To Never Love (FlashBack)

(I'm so sorry that this has confused some of yu guys buh this is a flashback to give some show on Sakura and Syaoran's relationship and character development. I'll have some of these every once in awhile as a chapter. but I'll be sure to introduce it so it doesnt confuse yu cuz i know in that other chapter 'The Secret In Secret Agent' I introduced everything. Thanks and sorry for the inconvenience.)

"Li!" A sixteen-year-old girl called out to the boy walking away to the elevator. "Li, hold it!"

The boy referred to as 'Li' ignored the girl and walked into the elevator. He leaned against the wall and crossed his arems after he pushed the ground button. The elevator doors were shutting when a girl held them and let herself in, trapped with him.

"I was calling you!" She glared at the boy.

'Yeah.' The boy wanted to say looking at her coldly. 'The whole damn floor could hear you/'

"What do you want?" He growled.

"Ummm..." The girl said shyly tucking her auburn hair behind her ear. "Could you bring me home? My dad can't pick me up."

The grumpy boy looked away. The elevator stopped.

"Fine."

The doors opened and he walked out with the girl following him.

"Sakura! Li!" A voice called outand the boy and girl turnedaround to find another girl with long braided black hair running towards them.

"Tomoyo!"The young Sakura's face lit up to see her best friend.

The one called 'Tomoyo' finally reached the two. Sakura looked behind her like she was hiding something. "Where's Hiiragazawa?"

Tomoyo blushed at the name of her boyfriend. They were always seen together everywhere, which earned them an undetachable reputation.

"Oh Eriol? Mr. Terada wanted to speak with him about the position as mission director. But yeah anyway...Happy Birthday Li, fromEriol too."

'What?' Sakuralooked shcoked.'It's Li's birthday?'

"Thanks Daidouji"

"No problem." Tomoyo smiled. "So you guys going home...together?"

Sakura snapped back to life. "Yeah." She responded. "Li is giving me a ride home."

"Oh okay." Tomoyo smiled devilishly for a moment. "I'm sorry me and Eriol couldnt drive you, Sakura. But we have work to do still."

"Oh no!" Sakura raised her hands shaking them. "Please! I can't take you two away from your work, anyway, it's too important."

Tomoyo smiled at Sakura then turned to Syaoran. "I'm sorry, Li. Thank you for bringing Sakura home." Tomoyo bowed her head.

"Oh!...uh...no problem. I'm fine with it." Syaoran responded.

"I'm sure you are." Tomoyo smiled at him and the boy turned away blushing.

"Well, I have to go now! Bye! See you guys later." And Tomoyo ran off.

Sakura followed Syoaran out to his wheels. His wheels which owuld be a Kawasaki Ninja ZX6RR motorcycle. Syoaran passed her a spare helmet as he put his own on. His helmet was black decorated with a wolfish figure. Green writing ran along the sides. One said in plain english: Li Syaoran. and on the other was his name again, this time in chinese characters.

"Here, wear this." Syaoran held out the balck and green jacket to Sakura. "You're going to get cold." Sakura took it.

"Ummmm...Li?"

"Yes, Kinomoto?"

"I'm sorry, Happy Birthday."

Syaoran didn't say anything. This was the reason he had been upset all day.

"Li? Li?"

"I heard you."

"Oh..umm...okay."

Sakura put on the jacket and noticed it was decorated similarily to his helmet. 'Li Syaoran' stitched on the back along with the chinese characters. It looked good on her wit her jeans and pink tomoyo-made top. She could smell Syaoran's scent from the jacket.

'I never knew guys could smell this good.'

Syaoran spotted her smelling his jacket. "uh...does it smell bad?"

Sakura looked embarassed. "Oh no. It smells good."

'Crap! It smells good? It smells good? That means He smells good. that means...he probably does smell good! Oh no!'

Syaoran smiled at her and laughind making Sakura bluch because he rarely did it. 'He has such a charming smile.'

He hopped on the bike and revved it up. "Get on." He instructed Sakura. "And hold on tight."

Sakura got on the bike but didn't hug Syaoran quite yet.

"Wait, Li!" Sakura cried over the loud moto.

"What, Kinomoto?" He asked angrily. She grabbed hold of him which eased Syaoran's heart.

"Ummm...are you busy now?" She asked. 'Oh my gosh! It sounds like I'm asking him out!'

"No." He answered unthinkingly. He turned off the bike so they could hear each other. "I just want to get home."

"Oh!" Sakura felt a bit embarassed. "I just wanted to know if we could celebrate your birthday."

There was a mometn of silence, where Syaoran was deep in thought.

"Sure." He finally came out. "What do you want to do?"

Sakura thought hard, completely forgetting she was still holding on to Syaoran making him blush furiously.

"Ummm...Let's go to the Tokyo Central Park." She smiled.

"Okay." Syaoran turned his motorcycle back on and drove off. Sakura held on to him so tightly, hanging on to dear life as she bit, chewed and gulped down her yells as they weaved in and out past cars.

"You wer pretty brave." Syaoran told Sakura. "I mean, for a girl."

Sakura got off the bike. Half of her thrilled wanting to go again and the other half glad to be back on the ground. She took the helmet anf fixed her hair from the hat-head. Syaoran, on the other hand, took his off with natural galancy, not caring if his hair was messed. It looked good on him anyway. Sakura was awed at his knightly complexion.

Syaoran got off his motorcycle. "So what do you want to do?"

The sun was setting and nittime was coming. Sakura took hold of his hand and brought him to the ice cream parlor across the street.

"One single scoop of cookies 'n cream, please!" Sakura asked the server cheerfully.

"And I'll get a chocolate single scoop." Syaoran's voice floated seriously over Sakura's.

THey both recieved their cones. Sakrua pulled out her wallet but Syaoran's arm brushed past hers, setting the money on the counter, before her.

"Li?" She looked up at him.

"You're too slow." He smirked at her. SHe blushed and wove her hands in the air again.

"No, no! It should be on me! It's your birthday!"

"Forget it." He said getting his change and shoving it into his jean pocket.

"Thank you Li" She said looking down. He didn't answer her and instead went out the doors. Sakura followed like a puppy.

They walked to the park and sat down on a bench together. Sakura gave him a half-a-meter amount of space. They sat in silence licking their ice cream.

"Li?" Sakura tried to break the ice. He didn't say anything. "Li?"

"I heard you the first time."

"Then why didn't you answer me?"

"I was waiting for you to say whatever it was you were going to say."

"Oh, I'm sorry Li."

"And will you stop calling me that! It's annoying!" She was offended, she was just trying to be friendly. "Then what am I supposed to call you?" Syaoran paused to think about it. "You can call me Syaoran."

Sakura paused. "F-fine then. You can call me Sakura then."

"Fine."

"Okay then, Syaoran."

There was silence again.

"How's your ice cream?" Sakura tried yet again.

"Fine." Was all he said.

"Why are you like that?" Sakura bursted out. Syaoran looked at her confused. "Why are you so cold and surly? So isolated."

"Do you want to talk?" He looked at her seriously. "You could just say that instead of insulting me, Kino- uh Sakura."

"Fine. Then let's talk." Another period of silence.

"So you're sixteen too now, right?" Sakrua asked, not sure of what to say.

"Yeah." Syaoran answered. Sakura laughed at a random memory that popped into her head.

"Hehe! I remember I couldn't wait till I turned sixteen." Syaoran looked at her. Her head up like she was viewing an episode of a distant rememberance.

"Why?" He asked curiously of what was going on in that head of hers. Sakura laughed at the thought.

"My dad went along with that no-dating rule till sixteen. So I couldn't wait to have a boyfriend." Sakura laughed at her own childishness.'Why am I even telling him this?' "Tomoyo tried to play a trick on me, cause my birthday is April 1st (April Fool's Day). She got one of the boys she knew to ask me out on a date that day. He brought me flowers and chocolates, and told me I was the most beautiful girl he's ever seen. I was so flattered. But..." She paused. Her smile and laughter died away as she looked down. Her legs squeezed together that her knees touched, like she was locked up tight.

"But?" He urged on.

"You see.." Sakura continued. "I didn't like him that way. ANd his wooing didn't bring much spark. So Tomoyo's plan backfired. But she didn't care. And laughed yellingout 'April Fool's' when I rejected him. It was a great moment, sorta funny cause Tomoyo tried to pull something like that off. Tomoyo still even has it on her video camere..." Sakura clasped a hand over her mouth. "Oh my gosh! She sitll has it on her video camera!" Syaoran stared at her anxiety.

"Well that rule doesn't apply to me." Syaoran interrupted. "So I could love any girl I wanted."

Sakura turned to look at him. After that sweet sixteen birthday crash, it came clear to her that if she was to have a career as a top agent. She'd be putting the one she loved in danger. Therefore, in her childish thoughts, she could never love.

"You can't love." Sakura told him, trying to impose the same rule. Syaoran heard her clearly and was clearly offended. He was a human being. He has feelings like anyone eles. And you know what else? He totally misunderstood her.

"I'm sorry if I'm not like you!" He burst out. "Ms. Love-too-much!"

This completely went against her whole philosophy.

"I do not love too much!" She bit hard into the remaining remnants of her cone; partially soaked in the cookies 'n cream dairiness. Syaoran had finished his a long time ago. During Sakura's momentus talk.

"I'll show you I can love." Syaoran sneered at her. "I can get any girl I want!" 'Even you.'

"Whatever." Sakrua shooed off. 'I'm never gonna love again. I don't like you anymore, Syaoran Li.'

Syaoran stood up and looked down at Sakura. "Let's go."

A small idea popped into her head as she tasted the last of her ice cream. Her frustration coolled down.

"Hold on." She got up as well. "I'll meet you at your motorcycle." And she ran off as quickly as she could.

"Sakura! Where are you going!" She was too far away to hear Syaoran calling after her. He could still see her running farther and farther away. His motorcycle jacket billowing in the ind along with her. He smiled noticing how good it looked on her, and made a mental note to come up with creative ways for Sakura to wear it more often.

He trudged along the path taking his time, knowing Sakura would be awhile. His hands were shoved in his jean pockets and slouched a bit.

Two pretty girls in skirts and tank tops walked by Syaoran, giggling as they lifted their sunglasses and stared at him interested. He looked back at them nodding giving them a charming smile as he watched after them. Observing them.

'This'll be easier then I thought.' His playboy side coming out, licking his lips maliciously. 'Especially with all the pretty girls after me.'

He finally reached his Kawasaki Ninja ZXRR. He got on after he put on his oh-so-cool personalized helmet. He squeezed on the handles as he looked around for Sakura. He spotted her running backhuffing and puffing, her cheeks and lips red, and her hair wind-blown. She put on the spare, got on and wrapped her arms around Syaoran.

"Where'd you go?" Syaoran had been dying to ask. It took Sakura awhile to answer.

"The washroom."

"I thought you went to the washroom before we left." (Note: Reason for her to catch up to Syaoran in the beginning with the elevator.)

Sakura blushed. "Female Problem." She blurted out whatever came into her head. Syaoran froze up.

"Aaaarrrggghhhh! SAKURA!" He yelled disgusted, turning a bright red.

"Well you were questioning me!" Sakura turning just as red in the face.

"You didn't have to go into details!"

"I didn't!" She yelled back. "It's not like i told you the process, why and-"

"STOP ALREADY!" 'Oh God! And she justs has to catch a ride from me now!'

'Oh my gosh! I should have told him something else...like...my ice cream spilled on me? Ooooohhh greaaattt!'

They reached Sakura's house and she got off. Both of them red..from blushing.

"Thanks Syaoran." Sakura said without looking at him after she took off her helmet.

"No Problem." He actually responded, he wasnt looking at her either.

She took of his jacket finally and held it out to him. "Thank you for everything." She bowed her head and Syaoran turned to look at her. He took the jacketand put it on, knowing that atleast was safe. He stayed on his bike watching Sakura run up the path to her door. She waved to him and walked into her house safely. He casually stuck a hand inside his pocket and felt something solid.

'Wha! My pockets were empty when I lent this to her...DON'T TELL ME ITS..!' He slowly pulled out a rectangular prism object. It was dark and sort of hard to tell what it was, but he knew what it was. A small pink folded up piece of paper was attached to it. He unfolded it and read the messy cursive writing:

Happy Birthday Syaoran! Thank you for the ice cream. Since you didn't let me pay for us, here is a small gift. Its chocolate. Tomoyo told me once that you like chocolate. You seem to be like chocolate. At first, cold and hard but taste it and its warm and good. Happy Birthday once again. Sakura.

Syaoran smiled. She had made his sixteen birthday worst in the beginning and the best in the end. How could he forget this hot July 13th when he had ice cream to cool him down?


OKAY! I AM SO SORRY..i know i usually update sooner but, my life has been altered yet again so its far more difficult. I have another chapter to type out...but it won't come that soon. Thanks for all the reviews and I hope you guys like reading this. AND OMG! AHAHAHA the most randomest things pop up into my head to make this story and i think theres really more girls than guys reading this...sooo the whole ...curse thing...I'm so sorry if yuhr a guy and feel uncomfortable reading that. HAHA but i had to loosen things up. THANKS! oh yeahh! im soo stupid! I made 2 big mistakes: 1. I screwed up on Syaoran's undercover last name Kobasagi and mixed it up with Kenji Kagashi's and created: Kobagashi. Its Kobasagi guys..SORRY! and 2. Last chapter when Syaoran tricked Sakura into thinking she was caught he asked her if she was sure that she didnt have any other folder then the one she held and i made her say 'no.' LMAO I'm so sorry...now yu all know what a loser i am now:P and jillida if yuhr readin this...I am sooo cooler then yu atleast. JOKEES!