Title: Never Say That You Love Me

Rating: M

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha.

Summary: Sequel to 'For All The Things I Didn't Do'. I/K


It's amazing, she still took his breathe away. Even after all this time. She hadn't changed much at all. Her hair maybe slightly longer and she was a bit paler, but her smile was still the same.

How long had it been since she had smiled at him like that? Years. Three years to be exact. It'd been their anniversary and he had bought her roses. Two weeks later he was drunk and she was gone. He had sworn to give up drinking and he'd done well on that promise for three years.

Inuyasha sighed and shuffled down the familiar road to the old park bench. The cool breeze tangled his hair and pulled at his coat. With scowl firmly in place he shimmed to the bench and plopped down on it his mind off in another world. He didn't know what possessed him to return to the little hometown they had shared, or why he had driven his old truck to her apartment. Maybe he felt it he saw her again he could let go. Make sure she was really happy. Make sure he hadn't screwed up again. When he pulled into the lot he felt his heart stop and his stomach tie up in knots. He felt like he was twenty 24 again and picking her up for their first date.

They'd met in college. She shared a Biology class with him. After three months of shameless flirting they'd given in and decided to go out. Six months later they moved into together. That's when the trouble had started.

He only drank casually when they had dated to relax him and help loosen him up so that it was easier to talk to Kagome and not become so tongue-tied. A glass of wine could hold him through. Then after 3 weeks together his parents had announced they were divorcing. She stood firmly beside him soothing the wounds of heated words he'd overheard them say at each other. One glass became two. Then after 4 months his older brother Sesshoumaru was shot. He'd been at the wrong place at the wrong time. To close to a gang's territory who didn't like his attitude. The news devastated him. They were close and the loss of his brother created the first void in his heart. Kagome was pushed to the background, yet she continued on. She slowly and steadily worked to rebuild the whole that has been made using time to glue it together. Two glasses became three. The more he drank the more he screwed up. He couldn't hold a job, he couldn't stop the cycle he had fallen into. But Kagome didn't care. She stuck by her man, even if it would kill her. He never hit her, he didn't have to. His tongue was loose enough to abuse her all on it's own. When he'd stumble and fall he'd blame her, when he didn't get hire he blamed her, when he drank he blamed her. It was easy and it was cruel. She'd been an easy target never denying an accusation knowing he was to drunk to care. She simply held his head while he threw up, undressed him and placed him in bed, then slipped and aspirin next to some water by his bed. She would run her finger through his hair for a moment, kiss his head and let him rest. She never stopped loving him. What kept her by his side, he didn't know. He didn't deserve her and everyone knew it, but he knew it the most.

Then it had all suddenly came to an end. It had been his brother's anniversary of his death and it had been as good excuse as any to drink. But he didn't stop drinking. The bartender finally had to cut him off. The bartender had dialed Kagome, to used to this routine. She arrived ten minutes later her hair mused and her eyes tired. She looked worn. Gently she had coaxed him outside and into the car. The ride had been uneventful. It was at the house when the rage erupted.

Like usual he had gone to the bathroom to puke and she had the damp cloth waiting. As she held his head in her lap he quietly asked him why did he drink so much. He had staggered to his feet ranting and raving about the death of his brother. She wince and when he paused for breath she spoke. She asked him why one was never good enough anymore. He had done what came natural. He had blamed her. He had said if she was better maybe he wouldn't have to drink at all. It had been words said in haste and rage, but none had been truly meant. But he couldn't take it back now, and his slurred mind told him to go forward. He had told her leave. That when he saw it. He saw her cry. She didn't burst into tears, or sob loudly. In fact, she didn't make a sound. Just crystalline tears one by one dripped down her soft pale cheeks and off her chin. She never cried. He didn't know she could. This wasn't Kagome. She was so strong, so together, so poised. He reached out and placed hand on her cheek while his heart broke. He had done this, he was his own worst enemy. He didn't know how to handle this, how to fix it and make her stop. So his hand had dropped and he returned to his original muddled plan and snatched the suitcase from the bedroom. Why he hadn't packed up he didn't know. He headed toward the door dead set on leaving for a brisk walk, but he barely made it out of the room. He leaned against the wall outside her room and watched her. She cried silently, sobbing here and there when her lips betrayed her. She was questioning what he had said, doubting herself. His befuddled brain couldn't formed the words to tell he didn't mean it, it was his fault. So he left for that walk. When he return she was gone, suitcase in all with the simple white note laying on his bed.

Now a days Inuyasha could have kicked his self. There had been so many times he could have fixed it, or at least done something different, but he hadn't. He had let opportunity knock and slip on by. Now it was three years later and he had changed his life around, and so had she apparently. Inuyasha sighed and stared at the moon as though it held the answered he searched for. It stared blankly back and Inuyasha felt more alone now then ever. He'd come all the way back here to face his past, now what about his future.


End of chapter one. Well you people asked for a sequel/prequel so here it is, well the beginning anyways. I need your help though. Please answer these questions by PM!

Questions One: I want to ultimate make this an Inu/Kag fic, but I have to provide challenges for my characters to overcome and learn from it any suggestions?

Question Two: If on challenge should be anew man in Kagome's life who should it be?

Special Thanks to: Fire Heart, the Lonely Hanyou, Light Angel 6, Angel, Chelsea, Loopylion, Juliana, Inuyasharbd15fan09. - for their support and reviews.

Feel free to PM my anytime and expect updates for my other stories soon. (P.S. Any preference as to what should be updated first? Oh and EVERYTHING is off pause right now.)

Aslan