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Authors Note: This is taking me forever to revise and edit. Whoever had criticized my writing, you were right. It is horrible. I am changing it and making it better though! Trust me, I hate it too whenever the story has a good plot and you find it very enjoyable (not that I'm saying I enjoy my story, I think it sucks) and the grammar and punctuation is so horrible you just want to scream!
Ch. 5 The Attack on Harry's MindHarry had no idea where he was; the last thing he remembered seeing was Tonks' face he had no idea what was going on. Everywhere around him was black except for the floor he was standing on which was a gray stone floor. He kept hearing whispers, that sounded like his name, but he couldn't hear where they were coming from. This place had a foreboding feeling to it, he didn't want to be here. The feeling of foreboding increased when he felt a familiar presence, and that oh so familiar smell of death.
"Voldemort... " Harry whispered
As soon as Harry had said his name he heard Voldemort's malicious laugh somewhere in front of him. He saw the figure of Voldemort off in the distance walking toward Harry. Harry gripped his wand tighter, 'My wand? I didn't have my wand in my hand when... I fell unconscious...'
"Poor unsuspecting Harry... has no idea of where he is, why he has his wand in his hand... and that the Dark Lord that's about to take over his mind..." Voldemort laughed again, "I suppose I could fill you in, you will find out either way. I opened the channel between us further. I can now read your mind at will and see what you are seeing. There is something in your mind, something that you are struggling very hard to keep from me, something that even I cannot reach. Something that brings extreme pain unto me, something that is worse than the Cruciatus curse. It holds the prophecy and something else..." Voldemort's laugh increased after he had said this. Harry's neck hair stood on end.
"Last night I had tried to enter your mind -- to take over you. You would be helpless as I controlled you, as I make YOU kill every single one of your friends and kill that old fool Dumbledore. He cannot hurt his precious Potter! Yet... that… whatever it is, in your mind forced me out. I have felt it grow and become a more powerful object in your mind. I had thought that all of my planning was going to go to waste. I consider myself lucky, this was the last time I was going to attempt to enter your mind... looks like I've succeeded. Now the only thing that stands in my way is your conscious self. Something I hadn't planned on, but it is of no consequence, DIE! AVADA KEDVARA!" Harry was so caught up listening to Voldemort's story, that he had barely enough time to dodge the curse.
"EXPELLIARMUS!" Harry bellowed.
Harry still knew all those other curses he had learned, but still that one stuck in his mind like glue. It had saved his life after all.
"Protego! AVADA KEDVARA!" Voldemort screamed back.
Harry managed to dodge both spells. "INCARCEROUS!"
Ropes shot out of Harry's wand. "DIE POTTER! PROTEGO!" Voldemort yelled back in his rage.
"PERFECTUS TOTALUS! Protego!" Harry countered.
The ropes faded away after Harry used his Protego. There was nothing to hide behind; Harry had to keep moving to dodge all of the spells.
"STAY OUT OF MY MIND VOLDEMORT, AVADA KEDVARA!" Voldemort clearly wasn't expecting Harry to use the killing curse.
He hadn't enough time to use Protego, and dodge both spells so he got hit with the immobilization curse. If this was a fight for his mind then he will fight as dirty as Voldemort. Voldemort stopped moving as soon as he was hit with the curse; he fell directly on his face. Harry raised his wand squinting with rage in his eyes; this will be the end of it all. He is going to kill Voldemort; "Avada Ka-" before he could finish the curse the darkness surrounded him and Voldemort.
Tonks was scared out of her mind, two minutes ago she was having the time of her life, when... suddenly... she saw Harry press his hand against his scar. Harry then gave a giant shudder and fell to the floor in mid-stride and onto the floor twitching violently. She yelled his name but he was unresponsive, Tonks bolted out of her chair and went to him. When she looked into his eyes it had looked like he were dead. There was no sign of life, he had passed out from the pain, and Voldemort was doing this to him. She picked up his light body -- from being underfed, and laid him down onto his bed. When she looked at his face she gasped at what she saw, his scar was now... pulsating, and bleeding. She got a book, muttered portus under her breath and was transported outside of Dumbledore's office.
Tonks barged in, "Dumbledore! Something's wrong with Harry! He looked fine and then in a split-second he had pressed his hand to his forehead, when I checked into his eyes... they seemed... dead. I had laid him on his bed when I had noticed his scar was... pulsating and bleeding"
Dumbledore who had always looked calm even in the dire of circumstances broke out of his cool façade. A look of extreme worry came across his face. As soon as she had finished her sentence he had got one of his trinkets, muttered portus and they both were transported back to Harry's room.
Dumbledore strode across the room, opened Harry's eyes and looked into them. "I do not know what's wrong with him, I can only guess that Voldemort might be trying to take over him like he did in the Ministry... this time more permanently... but like I said, it is a guess. Tell me Tonks, what were you two doing before all of this transpired?"
Tonks hadn't kept her eyes off of Harry's shut eyes when she had gotten back, she could see his eyes moving under his lids, and his left and right arm would twitch randomly.
"I was trying to find a way for me and him to train with spells so that he can sharpen his skills. He was walking back to the table after he had let Hedwig back in. Where he suddenly stopped moving, placed one hand on the table -- as if to steady himself, and one hand on his scar."
Tonks hadn't taken her eyes off of Harry as she explained this. Harry's arm movements steadily became more and more erratic. Dumbledore stayed and watched with an intent look on his face.
"DAVRA!" Harry said suddenly, startling both Tonks and Dumbledore. Harry had suddenly sat up with a wary look on his face breathing heavily. Tonks, who wasn't expecting anything had jumped two feet in the air from surprise, Dumbledore looked mildly surprised as well.
"Harry!" Tonks cried. Tonks ran over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck. He didn't respond he was still looking around.
Harry wrenched out of grasp and stood up looking around, "Where is he?" Harry asked vehemently.
"Where is who Harry?" Tonks asked with a small amount of panic in her voice. Harry finally looked at Tonks, barley acknowledging her presence.
"Voldemort! I was about to kill him!" Harry said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Dumbledore held a face of recognition.
"What happened, Harry?" Harry looked at Dumbledore, barely acknowledging his presence as well. "My scar started hurting... and I passed out from the pain... then I woke up in this... place that was pitch-black, except for the floor which was gray. Voldemort came out somewhere of the shadows; he told me that he had opened our channels further. He told me that last night -- where I was having a horrible nightmare, I had felt his presence push into me. That he was trying to take over me, permanently. But there was something that had stopped him from doing that. Something that had caused great harm to him, just for him to be close to it, something that concealed my knowledge of the prophecy as well. He said that this was the last time he was going to try to take over my mind. He said that he wasn't expecting to see my 'conscious self' or something. Then Voldemort tried to kill me using the killing curse, I fought him and I had successfully used the immobilization curse on him. I was standing over him, I was in the middle of saying the killing curse, when the darkness pressed onto me and him, and I woke up to see you two... Sir, how is it that I was able to battle him in my mind? With my wand none the less?"
Tonks was glancing between Dumbledore and Harry, she knew that that was too vivid to be just a simple nightmare. He had to have gone through all of that. Worst of all, he had said that he attempted one of the three unforgivables. Dumbledore was frowning in concentration, this was something that has never happened before, and it was a little while before Dumbledore said anything.
"Harry I do not know how you were able to battle Tom, it seems that he was able to control the connection in both of your minds, he's mastering it, it seems. Hopefully what he said was true that this was the last time he tries to take control of your mind. This is all as new to me as it is to you. I do not know the answer to your second question either, may I see your wand?"
Harry looked just as confused as Tonks. Who had remained silent through the whole thing. Tonks knew that her relationship with Harry wasn't going to be easy, she hadn't realized it was going to be this radically different. With Voldemort and everything, but still... she wasn't expecting this.
Harry took out his wand out from his pocket and handed it to Dumbledore. Dumbledore looked at it closely. "Do you know what spell you used last? Outside of the... I dare say, dream'" Harry looked at his wand, concentrating. When he remembered, his face darkened. Tonks immediately knew that he was remembering everything that had transpired at the Department of Mysteries.
"I had tried to use the Cruciatus curse on Lestrange"
Tonks' ears perked up when she heard this, she knew that Harry wanted revenge on Lestrange for killing his god-father, she just didn't know that he would go that far to extract his revenge.
"Harry... " Harry looked up at her, she saw the pain in his eyes. All the plans of telling him that that was a mistake flew out of the window, he already hurt because he had tried an unforgivable on a human being.
"I know Tonks. I regretted it later on, she may be... a very horrible woman, but no one deserves the Cruciatus curse"
Dumbledore took out his wand and muttered "Prior Incantato" The ghost of the last spell appeared in little wisps of smoke. It didn't form a shape. Which has never happened before, Tonks let out a gasp of astonishment. 'Time of how long ago the wand was used never matters'. Dumbledore tried again; still it never took a shape. "It seems to me Harry, that somehow you had brought your wand with you into your mind. Of course not physically, just the magical energy within it. Your mind had shaped the wand back to how you're used to seeing it. I am of course going to have to get Professor Snape to train you with Occlumency some more".
"Excuse me, Sir. But why can't you?" Dumbledore looked at Harry with sadness in his eyes.
"I am sorry Harry, as much as this has alarmed me I have to continue work with the Order." Harry just sighed.
"Either me or Professor Snape will inform you of when he will be arriving" Harry was refusing to look at Dumbledore, Tonks noticed the even further saddened look in Dumbledore's eyes.
"Farewell Harry and Tonks. I will speak to the Ministry as well, so that you will be able to use magic outside of school. Wait for my owl before you start to do anything." Harry merely grunted his response.
With a small pop Dumbledore was gone, Tonks sighed and looked at Harry. Who seemed to sense her looking at him, and looked back. Tonks re-wrapped her arms back around Harry and laid right next to him, she rested her head on his chest and sighed in comfort. She felt him shift; he wrapped one arm around her back, and used the other to run it through her hair. Which seemed to relax them both. "I love you Tonks" Despite everything that had happened she smiled and answered back. "I love you too Harry" She saw him close his eyes wearing a smile.
She watched as he fell asleep, still wearing the smile. Carefully not to wake him up, she got out of his grasp, kissed him on the forehead, and performing a moving charm she moved him onto his bed. Tonks walked back to the kitchen chair to sit down to think. She had to do some planning for Harry's birthday party; it was going to be a damn good one. While Tonks was out getting Dumbledore to charm her wand, she had also stopped by some of the shops in Hogsmeade and in Diagon Alley to get some presents for Harry. She wasn't exactly being truthful toward her feelings toward him, so she only got him some refill for his broom cleaning kit.
That was all right though, her second present was going to make up for her... less than great present. Something the both of them could enjoy. Tonks got up, strode across the room and left Harry's room, where she ran into none other than the walking tub of lard, that was called: Dudley. Tonks wasn't looking where she was going and was knocked off of her feet landing on her bum. Dudley merely took a step back. Dudley stood in place; he was looking her over. His eyes glided from her legs, to her chest, where they stayed. 'Crap, I don't mind Harry looking at me, but that little oinker has got another thing coming'.
Tonks got up and brushed off her bum, whipped out her wand and pointed it straight at Dudley's face. Who had a quick show of fear, but started to laugh. Which sounded amazingly like a pig laughing (if they could). He clearly hadn't heard Harry when he said that she was an adult wizard. Hell, she even looked like an adult wizard.
"Listen you little porker, get your eyes off of my chest or be prepared to face the consequences. Unlike Harry, I can do magic outside of school, so unless you want to live the rest of your life as a walking piece of bacon, leave!"
She shot warning sparks at his feet to show that she wasn't joking. Dudley squealed like a pig and fled the room. Making thunderous footsteps as he attempted to run but looked more of a fast waddiling. She heard Harry's Aunt start to come up so she locked his door, and resumed walking to the bathroom.
Tonks stepped out of the bathroom, having done with her business in there and looked around. By the looks of Harry's door his Uncle had tried to take it down, Tonks chuckled to herself. She magically unlocked the door, repaired it, and walked back inside. A large gray owl was situated on Harry's windowsill, with a piece of parchment attached. Tonks magically locked the door again, went to the owl, and untied the parchment off of its leg.
'Everything is set up, Harry can train. Severus will be here every Monday and Thursday. At eight o'clock p.m.'
Tonks smiled, well at least now they could train. Her smile faltered when she read the part about Snape. Tonks didn't know how much Snape had taken out of Harry every time they had trained, but she knew it wasn't going to be easy for him. He was going to even less pleasant with her here. Tomorrow was Thursday; Friday was Harry's birthday.
'Well, at least Harry's birthday was on a Friday rather than tomorrow. There was no way Severus was going to cancel... especially for Harry' She knew that Severus wasn't going to make sure that he avoided those horrible memories of Harry's either, in fact he'll probably go out of his way to get to them. 'Stupid Pratt.'
Tonks got up to make herself some sandwiches. In the middle of making her sandwich she heard a loud pummeling on the door. Afraid that the sound was going to wake up Harry she raced to the door and opened it up. She saw Vernon's purple face staring at her with malice. This did not scare her though, "Yes?" She asked in a mock-sweet voice.
Vernon's face was the color of a mix of purple and red, "YOU! YOU THREATEND MY SON! I WANT YOU OUT OF MY HOUSE, NOW! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE HERE!" He clearly had forgotten that she was a grown witch.
"For one, yes I threatened your... that was your son? Funny, you call him a son? I confused him for a baby whale for a second or two... I threatened him because he was openly gaping at my chest! He had no right too, even after I warned him he still stared. Secondly I have every right to be here, Harry is going through an EXTEREMLY difficult time, and he does NOT need his supposed 'family' making it worse. Therefore I am here, to make sure that you, your whale of a son, and that... horse of a woman stop treating him so horribly. With that said I ask of you not to make any loud noises, Harry is resting and I dare say he needs it more badly than your whale of a son needs to lose weight." With that Tonks closed the door on his huge face. Tonks giggled at the sight of Vernon's face as she closed the door on him.
She felt two arms snake around her waist, without thinking she let out a small shriek. "Well done, love"
She relaxed in Harry's arms, forgetting -- despite having just gotten done talking about him, that he was there. He kissed the back of her neck, which had sent chills down her spine, 'amazing how his simplest touches can do this to me... and those kisses, my God simply drive me wild' Unconsciously she started to grind her bum into his groin, which made him groan in turn. His hands started to roam her body again, getting close but never touching her breasts.
As much as Tonks was enjoying this, this was going to be saved for later. She stopped moving her butt and broke his grasp, which made him groan out of frustration.
"Later Harry, I promise" She kissed him on the cheek. "You might want to take a cold shower" She chuckled when embarrassment flushed all over his face. She resumed making her half done sandwich and started to make one for Harry as well. Despite her advice on taking a cold shower he sat down, and started to eat the sandwich that Tonks handed him.
"Oh Harry, I forgot to tell you, Dumbledore owled me, you can do magic outside of school now. So the training schedule we discussed is in effect on Sunday. It's too late to do anything; tomorrow well... here's the bad and good part. You'll be taught to perfect Occlumency... but it's with Severus. He's going to be here every Monday and Thursday. On those days you'll have your breaks, seeing how you'll have to deal with him. We're skipping training on Friday, well... because it's your birthday. Saturday... well... you'll know why we're skipping Saturday during the morning."
Harry didn't fail to catch the look of mischief in her eye. He couldn't help but smile at the look, "I can only wonder."
He knew the days of Snape training Occlumency were going to be hell. Yet, he wasn't entirely put off by it, at least with Tonks here it wouldn't be as horrible... or so he hoped. He'd hate for her to see him be weak, he knew he shouldn't feel like he should have to prove anything to her, but he couldn't help it. The effects of what they had done five minutes ago were still having its effect on him. He hadn't expecting her to start grinding her butt against his loins, but Harry didn't mind in the least bit. He was afraid the way she was going to react if he had started caressing her breasts, deciding that she would've killed him he got close but never touched them. He may have rampaging hormones but he was going to be respectful. The little nap had made him feel much better, he was glad that it was dreamless. He wasn't entirely for sure he could handle another battle with Voldemort inside of his mind.
"What time is Professor Snape coming over?" Tonks looked at him and just merely replied
"8 o'clock P.M." Harry simply sighed and continued eating his sandwich. "What are we going to do tonight? After that little nap, I'm not exactly ready to go to sleep anytime soon." Tonks' brow furrowed in concentration. "Well... I suppose we could start early on your perfecting your shield charms, that's if you want?"
"Sure, I've been looking forward to it."
Tonks smiled at him, "Great, soon as we get done with our sandwiches we'll begin". It was true, Harry had been looking forward to it, even though he had already learned lots of spells, to be trained by an Auror would be a great privilege. After they both got done with eating Tonks used her wand to move everything that was cluttering the makeshift training ground to the walls.
"It's not exactly the greatest thing in the world, but it'll have to do. Now, what we will be doing is increasing the Protego spell. Hopefully we'll be able to increase the spell to where it can block almost all spells. What you need to do is... imagine a powerful curse, being reflected off of your shield. When strong curses are thrown at the shield they won't bounce back, it'll just destroy the shield altogether. Never try to block the three unforgivable curses. They'll just go through your shields. All right, I'm going to start with weak spells and gradually increase the power so that I know where to start. It's harder than it sounds, even though it sounds extremely easy."
Harry simply nodded and prepared himself. "Expelliarmus!"
"Protego!" The spell reflected off of the shield, Tonks moved her wand and the spell seemed to be absorbed into a silver shield that was invisible until the spell hit it." Harry's eyebrow arched when he saw that happen, Tonks reading his reaction simply stated, "A shield that you'll learn after this one... you need to learn how to make the advanced Protego before you can make that shield" Harry nodded his head in understanding. Tonks continued with stronger and stronger spells.
"Damn Harry, I'm not exactly for sure if I need to teach you anything."
Sometime later Harry was slightly exhausted; Tonks had kept throwing spell after spell at him, saying that he seemingly already knew advance Protego, so he should increase vitality. They had been working for three hours, Tonks hadn't even broke a sweat yet. Despite Harry's nap he was slightly tired. "Damn good job Harry, do you want to start on the blocking charm?" Harry knew that if he said no and tried to go to bed it'd be a long while before he fell asleep, plus he was eager to get started on the blocking charm.
Nodding eagerly he stood at attention, waiting for her to start her explanation on it. "Unlike Protego, you don't say the spells name in order to cast it -- as you may have noticed. However, like the Protego spell, you need to visualize the spell being absorbed. You need to see it happen, also you need to move your wand in a certain way." Tonks proceeded to show Harry the wand movements in order to cast the spell. After several times he finally got it down, "Never forget the wand movement, also, make sure it is flawless the spell will not work even if you made the smallest mistake, this is why witches and wizards tend to ignore this spell. They can never get past the part where it has to be flawless. Now, get ready"
He did as he was told, and nodded his head to Tonks, signaling that he was ready. He imagined a spell being absorbed by a shield.
"Expelliarmus!" Harry's wand flew out of his hand and hit the wall as was Harry flown back into the wall. Harry got up slowly and rubbed his back and the back of his head.
"Alright Harry?" Tonks asked. Harry nodded and pain shot through. He got ready again; he imagined the spell being absorbed by the shield more vividly this time. He heard Tonks shout the disarming charm, and yet again he was thrown into the wall. This happened ten more times, before Harry could barely get up without his back popping in agony. Tonks strode over to him, and helped him into his bed.
"Sorry Harry, I guess I should've prepared a healing potion before we started with the shield charms"
"It's alright Tonks, I don't blame you, I blame myself, I should've tried harder." He did feel like crap, he wanted to show Tonks that he could do it and yet he had failed at it.
"Harry, it took me a month to get that charm down, that's not even mentioning perfecting it, don't feel bad. The spell is extremely advanced." Of course that wasn't entirely true, it had taken her three weeks to get the spell down and perfected. Harry merely sighed. So, Tonks merely bent down and kissed him on the cheek, "good night lover boy"
Deciding that Harry would probably more comfortable sleeping, she went to her bed and laid down. Harry could take a lot of abuse that was for damn sure. She was glad that he couldn't take anymore she started to get extremely tired. Sighing as she laid down on her bed, she fell asleep. Harry followed just as quickly, pain in his back becoming long forgotten.
Authors note: Finally!
