Princess Yama here!
Chapter 2 done! Please read and review.
Still don't own Digimon or Tai or Matt- when I am rich though I will…..
Enjoy;
Beep
The sound on my phone seemed to drone on forever as I waited to hear the new voice message I had been left.
"You have one new message." The mechanical voice informed me. "First message."
Beep
"Matt, give me a ring when you get this. Haven't heard anything from you for a while. Everyone's really worried about you man. Kari really needs you here."
Beep
"End of message."
The line went dead as I stared expectantly at my mobile, watching as though something amazing was going to happen. Nothing happened. It rang a few more times. I continued to ignore it, wishing the world away. It was Takeru, of course. I know he hurts too, but, his pain, it's different to mine. Mine's an open wound, one that I doubt will ever heal. He'll be fine, they all will. They'll get on with life, day by day; everything will get a little better for them. I don't see how exactly I'm supposed to move on, not without him. That's just not the way it's meant to be. Tai and matt, we've always come as a pair. Now it's just me, just Matt, it sounds so cold, so God damn lonely. I don't think I'm quite there yet. I'm not yet ready to completely admit to myself that I'm all alone in this world. I'm not yet ready to admit that I'm here without him. My God, I sound so pathetic. I'm wallowing in self pity, I'm an idiot really, I know it's true, I think however that I should be permitted this time. I should be aloud a little time to sit and cry, to think over my life, to contemplate my lack of future.
Fuck, I've just lost every part of me.
"Yama', I'm sleepy, stop reading and come to bed."
"I won't be a minute baby." I coo. Shit Matt, your talking to yourself again, hearing thing, seeing things. He's lying on my bed, head propped up on my hands, watching every move I make with that dopy smile of his playing on his lips. His eyes are a little puffy, makes sense really, he's been crying for hours. It'll be ok now though, I can look after him here. He slides his head to the side, lying in a peaceful position, waiting to be held in my arms once again.
"A minutes too long, I'm lonely over here." He whines, stretching his muscular legs out behind himself.
"I'll just finish this page 'Chi, then I'll be ready for bed 'k?" I smile sweetly, sticking my tongue out slightly. I love the way he smiles when he's half asleep. His lopsided smile's ironically innocent with full lips that just long to be kissed by mine as he pouts sweetly. Fuck sake Matt. Get a hold of yourself. I shake my head, wishing everything back to normal.
I should sleep really. Guess I haven't slept properly for a while now, about two weeks in fact, but then, it's hard you know, to sleep without him in my arms.
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"YA-MA-TO!" Takeru sang out on entering the kitchen. "ARE-YOU-COM-ING-OUT-TO-PLAY?"
"Why are you taking like that?" Matt sighed at his younger brother's antics as he marched around the kitchen table, using his hat as a drum.
"TRY-OUTS-FOR-THE-MARCH-ING-BAND-TOM-OR-ROW" He continued the odd display, marching and banging with no particular rhythm.
"Well that's great, go practice some place else."
"But you haven't answered my question yet." Takeru slumped onto the seat opposite Matt's, replacing his hat onto his head, struggling to pull it down over his large mess of blond hair.
"T.K I'm working. See?" he motioned to the pile of books placed before him.
"English assignment's due in tomorrow an I've only just started." He took a swig of his coffee and decided to ignore his brother and just get on with the work load.
"But it's a really nice day, wouldn't you rather do your English stuff outside. Besides, Tai just called and he wants to go out."
"Well Tai should stay at home because he also has homework to do, so you call him back and tell him, from me, that he's staying in until he's finished all his homework, then we can go out, ok?"
"What are you, his Mother? Anyway, he's already downstairs waiting for us." T.K blushed, knowing his brother would be mad at him for about an hour, but that he'd still come out as his best friend was downstairs.
"T.K, I have homework to do." He growled.
"Yea' but Tai has an art project to do, an he wants to paint you." The younger boy pouted. "Bring your homework, we can go down to the lake, then you and Tai can do your work and the rest of us can take the boat out for a bit. PWLEEASEEE?"
"I hate you." Matt hissed, pulling his shoes onto his feet.
"I know, see you in a minute." T.K grinned, skipping off out the kitchen and down the stairs to there Mothers café.
"Fuck sake." Matt sighed, running a shaky hand through his hair he stifled a yawn and slipped on his other shoe.
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Seriously, why do I bother? It hurts so much to remember, but everything would seem so empty if I were to forget. I remember that day so well. It was so hot. On reaching the bottom of the stairs I noticed Tai, smiling up at me. His left eye bruised, his bottom lip spilt. He didn't wear a top as it was far too hot, he was always running around, only ever sitting still to paint or draw something that caught his attention. Turning to leave I noticed bruising, running from the top of his spin to the bottom, the occasional random bruise placed either side. That's the first time I really acknowledged it. I loved him, I always had, and I knew in that instance that I always would.
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"What happened?" Yamato breathed on reaching the bottom of the stairs. Staring deep into Taichi's eyes he allowed a sympathetic smile to grace his features.
"I fell down the stairs." Tai answered bluntly, grabbing his best friend by the arm, he gave him a look that Matt knew too well. No questions no lies. "Come on, I need to paint you." He skipped merrily, waving at Takeru and Yamato's mother, Mrs Ishida, as she passed the boy's a picnic basket to take with them to the lake.
"Thanks Mom." Matt smiled.
"Don't be late home ok. Are you staying tonight Tai?" She raised an eyebrow at her son as she eyes Taichi's battered body.
"He will be yeah." Matt nodded before the slightly younger boy had a chance to answer.
"And Hikari?"
"Please." Tai smiled. Mrs Ishida had always been somewhat a saviour for the Yagami children. Every time shit got too much for them at home, her door was always open, and an extra place was always set at the dinner table for them both. Whenever they needed money as there Father had spent it all on drugs and alcohol, there was always jobs that needed to be done at the café just so they had enough to get by. It was an unspoken agreement they shared. She knew not to ask questions, as she would receive no answers, but Tai knew she understood. "Come on Yama! Let's go go go!" He sung excitedly. "Can we go on the boat? You know, after we've finished our work? Oh yeah, and can I copy your English assignment once you've finished?" He chatted excitedly as they met up with the others outside and began walking.
"You can have my first draft, I wrote it in your style, so all you need to do is copy it up in your handwriting."
"You're the best Yama!" Tai wrapped his arm round his best friend as they walked. Yamato accepted this sign of affection graciously and also wrapped his arm round Tai's waist, not ever wanting to let go as Tai skipped excitedly chatting more to himself than anyone else.
"You're staying at ours tonight Kari." Yamato informed his younger brother's girlfriend. A sombre look on her face, she tried her best to smile in reply.
"Where are we meeting the others?" T.K questioned his girlfriend speaking softly. It amazed Matt, the way his brother could change his whole persona to suite different situations in an instant. Just moments before he had been marching around the kitchen, shouting and banging as loudly as he could. Now though, his face was gentle, his voice soft and compassionate.
"They're already at the lake." She managed an actual smile as T.K kissed her lightly on the forehead.
"Your Mom pack us any cake?"
"Probably 'Chi."
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If I wished upon my falling star
That you were in my arms
Could I tell you of my secret wish
And hold you for a while?
How he did it, I'll never know. No matter how bad it got, he still smiled. He still danced and sung and lived. If I had been him, I don't think I would have been able to cope. Shit, he was amazing. No matter how bad it was, he was always there. He would have rather helped me out with something than ask for my help. I can't help but think now, is this all my fault? Could I have done more to help him? He was so helpless, so lost. All I really did to help was to love him. But did that really help? Or did it just make things worse? Christ, loving me, he had more than just himself and Hikari to think about. Did I just make everything so much worse for him?
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"Your beautiful, you know that Yama?" Taichi asked, running his dry paintbrush across his best friend's nose.
"Shut up Tai, the sun's gone to your head." Yamato ignored this advance and continued scrawling out his English work onto the pad of paper before him.
"I mean it Yama, you're really quite beautiful."
"'Chi, shut up and get on with your work." Yamato grinned slightly at the look of bemusement of Tai's face as he retuned to his easel.
"I still think you're beautiful." He mumbled continuing to examine Yamato as he painted.
"And I you." Matt glanced over at there younger siblings playing on the boat along with there friends, Mimi, Sora and Daisuke. Hikari had let down her guard of discomfort and was now joining in the games as the two boys rowed round and round the lake while Mimi stood singing along to her portable stereo.
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You know, it breaks my fucking heart. It really does.
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"Yama..?" Tai didn't look up from his easel as he spoke.
"Yeah?"
"Can you keep a secret?"
"You know I can."
"I love you."
"I love you to."
Auburn eyes met crystal blue as he stepped towards Yamato. He lent down and kissed him softy.
"Just thought you should know."
"I've always known baby."
And that's the end of the second chapter. Sorry it's not to good, I'll edit it at some point.
Love and hugs
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