Out There, In Here

They're always happy.

I don't want to ruin their happiness. . .

So I have to be happy for them,

Out there.

Until I get to my place,

Then I can be what I really feel. . .

In here.

Out there. . . I'll be "happy,"

In here. . . I'll be what I am.

In here,

Everything is the way I want it to be,

Everything I am.

Out there,

Is where I would like to be,

But can never reach it.

So. . . I'm happy for them,

But let my real feelings show,

In here.

I am out there. . .

But am really in here.