Secrets Chapter 5
Clark's Pov
So many things have hit me at once. First Ryan becomes my brother then I learn all this stuff. Like now he can read my mind, what did Lex do to him in his secret lab at Luthor Corp.? I bet his something to do with Kryptonite because doesn't it always when it has to with Smallville and Lex Luthor millionaire and owner of Luthor Corp. Chloe is right about allot of things, I really don't know much when it comes to millionaires with the last name Luthor. I do know one thing though they will do anything to get the information they want, even killing anyone in their path. My father was once again a pawn in the Luthor's game. Just like Chloe was in junior and right before senior year. I can't believe Lionel used her feelings against her to get her to work for him. Well now that I think about it was more my fault then anyone else's because I let my brain do the talking regarding Lana and Chloe when all along Lana never cared about Chloe's feelings. I guess I haven't either, but I am a blind alien that finally got to see what was always there, Chloe. She has always stood by me helping me through my troubles with Lana, Alicia, and some other girls. Never once did I ever give her the time of day, I feel like the stupidest person in the entire universe. There was Spring Formal, but I had a feeling that Lana was going to need saving and I left Chloe standing there. I remember as I left she had the look on her face that said 'I knew he was going to leave me here for Lana', but I didn't bother to think about it. Then Chloe decided to break off our little try at a relationship while we were searching for my dad and I didn't think twice about what she said because I was distracted. Then sophomore year came and all I did was treat her like she wasn't worth my time when in reality I was trying to hide the fact that I still had feelings for her even from myself. I remember when I first found out about red kryptonite. I'm still embarrassed to this day about what I did to the two of them. I still can see what that birthmark looked like on Chloe's nice round butt. Okay wow no more think about that. Then Pete got infected by the parasite and Chloe and I went to figure out what was going on and then she got bit. I remember walking into the Torch office and finding her making out with this random guy and I was seriously freaked out at that point. Then she went and started to suck on that lollypop and I remember leaving the office slightly confused and aroused, but I will never admit that to anyone especially to the fact that Lana and I were suppose to go out that night. Pete and her showed up at the Talon as I was telling Lana that we couldn't go out and Pete and his big mouth, he had to go and say something. This next part is the part I like the most about the entire experience, I told Chloe my secret and she was so happy and cool about it. I can't believe I'm lying even to myself again, come on, my favorite part was defiantly when Chloe and I were making out and she was on my lap. It's really weird to think about the fact that Chloe had sex in between I remember the time I was sick and all I could think about was that if I died I never got to tell her my secret. I've actually thought about what it would have been like if her memory of the parasite incident hadn't been erased. I guess I've been think about allot of stuff lately probably because my father died only two short weeks ago and all I can think about is what he said. My father was always a wise man never letting you get away with anything with out a lecture. I wish I could a have had the courage to speech at his funeral, but then all I could do was blame myself and be sad instead of remembering all the happy memories we shared, it's not that I don't blame myself now, but less then I did before. I still remember the first time I accidentally used my powers in public I got the four year olds version of what I used to get for the last few years up and till a few weeks before he died.
I ask myself every day now why did my father have to die, but it could have been someone worse Jor-el could have taken Chloe.
Why did I let myself I hid my feelings for Chloe?
"Simple, she's your best friend and you felt it was wrong to like the person you could confide in the most" says Ryan from the top of the stairs hands stuffed in his pockets.
"Ryan you scared me" I say.
"No I didn't I just caught you off guard, they are two do very different things" he says and I swear this kid is to smart for his own good.
"I thought I'm the one that's suppose to teach you things not the other way around?" I say and it's something I've always wondered since I meet Ryan in freshmen year.
"In order for you to teach me things I have to teach you things" he says.
"That makes sense" I say.
"Can I ask you question?" I ask.
"Sure" he says sitting down next to me.
"Why would you want Chloe and I together instead of Lana?" I ask.
"Clark ever since I met you I learned that you need someone that can take your secret well and wouldn't push you tell them. You need someone trust worthy and someone who will love you for you even if you're from some distant planet I've never even heard" he says and I swear I've heard that line before.
"Isn't Chloe all of those things?" he asks.
"Yeah, but there's just one problem how do I make her believe me when Lana and I just broke up. To her I've never really had feelings for her and how do I prove it and I need to make it up to her" I say my voice level raising because of all my frustration.
"Clark if you express what you truly feel to her, then she will believe you" he says.
"Ryan I'm not good with words like she is what happens when I mess up?" I ask looking at the 'what ifs' of the situation.
"Who says you have to talk the entire time all you have to do is tell her you love her than kiss her, and for really this time" he says starting to chuckle at his own joke.
"Ryan" I saying giving him the 'embarrassed older brother' look.
"Sorry I couldn't help it" he says laugh again.
"It's not that funny besides most of the times I kissed her were because the red kryptonite helped bring out my feelings for her" I say defending myself.
"That's true alittle bit, but when you kiss her this time don't think that you have red kryptonite to help you on this one" he says.
"Your right, you know buddy" I say giving him a smile.
"Of course I'm right, I'm always right" he says and I can't help, but laugh really hard.
"What?" he asks confused.
"It's nothing," I say.
"Oh come on what is it?" he asks pleadingly because I cleared my head so he wouldn't know.
"It's just this one time Chloe said that and you did a accidental good job of mimicking her" I say.
"It doesn't surprise me that she's said that before because she is right all the time" he says.
"Right about what?" I ask.
"Right about everything" I say.
"Okay" I say suspiciously.
"You never told me what Lex and you bet on" I say, I wonder what it is.
"Well like I said Lex and I bet on how the two of you would last, but then I told him that when you two did break up you would realizes that Lana isn't the girl for you, but Chloe is. Lex said he wouldn't bet me on the last part because he believes that it will happen too" says Ryan.
"Is it fun for you to bet on my feelings for the woman in my life?" I ask still smiling.
"Yes" he says and breaks into an even bigger smile.
"Come on can anyone believe I can figure out anything on my own?" I ask.
"No, because we know you, you always need a little push" he says and it's probably true.