Chapter three here.
I still don't own Digimon.
Anyone want to give me the rights though, that would be rather nice of you.
Just a moment's wonder
I as if your still there
Another moment's wonder
Do you still maybe care?
Take my hand
Enlaced in yours
Fingers reaching out
Cross them over
Still hold on
I'm always out of reach
Yet another wonder
Did I tell you how it is?
Another moments wonder
Can you really see right through?
Hold me now
Inside your arms
Don't let go
Breathe this in
And just see me
You're somehow out of reach
Take a moments wonder
And ask if I still care
Another moment's wonder
Maybe I'm still there
Yagami, Taichi
"Hey." I breathe, not entirely trusting my own voice. Why did I do this? I should have just left it. I'm not ready to talk to anyone. I guess I must need to though; otherwise I would never have picked the phone up.
"Matt?" A small glimmer of hope was obvious in her voice. I hate this, I can't believe how selfish I am.
"Yea' it's me. How's it all going?" Maybe I shouldn't have done this. I shouldn't have called.
"It's ok. Would be better if you came home though."
"I can't." Not yet.
"I know. Can I see you?" This is so hard. Her voice, I barely recognise it. It's so harsh, so raw. This isn't the girl I left behind, she's different now. We're all different.
"Yea'." My voice deceives me. I feel tears begin to sting the corners of my eyes before they fall silently. "Just you though."
"That's ok. Where are you?"
"Hishori village. There's a café, near the train station."
"I can get there for five."
"Ok, I'll see you then." She hesitated for a moment. "How you holding up?"
"Fine. Don't tell anyone where I am."
"Ok. See you soon Matt."
"See you Kari."
The line goes dead.
"Why you crying Yama?"
"I'm just a little tired baby, don't worry."
What am I thinking? He's not here. He stands from the bed, wearing only his jeans. His hair's a little crumpled having only just woken.
"Who was that on the phone?" he wraps me in his arms. He's so warm. Running his thumb across my cheek he dries my silent tears, kisses away the stains they have left behind. "See, no need to cry, I'm here to keep you happy." He smiles, coming round to face me, he kneels before me on the floor, enlacing my fingers with his own.
"It was just Kari." Stop It Matt. I shake my head, trying to break free of this fantasy. No point in dreaming, no point in trying to believe he's still here.
X
"You boy's have a nice picnic?" Mrs Ishida beamed as Tai and Matt came crashing excitedly through the door's into the café, closely followed by there younger siblings.
"T.K caught a fish!" Tai sang, dancing excitedly as he clung onto Yamato's hand.
"But Kari made me put it back." He slumped into the closest booth.
"You weren't going to eat it so no point in killing it." She protested.
"Hikari's right T.K." His mother smiled as she brought them all a drink over.
"It was huge!" Tai exclaimed. Stretching his arms out to insinuate the idea that the fish was about as big as he was. "You should have seen it Mrs Ishida, it would have feed us all for about a month."
"I'm sure it would Tai." She laughed. "Did you get your painting finished?" she motioned to the large canvas placed on his lap. He held it up proudly for her to see. Taken aback slightly she starred for a moment. The painting showed Yamato, lying topless in long grass surrounded by the occasional daisy. Writing in his English book he had a look of deep concentration playing in his crystal eyes mixed with a slight twinge of irritation. The picture showed an amazing likeness to the boy. A lot of care had obviously been taken, no detail forgotten, not even the lightest of freckles that ran along the top of his arms. "It's beautiful." She sighed.
"Of course it is, it's Yama." He answered with a smug grin.
"You look more like your father every day." With a bitter sweet smile directed at her son, she walked off to show a family who had just entered to a booth.
X
My mom's still got that painting. Once Tai was done with it at school he gave it to her as a gift, along with another one of me, T.K and Hikari, all lying on our backs, watching the clouds.
X
"Come on Tai, it's time for bed." Matt pulled his best friend up from the sofa. A light groan of protest left Tai's lips as he was removed from the comfort zone he had been collapsed in for about two hours.
"But I'm not sleepy." He yawned, trying to hide it behind his hand a small giggle escaped.
"Sure your not." Matt pulled him along the hall to the room they often shared. Undressing immediately Tai fell into the bed and snuggled into the covers clinging onto Matt's Tiger teddy while Matt was still changing. "Told you you were sleepy." Yamato arched an eyebrow. Climbing in beside him he switched the light off. A secret smile fell onto his lips as he allowed Tai to move his attention from he tiger and onto him; he wrapped his arms around the slightly smaller boy, holding him tight. Listening to him breathe.
"Yama. Be mine." Tai mumbled into his chest.
"I am yours 'Chi."
"You know what I mean."
"Yea' an I am yours."
"Are you sure?"
"Always and forever baby." He kissed his forehead lightly and let him drift off to sleep.
X
"Matt?" I was late, only about five minutes, but from the look of it Hikari's already been here a while. Jumping from where she sat she wrapped her arms around me. I almost didn't recognise her. Her usually pretty features were puffy and soar from crying. Her Green eyes blood shot, I presume from a mixture of both the crying and the coffee, as five empty cups were already lined before her. Holding her in my arms I waited before I spoke. I waited as she cried. She waited as I cried. I guess we must look a complete mess to anyone else in here. I needed this though. I needed a chance to cry. To have someone hold me and tell me it's going to be alright. I think I'd held so much inside of myself, it was almost like a rush, everything seemed to come flooding from me at once.
"You're a mess." She chocked out, taking in my appearance as she sat back down.
"You don't look much better yourself." I forced a broken smile, through my teary eyes.
"Can I get you anything?" A large waitress approached us. An apprehensive smile on her face.
"Just a couple more coffee's please." I hand her some money, returning my attention to Kari. "How's everything going at home?"
"It's all falling apart." She sighed, dropping her head into her hands I put my arm around her, offering what little comfort I can. "Mom's a mess. Dad's been taken in."
"They've arrested him?" I look up, hope coursing through my veins.
"Not for that. For vandalism. I need your help Matt."
"With?"
"If we want him put away for good, you'll have to be the key witness."
"Do we have to talk about this right now!" I explode. "Shit Hikari! At the moment I couldn't care less. There's nothing more he can fucking do to us. I mean what else can he do? He's taken everything! Fucking everything. And you… You want me to stand up and shout to the world about what he's done. Alright… I've lost everything Hikari, fucking everything. I have nothing! Tai has gone, he's not here anymore. My whole God damn world has been ripped from beneath my feet. He's really gone. " Shit.
"I know." Her voice was soft.
"He's really gone hasn't he…" I whisper as she takes me into her arms. Running a hand across my hair she allows me to cry, allows me to hurt. "He's never coming back."
X
"What's you doing?"
"Just thinking 'Chi."
"About what?"
"I don't know."
"Wanna know what I'm thinking about?"
"Sure."
"You." He kissed Matt on the cheek with a small grin.
X
I guess he's really not coming back.
"I'll help." I breath, knowing full well that this will be the hardest thing I'll ever do.
That's the end of that then. Sorry it's crap, an rather disjointed promise the next chapter will be better. Love an hugs xxxxxxxxxx
