Chapter 4
The plan
After those events, Haruka and Michiru never left each other. Haruka dumped her girlfriend a little while after on Michiru's advice. The girl caused them many problems the two years they stayed at the high school. Haruka's parents finally discovered that Haruka hadn't been a nice and obedient girl but they finally let fall and just left her in the school, deciding not to talk to her anymore. They just gave her money for her studies and life. But Haruka never mind, she only needed Michiru by her side to be happy. And Michiru never left, although sometimes she had wished she could… Haruka was such a flirt… She was in love with Michiru, but she never said it, so her feeling had grown in strength in secret, but she couldn't help but flirt and date beautiful girls… those stories where not serious, Haruka couldn't stay with a girl more than a month, she kept feeling guilty because she knew her true feelings were for Michiru, and after two years of unbreakable friendship, she was a bit desperate, she had never met a girl better than Michiru… what would happen if at the age of 40 she hadn't? If she kept being in love, unable to say anything?
Michiru had a hard time too, it was difficult to see Haruka dating every single beautiful lesbian girl she met, flirting all the time… at the beginning she was often mad at Haruka, but now she said nothing, she knew Haruka wasn't serious… she just looked at her playing with those innocent girls with amusement. She had understood quickly what her true feelings were… but she didn't wanted Haruka to know it… Haruka was a lesbian and her best friend, and she was such a flirt… if she had been attracted by her, she would have tried to date her long ago. And above all, she didn't want to ruin their precious friendship, she'd rather die…
So they had passed two years seeing each other everyday, going everywhere together… Michiru hadn't have a single date because everyone thought she was Haruka's girlfriend when they were out of the school. But she didn't mind, she wasn't like her friend, she didn't need to flirt all the time… that just not interested her, what she wanted was just to be with Haruka, men or women didn't interested her. Her friends kept telling her she should find a handsome fellow, but she always said she had far more interesting things to do. At the end of high school she had moved with Haruka in a nice flat and she was happy. They were in university now and life was much easier… Michiru liked this life she had, and the way she could approach Haruka without any reason… like when they were looking at TV like this night…
They were watching a romantic movie, Haruka hated it, but she would never have tell it to Michiru, she was far too glad because she could be near Michiru. The girl's head was leaning on her laps. This kind of scene was common between them, but Haruka loved them. Michiru knew she wasn't innocent doing this, but she was taking advantage of Haruka not knowing she loved her to approach her. She changed position and got closer to Haruka, leaning her head on Haruka's forearm. Haruka hold her tenderly, hoping Michiru wouldn't guess all the feelings she tried to hide… all of them not being innocent loving ones… Michiru played the very tired girl to avoid suspicion… she could inhale the blonde's scent, she knew this scent perfectly, and it was exhilarating… she began to feel warm… her arms, that she had tried to make look heavy with tiredness, were now full of sweetness and sensuality and she had grabbed Haruka's waist. Haruka was feeling a little too good… "Calm down… she's tired and you too… this is nothing out of ordinary… why does she always makes you feel like this you stupid pervert!" was thinking Haruka. Michiru suddenly realized in what position she was… she was used to take advantage of situations like this… but this time she was taking a very slipping slope… she was becoming a little to obvious… she had to stop.
Michiru got up, trying to look natural.
"This film is annoying… and the air is a little too… warm. I need a cold drink…"
"and I need a cold shower… I come with you, I also need to… refresh."
"No stay, I'll bring you something."
The blonde got up a little embarrassed. She really needed some fresh air. Michiru headed to the kitchen, but Haruka was on her way. Haruka knew she should step back to let Michiru pass… but she was paralysed. Michiru tried to pass next to Haruka, but at the moment she passed next to the blonde, she felt a arm touch lightly her waist… she stopped. They were so near, she knew that if she turned her head to look at Haruka's face she wouldn't be able to resist… but she wanted to touch her, she wanted to hold her, to kiss her… a kiss had never killed anyone after all… while she was fighting against her mind, she hadn't noticed that her arms had already found their way around Haruka's waist. The blonde was feeling incredibly warm, the inches of skin on which Michiru's hands were burned her in a pleasant way, her hands were suck on Michiru's back. She just never wanted to let her go…her heart was beating strongly. When Michiru realized in what situation she was, she looked in Haruka's eyes. Their lips met in a passionate kiss. Their arms began to travel on each other's body as the kiss deepened… It was relieving… they had waited two years… and at the same time painful… Michiru was scared of the time it would stop… Haruka feared that too… But this embrace seemed not to have an end…
Michiru had desired the blonde so much… "but… a minute… what am I doing?... Who began this?... It's me..." Michiru felt ashamed… she let go of Haruka… they were friends, only friends… what would Haruka think of her now… she had guessed for sure by now… but at the same time she hadn't intend to stop it… but Haruka was a lesbian, she was attracted by girls, so she had just react with a sexual instinct without thinking of it… She didn't dare to look at her friend, she ran outside.
Haruka had felt as if she had been out of oxygen when Michiru had pulled apart… she just looked at her leaving, totally lost, she had wanted to run after her, to catch her… to tell her everything... but her body hadn't let her move. "What did you do you stupid pervert! Michiru trusted you! You abused her trust… I kissed her… I really did… and it was… no word can reflect it… No stop it… she's your friend and now she's afraid and shocked, she'll think you're a pervert! Why can't you control yourself! A friend! She's your best friend!"
Haruka waited Michiru to come back to apologize and she finally did. Michiru had passed about one hour outside, running. Then she had sit on a bench to think… she had prepared a speech to apologize in a way in which she wouldn't be discovered. So now Michiru was in front of Haruka, she was hesitant. But she didn't need to speak, Haruka spoke first.
"Michiru… I'm sorry for what happened… really sorry… I knew it would happen one day or another, we're both tired and well… you're a girl, and I love girls… please forgive me, it was nothing… I mean… don't think I'm in love with you…
Michiru frowned a bit, she was feeling hurt, the last words were the worst she had ever heard. Her speech was now useless. She didn't think Haruka would feel guilty… She just add a few words before going to bed because she was about to cry.
"Right…. Thanks… don't worry. I was just… surprised. But everything's ok.
So Michiru left Haruka. Her heart was in pain, but at the same time, she was still full of their embrace, as if Haruka's lips were still on hers, as if her hands were still wandering on her body.
Haruka didn't move from the sofa, she was feeling the same way as Michiru, but the way she had left, with this strange expression on her face had shocked her… was it disgust she had see on her face? She thought so, and it made her very sad.
The next morning, when Michiru woke up, she found Haruka asleep on the sofa. She looked at her with a loving expression on her face. She was so peaceful… she kneeled near her, the temptation of caressing her calm face was strong, but she remembered where feelings like this led her the past night. In a way she was glad, but now she feared the consequences. Haruka made a little move in her sleep, Michiru stood up all of a sudden and went to the kitchen. Haruka came few minutes later, her clothes a little creased. She acted as if nothing had happened. Michiru was feeling relieved. She prepared the breakfast, and they ate while having small talk as they always did. Then Haruka drove them to the university.
But when they arrived at the entrance, a person that Michiru had almost forgot jumped in Haruka's arms and kissed her with passion. It was her girlfriend of the moment. A girl for which Michiru had no hate nor she had friendship. She was jealous of Haruka's girlfriends in general, She called them her "girlfiends". But this morning, Michiru couldn't bear the sight of this girl embracing and kissing her Haruka. She was kissing the same lips she had the passed night. She was kissing her love. Michiru left quickly without a word. Haruka knew there was something wrong.
"Sorry Lola, I've got to catch her. I leave you here and…"
"No! You always are with her, you even share the same apartment, so here you're mine!"
"Is that a problem for you? You can't stand Michiru?"
"Yes."
"Well… I think I have to dump you. Michiru is more important to me than anyone. If you can't stand her, I can't stand you. Bye."
Haruka ran after Michiru. The argument she just had with Lola was common for her, generally, all of her relationships ended like this. But now the problem was she couldn't find Michiru. Why did she left like this? This wasn't the first time, Michiru had had this reaction in the past at the beginning of their friendship. It was quite understandable, they had such a special bond… it was difficult for her to see Haruka with other girls, even if it was not the same relations as they had. But Haruka could easily cope with Michiru's jealousy, because as soon as she showed it, Haruka dumped her girlfriends. She didn't want to make something that could hurt Michiru for anything in the world. But she knew that if the situation was reversed, if Michiru had a boyfriend, she would be driven mad by jealousy. By chance, Michiru didn't have any boyfriend since they met… and sincerely, Haruka was wondering why, because Michiru had many suitors. But she never investigated too far, she thought she was too lucky, and in a way, she wished selfishly that Michiru would never. She knew it was impossible and awful for her friend, but her jealousy was her main problem. She was truly afraid of the day when Michiru would find someone she would love… she couldn't know she had already found this person.
Michiru had left walking quickly, but when Haruka went out of sight she ran. Then she bumped into someone she knew… it was Lily.
"Hey Michiru! What's the matter."
"Lily… excuse me, I wasn't looking where I…"
"You were running from the other blonde. Let me guess… she has a new girlfriend?"
"No… well yes… but that's not the point…"
"It is, Michiru. I know Haruka very well, and I know you… I'm not blind, it's been two years, and it was obvious since the first day. Michiru, you love Haruka."
"You're talking nonsense."
"Am I really? Don't play this game with me, I'm your friend… and well… I'm a lesbian too."
"You are a lesbian?"
"Yes, but don't worry I'm not trying to seduce you."
Michiru laughed lightly.
"Besides… everyone knows you are Haruka's preserve."
"What? Haruka and me… are friends that is all."
"No, at least not for you. Don't lie! And I know Haruka enough to tell you she loves you."
"I don't believe you."
"Do you want a proof?'
"There's no need cause she doesn't love me."
"Can you tell me what is her main problem?"
"…"
"It's jealousy. You want to know whether she loves you? Date another girl."
"No, that's impossible… I just can't!"
"So you actually love her."
"Yes… but…"
"No buts. If she doesn't get jealous, you'll have your answer. And believe me, she will."
Michiru was having a hard time determining what was the best thing to do… the idea was good, but not very honest.
"Why not. But Haruka won't be jealous, I know she won't. But who will be my fake girlfriend?"
"Me of course."
"OK. But I don't want this game to last too long. I love Haruka and lying to her is not fine."
Michiru was feeling that all this would end bad as Lily passed an arm around her waist and walked with her to the class.
