Chapter Four- Death toll 1: Jay Hogart

Emma's eyes flew open as she was being shaken roughly.

"What the hell!" she yelled as the hands finally released her. Her vision orientated and she sat up, making sure she was properly covered. "Sean?" she asked confused.

Sure enough, there he was standing there looking completely pissed off as Jay finally came through the window.

"I have got to get that damn thing fixed…" she sighed as she turned her attention on Sean.

"So you did more besides the ravine huh?" he spat at her.

Her eyes grew wide. "What!"

"Oh yeah, Jay told me everything. Thanks for telling me that you were pregnant Emma!"

She looked at Jay who was sheepishly standing against the wall avoiding her glare.

"Sean, listen to me…."

"So what? Everyone was right? You are just a slut?"

Her eyes filled with tears. "Shut up!" she yelled at him. "You have no idea what I go through every day and then here you come back in my life. You defend me every damn day and I think 'oh good I finally found a friend that will believe me' because fuck, even Manny thinks I'm a damn slut! So don't you dare walk in here and accuse me of being a slut! You know me Sean, you know what I'm like. So you of all people should know that I'm not!" she hurled at him a tear falling down her cheek.

Jay just stared at her. He had never seen her fly off the handle like that. She was hurt and for the first time…she was showing it. Sean just looked at her like he didn't want to touch her anymore and walked out. Emma watched him go and then looked at Jay.

"Thanks," she got out before she collapsed back on her bed in a fit of tears.

Jay had no idea what to do…he was never good in the whole comforting area of the relationship. He stood awkwardly there for a minute and then walked slowly over to her bed and touched her back gently. She looked up tearfully at him and then looked away.

"What?" she sniffed.

"I'm sorry…." He said actually genuinely feeling bad.

"Whatever. You just had to tell him huh? Thanks Jay…thanks. The one person that was still remotely nice to me and you just decide to ruin that…"

He sat back at that. "I know," he said softly.

"Just go ok? I know you don't wanna stick around here anyways," she said as she rolled her eyes.

Jay just looked at her and got up slowly. He made his way out of the window and left the Simpson-Nelson house behind him…and Emma crying her eyes out because of him. For some reason he felt like shit now. Normally he could care less that he made people cry, half the time he found it funny. But for some reason when Emma did it, he felt two feet tall. Maybe it was because she was pregnant with his kid…he couldn't feel anything for her right? It was Emma Nelson, environmental crusader…she was everything he wasn't. She was sweet and nice and caring. He was an ass without an heart; or at least that's what the rest of Degrassi thought. He walked the rest of the way home in thought about Emma and what he was going to do when he realized that all the lights in his house were on. Great…now wouldn't this just be fun?


"Hello?" Manny's sleepy voice came through the receiver.

Emma took a deep breath. She couldn't believe she was about to say this…it went against everything she stood for. She somehow found her voice and ventured shakily, "So what was your abortion like?"

"Em?" Manny asked as she sat straight up in her bed. She had never her friend sound like this. And for her to ask that question; something had to have happened. "What happened?"

Emma grew silent, the only sound Manny could her was Emma softly crying.

"Sean knows."

Manny took a deep breath. "And?"

"He called me a slut."

"Oh my God," she sighed. "Em, I'm sure he was just upset," she tried to consol.

"Well maybe I am. I mean hello, Jay Hogart! What was I thinking? He's been with like the entire school; how does that not make me a slut?"

"Because you only slept with one guy," Manny said firmly. Manny had the rep of the school slut a few years back and she had been through the whole school hating her. Emma had not though. And yes Manny admitted that she called her friend a slut at first too but then she thought it about it. This was Emma Nelson here. There had to be extreme circumstances surrounding what had happened and sure enough Manny had been right. Emma had gotten drunk for the first time and was at a party when Jay ran across her. She was the one who initiated everything and lead him upstairs. Of course once Emma had realized what she did she flipped out. Jay of course thought it was funny; seeing Greenpeace all drunk and horny. He had taken her up on her little offer no questions asked. The next day everyone knew that they had hooked up and made fun of Emma but within a week it was dropped. But now that she was with his child…it would go down in the history books for sure.

"Just tell me ok," the blonde urged quietly.

Manny was silent for a minute. "No."

"And why not?"

"Because you're better than that Emma. You've always said that abortion is wrong and you'll never get one…ever."

Now it was Emma's turn to be quiet. "That was before Jay. Ok Manny you have no idea…"

"Emma! I think I have an idea! Hello people don't call me the school slut for nothing! I ruined a relationship between two people. So don't talk to me about not knowing. If anyone doesn't know it's you. You think that you have problems because you're pregnant with Jay's kid? Try being pregnant with Craig's and then having it announced in the cafeteria by his ex-girlfriend, whose relationship I happened to ruin…by the way. At least Jay wasn't with anyone at the time ok? You got with a single guy. Yeah he's with Alex now but it's not like your having sex with him now are you? Exactly. So maybe it's you who has no idea," Manny took a deep breath after telling her friend off. All she heard was silence and then a shaky breath as the phone hung up.


Sean looked at Alex who was stalking around the apartment in fury. He had told her about Emma and that her wonderful boyfriend was the one responsible for it. Which could be argued a bad move…but he figured she should know and let's face it; he was pretty pissed off himself.

"So you're not just making shit up right? Emma Nelson is…fucking my boyfriend?" she asked through gritted teeth.

Sean just nodded. "And she's pregnant."

Alex stopped moving and just stared at him. He shook his head affirmatively and she just yelled. Suddenly the door started to open, bit by bit. Alex smirked when she saw that because she knew it was Jay. She shut her mouth and just leaned against the couch, arms crossed staring at the door. Sean looked back and forth between the door and the girl and contemplated leaving. He knew it was going to get ugly; he wasn't stupid. He stood up to go but Alex shot him a look and he sat back down. He knew better than to fuck with her…he had seen what she could do to people. The door continued to open inch by inch and he sighed.

"Are you afraid of your own house?" Alex called out.

"No…I'm afraid of you in my house…" he answered.

Sean stifled a laugh. Jay had no idea what was coming to him…

She stalked over to the door and pulled it open, and pulling Jay in as well. She glared at him as he looked up at her, feigning innocence.

"Quit the shit," she said quietly as she walked away.

He sighed and then saw Sean sitting there. "Gee, thanks buddy."

"Don't blame him. You're the one that should have opened your mouth 3 months ago!"

"I didn't know then! I've only known for a week!" he shot back.

She just snorted. "Right. So this girl is three months pregnant with your kid but you've only known for a week? For some reason I'm finding that hard to believe."

He sighed. "Look I was going to tell you ok? I was waiting for the right time…"

"Apparently Sean's time came before mine huh?"

Jay turned on Sean at that time. "Where the hell do you get off telling Alex?"

"Like you were going to," he said rolling his eyes.

"Fuck that it wasn't your business Sean! It's my fault and my problem. Not yours."

"Oh it became mine when it involved Emma!"

"You're not going out with her anymore buddy! You have Ellie! And I get that Emma is this princess to you on a shrine that can't be touched by anyone but you but get over that! Shit's gonna happen to her and you can't control it. Yes I got her pregnant. I wasn't with you," he said turning to Alex, "and it has nothing to do with you," he hurled at his best friend.

"Get out," Alex said quietly.

Jay whirled around to face his girlfriend. "What?"

"GET OUT!" she screamed.

"IT'S MY HOUSE!"

She laughed a mirthless laugh. "Not anymore."

He took a step towards her. "You wanna bet?" he challenged her.

Alex just smirked and looked at him. "What are you gonna do? Get me pregnant too?" He didn't say anything at that point. "Bitch," he breathed out looking away.

"Excuse me!" she snapped as she slapped him across the face.

Jay's head snapped the other way but he didn't do anything about it. He deserved that…he knew it. He looked back at her.

"I think you should leave."

She crossed her arms and looked at him smugly. "Apparently you don't know what get out means. Never took you for that stupid."

"And apparently you don't know what it's my house means. Never took you for that stupid," he said back.

Sean just watched the scene unfold from the couch. Jay wasn't exactly being the smart guy right about now. Alex was going to lay him out…

Alex just looked at him and punched him in the stomach. He wasn't expecting that he leaned over as the air got knocked out of him. After a minute or too he got back up.

"Maybe now you'll get the hint," she said.

"Maybe now you will," he hurled back as he rose his hand back.

She just looked at him, amused. "You wouldn't."

He just rose his eyebrow at him. "No?" he asked as he slapped her. "Now get this straight. It's my house. And Emma is pregnant…shit happens ok. I'm sorry but I can't take it back-"

All the sudden someone from behind took him out by throwing him to the ground and putting a knee in his back. Alex just stared at him in shock. In all the time that they had been together, he had never hit her. Never since they had known each other had she seen him hit another girl. She shook her head quickly, erasing the shock and slight look of fear from her eyes and crouched down to the ground. "Perhaps next time I say get out, you'll leave," she said as she got back up and stalked into the bathroom and slammed the door. The pressure relieved from his back and he rolled over slowly to see Sean standing there.

"What the hell dude?" he asked sorely.

"Don't hit her. Ever. And if you think you're staying with me, you're fucking delusional," he hissed as he got up and walked out, slamming the door as Alex did. Jay just sighed and put his head back on the floor. He took his hat off and threw it to the side of him in frustration. He had no girlfriend, no best friend, no house and tomorrow will be a blast at school now. That is…giving that he would find a place to sleep tonight…