Chapter 21

Author: Thanks you guys for the reviews! I know I killed Laiken, but I am going somewhere with it. Hope you guys like this chapter! Its another sad one. :( Sorry!

Everyone waited in the waiting rooming for hours until the doctor finally came out. Cindy jumped up from her seat and rushed over to him. "Ms. Miller?" the doctor asked

"Yes, my daughter is she ok?" Cindy stuttered trying not to cry

"She was dead when we brought her in here, but we brought her back. She is a very serious condition right now. She's bleeding internally and she has some bleeding in the brain. We tried to stop it but there was just too much blood. I'm sorry, but she's not going to live much longer. We have put her on a breathing ventilator, so she won't have too much trouble breathing. She is on some major medicine, to keep the pain down. She has been asking for you."

"What happened?" Cindy asked as Evelyn grabbed her arm.

"They must have not been able to see while they were driving and I guess he hit a water spot and hydroplaned causing his SUV to flip. Laiken wasn't wearing her seatbelt, causing her to be thrown from the car. She landed 10 feet away on the road. Christian was still in the car when his friends found him. He's going to make it."

"How does this happen? We just moved here." Cindy cried.

"Would you like to see her?" the doctor asked. Cindy nodded her head. "I would like only one person at a time to go in there. She really needs her rest and she can't be worked up."

Everyone nodded. Cindy moved to the room where they had taken Laiken, while Jack moved over to Kennedy who was sitting beside Jenna staring off into space. "Hey, can I talk to her for a minute?" Jack asked Jenna. Jenna nodded her head and walked over to Bobby and Angel. "Hey baby." Kennedy looked up at him. "How are you feeling?" She just shrugged her shoulders. "Ken, will you talk to me?"

"Is it bad to wish it was me?" she whispered as tears streamed down her face.

"Why would you say that?"

"Because I do. I feel like this is all my fault."

"How is this your fault?"

"If I wouldn't have freaked out, we could have left earlier and maybe they could save her. She's dying and no one can do anything about it."

"Ken, I am so proud of what you did tonight. You got up the courage to help her. She wasn't alone in this. You were right beside her through all of it. I know she doesn't blame this on you."

"Then why do I feel so bad?" she sobbed. "I was so mean to her when she first got here. Then we become friends, one of my best friends, now she's not going to be here anymore. Just like my mother."

"This was an accident. What happened to your mom was an accident too."

"Is everyone that I get close going to die too?"

"No, don't say that. This was an accident. It could have happened to anyone tonight. Just think if you didn't have a heart of gold, we wouldn't have called them to check on them. They could still be out there suffering, but we found them just in time."

"Can you just hold me?" she asked looking at him with tears streaming down her face. He wrapped his arms around her and she cried into his chest.

"I am so happy that you are with me right now. I don't know what I would do if I had lost you tonight." Jack replied in her ear. Kennedy wanted to be happy that he said that, but she just couldn't get Laiken's face out of her mind. All she kept thinking about was Christian and how he came down to see her and now he won't ever see her again.

"He's not going to see her again." Kennedy whispered.

"Who's not going to see who?" Jack asked confused

"Christian."

Jack just looked at her "He's going to be alright ok. Nothing's going to happen to him." He embraced her again but this time Kennedy just laid her head on his shoulder and looked towards the door.

"How is she?" Angel asked

"She's a little freaked out." Jenna replied "Can't say that I blame her."

"Me either." Bobby replied. "They scared the shit out of me."

"Why?" Jenna asked

"Because I let them go out to find them. I wish I hadn't, then maybe Kennedy wouldn't be like this."

"Her mom was killed bobby in a car accident. She would have acted this way whether or not she found Laiken or not."

"Jack's trying his hardest to be with her, but it just seems like she is pushing him away." Angel replied

"I don't think she knows how to handle this." Jenna replied. "She's so vulnerable, I'm afraid something drastic is going to happen to her."

"What do you mean by that?" Angel asked

"Are you saying you could kill herself?" Bobby asked

"I don't think she would do that, but I think she might go to extreme of making the pain go away."

Angel and Bobby looked at each other.

Evelyn walked over to Jack and Kennedy "Hey sweetie, you ok?" she asked kneeling down

Kennedy shook her head. "I cant believe this is happening." Kennedy whispered.

"Everything is going to be ok." Evelyn replied "We are all going to get through this."

"Why does everyone keep saying that? Nothing is going to be ok, we just lost one of our best friends. Everything is not going to be ok." She replied

Evelyn looked at Jack, he turned away from her. "Death is apart of life, Kennedy…"

"Is apart of my life everyday obviously. God hates me, that's all you have to say."

"God doesn't hate you." Evelyn replied grabbing her hand "God loves you more than anything. He is with you right now."

"Then why did he take my mom away from me? Why did he stick me with that bastard and let him do those things to me? Why is Laiken in a hospital bed holding on to her life? He's not with me right now. I just don't know what I did to deserve this."

"You didn't do anything. He's not making you pay for anything. Death should bring you closer to him."

"Closer? You want me to get close to God, because my best friend is dying. I prayed and prayed that nothing would happen. I thought maybe he answered my prayer when the doctor said that she was alive, but she's not going to make it. Why did He wake her up, if he is just gong to take her away again. He's causing more pain, not less."

"God loves you and He wants to take care of you." Evelyn felt Kennedy's hand begin to shake. "Your mother is with Him right now and Laiken will soon be there too. Your mom isn't in any pain anymore and soon Laiken wont be either."

"It isn't that they aren't going to be in pain anymore, its that they were in pain in the first place."

"Life's not always going to be smooth sailing, there are always going to be bumps in the road. I mean look at my boys. They all came from abusive families, two of them don't even know who their parents are. They could be out in the streets, but God brought them to me. With every bump there is always going to be joy or love around the corner. You just have to have faith and believe. You aren't alone in this."

"I am alone in this." Kennedy whispered. Jack let go of her. "You have four wonderful boys whose lives were bad when they were kids, but they are fine now. They will always have you to turn too. I don't have any corners to my bumps in the road. My bumps turn into hills, and then mountains. God knows that I am suffering and He doesn't seem to give a shit." Kennedy pulled her hand away from Evelyn roughly as she glared at her. "I don't need Him. I will be fine on my own."

"Don't say that." Jack replied. "You do need Him. If you don't want Him to help you, then let one of us help you. You need me, Kennedy. You cant go through this alone. You went through it alone for long enough and look what it has done to you."

"Don't pretend like you know anything about me. I got along just fine by myself. I didn't need anyone's help and I don't need it now. Why cant you just leave me alone." She jumped up from her chair. "I don't want God's help and I sure as hell don't need it." Kennedy spat. "I am going to be fine without him. He's has never done anything but bring pain into my life."

"Why are you being like this? We are all feeling the same thing you are feeling. Don't act like you are the only one that is suffering. We all are."

"I don't want to be here anymore. I want to go home. I cant be here anymore."

"Damnit Kennedy!" Jack yelled "Will you look around. One of our best friends is dying. Did you hear me she is dying. You are here because you are a good person and you care about her. This is real ok. This isn't going to go away by you leaving. You cant forget about this. This is reality and you need to deal with it."

"I am dealing with it. I have to deal with it every fucking day, so fuck you!" she yelled back. She moved to the door, but Bobby grabbed her arm

"You aren't going anywhere." He replied. She glared at him before ripped her arm from him. "You have to stay here and be here for Laiken. She needs you right now."

"I cant be here!" she yelled "She's is dying and I cant do anything about it."

"You can do something about it. You can be here for her. Don't be selfish and leave."

"Fuck you!" she spat walking towards the door. Bobby ran over to her and grabbed her

"I know that you are hurting and that you are in so much pain right now, but don't shut everyone out. You don't want to be alone right now." She began fighting him trying to get him off of her. "I know it hurts to go through this. I don't know how it feels to lose a mom, but I didn't have one ok. My mom left me when I was 2 and so I never really knew her. I know how it feels not to have a mom and to wonder everyday what you did to deserve it. I'm sorry that your friend is dying, but you are still here. You have to be thankful for that. That could have been you and Jack tonight."

Kennedy began sobbing as she continued to try to pull away from him. "Let me go!" she sobbed "You don't know, you have no idea!"

"Yes I do." Bobby whispered

"She's gone and I cant bring her back. I wont ever see her again and its my fault because I got sick. She's not here anymore, because of me." She sobbed pushing at his chest.

"You didn't do anything wrong, you just got sick." Angel replied walking over to him.

"Just let me go." She cried. "I don't want to talk about this anymore. I just want to leave."

"What are you going to go do by yourself?" Angel asked

Kennedy just looked at him "You tell me what you are going to do and I will let you go."

"I don't have to tell you anything, I am leaving and that's that." Kennedy spat

"It's still storming out there. You are going to get yourself killed."

Kennedy just stared at him before turning away "Maybe that's not a bad idea."

"What the fuck did you just say?" Bobby yelled grabbing her again. "Don't you ever say that! I mean it, don't you ever fucking say that again!" he yelled at her. "You don't want to die, there is nothing in death. You would break every person's heart that is in this room. I know that you are hurting and you are going through something so horrible, but death is not the answer. You aren't going anywhere alone." He moved in front of the door.

"Get out of my way." She replied moving towards him

"No." Bobby declared

"MOVE!" she screamed punching him in the stomach. He didn't budge. She kept hitting him in the stomach and beating him in the chest. Cindy comes back into the waiting room seeing Kennedy breakdown. "Get out of my way!" she sobbed. Bobby saw Cindy come back with a tear stained face. Bobby grabbed Kennedy's shoulders and moved her towards the area they had taken Christian and Laiken.

"Come with me, Kennedy." Bobby replied.

"Where?" Kennedy asked looking up at him

"Just come with me. Everything is going to be alright." Bobby replied wrapping his arms around her. Jack followed them. It was like Kennedy didn't know where she was going, she thought he was taking her to settle down somewhere other than the waiting room, but she soon found out where he took her. There they stood in Laiken's room.

"Why are we in here? I cant be in here." Kennedy began to cry again, as she moved to the door. "Look at her Kennedy. This is reality. This is what is really going on right now. You have to deal with it." He pointed to the bed where Laiken was laying. She had tubes in her nose and mouth. Her face was black and blue, with cuts here and there. Her chest was moving up and down as if she wasn't hurt at all, but it was the breathing machine keeping her alive. Laiken slowly moved her head to the side and looked at them. "I cant." Kennedy put her hand to her mouth and let out a sob, she went to turn around but her head hit Bobby's chest. He gently laid his hand on her head to soothe her as she cried. "Go see her." He whispered. "You need to say goodbye." He let her go before shutting the door. He saw Jack standing at the wall and held up one finger for him to wait. Kennedy couldn't look at her friend, but instead she just stood there looking at the door for a moment. "Ken." She heard a whisper. She closed her eyes for a moment and wished that it was just a joke or a dream. She slowly turned around and Laiken's bruised eyes staring at her. She took in a breath as she eased her way to the bed.

"I was wondering….where…you…went." Laiken replied breathing in between each word.

"I was waiting outside." Kennedy whispered

"You.ok?" she asked

"No, not really. Laiken, I am so sorry."

"Don't.be. I'm.fine."

"No, your not. You're not fine and that's what hurts so bad."

"This.is.not.your.fault."

"Then why does it feel like it?"

"Its.not. If.anything.you.saved.me."

Kennedy let out a sob as she grabbed her friend's hand. "Thank.you.for.letting.me.into.ya'll's.group. i.havent.felt.so.at.home.in.a.long.time."

Kennedy cried into her hands "Don't.be.sad. I.am.going.to.be.fine."

"Are you in pain?"

"No. The.doctors.are.putting.medicine.in.me.to.keep. you scared?"

Laiken looked at Kennedy with tears in her eyes "Yeah.I.am." Kennedy laid her head down and cried into Laikens hand. Laiken let go and rubbed the top of her head. They heard the door open.

"Hey there." Jack's voice came from the door.

"Hey," Laiken whispered. She smiled at him. In came Jenna right behind him.

"How are you feeling?" Jenna asked walking over to the bed.

"I'm.fine." Laiken replied "Can't.feel.too.much."

Jenna gave a little smile. "I'm going to miss you." Jenna replied

"I'll.be.right.here." Laiken put her hand to her heart, but it quickly fell to her side.

"I'll never forget you."

Laiken gave a soft smile "Jack. You.aren't.saying.anything."

"This just sucks so bad."

"I.love.you.guys. Always.remember.that."

Jack could feel the tears come to his eyes, but he turned away so no one could see how upset he was. Kennedy looked over at him. She looked back at Laiken "I'm.so.tired." Laiken began to close her eyes.

"Laiken." Kennedy whispered squeezing her hand "Please don't go."

"Be.strong." she whispered. She closed her eyes.

"Laiken!" Kennedy yelled. "Please don't go." She sobbed. "Don't go." Jenna covered her mouth with her hands and began crying. Jack stayed turned to the wall and began crying. "I'm sorry." Kennedy sobbed. She let go of Laiken's hand and watched it fall off the bed. She walked over to Jack and just wrapped her arms around him. She could feel his body shaking as he was continued to cry. She sobbed in his shoulders as he held her tighter. Kennedy reached her hand out to Jenna, as Jenna walked over to them and they embraced each other and cried for the longest time.

A few minutes after Laiken had died, Jack held onto Kennedys waist and Jenna's hand as they walked back to the waiting room. Everyone was sitting around waiting for their turn to say goodbye. Jack looked at his mother, who knew something wasn't right. "She's gone." Jack whispered. He tightened his grip on Kennedy's body. "She just closed her eyes and went to sleep."

"Oh sweetie." Evelyn responded, with tears in her eyes.

"Can we go home?" Jack asked. "I don't want to be here anymore."

Evelyn nodded her head. Jack, Jenna, and Kennedy walked over to Cindy, who looked to be in shock. "Ms. Cindy, I am so sorry. I wish there was something we could have done." Jack replied

"Laiken loved every single one of you. She was finally happy about the move. I am so happy that she had friends like you to spend her last moment with. I know you'll never forget her. Thank you."

"We loved her too." Jenna replied

"Kennedy, I know that you are going through a hard time. Thank you so much for being with her tonight. You are a good friend, always remember that."

Kennedy nodded her head and gave a little smile. "Cindy, come with us. Let us take you home." Evelyn replied

"I cant leave her here alone. I am going to stay a little while longer." Cindy replied

"I am not going to let you stay alone, I'll stay with you." Evelyn replied. "Angel, Bobby, make sure they get home ok."

"I'll drive them, Angel, you take my car." Bobby replied. Bobby looked over at Kennedy who was still clinging to Jack's side. "Come on you guys." Evelyn walked over to them and kissed every single one of them before Jack hugged Cindy. Kennedy let go of Jack and embraced Cindy in a hug. "Thank you Kennedy." Cindy whispered in Kennedy's ear. Kennedy closed her eyes and just tightened the hug. Jack grabbed her hand as Bobby ushered them out to the car. Jack opened the car door for her and Jenna as they climbed in. Jack wrapped his arms around Kennedy as she dug her head in his chest. "I love you." He whispered

"I love you too." She cried.

Author: Ok, so I thought maybe I would let Kennedy freak out on Bobby and Evelyn. Hope I didn't offend anyone by the whole God thing. But hope you guys liked this chapter! Let me know what you think.

Iluvgarretthedlund: Thanks for the review! Yeah I let her die, but yeah I am definitely going somewhere with it. To tell you the truth I didn't like them having 2 best friends. Just got complicated but I am going somewhere with it, don't worry. Yeah Christian came and saw her. YAY! I loved the birthday thing too. My mom was like wow, I wish my man would do that to me. Hahaha I DO TOO! Hahahaha!

Ryo Wings: awwww I am sorry that I made you cry, but at least lets me know that you liked it! Hhaha! Thanks for reviewing and sorry in advance if I made you cry in this chapter too! Haha

Cheetah girl 15: hahah yeah you don't want to cry in front of the moms boyfriend. Im sorry you don't like him:( I read your story and I like where you are going with it. I like different stories. But update that story soon! I'd love to know where you are going with it. Thanks for the review! What I meant by the Jack thing is he's just not going to be sweet Jack soon, because she is pushing his away. But don't worry! haha

Skyler Jenaiyah Mercer: haha poor everyone huh? Yeha I know I was liking Laiken too, but I didn't know how to keep her with them as their best friends. So I decided to kill her and then I thought of something for the rest of the story that goes along with her death, so I hope you like it. Hope this chapter didn't make you cry too much! Teehee! Thanks for the review! Love the name by the way!