R2 Interlude 25: Train Kept A Rollin'
Funny how time flies and events look so different in hindsight. A little over a year ago, my biggest worries were what I was going to do after graduating, whether I'd ever find love, and..what would happen to a certain pair of siblings I hold dear in my heart.
Welp, everybody knows the old saying, be careful what you wish for.
Who'da thought barging into Lulu's room would be the answer to my prayers, and the source of so many nightmares to come? Turned out Lelouch was capable of so much more than I'd realized, and a bigger monster than I'd ever conceived. Luckily for me, and probably the world, he's waaaay less diabolical than the image he puts out most of the time. And thank fucking Darwin he decided to change his messaging!
Boiling that guy in oil on live TV? Urk. I got to admit, I was getting worried about him. He's as big a hothead as Kallen sometimes. Hell, maybe even worse because he'll go farther than she ever will. Kallen gets angry, somebody ends up decked or with some broken bones. Lelouch gets angry? Cities burn. He needs people to pull him back from the brink, and especially to stop hiding things from the people who care about him! He's not even doing it in a malicious way, he literally thinks he can carry the world on his back like Atlas and protect everyone else from it and whatever dark pit of despair, void of evil, blah blah blah, that he thinks is what he's like.
Gimme a break, Lulu. I've seen you at your worst. And I know for a fact that you've always been overprotective of those you care about. Even before…that day, you were like that. Lady Marianne's death broke your heart, and probably the hearts of everyone who knew her. Since then, you shut your heart away and refused to open it up to anyone. At least until you had a self-admitted psychotic break and decided to actually start living again.
Sure, he's nuts. Compared to the average of the nobility, and especially the insane asylum that is the royal family though, he's way way less high strung than he used to be. This thing he does, the whole Demon King act, most people can't see past it. Yeah, he's a good actor, but once you meet the guy behind the mask, it's obvious that there's more than a bloodthirsty warlord. Psychology isn't strictly my forte, but behavioral science-cum-journalism aren't that far apart from analysis of the human psyche. Not being a medical practitioner means that my opinion isn't worth squat in the eyes of professionals. But I'd bet my left tit that Lelouch is at least somewhat manic depressive, with multiple personality disorder, and a nice helping of PTSD as the cherry on top.
Actually thinking about it, less MPD and more different aspects of the same man, err, woman, damn, it's hard to nail down a specific gender for Lulu now that they've come out as a woman half the time. Not that I have any problem with it! Leloucia is an absolute doll, and letting that part of herself out really seems to have improved her mental health and ability to express her emotions.
After the recent revelations of what we're actually up against and the myriad secrets of the royal family, it's obvious that pretty much anyone would have gone a little nuts. Let's see, we've got his father's plan to kill god and possibly the human race with it, his uncle being a midget with a brother complex leading his own cult of geass loons, his older brother having a giant flying fortress doomsday weapon, and of course, his mother still being alive and in on the whole kill god plan. Fucking Darwin...
That last one hit hard. I like Lady Marianne, I loved her like my own mother..no. More than my own mother. I saw firsthand what her death did to her children, and everyone who knew her. Looking back and realizing she was alive the whole time and didn't lift a finger to protect Lelouch & Nunnally…I feel like I finally understand where Lelouch is coming from when he says 'By fire be purged!'. Because Darwin help me, I actually want to really hurt someone for the first time in my life.
The emperor hasn't been someone I liked for a long time, not after he banished those two. But this.., this crossed a line for me. His own god damned mother did that to her children?! I hope Kallen rips her a new asshole if she shows up.
If there was anyone who took that revelation worse than me though, it was Nelly…and Nunnally.
Bullying Lelouch into coughing up all his secrets might have been a bit of a dick move in hindsight. Regardless of it being the right thing to do and better for our strategy..breaking Nelly and Nunnally's hearts like this makes me feel like a mean bitch.
"It…it can't be true. If this is a jest of yours to alleviate tension, I am most unamused, little brother," Nelly exclaims, her fingers digging into her chair in the conference room we're in, Guilford standing behind her, his jaw clenched tightly, hands on her shoulders as he glowers at the downcast look on Lulu's face.
Tohdoh crosses his arms, casting a hawk-like gaze at the man he's sworn himself to, humming in thought. Being Japanese, a lot of the emotional context behind this doesn't quite hit home for him, since he didn't know Lady Marianne. The tactical concern though, that I'm pretty sure he got.
"Trust me, it's not. Kallen herself talked to Lady Marianne when she was at Pendragon," I respond, nervously twirling a lock of hair in my hand.
Lelouch asked everyone to hold off on asking questions until he spilled his guts completely. After which he basically slumped into his chair and hasn't said anything for a few minutes now.
"How could you?"
Oh boy….
"You knew. All this time, you knew mother was still alive. And you never told me," Nunnally whispers, raw anger infusing her words as she glares at him, tears starting to gather in her eyes as Alice grimaces behind her.
"Nunna..maybe you should-," whatever Alice was about to say is interrupted by Nunnally screaming at Lelouch and throwing a pen at his face, her brother flinching at every syllable.
"I HATE YOU! I NEVER WANT TO SPEAK WITH YOU AGAIN, LELOUCH!" she shrieks, picking up items from the table and tossing them with abandon as her brother shivers in his chair, head hanging down like a dog being beaten by its owner.
Much as I don't like it, seeing Nunnally throw a tantrum and trying to break everything around her is uncomfortably familiar. I remember she used to do this periodically over the years when Lelouch was away for too long. She'd never really remember it, and it didn't seem right for me to confront her about it, not after everything she'd been through. Which..in hindsight, is the same kind of logic I had for not confronting her brother about his emotional shutdown.
Yeah, screw that. You can only fool Milly Ashford so many times before she wises up.
Before she can throw a porcelain paperweight against the wall, my arms are around her, gently pulling her to my chest, feeling her squirm in confusion. This is gonna suck, but Lulu has bluntly, taken enough emotional blows to the heart at the moment. So I don't think he'll mind if I relieve him just this once.
"Nunna..please stop."
Sandy blonde tresses whirl as the girl I consider my own baby sister wiggles to try and get loose, "Let me go! Let me go this instant!"
"Nunna, look at your brother," I declare, turning her around forcibly so she can see how badly he's taking everything. He hasn't looked this miserable in a long time. And consarn it, I'm gonna fix this right now.
Rubbing her shoulders gently, I continue, "He's been carrying this and all the other crazy stuff he said today all by himself for the most part. Do you know how much he's agonized about telling you about Lady Marianne? Or that he's going to have to fight her and your father? Nunnally, please think about how he feels right now. And how much it hurts that the person he's loved and protected all this time wants to abandon him now, when he needs her the most."
Laying it on kinda thick admittedly. But the last thing Lelouch needs is a nervous breakdown because Nunnally decided to rip his heart out. Lulu can be a duplicitous sneak with a silver tongue at times, but no matter how much he hardens his heart to fulfill his ambition?
You're the one whom he fights for most of all, Nunnally.
"It's a lot to ask, I know. Lelouch keeps too many secrets, he's a manipulative son of a bitch, and a complete jackass to boot," I say with a wane smile as I stroke her hair, the man in question letting out a sigh as he lights up a J, a cloud of smoke escaping his lips.
Wagging a finger at him, I finish my point, "But despite his many, many, bad qualities and personality flaws, we love him all the same and we know he's just trying to protect us, you most of all."
Giving her a gentle push, I step back, wiping my eyes off with one hand, "So go give him a hug and say you're sorry, and then we'll get back to figuring out how to survive the rest of your family and their crazy ideas."
Because holy shit, the imperial family is fucking nuts, more than I ever thought possible. The big difference between Lulu and most of the others is that he knows he's nuts and trusts other people to stop him.
"Gods be damned...to think that..my lady...she..," Cornelia chokes out as she looks down at her shaking hands, tears dripping onto them as Guilford looks on worriedly. Man, seeing her breakdown like this is bruta-eh?
Golden eyes meet my baby blues as CC puts an arm around my waist, holding me close. Can't say I don't appreciate it, this is not a fun place to be.
"Thank you. This needed to happen. You were right, it's better for everyone that we put all of this out in the open."
There's been a lot of tears, a lotta grief, and some broken bones&bruises. After all of that though, we're still here, still fighting.
*Sniff* OK! Enough moping about! Three, two, one…
"GUTTTTTTTTTTTTTSSSSSSSSSSS!" I scream out, bowling everyone with the force of my yell, watching as they all scramble to their feet in surprise.
"Look, I hate to be the girl to break up something as touching and heartwarming as this, but…we kinda have some big problems to talk about. So fearless leader, what's the plan?" I ask Lelo-no, Zero. If we ever needed our fearless leader to do the thing where he pulls a rabbit out of a hat, this is the time. So come on Zero, don't leave my cute ass out to dry.
A rustle of his sister's hair, a shared smile between them, a tip of the mask back onto his face, a deep breath, and voila, Zero is on stage once more.
"Alright then. Schneizel is a problem we can delegate for later. Charles takes first priority. But to get to him, we need to take China. And if we move fast, we can take down my uncle once and for all afterwards. So here's what we're going to do. We-"
"Milly!"
Huh? Oh. I guess I was daydreaming and thinking about the other day. The seats here are surprisingly comfy for a military train. Probably because I'm in the officer's car, corrupt jerks.
"Sorry, I dozed off, what's up?" I say, blinking sleep out of my eyes as CC shakes my shoulder.
"My apologies for waking you. It's lunch time, and I thought you'd want a moment to speak with Lulu privately in regards to…everything that's happened," she remarks, a sly catty smile on her lips.
Hmm. Why not? He and I really do need a moment, "Sure, thanks CC."
Eep! I hop in place from the quick swat on the ass she gives me as she walks by, casting a wink at me with half lidded eyes.
"Take all the time you need, I'll be in the next few cars going over battle plans with Tohdoh."
Looking back, my volunteering to ride along on a military train for a secret mission to pull the Tianzi out of the Forbidden City at Luoyang is probably not the smartest thing I've ever done. Euphie certainly didn't like my being in danger. She made Lulu promise that I wouldn't be anywhere near the fighting, which he assured her wouldn't happen. Given that this is a private military train, we can speed past any checkpoints and go straight to Luoyang in a few days.
After we get there, Zero&Tohdoh will lead a team to get her out, back to the train, and get the hell out. CC, Kallen, Jeremiah, Guilford and Cornelia will lead strike forces to take the nearby military bases and secure the capital province. Apparently Xing-ke is going to coordinate operations across the country once we've gotten the empress out. Luckily, he was considerate enough to give us a map of the Forbidden City.
All in all, it feels like the kind of daring and crazy plan that Lulu specializes in. Everything seems to have been accounted for..I think. I'm not a strategist or a military girl, how should I know these things?
Things were so much easier back in Japan. Part time student, part time rebel, full time loveable Milly, that was my life. Now?
Now I'm just trying to find my equilibrium in a world that seems to keep getting crazier. And speaking of crazy?
My hand reaches out to knock on the door of the commander's private quarters which Zero commandeered for himself and operational planning once we were under way. The troops were definitely surprised when he served dinner himself yesterday though.
It was…nice. Even if he had to leave to eat with the mask off, it still meant something to everybody. Kinda reminded me of-nah, forget it. Things that don't change go extinct. And if there's one thing Milly Ashford is good at, it's adapting. Reminiscing over the past doesn't help anyone.
..did I not knock loud enough? One more time. Huh, still not answering? Guess I'm barging in. Maybe he's masturbating and I'll catch him in the act, hehehe~.
As the door creaks open, the reason for nobody answering the door becomes obvious. Namely, that the reason Lelouch isn't responding is because he has headphones on, and is too busy cutting a rug to pay any attention to the rest of the world. Didn't know metal was danceable actually.
Sneaky, sneaky, sneaky…and got ya! With a quick flick of the fingers, the music switches to the stereo system…and the expected ear molestation of metal is not what I'm hearing.
"Jazz?" I ask in confusion, blinking as the song winds down, before the next track start-eep!
A squeak of surprise escapes my lips as I'm picked up from behind and spun around into a dip by a bemused Lelouch, "Contrary to what everyone thinks, I do listen to things other than metal, Milly. Like say, 'Lady be Good' by Lester Young."
His eyes go cross eyed as I boop his nose, giggling out loud at the silly look on his face, "Hehehehe!"
Alright then! If he's not moping or being Mr. dark and troubled pretty boy crazy pants, great. And Jazz is something I happen to like too, so let's boogie. Piano and tenor sax are always a fun combination, and whoever is playing this is really good.
Taking the obvious cue as I start moving, Lulu helps me back up to my feet as I start swaying my arms from side to side, stepping towards him with my heel turned outward, then stepping back while briefly crossing one leg over the other.
Snapping his fingers in time with the piano, he steps forward, mimicking my previous movement, swaying his hips and drawing my eye to the very tight pants he's wearing, rowr. Glad he remembers how to do the Charleston, I don't think we've done that dance in years.
Heh, dancing. There was a time Lelouch would run like hell if I tried to tease him or come onto him, or even tried to make a dance a lil' bit more intimate, like say, moving my hand to his waist as I'm doing right now. A year or so ago, he'd be nervous, or annoyed, or just..not looking at me. Now? I feel safe, comforted, annnnd still kinda surprised how solid he is now compared to the skinny twig I grew up with.
"Hey Lulu?" "Hmm?"
Bumping my hip against his as the saxophone wails, I smile wistfully, "Are you doing ok?"
Stepping one leg over the other, his heel turned as he looks up, purple eyes swirling with a whole inner world of thoughts, he shrugs as he brushes a lock of hair from his face, "Do you want to keep dancing, or do you want me to actually answer that?"
Hmm. Tough choice-pshh, not.
"Keep dancing, sexy. I'll help you make lunch in a bit and we'll talk then," I propose, giving him a wink and a thrust of my hips at his leg. Heh, that reminds me, he'll get a kick out of this.
My fingers splay out as my hands sway from side to side in time with the piano beat, "So I saw something hilarious a day or two ago. Kallen was leaving Euphie's room early in the day, and Euphie gave her a kiss as she left that made Kallen's face as red as her hair."
HA! Now I wish I had a camera to capture that expression!
"Huh. Unexpected, but I'm glad they're getting along. The last thing I want is for anyone in this group to dislike each other. And...I know CC & I have been distant lately, which I'm sorry for-ow," he flatly exclaims as I flick him on the forehead with a frown on my face.
None of that now.
"Milly, why are you-ow. Stop that-ow. Serio-ow," he grouses as I keep flicking him everytime he pipes up to start in on his self recriminating BS. Nuh uh, not today.
Before he can say another word, I put a finger on his lips and glare at him, "If you say one more word about how 'Oh I'm such a terrible person, I'm sorry you have to put up with me, blah blah blah', I'll spank you, tie you up, and leave you hanging from the ceiling for a few hours with a vibrator in your ass."
Seriously Lulu, I know you. And it's way past time I started telling you to stop this beating yourself up. Holding his cheek, I continue, "l made my choice a long time ago about what I wanted and who I wanted to be with. Maybe at one time I would have been blind enough to what was going on that I'd miss your deciding to become the Phantom of the Opera and push everyone away so we wouldn't get hurt."
And I am so kicking myself for not catching that earlier than his telling me about it. Lulu loved that story, of course he'd think Erik was the perfect guy to imitate!
"But thankfully for both of us, you were terrible at hiding your change of heart and your wife was feeling catty enough not to play along with hiding it that day. Therefore! It falls to me, your beautiful, vivacious, magnanimous and always reliable best friend-cum-subordinate-cum-crazy wrangler-cum-future wife, to sit your cute ass down and tell you to stop self-flagellating yourself and just do better in the future! And I know damn well you've heard this from other people already!" I declare, poking him in the chest, daring him to contradict me. If Kallen hasn't chewed him out for this at least once, I'll let her use me as a naked chair.
Granted, I'd offer anyway just to see her flush red and get all embarrassed from hearing that. She's so much fun to tease, hehehe. Right, still serious Milly time. Playful Milly later. Maybe not too much later it looks like, he's got that resigned look on his face where he knows I'm right, doesn't want to admit it, but isn't willing to fight with me about it because he knows he'll lose.
"Millicent." "Yes Lulu?"
At this point the music has stopped playing, the only sound being the snap of Lulu opening his cigarette case to pull out one of his smokes, followed by the smell of burning cannabis as he inhales deeply before speaking.
"Why did you put up with me? With all this? I know damn well you've been through a lot for my sake. Before you start on a tirade about how you just got done explaining how you made your choice," he holds a hand up to interrupt me, looking me in the eyes, letting a cloud of smoke out of his mouth as he continues. "I know and appreciate you more than I think I can say with words. I treated you very badly for a long time and yet..you stayed with me, even deciding to join the Black Knights and come to Saudi Arabia. You'll likely call me an idiot for even asking, but a man sometimes questions these things, so humor my belabored soul and please just give me a straight fucking answer for once."
Even when he's exasperated, he's still cute. Since you asked so nicely, actually answering is the least I can do. A grunt of surprise passes from his lips as I push him over, plopping into his lap and wiggling to get myself comfortable, and him un-comfortable, hehehe.
"Much better. There's a lot of things I could say, thinking about it. That you're a pompous jerk who needs somebody to pop a hole in your oversized head, or that you'd be hopeless without me reminding you to be human, or that you need someone to tell you when you're getting too high handed. I can think of a bunch of reasons if you gimme a minute," I say, sticking my tongue out at him before putting a hand over my mouth as I giggle.
His eyebrow raises as he blows out a smoke cloud, "If we're going that route, then allow me to reciprocate by calling you a blond she-devil hellion who drives everyone around her up the wall with her wacky antics and who would likely have bankrupted Ashford's budget if I wasn't putting a leash on you. And that's before I get into your own issues with nobility, including the propaganda we both had to pay lip service to. Bluntly, I would worry about you if I wasn't there to keep you grounded and make your ideas feasible."
Meanie. It used to be so easy to get a rise out of him. Teasing him was something I always looked forward to, especially with a hint of sexuality. On the other hand though, there's something in his eyes nowadays that I rarely saw back before all this started.
A spark of life, the feeling that he's present instead of sitting in the back of his head, calculating and weighing how to respond. I guess you could call it 'honesty' ?
Crossing my arms across my chest, I pout and turn my head from him, sticking my nose in the air, "You'd be lost and unable to relax and have any fun without me pulling the stick out of your ass, Lelouch vi Britannia." Truthfully I'm not mad at him. None of what he said is wrong. But a girl can be expected to feel weird when her man is listing her faults out so nonchalantly. Knowing him, he's leading up to some kind of point.
"You're right. I would be lost. But here's a question for you: where else would you rather be than here? I'm sure you've got more to say, so pray, go on."
Right in the heart huh. Can't argue that one.
"Fine, I'll get on with it. You make me laugh, you help me with all my ideas and you have fun doing it, don't even try to deny it. Even your stoic expression back then couldn't help cracking a smile. You're…you're my best and oldest friend. Yeah, I bullied you a lot when we were kids, and when you were on the student council. For the most part though, I just…," I run my left hand through my hair, twirling a lock on my finger as I lean forward to put my head on his chest.
"I just wanted to see you smile again. I hated how you were when you came to Ashford. There, I said it, happy? Milly Ashford couldn't stand that her best friend turned into a dead faced masked corpse masquerading as Lelouch Lamperouge," I declare, swinging my right hand up dramatically as I glare at him, taking some guilty satisfaction in his grimace at the exclamation.
Hugging him close as I straddle his hips, I keep going, "I know I'm a handful and most people just don't have the energy or tolerance to deal with me. But even after everything that happened, you never said I was a bother, or annoying, or that I should leave you alone-" "I'm quite certain I said some of those things, Milly," he interrupts, a ghost of a smile on his lips before I put a finger over his mouth.
"But you didn't mean them. You may have closed your heart off, but you still gave a damn about me despite that. How many times did you help me get out of bad dates my mother set me up on? How many times did you come up with some plan in five minutes to salvage one of my off the wall events? How many times did you drop everything to just help me or hold me when I needed it?"
Aw great. Now I'm making myself depressed thinking about the past-eh? I blink as I feel slender fingers running through my hair and a strong hand rubbing my back.
"Milly, do you really think I'd ever not be there for you? You're my best friend, tied with Suzaku, and with far less baggage. I trust your council, your judgment, and your heart. And I know you didn't try to push things further because you thought Shirley deserved the chance, and..probably other reasons I can only guess at," he says, rubbing his chin in thought.
Yeesh, that one backfired, didn't it? I get closer to him, and Shirley gets sent backing. After what happened to her dad with the Code-R nonsense and everything that's happened since, it was probably for the best. Damn if I still don't feel like a heel though.
Baby blues meet gleaming amethyst as I look up at his face, arms still wrapped around him, "Guess we're both jerks who need someone to give us perspective, huh?" I mutter, letting a half smile play on my lips as he looks up in thought.
"Let's not mince words, Millicent. I am a man who has willingly become a monster for the sake of my vision. For all of your involvement in my craziness however, you're still you, the same beautiful, vexing, cunning, kindhearted and bubbly girl I fell in love with years ago. My mistake was shutting you out because I thought..well, a variety of stupid and off kilter thoughts that aren't worth getting into. You may be a blonde succubus hellraiser, but you're my blonde succubus hellraiser. And several other people's that we all know and love. If we can make you happy, we'll do our best. Because a Milly Ashford who isn't shining like a bright spring day isn't Milly Ashford," he states definitively, that smug cocky smirk on his lips that runs in the family, and makes people want to alternatively deck him or kiss him.
*smooch*
Eyelashes flutter as I beam, grinning from ear to ear, "You really know how to brighten a girl's mood, Lulu."
The ex-prince and current warlord shrugs at that remark, "There are times when I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. I'm just speaking from the heart right now."
Before he can say anything my blazer jacket is over his face as I work to unbutton my shirt, a look that I'm sure somebody called a 'leering tigress' illuminated on my face, "Well I know exactly what I'm doing and what I want right now. Madame President says right now is nudist cuddling time, so clothes off, mr. vice president."
Admittedly, getting undressed while sitting in someone's lap is harder than standing up to do it, but we manage with Lulu helping me lift my ass up so I can get my thong off. Ahh, much better. Cuddling of any kind is great, sometimes though, you just want to feel skin to skin. Especially lying down on top of someone while you're both on a fur rug. They might be corrupt dicks, but those Chinese officers went all out on this car. Probably for mistresses or prostitutes.
"So tell me Lulu, is this what the Japanese call 'Skinship'~?" I purr with a leer on my face, rubbing against his chest and listening to his heartbeat. A sound that is just a little bit off due to..well, the various enhancements that saved his life after the Siege of Tokyo failed.
Vibrations travel through my body as he chuckles at that, which is an exquisite feeling when you're in this close proximity to someone. The music came back on a few minutes ago, a nice relaxing Jazz band piece that is just making me melt and not want to move right now. I do like Jazz, but I confess that I don't know the genre nearly as well as Rivalz or CC do.
"Who are we listening to by the way? I really like this composition. The sax player in particular is great," I inquire, luxuriating in the feeling of Lulu's arms around me and his cock pressing against my stomach.
"John Coltrane, the song is called Blue Train, it's a Jazz standard. You asked me if I'm ok. And I think the best answer I can say is: Not entirely, but..I'm ok with that. And I think I'm getting better about living with the uncertainty. And right now? I don't think there's anywhere else I'd rather be," he whispers with a wistful and serene look on his face, eyes closed to enjoy the ambience. "Same question to you: Are you ok, Milly?"
Touche, Lulu. One good turn deserves another, "It's been a rough few months. And knowing you and what's going to happen, it's probably only going to get crazier and more hectic, right?"
The solemn nod is answer enough frankly. Especially considering that after China, is Japan. And Suzaku. Ughhh, that's going to suck. I've made jokes about Suzaku being a stickler for rules and uptight at times, but this geassed version is like that but with all the joy and life sucked out of him from what I hear and what reports have indicated.
"Basically my answer is that, well…, I'm kinda scared. But I'm with my friends and the people I love. So I know we'll get through this together. And that's why I put up with you. Because I can't see myself having a life that didn't have you in it. You're my megalomaniac future husband, and I sure as hell aren't letting you go. Any. time. Soon," I state, raising up my hips, and using my left hand, lift his dick up so I can lower myself onto it, a breathy sigh escaping my lips as Lulu has a sharp intake of breath from the sudden sensation of being inside me.
Mmm, this is exactly what I needed right now. Lying down, relaxing, my man balls deep inside me, listening to great music as we enjoy each other's company. Heck, I don't even want to move right now. Maybe in a bit I will, I can't deny I'm getting horny. But there is something very intimate and naughty about just having someone inside me and not moving, hehehe.
"Who am I to argue with a lady, especially the future Mrs…hmm, ash Britannia or vi Britannia? Which sounds better to you?" he says, pausing mid sentence to think about that choice. Gotta admit, that's a tough one. Wait, hang on. Something I just realized.
My golden tresses shake as I shake my head no, "ash Britannia. If anybody is getting the vi prefix, it should be CC. We both know she's your other half."
Is he hurt by my saying that? Lelouch gives me a sad look as he hugs me closer, "Milly, don't even think that I don't value you, love you or would ever consider you or anyone I care about in terms of ranks or tiers. I-" my finger goes over his mouth, shutting him up as I smile warmly. Silly Lulu.
"I didn't mean it like that. I just meant she's literally the other half of you. You are not just a package deal, I don't think either of you can function without the other. And this is already a polycule with a bunch of people I love, so who cares? Lulu, everybody knows she's got you by the balls and the heart. It's adorable. And I love her too, just like I do you," I whisper, holding his cheek as we kiss.
Still felt really sweet hearing him say that about me though. These kinds of relationships only work when everybody talks to everyone else and we're all trying to build something together. It's a lotta work, but sometimes? Sometimes it's really worth it.
