Chapter 10

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Months passed and nothing got better. Inuyasha was still there and the X-Men were still clueless about Kagome's past. And Kagome was falling deeper into her depression.

" Pookie you get outta there!" Kagome yelled throwing a shoe feet away from the wastebasket. Pookie jumped and darted out of the door.

" Tisk, tisk, Kagome. Resorting to throwing things isn't a good sign." Kagome groaned a jammed a pillow over her head.

"" How are you still here?!" She mused from under her pillow.

" Hey there's a new question. It seems you've gotten stronger, but you're still the weak human that I held under my foot. Don't you remember." It was more of an insult than a question.
How could she forget. Memories of Inuyasha sliding his bloody tongue across her freshly cut abdomen.
" How can I for get?"

" That's the point bitch you can't. I'm on the inside now, I'm in you blood." She laid there for a moment whimpering as she felt the end of her bed sink as Inuyasha sat down. Kagome felt his claws entangle themselves in her raven locks. She closed her eyes wishing for it to stop. But as her Mom once said, "You can't just go around wishing for things. You have to make them happen." Kagome smirked and stood up, walked into the bathroom, and picked up a pair of medical scissors.

" And you can't get to what's on the inside without going through the outside. I have to make this happen." She slid the blade down her fore arm. A steady flow of blood trickled down her arm, and made a soft plop on the tile floor. Inuyasha gasped.

" You can't do that!" he yelled stepping forward grabbing for the scissors. But Kagome only jammed them farther into her arm grimacing slightly at the pain. The thought of Inuyasha leaving was well worth it.

" You ...have to... leave!" Kagome screamed, some one was bound to hear, between pants while twisting the scissors around and jerking them around in her arm. Only stopping when she hit the bone.

" Stop that!" Were Inuyasha's last words before he disappeared, hopefully forever this time. Panting heavily Kagome sank to the floor her blood staining her new khakis. She turned her head sharply to the door; footsteps on the stairs.

" Kagome, we heard screams." Scott and Kurt appeared at her bathroom door.

" Oh, mien Got, Kagome vhat did you do?!" Kurt gaped at the sight of all that blood.

" Professor! Mr. McCoy!" Scott yelled out the door. Kurt rushed to Kagome.

" Vhat happened?" Kurt asked urgently taking a towel from the hamper and pressed it on Kagome's arm.

"What's wrong Scott?" Mr. McCoy asked coming through the door. " Kagome what did you do?!"

" It wasn't my fault." Was all she could say. Moving the towel a side Mr. McCoy inspected Kagome's self-inflicted wound.

" What happened, this goes quit a ways. It's going to need stitches." He looked up at Kagome his eyes serious. " Did you do this?" Kagome looked to Kurt for help.

" I- I didn't, It was an accident... I didn't." It convinced Mr. McCoy for the moment.

" Well get the bleeding to stop, then I'll meet you in the infirmary." Mr. McCoy and Scott left leaving Kurt and Kagome alone.

" Kurt, you know I didn't do it right?" Kurt kneeled down and embraced Kagome.

" If you didn't do it then who did?" he asked quietly in her ear. Kagome jerked out of his hug, and stood up on wobbly legs.
" I don't need you! I've had much worse than this! I can t-take care of it myself! " Kagome screeched down at Kurt. He watched as Kagome staggered out of the door, then thumped against the hall wall out side.

" Kagome you really shouldn't do this." Kurt warned trying to get Kagome to lean her weight on him.

" NO!" Kagome screamed pushing Kurt away again. " You'll never know how it feels! Never! You'll never know how much it hurts!" With that Kagome walked the rest of the way to the infirmary by herself.

Forfeit the game before somebody else Takes you out of the game Puts your name to shame Cover up your face You can't win the race The pace is just too fast You just won't last

You love the way I look at you While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through You take away if I give in My life My pride is broken

You love the tings I say I'll do The way I hurt myself again just to get back at you You take away when I give in My life My pride is broken

You like to think you're never wrong You live what you learn You want to act like you're someone You live what you learn You want someone to hurt like you You live what you learn You want to share what you've been through You live what you learn...

' They'll never know! Never!' Kagome thought darkly sitting on the medical table, watching Mr. McCoy stitch up her arm.

" Lets just hope this doesn't happen again." He warned. Kagome hopped off the table and was about to walk out the door when he gave another warning. " Don't do anything too strenuous on that arm okay."

" Feh," Kagome answered back, stalking out the door. Looking down at her arm, Kagome decide to find a different way to fend Inuyasha off. Once in her room Kagome concentrated her healing powers. The same panging feeling filled her chest, and Kagome bolted to the bathroom. Colapsing over the stool Kagome purged what she ate for breakfast. Gasping for breath when she was done Kagome looked around the room.

It was the first time she realized that all the blood was gone. " Kurt must of cleaned it up." Standing up weakly Kagome went over to the sink. She HAD to get the puke taste out of her mouth. Running some rinse water Kagome looked in the mirror. Her hair was askew and she had circles under her eyes, she hadn't slept last night.

The she relized, she had lost her temper. Screamed at Kurt for only caring, and she had said 'Feh'. She suddenly saw Inuyasha starring back at her. Suddenly scared and angry Kagome slammed her fists into the mirror. The broken mirror fell to pieces and scattered on the floor. Backing away Kagome looked the wooden plank that once held the mirror. Falling to the floor Kagome slowly picked the shards of glass out of her hands.

' I've become what I hate.'

There's chapter TEN!! Stay tuned for 11! Don't touch that remote! Please , please review!!