Chapter Seven- Free Falling
Jay sat on the hood of his car, beer in hand, arm around the latest whore. Him and Tricia were long over and he had now moved on to his latest flavor of his week, Amy. And yes that would be the same Amy that had helped to break him and Alex up. But right now he didn't care. He wanted something and she knew what it was and was willing to give it. Ever since that whole thing happened with Emma he hadn't looked at her or even talked to her. That was a month or two ago. He glanced her way in class the other day and saw that she was happily chatting away with Manny and JT. He didn't know how she was doing and he didn't care…or at least that's what he told himself. He felt a tug on his ever present black jacket and turned to the girl who was sitting next to him and kissed her hard on the mouth like he knew she wanted. She started to get feisty and up on him and he reciprocated but it wasn't the same. Yeah it felt good but then again, what guy didn't want to be laid? Amy pulled on his hand and tried to get him to move into the van for some fun that she wanted and thought was well deserved. At first Jay got up and followed her but then for some reason he just stopped.
"Jay…come on…." She whined looking back at him.
He just looked at her. She was nice and all…when she wasn't drunk or stoned. Oh and if you were on her good side too. He slowly started to shake his head and she stared at him in disbelief.
"You have one horny ass girl standing here who will make your fantasies come true and you're turning down sex?" she asked laughing.
He didn't say anything and just turned around.
"Jay!" Amy called after him for a minute.
Jay ignored her and just kept walking back to his car and got in and drove off. As soon as he was out of sight of the ravine he parked in the parking lot of an old K-Mart and turned off the car. He sat there for a few minutes, head leaned back against the headrest. Deep down he knew why he couldn't do anything with those girls. Hell, most of those people probably knew too. Ever since he had hooked up with Emma Nelson, he hadn't been back to that van. Not after finding out that he got her pregnant. He promised her that he'd be there for her, what a crock of shit. Because he sure as hell wasn't being there for her now in that damn empty parking lot. He knew that he liked her…hell he probably loved her. Because he liked Alex a whole hell of a lot and he still fucked around with other girls when he was with her. He looked out the window and stared off into the night. He hated himself for the shit he was pulling and what he was feeling. He knew he was being an ass…but the problem was that for the most part he just didn't really care most of the time. With that thought he fired his car back up and headed for the place that most people called home. He himself called it the second stage of Hell.
"So do you know what it is yet?" Manny asked over the phone that night. Emma dug her spoon into her chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream and smiled slightly.
"No I don't, not yet. I find out next week."
"Oh my God I can't believe that. I mean it seems like just yesterday you were running around in the park with a water gun…" she mused aloud sounding very much like a mother.
"Umm…Manny yesterday I was running around with a water gun," Emma pointed out.
"Oh. Well do you have any names picked out?"
"It's hard you know? I mean there's no way in hell I'm naming my kid after Jay. So I'm thinking maybe Michael or Christopher for a boy." Emma sat down on her bed and propped her feet up on her bed stand.
"Well what if it's a girl?"
"Mom keeps telling me to name it Kirsten or something," she said shrugging.
"So how is your mom taking this whole thing anyways?"
Emma sighed. "Well, it goes back and forth. Sometimes it's like she's excited. Others it's like she's disgusted with me about it. I have no idea where she stands in this whole thing…"
"Well no offense but can you blame her? I mean she had you when she was your age and now here you are in the same predicament."
"Yeah I guess," Emma said softly licking her dripping spoon. She didn't really like to talk about what her mother was feeling about her pregnancy…mostly because she didn't know. Silence ensued on the line for a short time.
"So…have you heard from Jay?"
"Yeah, good one," Emma snorted. "Jay helping me and being here with me and for me? What Jay Hogart does and says are two completely different things."
"So he's still being…Jay?"
"To say the least. I mean, I can't believe that I'm pregnant with his kid…that we actually talked long enough to have sex together," she said bitterly.
Now it was Manny's turn to be silent. "Umm…Em, we all know that you liked him."
"What? I did not," she replied indignantly.
"Right. That's why when you see him with a different girl you almost cry right? Because you don't care and he doesn't matter?"
"I'm not talking about this."
Manny's voice softened. "Hun, you just have to admit it ok? Because it's eating you up inside."
"How would you know?" Emma rolled her eyes.
"Because I was there too," she said matter of factly. "You don't think Craig promised me the moon and then acted like a gentlemen do you? Because he didn't. He avoided me like I was the black plague."
"I do," Emma whispered.
"What?"
Emma's eyes shown with tears. "I do like him ok? I really do. And I thought that he meant it when he said that he would be here and help me…I really thought…" she trailed off.
"I know you did," Manny replied. That was all that needed to be said. She understood and that's all Emma needed to hear.
Emma shut her locker the next day and came face to face with Alex. She sighed. "What now?"
Alex rolled her eyes. "How long have you and Jay been fucking?" she asked bluntly.
Emma laughed lightly. "Excuse me?"
"You heard me."
"Ok well I missed the part where that's your business," she said starting to walk away.
"Well I didn't. Because I was still with him," she bit back putting her arm up on the locker so Emma was semi-trapped.
"Why do you care anyways? You have Sean and isn't he just your dreamboat?" she asked batting her eyelashes.
"Don't make me hit you Blondie. And just answer the question."
Emma cocked her head. "Why?"
Alex glared at her. "You'll be sorry," she muttered as she walked away.
"We haven't been," Emma called to her back.
Alex stopped. "What?"
"We haven't been. We also haven't looked at each other, talked to each other or breathed at each other in the last two months," Emma slung her messenger bag over her head and sighed. "Happy?"
"Very," Alex replied turning on her heel and walking away.
"You're welcome!" Emma called to her and received no acknowledgement.
He unlocked his car and was about to get in when he felt an arm snake around his waist. Thinking it was Amy, he grabbed her hand and brushed it off.
"Where you going?" asked a voice that was definitely not Amy's.
He turned around to see Alex standing there. "What the hell do you want?"
She shrugged. "I just wanted to talk…."
"Sean left you didn't he?" he asked with a smirk as he leaned against his car.
The raven haired girl scowled. "We're not talking about him."
Jay just chuckled as he took that for a yes. "So…where are you going?" she asked again.
He cocked his head at her and studied his ex. "Why are you interested all the sudden?"
"Because…I thought-"
"Alex we're not doing this again ok?" he said breaking her thoughts.
She smiled a smartass smirk at him. "Like I'd take you back asshole. I meant we can be civil…you know like in friends…"
"Alex wants to be friends?" he asked.
She shot him a look. "Yes Alex wants to be friends. They're these strange people that hang around you and you talk to them and who knows, you might even laugh or smile. But you know that's like advanced friendships…" she said sarcastically.
He rolled his eyes. "Get in."
She smiled a little bit at him. "Thanks," she said softly. Out of the corner of her eye she saw Emma walk through the doors and she suddenly reached up and kissed him softly, taking him by complete surprise. He pulled back immediately.
"Alex, maybe you don't know what going there again means…." He said and then followed her stare to the school door. There stood Emma looking like her world had just been crushed. And once again he had caused it.
"Emma…" he said as he started towards her. She just shook her head and ran inside. Jay sighed and turned back to Alex.
"What the fuck was that for!"
"Oops?" she grinned and shrugged. She walked over to him and patted him gently on the shoulder. "Oh and by the way, I don't need that ride after all."
It seemed like Emma Nelson was living in the bathroom these days. With the morning sickness and the random crying that she did, she felt like she could start moving her stuff in here and no one would even bat an eye. As it was there were already four people in there as she burst in and locked herself in a stall. She sat on the seat and rocked back and forth trying not to cry. She was going to do it today too…tell Jay how she really felt. After all this time she was finally ready. And what happens? She sees him sucking Alex's face off. It only figures though. I mean they were together in the first place, why not get back together. Oh wait, I know why…because you're supposed to like me! Her thoughts screamed. She sighed and wiped her eyes and exited the stall. But you know what, this was fine. This was more than fine actually. If he wanted to be an asshole to her than she would make him regret it.
She swung open the doors with a look of determination on her face. She scanned the crowd quickly before setting her eyes on Spinner Mason. He was just recently admitted back into school and no girl would touch him with a ten foot pole. It was perfect; and what was better was that him and Jay were somewhat friends. She saw Jay enter the hallway and head for her so she stalked right over to Spinner and whispered something in his ear. He looked at her uncertainly and she nodded with a smile on her face. He nodded slowly and put his arm around her started to walk away, not even looking back at Jay who had seen the whole thing. He was just standing there in the middle of the hallway staring after them. He couldn't believe that Emma would go after Spinner like that. And what the hell was he doing? Some fucking friend he was…. Jay sighed aggravated and kicked a nearby locker and then walked outside. He needed to get away. And right now maybe a drink wouldn't be too bad either…
a/n: sorry that this chapter isn't the best but i felt like i had to update for y'all...expect jemma soon...finally right? lol. but thank you soooo much for reviewing this story as much as you guys have, you have no idea what it means to me! oh and go read "my finest hour" too...because i absolutely love that story and think that people should go read it and love it with me. hehe ) it's all about the jemmaness
