A/N: Thank you all so much for reviewing! I didn't talk about what Envy did BEFORE he visits Ed. So here it is! Seeing that Envy is twenty (three years after Insanity, which means Ed is nineteen) two things can be expected; college and a part-time job. Oh and the last part of the story is…well…you'll see….
Warnings: Exhaustion, room-mates, and evil men
Entry #2
3:00 am. It had been thirteen hours since he had seen Edward, nine hours since he had gotten home from his job, and five hours since he had started his homework. After finding the bruise on Edward's shoulder and not getting a response from him, he immediately questioned one for the employees that often took care of the blonde. Envy could only come to two conclusions; Edward was inflicting damage on himself, or…
Someone was doing this to him.
The employee reassured him that nothing 'bad' had happened to his brother. He then told the sin about his refusal to speak to anymore and he was hurting himself as a 'stress reliever'. Envy could only scowl inwardly. The people here must have thought he was just another stupid sucker, someone who would believe anything they said. But he wasn't. It had been a bruise not a cut that had been on Edward's shoulder, and Envy was sure as hell that his brother wasn't slamming himself against the walls. The sin did not want to take the conversation any further then it already had gone. So with a fake smile, he left the Institution. He hated leaving his brother in that place. He felt Edward's pain, and it killed him to see the blonde in the condition he was in. The sin was going to find away around the rules and take his brother away from that hell. However, he did not dare let himself think of what he would do to his brother after he had taken him away from the Institution.
Envy did not like for his mind to wonder to place it did not belong. It happened pretty regularly, but only during his dreams. He hated the perverted images of his younger brother in very provocative situation that his mind would make up. He cursed himself for ever thinking about his brother in that way. Yes, he did love Edward more then a normal brother should, but he didn't want to feel anything sexual towards him. He didn'tlike sounding like one of those cheesy soaps, but he truly did love Edward more then life itself. Envy sometime caught himself daydreamed or sleeping during his classes and job; which only made his predicament worse. He was often scolded by both his Professor and Boss for 'being a hard worker, but not taking what he did seriously'. None of that was true though. The sin did work very hard at what he did and took what he did seriously, but he just had so much on his mind that slack off without even knowing it. Life was not a joke to Envy, it was a sick joke. If things really did happen for a reason and some divine power really was working all of this, then Envy really wished it would cut Ed some slack.
Bringing his attention back to the task at hand, the only thing the sin could do was sigh. Envy had signed himself up for a psychiatry class for the soul purpose of understanding what was going on in his blonde brother's head. He had understood everything so far, but there was still something he needed to know. The blonde was started to isolate himself and Envy wanted to know why. The isolation was happening slowly; Edward would usually wait for the sins arrival in the recreational room or some other heavily populated area. But now, Envy had noticed that the blonde would rather stay in his room then be around others. Had something happened to him while Envy was away? That thought had mad its way into his mind on numerous occasions. After seeing the bruise on Edward's shoulder his suspicions were slowly being conformed.
Envy was so preoccupied with so many things, he didn't notice his room-mate pounding on his door. He had been for the past five minutes. Envy finally snapped out of his trance when he heard his door get kicked in. In stepped a very irritated young man. His long jet black hung loosely in a lazy ponytail; he didn't bother to make it look pretty seeing that it was the middle of the night. He was wearing nothing more then a pair of polka-dotted boxers, which he wore just to piss Envy off. He didn't get why it irked the sin so much, but he kept at it for the humor. The sin tilted his head back and gave him irritated but exhausted look.
"Don't you knock?" He questioned.
"I have been for the past five fucking minutes."
The sin shrugged.
"Unless you have something to say, fix my door and leave." He said dryly.
"See, that's what I'm here! You've been pushing yourself more then usual and, you know, it's not healthy."
Envy didn't say anything. Had he really been pushing himself?
"Look, if it'll help I'll get a job."
"…didn't you already try that once?"
"Well it wasn't my fault the guy fired me..."
Envy feel very talkative anymore, so he just went back to his essay. Fifteen pages on the psyche and how it functions; it was not an easy task. Envy just wanted to get the damn thing done, but there were so many distractions in his life it really looked like he wasn't going to.
"Envy, as a friend I really suggest you take tomorrow off."
"…I can't."
"…I never said you shouldn't visit your brother…"
Things were silent again. He knew the sin would not be happy if he didn't get to see his brother. Dealing with an upset Envy that had not seen his brother for twenty-four hours or more was not an easy thing to deal with.
"Would you at least consider it?"
"Will it make you leave me alone?"
"Yes."
"…fine, I'll consider it…" he said witha sigh.
With a smile of triumph, he turned on his heel and started out of the door. It would usually take him hours to convince to do something he wanted. To him Envy was an abnormal guy; he never parted, he had never seen him with a girl or even anybody for that matter. He was starting to wonder if the guy even had a social life.
"Hay Ling…"
"Yeah?"
"Don't ever wear those things again."
The silence of the night air was broken with the sound of a door being opened. It did not matter to the blonde who it was; he just knew what was doing to happen. Since he never slept, Edward often sat by the window gazing up at the moon. It was his only friend at night. He knew it couldn't hurt him, couldn't touch him. He wanted so badly to been like the moon he saw, free. The blonde wished for more time with it, but he was yanked away from it by his shoulder and slammed against a wall. He winched slightly as the man squeezed the shoulder with the bruise on it. Before he knew it his captor had ripped his shirt off, discarding it to the floor. Edward looked away, but was forced to look up at the man. The blonde didn't care about what the man looked like; all he wanted was for this to be over. He felt a hand slowly travel down from his neck and onto his bare chest.
He bit back a moan as the man began to play with his right nipple. His capture tweaked it extra hard causing him to whimper in pain. The man smirked. Edward hated that smirk. It was lust filled which meant he was going to be hurt. The blonde felt that hand that was messing around with his nipple, trail further down his abdomen. It stopped at the hem of his pants. The man slowly slid down the blonde's pants making him shiver slightly as the cold air hit him. As the man's hand began to slide down to his groin, something clicked in Edward's head.
He began to scream blood murder.
The man was shocked to say the lest. He took his other hand and struck the blonde across the face, thinking that a little pain would shut him up. It only made it worse. The man panicked and firmly slapped his hand over the blonde's mouth. That also didn't help, so the man started to drag him out of the room, his hand still firmly placed over Edward's mouth. Edward closed his eyes tight and continued to scream. Edward felt the man stop for a brief moment; thinking that the man had giving up. Just has he opened hid eyes the blonde was trusted into an white room. He hit the ground hard causing him to groan in pain. Lifting his head he looked around. The room was, like everything else, white; with the exceptions of a few blood stains on the wall and floor. With that said, Edward knew exactly where he was.
The time out room.
This was punishment for 'acting out'. The employees would leave patients in the room for hours at a time. They said it would help the patients 'think about what they had done'. It locked from the inside so the patients couldn't get out. Just incase one of the employees were accidentally locked in, they were given special keys to unlock the door. There was a small window in the door that allowed the employees to look into the room, ridiculing however was inside. But by far the worst part about this room was…
It was sound-proof.
Edward tried to get up but the man pushed him back down. The blonde began to scream again which did him no good. The man pinned him down and smirked.
"Scream all you want, no one will hear you."
The blonde's captor used one had to hold Edward's wrist together. With his free hand he began to roam the blonde's body. The blonde had stopped screaming and sobbed. This was the first time in three years he had let an emotion slip thru. What made him scream? Did it have to do memory that had suddenly appeared?
Edward was sure it had something to do with that.
Envy muttered under his breath as he finished putting a bandage on his brother's elbow. This was the fifth time this week that the blonde had been pushed around by the bullies at their school. They would constantly tease the blonde about his height, which would lead to them pushing the blonde around and giving him a few scrapes. The sin had managed to fight them off this time, going after the main kid and giving him a black-eye. Edward sat on the ground still sobbing.
"T-thank you…" He said.
"Ed, you're ten years old so act like it, you need to take a stand."
Edward felt like crying again after hearing his brother's harsh words. He knew Envy meant well but he just wished he wouldn't be so brutal about it.
"Envy…are you-"
"I'm annoyed, but not at you." He interrupted.
Envy shook his head.
"If you're not going to fight back, then at lest scream. Don't worry about what you say, just do it."
Edward looked confused for a minute.
"Why should I scream?"
"So I can come and save you."
Edward whipped away his remaining tears and smiled a little. The sin may have been harsh at time, but he always managed to put a smile on the blonde's face.
The blonde was left in the room, naked, shivering and sobbing. He now knew the reason behind his sudden out burst. It was foolish for him to do it in the first place, knowing very well that no one would come for him. The blonde weakly got to his knees, and crawled over to the nearest corner. The man had already left, locking Edward inside the room until someone noticed he was gone. The blonde felt disgusted with himself. The sickening man had touched him over and over again, making his body do things that he wished it hadn't.
Edward curled up into a little ball and lay there. He blocked his emotions away for one reason; he didn't want to be hurt anymore. He wanted to become like the room around him, blank. But there was still a small part of him that was holding onto something.
What it was, the blonde didn't know.
"Nii-san…"
A/N: Yes! Another chapter done! Review!
