AN : Please if you ask questions in your reviews, or if you want me to answer let a signed review or at least an email adress. Anyway I must thank you for your reviews that encourage me to write new chapters and I try to improve my grammar (not very successfully)…So let's begin chapter 5…
Chapter 5
Haruka finally caught sight of Michiru. She was having a talk with her friend Lily. Haruka knew Lily very well… in fact a little too much, and her friendship with Michiru didn't please her. She wanted to talk to Michiru, but she decided to wait because she didn't want to face Lily. She leaned against a wall nearby.
"You wanted it to be quick… I guess your wish had been granted." Said Lily.
"What?"
"Look who's coming."
"Haruka…"
"Ready?"
Michiru had never been so nervous.
"Y… Yes."
"Haruka!" yelled Lily.
Haruka had no choice now, she had faked to ignore them, but now she had to look.
Lily took Michiru embraced and kissed her passionately. Michiru was not feeling all right, but she didn't pull Lily apart. But she couldn't help but look at Haruka with one eye. The blonde's expression was amazing. Her eyes were wide open and her mouth as well.
Haruka couldn't believe what she was seeing… Michiru… and Lily… together. Jealousy drove her mad. She hurried to the couple and took Lily's arm in a brutal way. She wasn't thinking.
"Lily! How dared you touch my love!"
Michiru couldn't believe what she had just heard. Her heart became suddenly lighter. Haruka loved her!
"Haruka…" said Michiru in a tender way.
But Haruka wasn't feeling the same way as she did. She regretted her words as soon as they had left her mouth. She placed a hand on her mouth. She couldn't look at Michiru. And suddenly, a thought, half-comforting half-terrifying crossed her mind. Michiru was a lesbian! On the one hand it was great, it meant that she had a chance… but on the other hand… Michiru had been near hear for two years, they lived together and she had never tempted anything though she knew Haruka was a lesbian too. Michiru didn't love her. And more, she was dating Lily! Michiru was smiling… an embarrassed smile doubtlessly, thought Haruka. After all, Haruka hadn't the right to intervene like this… now everyone was staring at the three of them.
"Sorry…" muttered Haruka before running away.
Michiru was in such a state that she didn't really understand what was happening, why Haruka was running… they had to talk… She tried to stop her, but she knew Haruka was too quick for her, and she didn't listen to her calls.
"Sorry Michiru… everything is my fault. I knew Haruka was jealous, but it seems that she got even worse…"
"No… I shouldn't have accepted… but thanks… now I know. I'll talk to her, I'll arrange everything and we will be happy. Without your intervention I wouldn't have known. But how did you know what would be her reaction… I mean I wanted to ask this question for long… how do you know her?"
"Well… she was my girlfriend. Do you remember this first day at the high-school? Haruka had been sent there because her parents didn't wanted her to be a lesbian… well this wasn't their best idea… they did it because Haruka brought a girlfriend home, and it was me. They placed her in this high-school without knowing I was in, and without knowing girl's school are the better way to make a girl like other girls. Locking girls together all the week, the one who invented this kind of place wasn't very smart. But Haruka and me weren't together anymore, we weren't getting along very well. It didn't improve when she saw we were becoming friends."
"You dated Haruka…"
Michiru laughed. She couldn't imagine them, the two of us were always arguing on everything. But she had to find Haruka. She left Lily going in class without her.
Michiru searched everywhere the blonde could have been but she was nowhere to be seen. She began to worry seriously… she didn't feel like going in class anymore, so she went back home, hoping to find Haruka in their apartment, if not, she would search the whole town.
But fortunately, Haruka was home. Michiru felt relieved as soon as she saw her leaning on the sofa. But another detail stroke her, Haruka was drinking tequila. And judging from what was left in the bottle, she had drunk very much.
Haruka hadn't want to stay at the university longer, everyone stared at her, so she just left and drove back home. She needed to forget what she had saw: her ex girlfriend kissing her sweetheart. The sight of Lily kissing Michiru was unbearable. So she had took the bottle of tequila and began drinking, now she was leaning on the sofa, and not in her better state. And the images still haunted her. She barely noticed Michiru's hand touching her forehead except for the effect her skin had on hers, and the worried look on her face.
"Michiru..."
"What did you do Ruka… you're totally drunk, I guess you'll be ill in no time. You're forehead is burning…"
"Go… Go back in the arms of this… this… whore…"
"Stop that now Haruka. I'll explain everything when you'll be better…"
"Explain… explain what?... That you're… a les… lesbian… and that never you would have slept with me? Thanks I do not need explanations… You prefer this stupid little whore… more girly and all… must be more funny…"
"Haruka!"
This time Michiru was angry and saddened. What Haruka was saying was awful. So in fact she didn't love her… what interested her was only sex! And the way she talked about Lily was shocking. Lily was her friend and she had done everything to help them. Michiru got up and exited the apartment, letting Haruka with her bottle. She deserved it pretty much.
The hand of Michiru letting her forehead and the slam of the door made Haruka feeling a bit more aware of the situation… Michiru had been there, and she had said her awful things. "Why do you have to drink when the things become hard! It will be the end of you." Haruka knew she couldn't chase Michiru in the streets in her state. She got up with difficulty and went under the shower totally dressed. The water was cold, she was feeling already less drunk. She knew she couldn't take her car, but at least she would be able to talk to Michiru more properly… but to say what? Apologize was the first thing she would have to do… but then she would have to explain the "love" thing… and she couldn't pretend she had been drunk at the moment she said it.
So Haruka put on other clothes, then she began running in the streets, searching for Michiru. Her head was aching awfully.
Michiru was back at the university. Lily had joined her and had been told the whole story.
"You know… you shouldn't take it seriously… Haruka can be a real jerk when she is drunk."
"But the way she said all that rubbish to me… it was like she was stabbing me."
"You two should have an explanation… I told you, Haruka is not herself when she drinks. Remember… she said she loved you."
"No, she never said such a thing! She referred to me as "love" and there is a difference since she was not talking directly to me."
"This little detail did not seem to annoy you a few hours ago."
"Now it does."
"Sincerely… don't mess with her like this… I always thought you two were meant to be."
"We didn't even date. So I can't see how it could look as if we were meant to be…"
"Michiru… I see you are angry… Why don't you shout at her, tell her all that you have mind, then listen to her apologize."
"Her apologize? She must be lying on the sofa finishing her bottle of tequila…"
"I'm not."
Haruka was standing in front of Michiru and Lily. She looked better but still not at her best.
"I came to apologize… I've been really unpleasant, I shouldn't have interrupt you two as I did this morning in the first place, then I shouldn't have tell you all this rubbish Michiru… I'm sorry, alcohol makes me tell things I even never thought."
Michiru was speechless. Her anger had flown out of her when she had seen the blonde's sorry face.
"I guess it's my turn to apologize." Said Lily.
"What?" asked Haruka.
"I'm not Michiru's girlfriend. It was an act. She's already in love with someone else."
Lily left them alone.
"So… you aren't with her… and… does it means that you aren't a lesbian neither?"
"Haruka… what you said this morning… was it true?"
"I said many things this morning…"
"Don't play this game with me, I want to know. And with all the awful things you said to me today, I think you owe me the truth whatever it is."
"Maybe you're right… well… maybe if you tell me what you think of the answers before it would help…"
Michiru was smiling now, she liked to see Haruka embarrassed, it was a rare scene. But suddenly she stopped smiling. Haruka was looking at her right in the eyes… eyes never lied. Their lips met in a sweet kiss.
"Sorry…" said Haruka, pulling apart.
"Not me."
Haruka hadn't heard Michiru's reply, she had left running before. She was embarrassed… she hadn't the right to kiss her best friend like she did. What would Michiru think of her?... well it was not as if she was homophobic, she had kissed another girl the same morning. The question was why had she done it. Then she began to think… she was in love with Michiru since the first day, but she had wondered many times if it really was love, or just sexual attraction. Then she had acknowledge she had friendship… she thought that kissing Michiru or dating Michiru would have gave her an answer… but the answer was simpler, she knew she was in love because she couldn't act with Michiru as she did with her flirts, she wasn't confident at all, she felt just like… a girl. It was a rare feeling for her, usually she played the man with everyone, but with Michiru she was conscious of her whole body, and surprisingly, she, who had always wanted to be a boy, now appreciated her feminine curves. It was love, but love made her so hesitant. Love made her having doubts, love hurt her… what if Michiru didn't love her back? She had to take the risk, she had to tell her.
Michiru sighed when she saw Haruka leave. One more time she hadn't have enough time to tell her what were her feelings. She knew that the blonde was cursing herself once more… and she was a bit fed up. She would have liked Haruka stand in front of her and just listen a second. Now she knew that Haruka had feelings for her. Michiru just left the cafeteria and walked to the beach, the revelation that should have made her so happy made her weirdly down. Haruka was usually so fast with girls. She was a Don Juan, no one resisted her. But with her it wasn't the same, Haruka wasn't as confident as she usually was. Michiru was lost. She was the hesitant one, Haruka was her strength. But she felt love even for this hesitant Haruka, and she had to give her back her confidence, she had to find her and give her love to her.
