Alright, I'm really at a loss with this fic, so I'm just gonna wing it, that sound good? Good. Of course, I wing most of the stuff I write, but I usually have some sort of idea what to do (even when I say I don't, it usually comes to me). After actually thinking about this fic, and not coming up with anything, I've given up on ideas, and decided to just...type. So, with that said, I hope I do okay with this, enjoy!

BadluckGoodluck: Heh, I suppose I'll keep him, since that's what everyone said that's what they wanted (at least you all agree on that). Glad you like the fic that much! Thanks for reviewing!

alpha2nd: Lol, that's exactly why I put the line in there. We all know that Kanone has to screw things up (what fun would it be if he didn't?)! Lol, he needs to stop doing stuff? Damn Kanone, I told him to stop doing stuff, why doesn't he listen to me? Well, like you said, he is a bit on the stupid side when he wants to be. Honestly, I put the kiss in there because Eyes could react either way to it; it could push him away, or bring him back. Evidently, it's going to push him away, who knew? Of course they belong together, why else would they put up with each other's crap all the time? You're welcome for the update, thanks for reviewing!

nothing important: That doesn't sound stupid at all. I'm going through a lot of crap right now, too, and while I can't say I know how you feel because I don't know your situation, I do feel for you, whatever it is you're going through! If you want to talk about it, I'm always a good listener! Don't worry, I can assure you right now that they'll end up together, it is me after all; I couldn't break those two up for too long! Thanks for reviewing!

Kazuya Arsashi: I can't wait for your new fic, I'm so excited! Let me know as soon as you post it because I don't check the stie everyday, and I don't want to miss it! If I don't have time to check it out, I'll make time! Thanks for reviewing!

CeTe: Of course Eyes will forgive him, but how much convincing will it take? Who knows? It would be extremely sad if Eyes left, but that just means that you're into the fic, so thanks! Aw, you know I couldn't keep them apart...Thanks for reviewing!

polaris18: A bad soap opera? What, I don't even get a good soap rating? Not that there are any good ones...thanks for reviewing!

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Eyes jerked out of the kiss, and stared horrified at Kanone, who did he think he was? Eyes' expression turned to one of anger, and he slapped Kanone, hard, across the face, "Did you think that would actually work?" He asked, still unable to believe that Kanone would try such a thing, "Did you think you could just kiss me and make what you did go away?"

Kanone recovered from the shock of being slapped, and turned his attention to Eyes, "I...I just thought..." He started.

"Well, you thought wrong." Eyes informed him, "I told you I would give you one chance, and you blew it. So, goodbye." With that, Eyes turned to head out the door.

"Wait." Kanone said, desperation evident in his voice. He stayed where he was, not daring to lay another hand on Eyes again.

His tone of voice made the younger one freeze in his tracks, though, and turn back to Kanone, "What?" He asked, coldly.

"You gave me one chance to say whatever I could to keep you." Kanone said, looking to the younger one for confirmation.

"So?" Eyes asked, "You had your chance, Kanone, and you chose to waste it. You won't keep me here on a technicality." He knew exactly what Kanone was planning, and he wouldn't fall for it. Kanone hadn't said one word the last time, so, technically, it didn't count. That was the older one's reasoning, anyway, as flawed as it was.

"I don't want to keep you here at all if it's against your will." Kanone told him, looking down, "I just want you to be happy, Eyes. If that means leaving, whether it be for a month, a year, or a lifetime, then I won't stop you."

Eyes felt a little guilty at hearing this, and Ayumu's words went rushing through his head, "Do you honestly think that Kanone would drink again if he knows what will result from it?" Eyes shook his head, that didn't matter. Kanone... he needed to pay, "Listen to yourself. This doesn't sound like you at all, Eyes." He tried to block the words out, tried to deny the sense they made, and the things they were telling him, but it was nearly impossible. It wasn't like him at all, but this wasn't like Kanone, why could he get away with it? He must have had some sense of what he was doing, didn't he?

Eyes remembered when Chase would drink with his friends, he was always laughing, and he took it really easy on Eyes when ever he drank. Perhaps people really didn't know what they were doing when they were drunk, and maybe Kanone really was sorry. Still, even with all of this evidence, and all of these excuses piling up in Kanone's favor, Eyes just couldn't find it in his heart to forgive him...not yet. Worried, since the younger one hadn't said anything, Kanone glanced up to see him deep in thought. Usually, Kanone would have asked Eyes what was on his mind, but he didn't want to break the other's concentration. If he was seriously considering staying, Kanone didn't want to interrupt that, "Please stay." He silently begged.

Eyes finally looked up to Kanone's patiently waiting face, "If you want me to be happy, then why would you consider drinking in the first place?" Eyes asked, "You must know how you get, so why did you do it?"

Kanone sighed, he couldn't necessarily tell Eyes the truth about that, now could he? It had been because of their fight that Kanone finally made his decision to join Jack. He didn't need to blame the boy for this, and he didn't think it would help at all. So, instead, he gave Eyes another truth, "It was... a bad error in judgement." He admitted, how much of a load of crap did that sound like?

Apparently, a giant load, since Eyes' glare deepened (if that was possible), "A bad error in judgement?" He repeated, "That's a bit of an understatement, don't you think?"

Kanone nodded, "I know, Eyes, I just don't know how to keep you here. I don't want to push you away any further; I need you." He whispered.

"Maybe you should have thought about that before you raped me!" Eyes yelled, now furious that Kanone was feeding him all these empty excuses and half truths, and expecting him to take him back. Anger was boiling inside him, and suddenly Ayumu's words made no sense at all. He looked to Kanone once again, "How can you possibly expect me to trust you after this? Even if I decided to come back, do you think it would be the same?"

Kanone hesitated, he hadn't thought that far ahead, "I hadn't considered that at all, actually." He answered, "I have little hope right now that you'll even stay with me, there's no way I could expect everything to go back to normal."

The younger one eyes Kanone suspiciously, "If you don't think that I'll stay, then what point is there in trying to keep me."

Kanone smiled faintly at this question, "Because," He said in a tone that told Eyes he should already know this, "I might not have much of a chance to keep you, but that doesn't mean I'm going to give you up without a fight." He explained, "I've none you too long, and loved you too much to simply let you go knowing that there might have been some chance that you would have stayed. I'll do everything in my power to keep you here, Eyes, but if there's no way that you can be happy here, and feel safe, then I won't hesitate to let you go."

Eyes shook his head, "You make no sense!" He said, half angry, half confused, "You say you won't give me up without a fight, but then you say that you'll let me go if that means I'm happy. Why can't you just make up your mind and give me a straight answer?"

Kanone thought about it, "I can't give you a straight answer because I'm not sure what my answer is. I'm so confused, Eyes, and you have no idea how terrified I am to lose you right now. I have no idea what to do, though, and I can't stand the thought of losing you. I hate the thought of making you unhappy for my sake even more, though."

Eyes was taken back a bit by this, "You're never confused, though." He objected, now much more calm, "You always have the answers to everything, how can something like this confuse you?"

Kanone shook his head, "None of the questions have ever mattered." He pointed out, "I've never had anything to lose, but that's all changed. I have you to lose, now, and you matter more than anything. I can answer any question you throw at me, but I can't seem to find the answer to this one. The thing that terrifies me the most is I'm not even sure I have the right question."

Eyes looked at him, a little confused, how could Kanone not know the question? It was so simple, "If I gave you the question, could you give me the answer?"

Kanone looked up in suprise, Eyes would do that for him? It may have seemed ridiculous to be greatful for this little bit of information, but right now Kanone would take anything. So, he nodded, "I promise."

"Don't make promises you can't keep." Eyes warned him.

"I never do." Kanone said, which was true. Kanone always made sure he held up his end of the deal. This time would be no different, even though the situation was much more serious than any he had ever been in.

Eyes took a few steps towards Kanone, until they were inches apart. Then, he asked the question, the only one he needed to know the answer to, "Do you love me?" He asked, suprised to find himself a little afraid of Kanone's answer.

The latter was about to respond 'of course', but stopped himself. If this was the only question Eyes needed to ask him, then his answer couldn't be so general as 'yes' or 'why wouldn't I?'. No, his answer needed to be original and thought out. He remembered back to when Eyes first confessed his feelings; he had asked Kanone what love was like. Kanone ran over the conversation in his head, remembering everything that he told Eyes was required for one person to love another, "Trust is a major factor, of course, but there's other things to consider, like the person's personality and beliefs. And when you're in love, there's just something that clicks. You know that the person you feel these things for is the one." Kanone thought over this criteria, and realized how empty it was. Finally he turned to Eyes to give his answer, "I told you before that love had to do with trust, and similar beliefs."

Eyes nodded, "I remember." He whispered.

"I realize now how wrong that definition was, how empty. I couldn't give you a real understanding of love because I had never truly been in love at that point. Now, though, I can tell you exactly what love is, and I can tell you that it's not just words. Love is so much more than just simple expressions; it's that feeling I get whenever I think of you, the anticipation of when I'll see you again. The lonliness when you're not next to me, and the pain I feel when you're upset with me." Kanone paused to collect himself, "It's the knowledge that I know you're mine, and the immense feeling of relief I get from knowing that. It's knowing that I'll always have someone there for me, no matter what. It's knowing that I can hold you whenever I want to, but that I'm able to let you go if I need to. You give me a sense of security that I've never felt before, and I feel safe with you around. I told you before that you just know when you're in love, and I know without a doubt that I love you. I may not be able to explain it quite clearly, but I know it's there." Kanone stopped for a second, before adding, "I also know that you feel the same way about me, or you at least did at one time. I guess that's another part of being in love, you can tell what the other is feeling."

Eyes listened to all of this quietly, and now saw that it was his turn to talk. When he opened his mouth, however, he didn't know quite what to say. Everything that Kanone had said, Eyes knew exactly what he was talking about. He knew that he felt, or had felt, all of those things about Kanone. Especially the security, he remembered feeling so safe in Kanone's arms, like no one could ever hurt him. It was ironic that those arms were the only ones to hurt him, when he thought they could only ever do anything but. Still, he knew that Kanone loved him, though he wasn't sure how he knew. Perhaps what Kanone said was true, and Eyes was still in love with the former, and that was how he knew. Whatever the case may be, Eyes knew that he had to make a decision, even if it was a temporary one, "I still feel all of those things." He confessed, "Except...I don't know if I can feel safe with you again."

Kanone nodded, "Eyes, let me ask you a question." Eyes nodded, unsure of what was coming, "Where were you planning to go if you left here?"

Eyes hesitated, he didn't want Kanone to know, "I..." He sighed, might as well get it out. Him going there at this point wasn't looking too likely, "Chase's." It mgiht have not been the best idea, but Eyes didn't think that Chase would turn him away if he went there. After all, Chase wanted him, and the last time they saw each other...Chase was anything but abusive.

Kanone, having no knowledge of Eyes and Chase's kiss, gasped, "Chase?" He asked, not sure if he had heard the younger one right. Upon Eyes' nod, Kanone shook his head, "I hurt you so much that you thought you would be safer with Chase?" He asked, tears threatening to spill from his eyes, "I had no idea that I...pushed you that far away; that I hurt you that much. Eyes, I'm so sorry, but please promise me you won't leave me for Chase. I couldn't live with myself if you did."

Somehow, this shocked Eyes most of all, but he supposed it made sense since Kanone knew nothing of the kiss. Nodding, Eyes replied, "I promise." He whispered, he didn't want to see Kanone cry. Despite all that talk of wanting to make Kanone suffer, he never wanted to see the older one so helpless.

Kanone looked down at him, "Don't make promises you won't keep." He said, looking at Eyes with the faintest bit of hope.

Eyes shook his head, "I never do." He said, finally leaning his head on Kanone's chest. As he relaxed against the older one, he didn't realized how much he had wanted to do just that, "Kanone?" Eyes asked. The other remained silent, waiting for the other to continue, "I...I think I love you."

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Hmmm, maybe they'll get it right this time around...Well, what do you think? I don't really think Kanone suffered as much as he should have, but I can work that into later chapters if you all agree. Oh, and see what you all saved Eyes from? Chase! Heh, I think that's about it, reivew!