technically, you're older."
Iris snorted. "Not by much. Besides, you like to take leadership, I just want to be left to my writing."
Artemis nodded, watching as Relena turned to look at Iris and then held back a laugh as the girl straightened and stared in shock at where Iris had stood. "What're you writing this time? And what name are you gonna use to publish it?"
Iris shrugged to the last question and replied, "It's the typical good versus bad. With elves and outcasts thrown in the mix." Artemis laughed. "As for the name… I don't know… I was thinking about Jenna Houston." Artemis shrugged and then watched as Relena turned and almost appeared to be looking at them.
"We should go," Artemis said and Iris shrugged before nodded. Their forms wavered and they were gone to the Otherworld, leaving behind the scent of vanilla mixed with strawberries.
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IMPORTANT NOTE: For those of you that wish it, DUE TO MY SPORADIC postings, I am offering you, the readers, A MAILING LIST to sign up to. When I finally UPDATE, I will SEND OUT AN EMAIL informing those of you that are on the list that I have finally updated. I need you to EMAIL me, telling that you wish to sign up, and whether it's for ORIGINAL FICTION or FANFICTION. I WILL NOT accept those people that ask to be up on it in a review because I can't be sure that email is real. The mailing list will ALSO OFFER the TITLES of those works that I am posting, the COUPLES (if any) that are in it, which FANDOM it is from, and whether it is a SEQUEL to anything.
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Petra: I hoped you liked this part, becuase I loved writing it!
Kati: Okay, people, REVIEW!!! Understand? REVIEW!!!
Petra: I'm getting depressed and a depressed Petra is not a fun Petra which means I'll just stop posting! In fact, I refuse to post more if I don't get at least five reviews, dammit! I really liked this story but now I feel like it's really bad because I don't get any reviews. *cries* Well, quick note on Iris: It was fun to make these two people, both obsessed with the same character. Yes, Iris aka Jen-chan is also like that in real life. She's totally addicted to Heero. She writes stories whose soul purpose is to get the two together! --- They're not very good but I'm working with her and hopefully she'll get better. Well... we can hope, ne? As an example of how obsessed she is with anime and manga in general, she's failed the second part of Algebra 1 (she's a senoir in high school) three or four times! *sigh* It is so sad! *groan* I've tried to tell her but I guess I'm going to have to end up hammering it into her skull!! What am I going to do! Lord...
Kati: Anyways, thanks to:
SERENASMI6: ^_^ Trust me, I don't plan on stopping this story. I'm just getting a little down in the dumps becuase no one's reviewing... *pouts*
SILVER ANGEL: Hey, girl, I feel so happy that you always review! ^_^ You liked the last chapter? I bet you loved this one. The things we (the fans) have always wanted to say to the bitch... I mean stalker... I mean Relena ^_^;
VIOLET TEARS: The new Heero? Lord what I wouldn't give to get my hands on a 'new Heero'! Hell, even the old grumpy, but cute Heero would do! He's so kawaii! Thanks for reviewing!
"I dream of a day when I can open my eyes, and my dreams won't disappear."
-Rose Marie Ledam
~Petra Megami Assari~
*The Gentle Tiger Goddess*
