Leo, Splinter, Donnie and Mikey woke up later that day and rubbed their eyes.

"Dude, what happened?" Mikey said. "The last thing I remember is passing out."
"Me too!" Donnie and Splinter said in unison.

Noticing Raphael's absence, Leo said in a panicked tone, "That happened to me and I bet it happened to Raph. It'd explain why he's not here. Maybe we were drugged, someone infiltrated the lair and took him. The Shredder perhaps, but how would he bypass security? Someone would have to give him the security codes and….." His eyes landed on Mikey, who inwardly trembled at his gaze, fearing the gig was up. "Mikey, did you give anyone the security codes, because you were upset with Raph?"
"No way, dude. I'd never sell my family down the drain, as much as they annoy me at times. That'd be the worst betrayal and unforgiveable. I have a theory for his absence. Raph mentioned a long time ago that he wanted to go out and make a future for himself. Maybe he did that."
"On his birthday and when he knew there was a party for him? He was excited about the party and couldn't stop talking about it. I don't believe he'd do something so thoughtless, when he knew people had done so much to make his day special."

"You know, Leo. It's highly possible someone did infiltrate the lair," Donnie said sadly. "I've had some issues with security lately and…."
"And you didn't mention that why?" Leo demanded.
"Look, I've been overworked. I'm the medic, the shrink, the therapist, the IT tech, much more and I can't do everything, Leo! I meant to examine the security system today and to update it. Shit. It's my fault Raph was taken," Donnie said, his eyes filling with tears. "I'm sorry, Leo."

Whew, Mikey thought in relief. Donnie's getting chewed out. I'm safe and no one will think it was me now.

"My son," Splinter said and placed a paw on Donnie's shoulder. "Do not blame yourself. It is true. You're overwhelmed at times. We will find Raphael. Does anyone have a theory why they'd only kidnap him?"
"Um, because he's the hothead and they'd have the most fun breaking him?" Mikey suggested. "I bet it was the Rat King, who took Raph. He seemed to have a crush on him or it's Slash, who wants Raph to join him. I reckon Slash has the hots for Raph. We should check them out."

"No. There's another reason," Donnie said. "Raph wanted us to keep it a secret until he was ready to tell you guys. I learned he was intersex when we dated and it freaked me out. I cheated with April, hoping he'd dump me. He didn't and I dumped him. I sound like a jackass, but I couldn't bear the thought of having a family with Raph or of being with him. The idea was too repulsive. I only had sex with Raph once and I think that's why he was taken. His abductor wants to breed him. It doesn't explain why we weren't taken, though, because you'd think they'd want us to breed with Raph."
"But sleeping with him wasn't?" Splinter said dryly. Donnie flushed and hung his head.

"Raph can have babies?" Mikey said in amazement.
"That's right," Leo said sadly. "There's a good chance he'll fall gravid with chrome dome's babies and he'll spend the rest of his life as a breeding machine if we can't find him. Can you imagine that? He'll be bred continuously and probably spend his life in a vivarium. His babies will be taken away for experiments and Raph will be a train wreck, having watched them killed. He'll never recover from it all and will remain broken, a shell of himself for all eternity. He'll never be able to escape and we'll never see him again. I'll never get to tell him how I…." Leo wiped tears away with the back of his hand and said, "I've been having conflicted feelings about him since the kiss on the roof top the other evening and our intimacy in my room and….It felt so good with him and it shouldn't have, because I've always been in love with Lotus and….Maybe I'm in love with him and I've been in denial the entire time." Leo blushed and said, "He licked me and touched me and I liked it. I didn't want to, but I did… I….Maybe it wasn't just out of pity and guilt that I got with him and now I'll never get to tell him that or be honest or to hug him and…" Leo hiccupped and Donnie hugged him.

"Perhaps you were in love with him before Lotus," Donnie said. "And that kiss and the intimacy reaffirmed that and it scared you Leo."
"No. I never thought about Raph as anything more than a brother, but that kiss and spending time with him made me confused. Am I?"
"I think you denied your feelings for him. I don't know if it's love, but if you liked spending time with Raph, you certainly have feelings for him that are more than brotherly. All I felt was abhorrence and a desire to get away as fast as I can. I love him, but I could never love him as more than a brother."

Raph can have babies, Mikey thought in horror. I didn't know that. I just wanted him out of the picture. If I'd known he could have the Shredder's babies, I'd never have gone to him. Fuck. What do I do? If I tell the guys I betrayed them, they'll never forgive me. I can't tell them. Maybe they'll find Raph. I'm going to pray they do. That's it. Oh, Raph. I never knew. Don't fall gravid. Don't.

"My son," Splinter said and placed a paw on Leo's arm. "We will find Raphael and bring him home and you will get to talk to him. We have no time to waste. We will leave immediately and search the sewers and everywhere we can think of. Michelangelo, are you all right? You look a bit sick."
"I'm fine, Dad," Mikey lied. "Just worried about Raph."
"Try not to worry, my son. We will find him. Come on, my sons."

Mikey followed his brothers out of the lair and through the tunnels and thought, no you won't. You'll never find him. It's all my fault and I don't have the guts to tell you. Maybe a miracle will happen and somehow Raph will come home and no one will find out what I did. Please. I couldn't bear the disgust, the hatred and resentment from my brothers, especially Leo, whom I still adore.

XXXX

The dungeon door creaked open that evening at eleven p.m. and a lone figure entered the room, carrying a pail of warm and soapy water, as well as a sponge.

Shredder had fucked Raphael after his dinner and had mercilessly brutalized him for three hours. He'd left at ten forty-five, satiated and thrilled that his quarry was a mess physically, emotionally and mentally.

Cigarette burns, welts from the whipping, cuts and bruises littered Raphael's body and one eye was swollen shut from the beating he'd been given. Dried blood and semen were crusted between his legs and thighs respectively and his tail and ass throbbed. He was filthy and battered, but he still clung to the hope of seeing Leo again, although his hope was dwindling with every onslaught.

Raphael didn't glance up, but he let out a weak growl and pressed his tail against his body, as he inwardly trembled. Shredder can't possibly want me again now, he thought. No. It smells like someone else, but who?

"I'm not going to hurt you," a familiar voice said softly and the figure sat down on the ground. "Raphael, look at me."

The turtle opened his good eye and glared at Tiger Claw.

"Ya must be glorifyin' in my abuse, Tiger Claw," Raphael said. "Don't it give ya a thrill ta see me lyin' here bleedin' and banged up with yer boss's semen and scent all over me? Don't it make ya feel good, huh? I bet yer gettin' offa it."
"No, Raphael. It doesn't. It disgusts me. It's true I've always hated you turtles, but this…What my boss has done is unforgiveable. You never ever defile someone, least of all a child. I'm a bad man and I've done a lot of despicable things in my twenty-two years on earth, but this….I could never do this. This warrants sepukku and violates the strict ninja code and morality code in general." He dipped the sponge in the water and began to cleanse Raphael.
Raphael winced at the touch and said, "What are ya doin'?"
"I'm washing you. You're dirty."
"So I can be clean for him again, huh? Is that it? I bet he told ya ta."
"I'm in charge of you…."
"Just great," Raphael said sarcastically. "Yer gonna water me and feed me and yer gonna fuck me as well. That's what yer boss ordered ya ta do and I'm gonna fuck ya as thanks." He parted his legs, dropped his tail and said, "Go on. Fuck me with yer huge cat dick. Fuck the little turtle. Ya wanna, don't ya? Ya wanna fuck me so bad and make me scream. Go on. I can't fight back, so ya can."
"No," Tiger Claw said firmly. "Raphael, you're my charge when the boss isn't around, but I don't want to bed you. You're a kid, who deserves to be with his family. Not here. You'll be home with your family soon. I'll see to it. You just have to trust me."
Raphael narrowed his green eyes and said, "How can I after all ya've done ta me and my brothers?"
"Because you have no other choice and because I'm sincere. My boss is leaving for Japan in a few days' time and I'll be able to break you out then."
"How long is a few days' time?"
"Five days and maybe less if the boss leaves earlier. Try to hold on until then and know I won't let anyone else touch you."

Raphael thought about Leo and his eyes and face lit up.

"Ya mean I'm gonna see Leo again?" Raphael said excitedly. "Really?"
"You'll see all of your family," Tiger Claw said. "But it seems like you have a closer connection to Leonardo," he added, as he resumed washing Raphael, the sponge quickly turning brown with the grime.
"Yeah. He's my mate," Raphael said softly. "If ya get me home, Leo and my family might consider droppin' the feud with ya."
"That's nice. I have a girlfriend and I can't imagine life without her, but I thought you were bio brothers?"
"No. None of us are. Ya also gotta get me out fast, because I'm intersex and I could fall gravid with chrome dome's babies. I don't want him ta know."
"You poor soul," Tiger Claw said and clucked his tongue sympathetically, as he finished washing the turtle. "I'll get you home. I promise. Now let me loosen these chains, so that you can sleep better."

Tiger Claw unchained Raphael and removed the collar from around his neck.

Raphael rubbed his bruised neck and said, "Thank ya, Tiger Claw. I still don't know if I can trust ya, but thank ya. I'll be eternally grateful if ya get me back ta Leo. He must be outta his shell with worry."
"Get some sleep, Raphael. I'll see you in the morning."

Raphael lay down on the mattress and thought, I hope he keeps his word and that I can hang on until then. No. I will hang on. I'm gonna hug Leo, kiss him and tell him how much I love him and they're all gonna learn what Mikey did. I ain't gonna forgive Mikey and I doubt any of them will neither. Oh, Leo, my love. I can't wait until I'm in yer arms.

A/N Can Raph hang on for a few more days?