You wanted more, well heres more. Basically it's more flashback and insight into what really happened. I promise the story will start moving along soon, but in order for it all to take place, there needs to be background information. Italics are once again flasbacks. More MR comming soon, even a little MA. )) Enjoy
ROGERS'S POV
I looked at April my head cocking to the side a little confused. "So I'm supposed to feel sorry for you because you couldn't have sex with Benny anymore?" My voice was full of anger not to mention how pissed off I was she was there in the first place. I didn't realize the words that had slipped out of my mouth and by the time I did-it was too late. Mimi's head shot around, her eyes looking deep into mine.
"Benny? Benjamin Coffin? The Benjamin Coffin" She asked me, her face contorting with pain hearing that Benny, the same man who had used her, had been sleeping around with my ex. "Roger-I-she-HIM?" she cried looking April up and down, examining her now, and looking at the little girl beside her. My eyes followed hers, could this girl truly be my daughter? The more I looked at her, the more I saw some Benny in her. I turned back to Mimi however, worried about her now.
"Yes meemz, Benny, that yuppie fuck" I said angrily, memories flooding back. Why not tell them what you wore to my place? Black leather and lace, my desk is a mess I think I'm still sore. I shook his head getting the thoughts out. Benny had fucked up his life beyond belief. He had been having an affair with my girlfriend the last 2 months he lived in my loft, moving out to continue to affair in secret. Yeah sure Benny, I wouldn't find out. You bastard
Mimi's eyes lost their lost as she realized what went on. She kept her mouth shut, not wanting to say anything but realizing the pain I must have gone through. Looking at April and then to me, She cuddled closer. I wrapped my arms tighter around my fiancé. "I love you Mimi" I whispered softly, reassuringly in her ear. But did she love me?
APRIL'S POV
"Yeah well, he was an asshole Roger and that's not where I'm heading. Maybe you could stop with your fucking play toy for five minutes to let me finish" I shot a hard look at this slutty looking, GIRL, he was holding and tried to continue before Roger could interrupt me.
"Watch it April, I let you in my house, don't you dare insult Mimi. I can kick you out so fast your head will spin." He said angrily to be but I just ignored it. "Well anyway, as I was saying. . "
I got back to Benny's loft, and thank god he wasn't home. My mind was racing with all these thoughts. I didn't know what to do; I knew he was probably off somewhere else. Ever since he stopped living with us and got an apartment of his own, he was always out doing things for it, shopping for food, décor-yeah sure. I knew what he was doing-looking for his next girlfriend, and I thought maybe he had found her.
My first step was the liquor cabinet which I rushed to, pulling out any hard alcohol I could find. But an hour and a half later, the alcohol had done no good except to make me tipsy. I had no drugs on me since I had spent the money on the hospital bill and if I was to grab some of Benny's and grab a hit, I wouldn't be able to OD before he got home.
I searched my mind for ideas and only one thing came to me. I rushed to the bathroom, starting the bathtub water, cold-the way it needed to be. The fridge was my next stop, grabbing as much ice as my arms could carry and dumping it inside the tub as well. "Here it goes" I spoke to myself once the tub was full. I undressed myself, throwing my clothes all over the room, so maybe it would look more like a murder. Slowly I lifted my foot and placed it into the ice cold water. Chills danced up my spine and I wrapped my arms around myself, taking advantage of the little heat I had left. Next I brought my other foot in-adjusting to the water and then finally sitting down, and then laying down. My body fully submerged.
I needed to make it quick, so I grabbed Benny's razor and worked on getting the plastic off from around it. I held the razor blade in my hand and pulled it down my arm, from the base of my wrist up. It hurt-but the pain subsided as I began to get woozy. With all the strength I had left I slit open my other wrist, blood pouring into the tub. The water staining red instantly as my eyes went fuzzy and then black.
"That's all I remember" I said softly looking at Roger, whose cold eyes had gotten a little colder. He still couldn't come to terms with the fact that I had given up-or at least tried to.
"So how are you here April. Benny called-he said he found you unconscious in the bathtub. He told me you were gone-that there was only a slight chance, you had lost to much blood" His eyes focused on mine, for some reason I had a feeling he thought this was all a Lie.
"Well. . " I spoke, breathing deep and getting myself ready for the next part.
Illin' to know how she survived? Well R&R with some nice comments and MAYBE just MAYBE I will let you know.