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A/N: chapter five, lately I've been feeling Andrew-y, is that a good thing:(
anyway, hear me out for a sec, this one is kind of necessary... well, not really but I wanted to show the affect of Andrew's words on his mum. I think this one is VERY crappy, because I didn't feel like making Andrew so whiny again (next chapter he'll go SO whiny… it already makes me sick).. so… ejoy, I guess ;shrugs;
Phantom Rogue: ;hands Andrew to you; there ya go! ;whistles innocently; :D
Frog1: you're a psychic:) thanks for your review!
DizneeDol: here's another one:) thank you for the review ;gives you cookie;
PernDragonrider: :D thanks, I try my best… this one is a bit different though.
zeopurple: don't worry, trust me in this one, Ashley is fine with it, or she will be anyways. It's Andros who's gonna get it, next chapter if it goes alright.
but, thank you for the review:)
Star Fata: well, don't forget Karone is just an aunt. She can't interefer more than she already did (and will do). Karone's role is basically to mediate between Andrew and his parents by showing him how much affect there is to his words, by showing him that his parents really love him. at least Ashley does. ;evilgrin;
SweetSas: yeah and it's gonjna get heavier, but I warned you guys! Ash ran because Andrew said horrible things, don't forget she's pregnant and she's vulnerable too… I suppose that Quest into Space III will be a little more lighter though, things will work out. Trust me, mate:)
Quest into Space II: Father and Son
by DarkHonda aka Tal
Chapter 5
I probably fell asleep, because the next thing I noticed was someone stroking my hair gently. I wished it would be mum, but I knew she wouldn't, not after all I have said to her. I slowly opened my eyes, still in the sleep-induced haze, I could slightly notice a few Power Rangers in Space posters that surrounded me. I sighed and slowly turned, now lying on my back, finally looking at Aunt Karone. I closed my eyes painfully, the things I've said…and done still echoing through my mind and body, but I had to. No matter how disgusted I felt after doing this to her, I had to, because I couldn't keep living like this.
Aunt Karone slowly stroked my cheek and I opened my eyes, her blue ones penetrated the wall around me, around my heart, as she opened her moth to speak.
"You told her," she stated, whispering, her blue eyes almost severe. I nodded shortly, finally noticing how hard my head hurt, as she continued questioning me "and you still think that they don't love you?" she asked, I pulled myself to a sitting position, quickly removing the band from my hair and slowly fixed my hair to a ponytail again.
"Aunt Kar-" I tried to say but she put her finger on my lips, "Quiet now, Andrew, come and see," she whispered and got up from the bed and led me in the silent corridors of the megaship, until we reached the holding bay entrance. She signed me to peek in and I did, sitting there silently were my mum and my dad, each staring at the plate, not eating a single thing. Dad was sitting across from mum, he held her hand, his thumb rubbing her skin gently.
"Ash.." he said quietly, "please eat, Ash," he almost whispered, she just shook her head and I could feel dad's piercing worry, I was worried myself, it was all my fault. I did this to her, I made her sad and by doing that, I betrayed myself. I swore to never hurt her, I swore that if she survives I'd do everything in my power to make her happy no matter what and yet, I was the one to make her feel that…sad.
She was so sad that she didn't care about anyone anymore, not even my baby brother that was resting in her belly. I couldn't feel more ashamed.
"I don't know how he got that anger," she said quietly, her voice trembling and I could feel the chords of my heart tearing apart, "he never was this angry, Andros, he's not like this…" she stuttered and dad held her chin gently making her lift her gaze into his eyes.
"Maybe he just kept it inside all this time," he said and I didn't know how the hell did he know! He never paid that much of attention to me, so how could he guess correctly? Was I that obvious? And even if I was, why hadn't he even attempted to change it? "The way he is always training, the fact that he is always concentrating on sports instead of talking to us…I should have seen it, Ashley, I'm sorry.." he said and looked into her eyes, I hated his guts at that very moment, why is he apologizing to her? Why? Wasn't he supposed to apologize to me? For making me go through all of the infamous growing pains alone? And how could he admit it that easily? Knowing that he broke my heart, that he hurt me that much? 'Is this how a father should act?' I wondered as I kept watching, my back against the hard corridor's wall, I sighed.
"I told you he's just like you," she said quietly, "Andros, he thinks we don't love hi-" she tried to say but dad got up from his seat, offered her his hand and when she took it he helped her to stand and hugged her tightly. "I've seen the video," he told her quietly, "don't cry, Ash," but she was already crying; her face sunk in his chest and he kissed the top of her head and whispered some things I couldn't hear. I looked away and took a long breath, 'stupid,' I thought, 'you are such a damn fool, you should've kept quiet, look at her!' a voice in my head told me, 'look at her, it's your mother and now…now she's broken because you hurt her! Because you broke her!' I knew it was my fault, I knew how much she was hurting, I could feel it inside of me, threatening to burst out.. Her pain was greater than my own and I felt like an idiot. I shouldn't have said or done what I did, I was acting on an impulse, I was wrong. She loved me, how could I have ever doubted it? She is my mum! I wanted to die, I wanted something terrible to happen to me because now, it was her pain that I couldn't deal with.
"He was right," I heard her say, "he was right, Andros, he did give me everything," she sniffled and dad kissed the top of her head again, trying to calm her down. He didn't say a word but I could feel the anger. His anger. But if there was something in the universe that I didn't deserve was his anger, he made me like this. It was his presence that made me swear to never love again, it was the fact that I wanted to hate him so much but I couldn't…because he's my father, because I loved him.
"Ashley…" he said in a soft voice, but mum didn't care anymore, she tore her tear stained beautiful face from his chest and looked him in the eyes.
"You should've seen him," she sniffled and I felt my heart aching again, "you would have been so proud, Andros," she whispered and dad tried to wipe her tears slowly, yet she didn't stop talking, "top of his class in every subject, he had a lot of friends and he was so happy," her voice trembled. "He was happy, Andros." she said as tears began staining her face again, "and then one day I became sick, and the pain never bothered me that much, it hurt me because he was lost… I was dying and he had to grow up in a day…" she said and I felt the blood draining from my face.
I never, not even once, told her how scared I was when she was lying in that hospital bed, I never told her I used to run away from my uncles and aunt's house at night just to sleep in the chair next to her. When she was sick I was lost, in my emotions and fears, every moment I shared with her felt like the last moment... I was young and full of fears… until I met dad, and I finally felt secured again, for two whole weeks in my lost life I felt protected and loved, I felt reassured! But it disappeared after a while… because he stopped caring. "I never thought I'd need you ever again, Andros, I told you why I didn't search for you…" she said tiredly and I was for a moment, curious.
"You told me, that you were raising my son, and that you couldn't put his life on hold." He told her and after a while added, "You were right."
I gaped. Has he just said that…mum was unhappy for thirteen years because- because of…me? I felt the shame freezing my guts, burning my heart with its coldeness, my heart nearly stopped. She was unhappy, unhappy for me….unhappy with me…
"But eventually, I did," she breathed and her voice trembled, "I did put his life after my own, Andros, and he said I killed him. He said that I broke his heart," she cried into my dad's shoulder again and it broke my heart. She didn't deserve this, I didn't deserve her as my mother, she was perfect, everything that is good in the universe and I…I only made her life tougher, I made her stay on Earth instead of following my dad, I was the one to make her unhappy for thirteen years and I never gave it the slightest of thoughts.
"It's not your fault, Ash, it's mine. I should have never left." He said quietly but mum shook her head.
"He was right, he gave me everything, Andros, he taught me what is real love, he brought you back to my life and with you coming back he gave me the possibility of healing and he gave KO-35 to me.. He encouraged me to move with you, knowing he's going to a new place with different rules. He made me the happiest woman alive- with you, and it cost him his own happiness."
I was crying again now, I couldn't contain all this grief and truth, it hurt. She was so wrong, I was so wrong, they are a perfect family and I'm the one ruining it for them. I should go and leave them, I should let them heal alone and never come back. She deserved more than me; more than a son who was so inconsiderate than me. Before I even knew it, I was running to my bed in the Simudeck; I didn't know what to think anymore, it was all my fault now. I shouldn't have opened my own wounds and my mum's old wounds. 'How would she ever forgive me! How can she? I deserve to die,' I knew, I tried to wipe my own tears away but they just kept streaming down my face, I jumped between the bed's comforting blankets. Sleeping was my redemption yet again…
Slowly, I began feeling drowsy again, tears had this affect on me… suddenly, only for a minute, I thought I heard the Simudeck's door open, but I was too exhausted- mentally and physically than to look back.
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A/N: so how crappy is it?
