Ok, no one panic. I already have a sequel in the works. I need time to lapse by…oh…a few years or so and…well, you'll see. Please don't hurt me.

Thanks to:

Addicted2Love, theferretmenace, Tyleet27 (You made me laugh so hard I though I had managed to strain my lungs lol), lilyseyes27 (Please don't hurt me! hides behind the couch), living-is-easy-with-eyes-closed, MyFictionalAnnihilation (I laughed so hard when I read your comment that the girl in the dorm room next to me came to ask if I was ok lol), Mersang (You almost guessed it. But the sequel will tell all.), Chibi-Alania (I really dislike Lily, so if I must have her in a story she's usually a bitch lol), cHoCoLaTe-cHiHuAhUa (You totally guessed it! Welcome to the 'I Hate Lily Club' lol), Shiroi-Tora78 (I'll try realllllly hard to do better about the chapter lengths and update times in the sequel.), rosemont419 (Of course you can hate Lily. I do. lol), K McNeely, ladyBlue Wolf

A/N---I have never seen such a violent reaction to a character before! lmao


James stood frozen in the doorway. His heart had lodged itself in his throat and he had to swallow furiously to keep it from trying to force its way further up. He blinked rapidly, trying to both erase the scene before him and hold the tears at bay.

He watched as Sirius's hand trailed up the side of some Hufflepuff's arm as they kissed heatedly. One broken, mangled sob managed to escape him, alerting the other two boys to his presence, not that they paid any attention. They just kept on snogging.

James wrenched himself away from the sight and ran down the hall, not planning on stopping until he dropped dead of exhaustion.


Sirius tore his lips away from—'David? Don?'—as soon as he heard James's rapidly retreating footsteps. He closed his eyes, trying to ignore the want, the need, to chase after the boy. This was part of the plan. This was what they had both intended from the start of their farce.

James had Lily.

………He didn't have James.

Sirius pressed his lips back against the younger blond's, hoping to ease the clenching feeling in his heart.

…stomach. He meant his stomach.


Remus watched as James ran up the stairs, flinching when the sound of a door slamming echoed throughout the common room.

…And then the faint sounds of crying could be heard in the silence that had overcome the Gryffindors.

'What have you done Sirius?'


Three months later Regulus sat in the front row for his brother and boyfriend's graduation ceremony. Lily Evans was giving the customary Head Girl speech, the large ancestral engagement ring James had given her glaring brightly in the afternoon sun. James was up next and Regulus couldn't help but be angry at Sirius for causing that emptiness in James's eyes that he tried so hard to hide behind fake smiles and forced laughter.

'Then again, Sirius isn't fairing very well either.'


Sirius winced again, his hangover pounding through his head. His life had pretty much become one giant hangover. He still ached for James's touch, for the sound of the other boy's breathing next to him at night. He longed for the days spent in front of the fireplace, trying to keep Orion White's next novel a secret from his curious boyfriend.

'Fake, Sirius. It was all fake.'

But why did it all seem so real?