Author's Notes: here is the last part of this story... at long last! one story done! what do you think? will i write a prequel or a sequel or is this enough? any other suggestions? and dont forget read and review!
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B poem
B song (I dont own the songs, the songs are 'sorry for the stupid things' by babyface and 'ill be there for you' by bon jovi)
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"i didnt know that its still there after all these years." sakura said to the room, looking at the glow in the dark stars at the roof at the top of the bed. she can distincly remember the time when her father had placed it up there when she was young. touya had been scaring her with ghost stories again and her father placed it there so that she'd in her room, saying no ghost could harm her as long as its there.
she had been lying in her bed, staring at the roof for who knows how long, her mind blank yet had too much. it might be because of everything that had happened had caused her to go numb that all she could do was to lie there, thoughts just passing through her mind, not really registering to her.
i dunno
i cry
but my tears run dry
she's glad her father and brother are away on a dig at such a time. she wanted to be alone, alone in her thoughts. she doubted she could hide anything from them. but she'd just not yet ready to talk about it. heck! she's not even sure if she had already grasped the situation yet! and as much as she hated syaoran right now, she still didnt want him to die, and that is exactly what will happen the minute touya will get a hold of the situation.
i laugh
but there the hollow feeling in my heart
truth be told, she was quite happy that syaoran wasnt really in-love with someone other than her. somehow, all the bitterness that she had felt ever since she heard about the 'girl' had disappeared the minute she knew that it was all fake. but, she had been quite angry, no, she had been so angry because he had played with her feelings. she never thought he would do that to her, him of all people. the one who promised that would always protect her... never hurt her...
there should be an angel on the edge of the rainbow
waiting for me when i fall from the heavens
but just as quickly as the anger erupted inside of her, it had disappeared, and now, all that was left in her was cold, numbness. she didnt know what to think. would she forgive him? would she be able to trust him her feelings again? would she continue to love him? or would she move on? but as much as she wanted answers, it eluded her, for when thoughts as that come across her, her mind would suddenly go blank. it was a defense mechanism, she wasnt ready yet. she need for the numbness to go away first.
but fate wasnt so keen on me
figured they just have to laugh at me
so they sent me a dragon instead
who bit me
slowly, her hand made its way to her cheeks, which is unusually dry. she had always been emotional when she is alone. but right now, when she desperately wanted to cry, to release everything that she had been feeling inside, she cant. maybe her tears had dried. maybe, he just wasnt worth her tears anymore.
so painfully i stand,
i cannot see
her thoughts was interrupted with a noise coming from outside her window. slowly, with her body feeling like lead, eyes glassy and lost, she looked at her window which is currently being thrown with small pebbles. having a faint idea who it would be, she dragged herself to the window, careful to hide herself in the shadows of her room.
but he knew she was there, in her room, looking at him. her aura told him so, and so does his heart. he knew she was giving him a chance, just by listening to him, she's giving him a chance. and hell be damned if he's going to waste it. he hurt her, something he promised himself he wouldnt do, something he would never forgive himself for doing. so here he stand, in the cold of the night, a boombox at his feet, electric guitar on his hand, he prepared himself for the most sincere apology he was going to make in his entire life.
Sometimes I wish I was smarter
Wish I was a bit more like you
Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute
You live to regret when its through
Well sometimes a fool, doesn't know he's a fool
And sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog
But sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it at all
Sometimes a man is gon' be a man
Its not an excuse, its just how it is
Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong
Sometimes the strong, can't always be strong
Sometimes a girl, is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do
INSTRUMENTAL
ADLIB: sorry babe, for all the things i've put you through. i promised you i would never hurt you, but i was the one who broke your heart. for that i would never forgive myself, and i will spend the rest of my life making up for it. please forgive me. give me another chance. i want to make things right, starting by saying i love you so much. you are my life. and i'd spend the rest of eternity, showing you just that. and that...
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
as the last note of the song was played, he glanced at her window, hoping to catch a glance of her face. hoping to see that she had forgiven him. his heart fell as he noticed her lights still off, her nowhere in sight. nothing had changed since he had started his serenade. he knew it would take so much more than this to gain her trust back, but he had hoped for at least to see her face, to see some hope, that maybe, maybe she could forgive him.
his thoughts was broken when his eyes fell on a piece of paper by his feet. sensing some ofher aura in it, he quickly picked it up, his heart racing. maybe it is a sign of hope... maybe there is a chance...
but then again, he couldnt help but feel down as he read the five lone words written on it...
please give me some time...
FIVE YEARS LATER...
syaoran sat underneath a cherry blossom tree, watching the sunset. it had been five years since that day, since that fateful day that he ruined his life.
she told him to give her some time, and time he gave her. he waited for her, even after she disappeared right after high school, even if he dont know if she will ever come back. he waited for her, even though that there is a chance that, although she did come back, her heart already belonged to someone else.
it was the risk he had to take when he started the charade, and he meant it when he said that he will make up for it for the rest of his life. nobody could replace her in his heart. she was the only one who could understand him, the one who broke all the walls he built in his heart. the only one who could bring out the best in him.
it was his fault she's not here with him right now, and he had to pay the price.
a shadow fell upon him, and slowly he looked up. his breath caught in his throat when his eyes fell on the angel in front of him. she was as beautiful as he had last seen her, if not more. and the soft smile on her face made the back of his eyes burn.
"i'm sorry i took a long time... but it doesnt matter, i'm here now..."
and as they fell into each other's embrace, tears falling from each other's eyes, they knew... no more charades, no more lies... they are going to start anew...
-FIN-
