Ugh, I went to on a class trip to the Renaissance Faire today. It was raining the entire time, but I had some fun. All of my friends bought these little wooden swords to fight with, but I didn't get one. :(. But one of them broke already, so that made me feel a little better that I didn't waste my money! Anyway, sorry I'm updating so late, my friend came over and then I had to go to my brother's for a little bit...but here's the next chappy, enjoy!
CeTe: Glad that I'm not an evil bastard, though I have been accused of being evil... Well, I really didn't know what to do with the pairing, but since I put it up there and know that some people are reading this fic because of that, I didn't want to disappoint them. That's awesome that you changed your mind about this fic, and glad you like it! Thanks for reviewing, and don't worry...Kanone can be understanding at times...right?
alpha2nd: Hehehe, you're the second person that's called Kiyotaka evil...maybe it's true. Oh, wait, of course it's true! And Kanone's fine...for now, his injury isn't that bad. Yeah, it was a little stupid of Ayumu to just blurt everything out, but Kiyotaka had to find out somehow or else this fic woudln't have gotten very far. Thanks for reviewing, hope this satisfies your cravings!
Prosperpina: Hehe, yep, EyesKiyotaka just for you! Glad you liked it. Poor screwed up Eyes, he just doesn't know what's going on. And if you think this is the worst...Eyes doesn't even have it down right! Hehehe, he's gonna screw himself over very shortly. And Kanone...well, we all know how Kanone is with his Eyes. Thanks for reviewing!
Eyes slept in the next morning, and didn't wake up until 10. He wasn't sure why he had slept so much, but maybe it was because he was dreaming about Kanone all night. As he opened his brilliant blue eyes, only one thought crossed his mind, and that was the fact that today was Kanone's birthday. There were several problems with this day, the main one being Eyes seeing Kanone. He knew that Kiyotaka would take him to see the older boy if he was still in the hospital, but what would Eyes say to him? He also knew that Kiyotaka would tell Kanone about the kiss, how would Kanone react to hearing that? Too many thoughts swarmed through his head, and Eyes shoved them away not wanting a headache this early in the morning.
Walking downstairs, Eyes saw Kiyotaka coming in from outside. The older man took off his coat and grinned at the younger one, "It's a shame you slept in so late, I just got back from the hospital. I would have taken you if you had been up, but I figured you needed your rest."
Eyes glared at the man, "How's Kanone?" He asked instead of commenting. Though he was really asking if Kiyotaka told Kanone about what had happened.
Kiyotaka kept his smirk, "He seemed a little upset right before I left. Like someone gave him some bad news, but I wouldn't know anything about that..." Kiyotaka trailed off, and walked into the living room to sit down.
Eyes followed him, keepig his expression as well, "Did he say when he would be getting out?" Eyes needed to see Kanone as soon as possible so he could explain what happened. If nothing else, Kanone deserved to know the truth.
"Actually he was getting ready to leave when I arrived. I suspect he's home by now, and if he isn't, he'll be home shortly. You can go if you'd like, there's no way he'll want you back now." Kiyotaka turned without another word and started to read a book.
Eeys glared daggers at the man, "What makes you think that getting me out of the picture will make your chances any better?"
Kiyotaka glanced up, "I've come to terms that Kanone may very well never love me, but that doesn't mean you deserve him."
Eyes silently agreed. He would never give Kiyotaka the satisfaction of being right, but he knew he was. Eyes honestly wasn't sure he did deserve Kanone. His entire life, Eyes was told and treated like he was worthless, and that he didn't even deserve to live. After so many years of this treatment, Eyes couldn't help but start to believe that these words were true. Then Kanone came along, and he made Eyes feel like he was worth something. He made the boy feel wanted and accepted, he made him feel loved. After a lifetime of coldness and hatred, this new feeling of being wanted really made Eyes take a good look at his life. He realized that maybe the people that had told him he was worthless really were just bad people, and that he did deserve better. Kanone, however, believed this with all his heart and did everything in his power to make Eyes see this. Even if Eyes deserved better than he had been treated, he still wasn't sure he deserved something as good as Kanone. Without another word, Eyes left the place that had been his 'home' for the past two and a half months in search of Kanone.
It didn't take him long to reach Kanone's, only about 10 minutes to walk there. That had been the hardest part about living at Kiyotaka's, Kanone was so close yet so far away. Reaching the door that he had wanted to walk through for so long, Eyes reached for the handle but hesitated. Should he knock? He knew Kanone probably wasn't expecting him, so would it be rude to just walk in? Especially after what Kiyotaka had told him...what if Kanone was angry? Barging in there uninvited certainly wouldn't be the right thing to do, so Eyes knocked. He felt a little foolish, but would rather look foolish than rude. A few seconds later, the boy himself answered the door. He stared at Eyes for a second, a little in shock at seeing the boy, "Eyes?" He whispered, not believing that he was actually standing in front of him.
Eyes looked Kanone up and down. He looked comletely fine, there were no bruises or bandages that he could see. Eyes thought back and realized that Kiyotaka had never mentioned why Kanone was in the hospital, or what or who put him there. Realizing that it was his turn to talk, Eyes did so, "Hello, Kanone." Was all he said, but those two words seemed to fill the entire room with regret and unspoken apologies.
Kanone, however, didn't seem to notice any of this, and hugged Eyes tightly while pulling him inside, "How did you get here? Did Kiyotaka let you go?"
Eyes nodded, "He said it wouldn't matter, that you wouldn't want me back anyway." Eyes replied, leaning into the embrace and soaking up every bit of Kanone that he could before the other pushed him away for good. Kanone pulled back, a questioning look on his face, "Kanone, about what happened," Eyes continued, "I know you might be angry, but I didn't know what else to do. If I thought that Kiyotaka would have done nothing else but kiss me, I wouldn't have let him. But he did, and...I didn't object at first. I don't know why, but I enjoyed it. I know it doesn't help, but I was thinking of you the entire time." Eyes was a bit out of breath, it had been a while since he had talked this much all at once.
He looked up to see that same confused expression on Kanone's face, "You...kissed Kiyotaka? Eyes, what are you talking about?"
Eyes froze, "He...didn't tell you." It was then that the realization that Kiyotaka had tricked him dawned on Eyes. He had predicted the boy would think this all through and confess everything to Kanone. And he had fallen right into his trap, being honest with Kanone had been his downfall. But Eyes shook his head, this was what he wanted. No matter what the consequences, he always wanted to be honest with Kanone.
"He didn't say anything about a kiss. He just came to see how I was doing." Kanone informed the boy, "So...you enjoyed it?" He asked, a bit hurt. He knew Eyes didn't love Kiyotaka, but still...to think that what he had with the boy wasn't only his anymore...it hurt.
Eyes wished desperately for a giant hole in the ground to come and swallow him up, but fate couldn't be that kind. So instead, he sighed and nodded, "I don't have an explanation Kanone, and I don't want to give you an excuse or lie to you. Even if I had thought that Kiyotaka hadn't told you, I still would have."
Kanone thought this over. He was certain that Eyes was telling the truth, he had already confessed his slip up, so his honesty wasn't being called into account. And there were plenty of reasons that Eyes would have enjoyed the kiss. The boy was practically starved for attention, and Kiyotaka had dangled it (quite literally) in front of his face. Of course he would respond to a gentle touch or kiss, Kanone really couldn't blame him for it. Smiling at the boy, Kanone hugged him again, "Eyes...I won't lie to you and say that I'm not disappointed." Kanone felt the boy cringe a little bit, he didn't want Kanone to be disappointed in him. Though he really couldn't blame the older one, he had screwed up, "But I'm not going to throw you out just because of one little slip up. No one's perfect, and while you're scarily close, you are still human; you're bound to make mistakes here and there. And even though it may seem odd, I trust you all the more because of this. Not because of what you've done, but because I know I can trust you to tell me when you've done something wrong. I love you, Eyes, and I'm not giving you up that easily."
These words hit Eyes like a ton of bricks, Kanone was forgiving him? Out of all the possible reactions that Eyes had considered, forgiveness and understanding were not the dominant ones. Kanone's last statement had hit home though, "You...really love me?" Eyes asked timidly. It was one thing to feel loved, people could easily manipulate you into feeling all sorts of things. It was another thing all together to actually be loved.
Kanone hugged Eyes tighter, "I love you more than anything else in this world, Eyes, you're the best thing to ever happen to me."
Eyes burried his head into Kanone's shoulder for a second, then pulled back, "You know, you're only the second person to ever tell me that they loved me." It meant a lot that Kanone had spoken those words. They wouldn't have meant as much coming from anyone else in the world, because Eyes knew that Kanone was honest when he said them. Anyone could say the words, but only Kanone spoke them while thinking about and meaning each and every one.
"Really? Who's the other?" Kanone asked, interested to hear who else had been this kind to Eyes. Obviously, that person was decent, and Kanone would very much like to meet them.
Eyes hesiated, not wanting to being up memories, but knowing that it was impossible, "My mother." He whispered.
Hmmmm, why doesn't Eyes want to think about his mother? What kind of horrible memories could come from someone who loved him? Well, I guess you'll just have to wait and find out! Also, I apologize because I realize that these chapters are getting shorter and shorter. There's really no reason for that excpet at the beginning, I had a lot more detail than I do now. The main reason for that is because the detail was basically just to establish the character's personalities and relationships with each other, and now that you (hopefully) have an understanding of all that, the detail isn't all that neccessary. Hope it's not too drastic of a change, though! And as for next chapter, I'll explain why Kanone was in the hospital. And, no, I haven't forgotten about his birthday!
