Chapter three: Backdoor to otherworld
It had been around four months since I had come into the universe; everything in my life was all about killing, being beaten, and surviving. I felt nothing except for pain, suffering, and bloodlust. Some fights were more difficult than others; but all of them made me forget about the emptiness I felt and all the pain I had to go back to. I was out in space at the time when my spaceship started to malfunction and sent me speeding somewhere. This part of the universe was unfamiliar to me. My ship passed through auras of brilliant colors before I saw a lone planet and set a course to land on it. I landed in a vast grassy valley with many rocks scattered about the scenery. I immediately went to check my ships systems; everything seemed just fine so I figured that some magnetic polarity sent my ships navigation systems out of whack. Just when I turned to get back into my ship I heard a voice call out "Hey you! Who are you and what are you doing here!?" I turned around but didn't have my cloak over my face, which was odd for me because I always wore my cloak and if anyone saw my face they never lived to tell about it. Without a word I rushed to attack him, sending a punch to him. I nearly hit him to but he ducked at the last 1/16 of a second. I growled and attacked again, this time with more luck slamming my fist across his jaw. This one was fast, very fast yet I managed to catch him off guard. He didn't even try to attack me but mainly tried to dodge me and talk to me "Why are you attacking me, I have never done anything to you!" he said as I continued to try and pummel him. Just then I felt someone of immense power grab me from behind and restrain me, I growled and struggled to get free but I couldn't. I saw the little man I tried to beat approach me. He was a lilac color with white white hair sticknig out the top of his head; he wore an outfit very different from what I had seen any creature wear. Surprisingly he didn't seem angry with me but stared at me strangely in the eyes as I struggled. "Now I understand why I i couldn't feel her life force, she has no soul! I know how to fix that." The strange little man said as he placed two fingers just right below my neck. I started to feel strange as i felt a strange warmness; it felt really weird and in a way was worse than pain. In my mind I saw all the saiyans I had killed, all the beings, all their children I had killed in cold-blooded selfishness of wanting to escape my own personal torment of being beaten and having pains surge throughout my body. Suddenly, I felt things that I had never felt before flood me, I felt overwhelming remorse and sadness for killing all the children when I destroyed the entire planet. I never killed them individually, but all at once with the rest of the populace of their planet."What have I done? All those young souls...gone." I said almost at a whisper. The larger red man who was restraining me felt me go limp and let me go. My body grew limp from feeling sadness for the first time in my life, it was overwhelming. Somehow I found a way to surpress this sadness as I gained my strength back and looked at two saying nothing, I was surprised at myself for feeling these new things. I knew what emotion was but was this it? Was I really actually feeling emotion, since the beginning I thought that I just had a mind and thoughts of my own but how was I feeling emotion? I turned my focus back on the little purple man "How did you make me have emotion, and why am I not empty anymore?" I asked in a more gentle voice than I usually sounded, this startled me a little. "I just gave you a soul, you did not possess one before and thats why you've been a ruthless killer. Let me explain what a soul is, its something that allows other beings to sense your ki, it allows you to feel emotion and its the only part of you that will last after your physical body is gone. If I wouldn't have given you a soul and you would have died, nothing would be left of you." He said. I gasped in horror as I comprehended this. "But you have no ordinary soul miss, since you had to be given a soul there is a consequence. Once your physical body deceases, you will become a messenger for the Ki's, you will have the same personality, but when you die you will not be capable of doing wrong. The Ki's will only call upon you as a messenger when you are needed but otherwise you will be free to do as you wish, other deceased beings will be able to tell you apart from a normal deceased being by your appearance. Look upon your very soul with this, it will allow you to see your dead form when you are living." He said handing me a weird looking mirror. My dead form was glowing a bluish color, and it had long white wings and there were markings upon my face. I handed him the mirror back. I thought about this contemplating what I should do, whether I should keep the soul or not. I did not have a negative feeling about this purple little man but the exact opposite, so I decided that I would keep this soul and didn't care about the consequences. Then I realized that my creator would be wondering where I was right now and would be furious, I thought about how he might use his little device to kill me so I just got up and ran into my ship's direction, I jumped into it and as the ship was closing he was running towards me "Wait, you never told me your name!" The little man called out as the hatch completely closed and I blasted into space again. As I got a good distance from the planet my ship's navigation system started to malfunction again and I passed though the same auras again until I found myself back where I had started. When I returned to my birthplace my creator was angry as usual, I soon found out that he had made a cane from a stronger alloy so that it wouldn't break when he struck me across the back. My anger towards him didn't change; I still wanted to kill him if only that implant wasnt embedded someplace beneath my skin. When I returned to my cell I thought about all the children I had killed and vowed never to kill another child again.
It had been around four months since I had come into the universe; everything in my life was all about killing, being beaten, and surviving. I felt nothing except for pain, suffering, and bloodlust. Some fights were more difficult than others; but all of them made me forget about the emptiness I felt and all the pain I had to go back to. I was out in space at the time when my spaceship started to malfunction and sent me speeding somewhere. This part of the universe was unfamiliar to me. My ship passed through auras of brilliant colors before I saw a lone planet and set a course to land on it. I landed in a vast grassy valley with many rocks scattered about the scenery. I immediately went to check my ships systems; everything seemed just fine so I figured that some magnetic polarity sent my ships navigation systems out of whack. Just when I turned to get back into my ship I heard a voice call out "Hey you! Who are you and what are you doing here!?" I turned around but didn't have my cloak over my face, which was odd for me because I always wore my cloak and if anyone saw my face they never lived to tell about it. Without a word I rushed to attack him, sending a punch to him. I nearly hit him to but he ducked at the last 1/16 of a second. I growled and attacked again, this time with more luck slamming my fist across his jaw. This one was fast, very fast yet I managed to catch him off guard. He didn't even try to attack me but mainly tried to dodge me and talk to me "Why are you attacking me, I have never done anything to you!" he said as I continued to try and pummel him. Just then I felt someone of immense power grab me from behind and restrain me, I growled and struggled to get free but I couldn't. I saw the little man I tried to beat approach me. He was a lilac color with white white hair sticknig out the top of his head; he wore an outfit very different from what I had seen any creature wear. Surprisingly he didn't seem angry with me but stared at me strangely in the eyes as I struggled. "Now I understand why I i couldn't feel her life force, she has no soul! I know how to fix that." The strange little man said as he placed two fingers just right below my neck. I started to feel strange as i felt a strange warmness; it felt really weird and in a way was worse than pain. In my mind I saw all the saiyans I had killed, all the beings, all their children I had killed in cold-blooded selfishness of wanting to escape my own personal torment of being beaten and having pains surge throughout my body. Suddenly, I felt things that I had never felt before flood me, I felt overwhelming remorse and sadness for killing all the children when I destroyed the entire planet. I never killed them individually, but all at once with the rest of the populace of their planet."What have I done? All those young souls...gone." I said almost at a whisper. The larger red man who was restraining me felt me go limp and let me go. My body grew limp from feeling sadness for the first time in my life, it was overwhelming. Somehow I found a way to surpress this sadness as I gained my strength back and looked at two saying nothing, I was surprised at myself for feeling these new things. I knew what emotion was but was this it? Was I really actually feeling emotion, since the beginning I thought that I just had a mind and thoughts of my own but how was I feeling emotion? I turned my focus back on the little purple man "How did you make me have emotion, and why am I not empty anymore?" I asked in a more gentle voice than I usually sounded, this startled me a little. "I just gave you a soul, you did not possess one before and thats why you've been a ruthless killer. Let me explain what a soul is, its something that allows other beings to sense your ki, it allows you to feel emotion and its the only part of you that will last after your physical body is gone. If I wouldn't have given you a soul and you would have died, nothing would be left of you." He said. I gasped in horror as I comprehended this. "But you have no ordinary soul miss, since you had to be given a soul there is a consequence. Once your physical body deceases, you will become a messenger for the Ki's, you will have the same personality, but when you die you will not be capable of doing wrong. The Ki's will only call upon you as a messenger when you are needed but otherwise you will be free to do as you wish, other deceased beings will be able to tell you apart from a normal deceased being by your appearance. Look upon your very soul with this, it will allow you to see your dead form when you are living." He said handing me a weird looking mirror. My dead form was glowing a bluish color, and it had long white wings and there were markings upon my face. I handed him the mirror back. I thought about this contemplating what I should do, whether I should keep the soul or not. I did not have a negative feeling about this purple little man but the exact opposite, so I decided that I would keep this soul and didn't care about the consequences. Then I realized that my creator would be wondering where I was right now and would be furious, I thought about how he might use his little device to kill me so I just got up and ran into my ship's direction, I jumped into it and as the ship was closing he was running towards me "Wait, you never told me your name!" The little man called out as the hatch completely closed and I blasted into space again. As I got a good distance from the planet my ship's navigation system started to malfunction again and I passed though the same auras again until I found myself back where I had started. When I returned to my birthplace my creator was angry as usual, I soon found out that he had made a cane from a stronger alloy so that it wouldn't break when he struck me across the back. My anger towards him didn't change; I still wanted to kill him if only that implant wasnt embedded someplace beneath my skin. When I returned to my cell I thought about all the children I had killed and vowed never to kill another child again.