So, how was everyone's Thanksgiving? Hope it all went well, mine was fairly uneventful, which, if you knew my family, you'd know that was a good thing! I don't exactly have a Thanksgiving related chappy for either of my fics, but I will strive to put a Christmas related chappy of Trust up around said holiday. You know what holiday is coming up in this fic, though? Heh, I won't tell you quite yet. I'll give you a big hint though, it's around mid-January right now. Anyway, enjoy!
CeTe: So sad, you're my only reviewer for this chappy. Oh well, I guess everyone else is just busy with family stuff (traveling, I guess?). Either way, you're absolutely right. It's a lot harder for Eyes to forgive Kanone because he loves and trusts him. Chase, on the other hand, is hated by Eyes, and it's very easy for the latter to forgive him. I don't think I worded that quite right, but you get the idea! Heh, I think that scene is going to have to happen very soon giving what Kanone just saw. Actually, I think it's going to happen right now. Or, at least after Ig et something to drink...Thanks for reviewing!
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Eyes stepped back a step from Chase, and looked him over, "You look tired." He commented, "Did you get any sleep last night?" He found it very odd that neither Chase nor Kanone slept last night. Perhaps Chase really did love Jack if he couldn't even get to sleep.
Chase chuckled a little and shook his head, "Not much, no." He responded, and stifled a yawn.
Eyes smirked at him, "Then the first thing you should do is go home and get some sleep." Chase nodded and turned to leave, but Eyes stopped him, "And maybe you could consider..."
"I'll let them sleep inside." Chase finished for him, turning back to smile at Eyes, "Thanks again, for helping me." Eyes said nothing, but simply nodded as Chase disappeared.
Back inside, Eyes came face to face with a rather disgruntal Kanone, "What's wrong?" Eyes asked. He hoped he hadn't upset Kanone too much by going off with Chase, but didn't see any real reason that the other would be upset. Maybe worried, but not upset.
"When did you get so friendly with Chase?" Kanone asked, bitterly, "The last time I checked, you hated his guts. Now you're hugging him?"
Eyes hesitated, Kanone did have a point. Even though, he knew a lot of things that Kanone didn't, his logic may be a little flawed. Still, "He...wants to change." Eyes explained, "He asked me to help him." He wasn't sure if Chase would feel comfortable with Kanone knowing the details, even though the latter probably would have been able to help him more than Eyes ever could.
"Oh, so he just asked you to help him?" Eyes nodded, that was basically what happened, "And you just accepted?" Another nod, "Why?"
This would need an explanation Eyes wasn't sure he could provide, "If Chase wants to change, and I can help him, then I want to." Eyes began, "I might not have to deal with him everyday anymore, but a lot of people do. If I can help him to change, I'll be helping all of them as well."
"You never liked those people." Kanone reminded him, "You said they all made fun of you, and rejected you. Why would you care about them?"
Eyes shrugged, "I just do, I don't know why. I think that if they were happier, then maybe they'd be better people. Besides, they weren't all bad." That was the truth. Besides helping Chase, Eyes wanted to help all the others that were affected by Chase's actions. Even if they were horrible people, no one deserved the punishments Chase gave.
Kanone nodded, "I suppose I can understand that." He said, not very convincingly.
Eyes could tell that there was still something wrong, "What is it?" He asked. Kanone looked more hurt than angry now, but Eyes couldn't for the life of him think of why this would hurt Kanone.
"So, you've forgiven Chase for everything he's done to you? Just like that, he;s cleared of everything he's done?" The older one asked, betrayed.
Eyes understood then, why Kanone was so hurt. If he could forgive Chase, why not Kanone? He hated to do it, but he nodded in agreement, "I'm not saying that I encourage what he's done, but he has his reasons." Eyes knew that might have been the wrong thing to say, but it was the truth.
Kanone simply stared at him, "What good reason could he possibly have for doing that to you?" He asked, nearly shouting.
Eyes flinched at the tone, "I'm...not sure if I should say or not; it's personal." Once again, the wrong thing to say, but it had to be said.
"Well, this is personal to me." Kanone objected, "I don't want you to trust him, and then it all turn out to be a lie. Chase isn't as honest as you or I, Eyes, he'll lie and decieve you to get what he wants."
"I understand that," Eyes said, nodding, "but I don't think that he's lying to me. Right before he brought me to you a few days ago, he...told me some things." Eyes kenw then that he was going to admit everything to Kanone. That Chase was and had been in love with Jack for a very long time, and about the kiss. Eyes had felt guilty about it ever since it happened, but had gotten distracted with everything that had happened.
"What things?" Kanone asked, now more curious than anything.
"He told me that he and Jack had a past." Eyes began, "They were best friends until their differences in opinion pulled them apart. What Jack didn't know, though, was that Chase had developed feelings for him over the years. It got to the point where he was obssessed with Jack, and...it didn't end well." Kanone didn't need t know everything.
"So, now he wants to change so Jack will see the wonderful person he really is, and fall madly in love with him?" Kanone asked, his voice laced with sarcasm.
"I know it's flawed, but it's worth a shot. Jack's a very reasonable person, and I know he must miss Chase, even if it's only as a friend." Eyes pointed out.
"That still doesn't explain something." Kanone said. Eyes looked at him, curiously, "Why were you hugging him? Just because you're helping him doesn't mean you have to get all friendly with him." He said, jealous once again.
"I wasn't getting friendly with him." Eyes objected, "Why are you so fixated on one little hug, anyway? It's not like I'm cheating on you or anything. Everyone needs a little affection now and then, though."
"I'd like some sometime." Kanone muttered, and Eyes' head snapped up.
Walking over to Kanone, Eyes looked up at him, "What are you talking about? How can you say I don't give you any affection?" He asked, wrapping his arms around Kanone's neck, "Don't I give you enough?"
Kanone hesitated before wrapping his own arms around Eyes' waist, "I didn't mean it like that." He said, sadly.
"What did you mean, then?" The younger one asked, nuzzling Kanone's neck.
"I just don't understand how you can forgive Chase so easily," Eyes was about to try and explain again, but Kanone continued, "but push me away so violently." This made Eyes shut his mouth, and wait for Kanone to continue, "Chase was horrible to you the entire time you knew him, and he never once gave you a break. I saved you from that hell, and gave you everything I could. I made one mistake, granted it was a huge one, and you shun me. Not only that, you turn to the one that hurt you before. I don't understand how you can be so forgiving of Chase, but not of me." Now, Kanone looked to Eyes for an explanation.
This was easier said than done, though. Eyes had to ask himself the same question that Kanone had proposed; why had he forgiven Chase so easily, but not Kanone. All logic would have said that Eyes should have forgiven Kanone easier because everything good that he did for the boy was far greater than the bad. Still, Eyes couldn't help but feel more...betrayed by Kanone than by Chase. Maybe that was it, "I gave you such a hard time because you hurt me more." Eyes confessed, "Not physically, neccessarily, but you betrayed me more than Chase ever could have. I gave you all of my trust and love, and when you raped me, it hurt me more than anytime Chase ever did the same. It's because Chase never had, and never will have, even close to the amount of trust I've given you; therefore, he could never hurt me as much as you did." Having said all this, Eyes looked up to see Kanone's reaction.
Instead of being sorry or even more angered, like Eyes expected he would be, Kanone only seemed understanding, and maybe even a little happy, "I suppose I can't be mad at you." He whispered, "I just couldn't understand why you reacted so harshly to me, but it was only because you loved me more."
Eyes shook his head, "No, I don't love you more." Kanone looked down in shock, as Eyes smiled up at him, "I love you only. I could never love Chase, just like I could never not love you."
Kanoen breathed out a relieved sigh, and smiled, "You're going to give me a heart attack one of these days doing that." He joked.
Eyes leaned into the older one, and tilted his head up, "You honestly thought I loved Chase more than you?"
Kanone hesitated before laughing, "I guess I would have to be a fool to think that." Eyes nodded, and Kanone pulled him closer, closing the gap between their lips for a passionate kiss that left Eyes a little breathless after they pulled away. Kanone kissed Eyes' jawline a few times, before pulling back to stare into the younger one's brilliant blue eyes, "I really do love you." He whispered, almost unconsciously.
Eyes smiled slighlty, and leaned into Kanone, "I love you, too." He whispered back, completely content. Sometimes, it was just nice to be loved.
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This chappy may have seemed pointless, but someone overheard their little conversation. Who could it possibly have been, though? Hehehe, and what will thier reaction be to hearing what Kanone did to Eyes? Hmmm, I dunno, reivew!
