Chapter 5 here
Still don't own Digimon
In my innocence I exhibit a truth universally known- innocence is a lie
There are certain things that certain people know; these are called secrets I suppose. Lies are told, intricate alibis are created. A web is spun, mixed with both the truth and the fantasy of said situation, because of this, things become distorted, the truth almost impossible to un-wind. Who's going to believe a word I say? I could simply be considered another alibi, just one more person who got mixed up in all of this, unsure of what it is I'm actually saying. I'm just the broken party, the one who was left behind, searching frantically for someone to blame. What if, they will ask, there is no one to blame? I should just give up, get on with my life, get over everything that's happened. Maybe I should blame myself, blame no-one, blame anyone I come into contact with. Who's to say that I'm telling the truth? Maybe I'm lying; maybe I'm the one with the secret, trying to hide the truth.
No ones going to believe a word I say.
"Yama, it's late, get some sleep baby."
"I'm not tired."
Where should I begin in this tale I have to tell? Logically the beginning, but where exactly is that? To the best of my knowledge there is no beginning, no middle, I thought there was an end, but I'm starting to think otherwise. If there were an end then none of this would be happening, it would have finished by now. I wonder if there is such a thing as 'The End'?
"You're going to make yourself sick."
"How'd you figure that one?"
"You're not eating, sleeping, your not taking care of yourself Yama, what's wrong?"
"I'm trying my hardest not to breathe."
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"One, Two, miss a few, Ninety-nine, One-hundred! Ready or not here I come!" Tai called out to his friend.
"'Chi, that's cheating." Yamato stated.
"Oh well, where's everyone hiding?" He whispered into Matt's ear.
"I'm not telling you, go look for them."
"Ok." He smiled, and skipped off to find his hiding friends.
Yamato laughed to himself as he watched his boyfriend skip off into the distance. How is it he wondered that he can exhibit such innocence with everything he lives through? How is it possible that he can laugh and smile, as though nothing is wrong?
"Found you!" Tai sang as T.K was revealed from his hiding place inside a broken rowing boat.
"Aww man, you suck." T.K moaned as he climbed out of the boat. Joining Tai on his search they both disappeared into the wooded area surrounding the lake.
"Hey." Izzy appeared behind Matt as he sat watching.
"Hey, you alright Izzy'?" He sat beside his friend and laughed as Tai slipped on some mud. T.K caught him just before he fell, which made them both end up falling head first.
"Yea' I'm good thanks, how's Tai doing?"
"Yama! I fell did you see? It really hurts!"
"I saw baby. You alright?" He called to his now rather dirty lover.
"I'll be fine. Hey Izzy" He waved, dragging T.K off.
"Who knows, he seems fine, outwardly, but, it's the little things, you know?" Yamato voiced his concerns to the redhead.
"Tai's a great actor, he's spent his whole life pretending everything's O.k., you're the only one who knows what he's really feeling."
"Truthfully." Matt sighed, running a shaky hand through his blond locks. "He's a mess, I don't know what to do, he doesn't know what to do, it's all going to shit. He hasn't been very well lately which doesn't really help."
"Don't worry man, everything'll work out."
X
Broken smiles
Broken lies
Broken tears
Just to let you know
I've broken
That was our last day of innocence, our last day of childhood.
X
"MOM!" Yamato screamed. "MOM GET IN HERE NOW!"
"What's wrong? Shit." She breathed on seeing Tai lay lifeless in her son's arms.
"Call a fucking ambulance!" Matt cried, cradling Tai in his arms. "Wake up 'Chi, Christ wake up, this isn't funny Tai. Wake up, fucking wake up!"
"Ambulance please."
"Mom, he's burning up, what the hell's going on?"
X
Everything seemed to move in slow motion, yet it all happened so fast. There was so much noise, so much fucking noise.
X
The beginning of the end.
X
"Where am I?" Tai's voice was barely audible above the whirring of all the machines attached to his angelic body. "Yama?"
"I'm here."
"You've been crying, why were you crying?" He whispered, enlacing his fingers with those of the boy beside him.
"You haven't been very well baby, I was really worried." Yamato considered explaining what had happed, yet worried his lack of medical knowledge would leave his explanation somewhat flawed.
"I'm, ok, don't worry." Tai pulled Yamato to his side as kissed his softly on the lips.
"Taichi." A doctor regarded him on entering the room.
"Hi, why am I here?" He beamed, showing his usual attitude to life.
"Taichi, would you like your parents in here with you, we need to discuss something very important."
"No, I want Yama in here with me." He stubbornly stated.
"This may be something you'd prefer to have your parents with you for." The doctor tried to reason. "As a pose to a friend. This is very important." He motioned at Matt.
"No, I want Yama here; he's the only one that means a damn thing to me in this world. I love him, I want him here." Turning to his friend panic was evident in Tai's eyes. "What's going on?"
"I don't know baby." Matt squeezed his hand, attempting to offer a little re-assurance.
"I'll take it you two are together?"
"Yeah, for nearly a year." Tai smiled proudly.
"Have you ever engaged in intercourse?" the doctor asked, keeping a level tone.
"What's it got to do with you?"
"Taichi, this isn't going to be easy." He began. "My name is Dr. Weiga, I've been your doctor throughout your stay here, we've run a few tests while you've been here to find out why you've been un-well. Taichi, you've been un-knowingly suffering from an infection known as H.I.V, unfortunately, this has progressed into AIDS, acquired, immune deficiency syndrome. This means-"
"What the fuck!" Tai exploded, staring the doctor straight in the eye. His eyes turned a dark murky colour as this information sunk in. The hairs on his arms all stood on end as his body began to shake in a mixture of anger, fear and disbelief.
"Taichi, please let me explain."
"I fucking know what it is, and what it does, fuck off, get the fuck out of this fucking room!" Tears streamed from his eyes as his outburst continued. Yamato starred vacantly, shock absorbing into his entire body.
"Yama?" Tai whispered, pulling him closer. "Am I dying?"
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How was I supposed to answer? Yes 'Chi, you are. He sat for a moment, I watched as his heart broke, as he broke.
Damn it, why did I start this? I don't like making Tai cry, or Yama, I am mean. Well, that's the end of another one, please review me.
Love an hugs
Princess-Yama
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