A/N: Hey guys! I am soooo sooo sooo sorry that it took me so long to update. My laptop has officially stopped working so its a lot harder for me to get chapters and what not written. This is probably one of the darkest pieces of writing I have ever written, and I have a feeling I just might get a lot of hate mail or whatever for what happens to the characters. I'm trying to make this as realistic as I can, and I purposely made it a bit hard to interpret, it's all just to build character and ultimately bring the story to a close. I'm planning on ending this story with a good 20 chapters and then the epilogue. So it looks like I've got 7 more chapters for you guys to read. I will try and update more timely like I had before, but now that school has started and that my laptop is broken it will most likely take longer. Love to all the readers and reviewers! Please keep reading!

The film and music soundtrack was completed on time despite the two week break David had taken off for Jess's recovery. Jess and Tanner were closer than ever, and now that Jess had finished her demo, which was approved of, she now had a record deal with Q Records. Now that this has happened, Jess has decided to take some time off before heading off to college. Jess was now back at home with her family, and Tanner was doing some promotional stuff for the movie while the Harrison-Quincy family would start their own promotional tour.

Jude and Jess were sitting in front of the camera for their E Talk Daily interview with Tommy and Derek in the back just smiling, and Derek waving and blowing spit bubbles.

"This is E Talk Daily news, and as a special treat, we have the two beautiful Harrison-Quincy girls, Jude and Jessica with us," the reporter said as the two smiled and waved at the camera and then turned their attention back to the reporter.

"Now, we've heard the news that your film 'Iris' has just wrapped up on filming, what was that like seeing all the moments between you and Tommy that were once so personal now on the verge of being available for all the world to see?"

"At first, we were both a little hesitant. But Tommy and I had decided that our story was one that people should see. Even though Tommy and I are both full grown adults now with our own family, we understand that there are still people out there who disapprove of what has happened and what they've seen in the tabloids. And so with this movie, it's our side of the story, what really happened and the truth," Jude answered doing little hand gestures and looking straight into the reporter's eyes.

"So, this is sort of like your answer back to all the tabloids that tried to exploit your relationship with Tom Quincy as something negative?" The reporter asked.

"I wouldn't put it that way, but it's the truth, the way the media takes it is their choice," Jude added. Tommy nodded, approving with what Jude was so far saying. It was like the two could read each other's minds, they knew exactly what they would want to say to the media.

"Now, do you think Tanner Hudson and Rebecca Earnest portrayed the life you have between you and Tommy the way it had happened?" The reporter questioned.

"Well, I can't say it was exactly the way it had happened. That's impossible to do, but I have to say it's pretty damn close. They two did an incredible job with the film and I can't wait until it comes out, I'm almost just as eager to see it as all of our fans are," Jude said with a smile.

"Thank you, now Jessica, we've heard that you were the main musical voice behind the soundtrack, are expecting to hear your voice on the tracks?"

"Well, I was promoted to main producer and I did some of the musical score on the movie, which was a lot of fun, I loved it. And yes, I do have a couple tracks on the soundtrack. One of them is a duet with my mother, and another is a Jess Harrison-Quincy original," Jess said with a smile. Tommy couldn't help but smile at the way Jess had managed to work the reporters.

"So does that mean we will soon be hearing more of your own original music to be hitting the airwaves?"

"It does actually, just about a week or two ago I proved to my parents with a self produced demo and they have now signed me," Jess said with another smile.

"Now, back to the movie, is it true that you and Tanner Hudson are now an item?" The reporter asked, most eager to hear Jess's answer. Jess gave a sly smile and looked into the reporter's eyes and said "No comment,"

The interview wrapped up nicely, the reporter even giving Jess her own opinion of impressment towards the way the interview had been handled. There was only a month left until the movie was to premiere, and there was still many more promotional interviews and such that they all had to do. Many of them were of the whole family, and some of them were just of either Jude and Tommy, Jude and Jess, or Jess and Tommy. There was one interview where the angle was "Like Mother Like Daughter" for just Jess and Jude.

The interview had gone through great, on Jess's break Tanner had called her.

"Hey babe, how's it going in Toronto?" Jess asked with a smile.

"It's going good, I have a few more promotional stunts to do and then I'll come down and visit you guys. But Jess, there's something I got to talk to you about when I get down there next week, ok? Don't worry yourself over it though, it's nothing bad, just something that I think it's time we talk about," Tanner said a little hurriedly.

"Alright, but you should know that whenever you say 'don't worry' that I always do in the end," Jess said taking a sip of her water as the stylist waved her over, meaning the end of her break. "Look, I gotta go, I'm at a photo shoot for People and I'm being called over, bye babe, I love you," And Jess hung up the phone as she was ushered into the dressing room and given her outfit to wear.

Tanner was sitting at his interview, answering all the questions the right way and everything. The woman that was interviewing him was swooning at every word he said, it was starting to annoy him a little. As soon as the interview finished, Tanner was headed back to his hotel to rest up for the rest of the day. He collapsed on the bed and couldn't help but keep thinking about Jess. He saw the interview with E Talk, and as much as he wished Jess had just said they were together, he was glad she hadn't. That was something they hadn't discussed with each other either, and so knowing she had given the neutral answer only made him love Jess even more.

But the real thought on his mind, was the fact that he lives in Toronto, and she in Manhattan. Tanner could pretty much live wherever he wants, he could live in Manhattan and still maintain good movie roles, but were they ready for that? They had only been dating for about 5 months, and even though they both confessed they love each other, they weren't so sure they were ready for that step yet. Not to mention, the fact that long distance relationships aren't famous for working, evened out the whole ordeal. But just as Tommy had said 'old habits do die hard', and the 'one night stand' aspect of Tanner's mind was going through withdrawals.

The week passed by, and Tanner was already at his hotel in Manhattan. He was planning on going out to dinner with Jess that night, and he knew Jess was an impatient girl. He planned on her asking about what it was they had needed to discuss that night. Tanner was silent in his knowing that the conversation couldn't help but go sour, mainly because Tanner still didn't know what to do. He wasn't ready either to move in with Jess, he may be older than her, but that still didn't mean he wanted to already move in with her. And he knew that was the reason why Jess and Ethan hadn't lasted, Ethan wanted to settle down and Jess didn't want that.

Jess was sitting at the restaurant in her usual casual attire, as was Tanner, he walked in and kissed her softly on her cheek and then took his seat across from her.

"Hey, how was your flight?" Jess asked as Tanner took her hand in his.

"It was good, no noisy strange people annoying me, that's what you gotta love about first class," Tanner said with a smile, Jess just smiled back, reveling in their simple hand lock.

"So, I missed you a lot. I haven't seen you in about a month," Jess said taking a sip of her water.

"I missed you a lot, too baby. I'm just glad they invented phones and email or else I wouldn't have barely made it," Tanner added.

The two made their usual conversation, laughing at some of the random stories of the night and the casual quirkiness of Jude and Tommy's random stories from the past month. Tanner and Jess stole glances at each other, their eyes saying their emotions without the use of words.

"So, what was it you wanted to talk to me about?" Jess asked that ominous question that they had both been regretting.

"Well, I just wanted to know, what are we going to do...about us," Tanner said shyly taking a sip of his wine.

"Right, because we both live in different countries," Jess mentioned.

"And you can't exactly move since now you have your album to record," Tanner added.

"Well, you could always move down here," Jess stated, "I mean, I am getting my own apartment soon,"

"That's sort of it Jess, I'm not so sure I want to take that step yet," Tanner said, trying his hardest to keep his eyes on her, but he found it hard when it came to breaking the news to her.

"Well, then don't, you could always get your own place," Jess reminded him.

"I know but, everything I know is in Toronto, Jess. I can't just leave home," Tanner added. He was trying his hardest to find reasons to be with Jess, but he couldn't help but find himself not wanting to move to be with her.

"Look Tanner, I'm trying to make this easier for us, if you don't want to be with me say it now before I'm in too deep and get hurt," Jess stated boldly, trying her hardest to keep her cool.

"Jess, I want to be with you. You know I do, you know I love you. But, I just don't see how we're going to work, we could always try a long distance relationship but-"

"Oh yeah, because those work so well these days," Jess remarked sarcastically sitting back in her chair.

"I'm trying to make this work too Jess. Don't start giving me attitude," Tanner said firmly.

"Well I'm sorry, it just seems like the odds are against us. You don't want to move because everything you know is in Toronto, it's your 'home', and you aren't ready to take that step to make a home with me," Jess added.

"Oh, how convenient, this coming from the girl who broke up with a guy for not wanting to do that just yet!" Tanner said venomously. The statement hit Jess like a slap across her face.

"That's so unfair and you know it. I didn't love Ethan the way I love you, and I never will. I'm not asking for marriage Tanner, I'm not asking for a soulmate. I'm asking for my boyfriend to move in with me so we can be together and share the next moments. If we're together long enough and things are going steady and we love each other that much, sure, let's get married and start a family. But I'm sorry that you just don't know what commitment is," Jess said grabbing her purse and leaving a twenty on the table.

"Jess, where are you going," Tanner said as he followed her out the entrance of the restaurant.

"Home, yours is on Toronto," Jess said pulling her keys out of her purse and putting them in the door.

"Jess, c'mon, let's talk this out," Tanner said trying to plead with her.

"No! I think we talked enough tonight Tanner. It's clear to me that we're on different pages, so let's just make this simple for both of us. We're done ok? Now you can go back to Toronto and this week's worth of one night stands and pleasurable sex, while I work on my music, hang out with friends and enjoy life without the one person I want to spend some of it with," Jess said getting into her car and slamming the door in his face as she turned the ignition and drove off.

Jude and Tommy were already asleep, finally getting Derek down to rest as well, when Jess had quietly opened the door and walked inside. She tossed her purse on her bed and dropped her coat on the chair in her room. She could feel the tears starting to burn her eyes, threatening to fall, but Jess defeated that purpose when she had wiped the unshed tears from her eyes. Jess walked into the kitchen and found the almost emptied bottle of vodka in the cabinet. It wasn't completely empty, but definitely enough to give Jess a buzz without her parents realizing the bottle was missing. Jess grabbed the bottle, furiously twisting the cap open. She drank the burning transparent liquid as it burned it's path down her throat, and Jess did nothing but welcomed the feeling with open arms.

She was angry, furious, raging with emotions. Jess felt strangely vengeful, a feeling she had rarely ever felt. And she knew that there was one thing that she could do to make Tanner feel low. But could she really go that far? Jess had no idea if she could, all she knew was that she felt like making Tanner feel horrible. The liquid was starting to cloud her judgement, and she felt the yearning temptation of vengeance creep up on her soul. Jess grabbed her keys and took off into the night, heading for one house in particular.

Jess may have been drunk, but she was able to think smartly enough to take the side streets instead of the main roads to her destination. When she parked on the side of the street, Jess stumbled out of the car, the empty bottle falling from her hand, breaking into hundreds of glass shards. She banged on the front door, and Ethan appeared, fully surprised at her presence.

"Jess, what are you-" Ethan's words were cut off by Jess's slips forcefully connecting with his. Ethan didn't object at all, and instead welcomed it by deepening the kiss, now tasting the flavor of vodka in her mouth. Ethan pulled away and looked her in the eyes.

"Jess, you're drunk," Ethan said a little concerned.

"Yeah, and you can be too, I know you have a fake ID," Jess whispered seductively in his ear. Ethan was trying to fight the urge of grabbing the bottle of tequila in his cabinet and downing several shots, that is, until he noticed Jess was already there twisting the bottle open and drinking it straight from the bottle.

"Jess, what's going on?" Ethan asked until Jess placed the bottle in his mouth and tilted it, allowing him to taste it's strong effects. That's all it had taken for Ethan to think 'to hell with responsibility' and grab the bottle from Jess's hands and down some of it.

The two took some shot glasses and had four shots each, before they had felt completely wasted. Jess felt her vengeance once again, and Ethan felt the one thing he had wanted more than anything sneak up on him, as they both met each other's lips once again and feverishly stole kisses with each other. Jess was too drunk to realize what she had really been doing, not when she felt his hand go up her shirt, or his other hand unbuckle her belt and take off her pants. Ethan was too caught up in his lusting, and Jess was much too hurt and looking for both solace and vengeance to realize the mistake she was making. That was, until she had remembered all the things she had shared with Tanner, all the heartbreak and pain Ethan has caused her, and all the times Tanner had picked her up from off the floor.

"No! No! no!" Jess screamed, but it was too late. Ethan didn't care anymore.

"It's too late for turning back Jess," Ethan growled at her as he started to kiss her harder, and touch her more roughly.

"Stop! Please Ethan!" Jess cried, sanity starting to reach her head as she tried to push Ethan off.

"You asked for this Jess!" Ethan yelled as he pinned her down and forcefully received the one thing he wanted the most. Jess felt regret and pain all over as Ethan silenced her cries by shoving his shirt in her mouth as he kept taking her in.

Jess lied on the couch limply. She was sore all over, she couldn't feel a thing at all, she watched through her tear filled eyes as Ethan got off the couch and went to his bathroom. Jess cried on the couch, ashamed of herself. Ethan was right, that's what she had gone their for, she went to his house drunk, got him drunk, and before she realized what she was doing, it was far too late. Ethan was too intoxicated to think responsibly, and he had given her what she asked for. Jess got dressed, and limped out of the house, and got into her car. When she was inside, she had locked the door, turned up the radio, and sobbed into her hands. She felt so dirty and worthless, and she had no idea where she could go.

Jess drove without thought and surprisingly wound up safely home in the drive way. She noticed her father was sitting on the front porch, she could feel his calm anger eminating from his eyes when he noticed she was home. Jess quietly got out of the car, locking it, and slowly walking up the steps to her house, trying to silence her cries, which wasn't working.

"I'm hoping you had fun Jessica. Enough fun to make this next moment between you and your mother and I worth what you did tonight," Tommy said harshly as Jess just walked into the house and saw her mother sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of water in her hands.

"A bottle of alcohol is missing Jess, now, unless Derek is a miracle baby and already knows how to walk and is strong enough to get on top of a chair to reach the cabinet, I suggest you start explaining what the HELL YOU DID TONIGHT!" Jude yelled the last part. Jess winced at her anger, and realized that her father's was nothing compared to her mother's at the moment.

"Tanner and I broke up. I was upset and decided to try and get rid of it," Jess said softly, looking down at the ground.

"So you decided to get drunk because of a broken heart, did it work?" Jess was silent. "Did getting drunk work Jessica?" Jude yelled loud enough not to wake up Derek but enough to get her point across.

"No, it didn't!" Jess cried, as she fell to the ground and curled herself up by bringing her knees to her chin and crying harder.

"Jessica, get up," Tommy said walking towards her and standing above her. Jess felt that he was too close to her, so she scooted away more. Jude noticed this, and walked towards her crouched down in front of her.

"Get up now Jessica," Jude said firmly, then noticing that her eyes were blood shot and puffy, her shirt looked stretch, like someone had pulled it off, and that her hair was unkempt.

"J-j-just get away!" Jess cried loudly as she scooted back more into the couch sobbing as Jude's anger was washed away and concern came flooding to her voice like a high tide.

"Honey, Jess. What were your intentions by getting drunk?" Jude asked being sure not to touch her at all as she backed away from her daughter a good foot and a half.

"First, I wanted to numb everything. I didn't want to feel horrible anymore," Jess said still crying and keeping herself curled in a tight ball.

"Alright, so then where did you sweetie?" Jude asked trying to keep her anger back and keep the sympathy in her voice heard.

"What are you-" Tommy was interrupted when Jude shushed him and looked towards to Jessica, pointing out all the signs to him with her eyes.

"I went, I-I-I can't. I can't say it. I can't!" Jess cried hugging herself tightly as she sobbed into her knees.

"Jessica honey, please, tell us what happened," Jude said softly, accidentally placing a hand on her daughter's shoulder, regretting it as soon as she heard Jess scream in the most frightening way ever and jump up running towards the other side of the room.

"Jessica, please, calm down baby," Tommy said keeping his distance from her as Jess just backed away and slid down the wall and sobbed once again.

"I...I...I can't. I can't say anything! It's what I wanted! I got exactly what I wanted!" Jess screamed as she held herself tighter and crying even more. Jude was starting to get even more worried as to what had happened now that Jess has said this much. Tommy was starting to grow impatient, but his concern was an all time high.

"Jessica, please you need to tell us what happened. Please tell us where you went," Jude said her suspicions of what happened starting to grow more certain.

"I, I, I was at Ethan's," Jess said sobbing even harder.

"Why would you-"

"I WANTED TO HURT TANNER!" Jess cried, and her mother looked down at her with shock and concern.

"What?" Tommy said with astonishment.

"Tanner doesn't want to move here, and be with me. So after I drank that stuff, I thought, 'Hell, I can be with anyone now, and there's one person I know for sure that would want to be with me!', so I drove to Ethan's. I got there, and he didn't want to do anything at first, so I got him just as drunk as I was if not drunker, and before I could realize the huge mistake I was making, we did it," Jess said, her words just pouring out as she cried.

Tommy and Jude looked at Jess dumbfounded, they had thought something had happened, but they had no idea that was what it was, or what was next.

"Don't forget, that since that's what I intended to do the whole time, that just because my judgement cleared and I screamed no and stop at him before he could have done anything, it doesn't matter! Yeah, I went there for sex! And even though I had a change of heart and made that clear to the bastard, I STILL GOT WHAT I WENT THERE FOR!" Jess cried suddenly feeling breathless and everything was starting to become a blur. Jess's head started to bobble a bit, and Tommy and Jude noticed this.

"Jessica, Jessica please," but before Jude could get her attention, Jess's body slid down to the floor and she was unconcious.