Author's Notes: angsty one shot of our favorite couple SxS! haha... i guess they're already in their senior year, saku and syao had never confessed their feelings for each other... syao came back after his training to be with saku although he didnt tell her that. all she knows is that this is his home so he had to come back.
Disclaimer: I dont own CCS... but i do own the plot and the poem...
"for today's activity, you all have to do a poem and present it to class. your grades will depend on how strong your emotions show from every word of your poem. you have thirty minutes to do this activity, with the remaining time allotted for the presentations. subject content is inconsequential. all that matters is that the feelings are there. you may begin."
sakura growled. she was in no mood for this. heck, she was in no mood to do anything but to glare at the everything and anything. but she knows she had to do it. she is lagging behind as it is.
'you want emotions. i'll show you emotions.' she thought, darkly, frantically writing down her thoughts on paper.
30 minutes later
"sakura kinomoto, you're up." the teacher called her without looking up from her class list.
sakura stood from her seat and slowly walked to the front, with an emotionless face on. she didnt even noticed the concerned looks that she had received from her friends.
'what's wrong with sakura? ever since that day, she had been like this. its like there were two of her now, the usual genki self that we always known and this person, that no longer shows her real self.' tomoyo thought as as she watched her friend walk to the front and face them. she watched her smile, but that made her frown deepen. she knew when her bestfriend is faking it. and this was one of those times.
"i call this leave," sakura started, her gaze sweeping the room, her emerald eyes lingering on a certain amber eyed boy that was looking at her curiously.
"i watched
i watched as the blood slowly trail down your arms
numb, couldnt feel
watching my heartbeat on your hand
pain, i must've feel pain
you squeezed the life out of me
there must have been pain.
but cold, all i feel is cold,
the blood felt right and my body cold
i hear you laugh
i must've cried
but i'll never know, would i?
give me a reason to die!
why should i feel like im dying inside
all you did was be there
be a friend
and i find myself crying alone in the night
why! tell me why!
why should i cry!
what's with you that im hurting inside!
leave! just go! i dont care!
i dont want you here anymore!
i want back my life
my heart, my mind!
just leave! be gone!
i dont need you
i dont own own you
you're never mine anyway."
she gave a slight bow to her gaping teacher, just as the bell rung. she was not surprised by the reaction she got. who would've thought that 'sweet, little sakura' could be capable of such... emotions. she said every word from her heart, her anger, betrayal and heartbreak filling in each and every one of her class mates. she was so into her poem that she didnt even noticed the shocked and concerned gazes of her closest friends, and the sad, guilty ones of the person whom she dedicated this to.
she didnt bother to look at her peers, she walked straight out of the door. luckily, it was her last period. she wanted to lose herself again, under the trees, where her broken heart would leave her. as she walked out the door, she missed the accusing glare her amethyst-eyed friend gave her amber-eyed one, who was looking down the floor, his bangs conveniently hiding his eyes.
author's notes: what do you think? should i continue or leave it as it is? haha in case you're wondering, 'that day' is the day when syao said he is keen on someone. haha, he must've said it in a sense that it doesnt sound like saku or else she wouldnt be acting that way. haha... they're on this unspoken relationship type of thing so anyone could understand her devastation to know that he doesnt like her. haha... REVIEW please...
