Yay, updatey-ness...umm, yeah! Wow, only 2 days until Christmas...You all got your shopping done? I don't! I have two presents, and they're both for my brother! We're going shopping later today, though, so hopefully I'll get it all done then! Though, I'm going shopping with my mom, and I need to shop for my mom, so I don't see how that's gonna work... I guess I'll figure it out. My friend gave me the Killers CD for Christmas, and I've listened to the whole thing about 7 times by now. Heh...oh, right, the fic...umm, enjoy!
freya kurenai: Hmm, more than just random sex? Interesting, I don't think I've tried that before, lol! Heh, there weren't enough places to include all the genres for my story. I think I've covered at least half of them, though, and angst was definitely in there somewhere. Thanks for reviewnig!
Polairs18: Yeah, I think Kousuke goes best with Ayumu. Kousuke with anyone else is just...a little unnatural. Though, I love what you've done with him and Eyes, don't get me wrong! Yeah, I feel sorry for both of them, but I think I feel sorry for Kanone more. Besdies, we all know Kanone will forgive him sooner or later, probably because Eyes will tell him to, but he'll forgive him one way or another! Thanks for reviewing!
Kazuya Arsashi: Wow, well, I hope you catch up sometime! I can't say that I know anything about happy tree friends...the website didn't show up though...This site is weird like that, just put the dot in () and it'll show up. I've actually never given that pairing much thought, but I'll read it when you post it, just let me know when you do! Thanks for reviewing!
CeTe: I'm going to have to give Kanone my pity this time around. It's true Kousuke didn't do it on purpose, but our...I mean my dear Kanone is devestated. Heh...it all always works out, don't you know that? Oh, wait...it doesn't always work out, that's right. Well, I guess we'll just have to see... Thanks for reviewing!
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Eyes had been waiting for Kanone in their room for almost an hour when the depressed one finally came in. Eyes was smart enough to not say anything, and let Kanone be the first one to talk. However, he didn't do this, and simply laid down, closing his eyes. The younger of the two crawled over the bed to where his boyfriend was, and laid down next to him, laying his head hesitantly on his chest. He felt Kanone pull away from the contact at first, but the brown-haired boy slowly relaxed, and pulled Eyes into a hug. The latter finally decided that maybe it was time to talk, "Kanone?" he asked.
"I don't want to talk about." Kanone answered, sniffing back a few tears. Eyes understood, and just wrapped his arms around Kanone in an attempt to comfort him. He only hoped that Kanone wouldn't hold a grudge against Kousuke, though he wasn't sure he could really blame him if he did. It wasn't like Kousuke did it on purpose, but he didn't even apologize for doing it. That was a little cold, but Eyes was also sure that Kanone would forgive Kousuke eventually.
Over at Ayumu's, Kousuke had fallen asleep in the brunette's arms, and the latter had taken him upstairs, a bit difficultly, to his room, "Man, he really eats well." Ayumu thought, shifting Kousuke's weight. The redhead definitely wasn't a lightweight. As Ayumu laid the older one down, he took the opporunity to look over the sleeping one. He couldn't complain about Kousuke's body, that was for sure. His eyes were Ayumu's favorite feature, though. They sparkled with emotion, usually anger, and reflected exactly what he was feeling, unlike Eyes' cold, blue eyes, which didn't show much (if any at all) emotion, or Kanone's golden eyes that often were very decieving of his true feelings and intentions.
Ayumu smiled as Kousuke stirred in his sleep, and found it very hard to tear his own brown eyes from the redhead. Without consciously knowing what he was doing, he sat on the edge of the bed. Chocolate eyes memorizing every inch of the tanned face and neck. Mesmerized by the sleeping boy, Ayumu slowly leaned down to bring his and Kousuke's faces inches apart. With one final gaze at the closed eyes, Ayumu closed his own and covered the gap, pressing his lips to the other boy's.
He relished the sensation of the warmth from Kousuke's lips traveling to his own, and pressed down a little harder. When he figured that it was good enough for now, he opened his eyes to stare into emerald green ones. The emotion was very clear in them right now, as always, and it was unmistakably asking Ayumu what the hell he was doing. Quickly pulling away, Ayumu blushed fiercely. He could only imagine what Kousuke was going to do to him, but he couldn't imagine that it would be anything good. Actually, his imagination was probably the only place that Kousuke would do all those things to him that he wanted.
Ayumu remained seated on the edge of the bed, though all logic told him to get his ass up and run before the hotheaded boy beat it (no, not in the good way, you pervs!). Kousuke sat up very slowly, looking at Ayumu's face before deciding that definitely had just happened. Though, why it had happened was still beyond him. So, he decided to ask, "What the hell?" the question came out. He hadn't meant for it to sound so harsh, but he really wanted to know...what the hell?
Ayumu flinched at the tone, but said nothing. He didn't know what to say, really. He wasn't quite sure why he had kissed Kousuke, but knew that whatever that reason was, it had wanted him to do a lot more than just kiss him. He glanced to Kousuke to see that the redhead was still expecting an answer. Sighing, he gave the only one he knew to give, "I don't know what I was doing." he admitted, "Sorry." he added in a low voice.
Kousuke's face softened a little at hearing the apology, and almost felt sorry for the younger one. Still, Kousuke wasn't sure he could do much for Ayumu; it wasn't like he was gay or anything. He saw Ayumu burry his head in his hands, and knew how he felt. He remembered feeling just how Ayumu looked, and remembered how comforting it had felt being wrapped in the younger one's arms. Kousuke thought back to the previous night, and realized how...right it felt to be around Ayumu. He didn't know why, but he couldn't keep last night out of his head; was he really that starved for attention? He shook his head, no, that wasn't it. As much as Ryoko would have liked to deny it, she would have agreed to being his girlfriend. Kousuke didn't have those feelings for Ryoko, as obvious as their attraction was, and he always just saw her as more of a sister.
Looking back over the distressed boy, he felt guilty knowing he had caused that. He hesitated only a moment more before scooting over and pulling Ayumu closer to him. The brown-haired one gasped as he was enclosed in a hug, but quickly adjusted to the comforting arms around him. He smiled slightly; even though he didn't know why Kousuke was hugging him, he figured it was best to just enjoy it while it lasted. A moment later, Ayumu had his confidence back, and looked up at Kousuke, "I'm sorry I kissed you like that." he said, "I just..." he trailed off, still not knowing what finished that sentence.
"It's alright." Kousuke assured him, smirking, "I mean, obviously you'd be attracted to me; everyone is."
Ayumu was a little upset that he wasn't taking this more seriously, but maybe that was just Kousuke's way of smoothing the conversation over and ending it at the same time, "Well, naturally." he replied, laughing a little when Kousuke did.
Kousuke was just as unsure as Ayumu if the conversation was over, but knew there was still tension in the air. He wasn't sure why, but he chalked it up to Ayumu's depression at being rejected, "Wait," Kousuke thought, "am I rejecting him?" he wondered. He hadn't officially said yes or no, though it appeared that Ayumu got the latter message loud and clear.
Ayumu, on the other hand, was just as uncomfortable since he was still in Kousuke's arms. It wasn't the actual position that made him uneasy, but not knowing if it would be okay or not lay his head on the chest that was oh, so close, "It might freak him out or piss him off if I did." he thought, "Especially since he just shot me down. It might look like I can't take a hint." So, he just sat up a little straighter, trying to break the hug. If he couldn't have Kousuke like he wanted him, then he didn't want the redhead to pretend like he was still interested; taht was just cruel.
Kousuke felt Ayumu pull away, and knew he had to make a choice. If he let Ayumu go, he'd most likely be throwing away this chance. If he held on, though, he'd probably just confuse the hell out of the boy. He didn't know what to do, so he stopped thinking and went with his instinct. Apaprently, his instinct wanted Ayumu back, because his arms tightened around the boy once again, pulling him back into the hug. Ayumu looked up, as confused as Kousuke thought he would be, and tilted his head to he side, waiting for an explanation. Not wanting to screw this up, Kousuke just stayed silent, and leaned down to place a kiss on Ayumu's lips.
The latter didn't have any objections to this or to Kousuke's wandering tongue attempting to deepen the kiss. Ayumu parted his lips in order for this to happen, and moaned slightly as Kousuke wrapped his arms around Ayumu's body, locking his hands behind the younger one's back, and pulling him in closer. Ayumu raised his hands from Kousuke's shoulders to his hair, tangeling them in the mass of suprisingly silky, red srands. The digits intertwined with the hair and pulled the boy's face even closer, pressing their lips together harder. Finally, they were forced to part due to that lovely gas known as air (which so many mistake for oxygen, but 80 is nitrogen...it just doens't sound right, though, 'they had to break the kiss because of a lack of nitrogen'...I'll shut up now).
"What the hell?" came the question. Though, both of the boys' faces turned to one of shock since neither of them had said a word. Turning to see who had stumbled upon them, the two saw the last person that they would want to know about the relationship.
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Well, I was going to tell you...but I decided not to (it's really just payback to polairs for giving me all those grey hairs!). On another note, today is the last day I'll take requests for those Chirstmas presents, so get 'em in (oh, and if you've been completely oblivious to anything and everything going on, the thingy for the Christmas present is in the beginning of chapter 47). I think that's all...review!
