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Part Ten
I wake up that afternoon sprawled on top of Sara, we spoke some more, and ended up falling asleep on her sofa; I lift my head to find her already awake.
"Hi." She says brushing some of my dishevelled hair out of my face.
"Hi yourself. Thank you, for letting me stay."
"I wasn't going to, I'm still not sure about anything, I just knew I didn't want you to go, I didn't even know if you would stay."
I snuggle back into her, resting my head on her shoulder.
"I'm glad you asked, there was never a doubt about me saying yes."
"Do you have to get Lindsey from school?"
"Yeah, what's the time?" I don't even lift my head; I'm far too comfortable where I am.
"It's almost two."
"Uh, that means I have to move and I have issues with that right now, you're way too comfy."
She wraps her arms around me tighter, kissing the top of my head.
"But teenagers wait for no man, or woman in this case."
"True, true, I best get up now, else you'll be trapped here forever."
I untangle myself from her and stand up; I'm still not fully awake.
"You want me to come with? We can get food, Go the movies or something."
"Honestly?" I don't think I ever want to let her leave my sight again.
"I think that's best, especially given the circumstances."
"I agree. So honestly, yes. I want you to come with me, then I want you to come to work with me, then I want to leave and have you come home with me."
"I..."
I don't let her finish, she understandably looks a little overwhelmed by my sudden declaration. "But, that's the selfish part of me talking, the rest of me thinks you need time to think and that I should leave and let you have it."
I turn and grab my jacket from the chair.
"Don't you think it's dangerous leaving me to my own devices; god knows what scenarios my mind will come up with when I'm left to wallow." She smiles at me, the first genuine smile I've seen from her since I got here.
"Very dangerous." I say wrapping my arms around her waist. "But you have all the facts now, so you need to sort it all out in your own head, without anyone interfering."
"You're right, but I don't have to like it." She grins.
"I do however think you should have no doubts about what I want, how I feel. So when I leave I want you to remember what I said last night, and know I meant every word of it. I want you; in what capacity is entirely up to you. If you want us to just be friends, then okay, I won't lie and say I won't be disappointed because I will. If you decide you want more, that's okay too, in fact, that's more than okay." I smile. "But no pressure, okay?"
"Okay."
"Right I'm leaving now, see you at work?"
"I'll be there." She places a soft kiss on my cheek and I turn and leave I've done all I can, told her how I feel, it's all up to her now.
Arriving at work that night I don't know what will happen when I see Sara. We have a case together so I know I'll see her, she'll be professional and get her work done, as always. But beyond that I don't know, and I'm more that a little nervous. A part of me is screaming that I shouldn't have left her alone, but the logical part of my brain knows I did the right thing.
I bump into Warrick as I walk into the locker room.
"Hay Cat, how'd it go?"
"I don't know."
"You don't know?"
I sit on the bench and he sits next to me.
"After I left I went back and made her listen, I think she believed me, but I'm not sure, I was going to leave but she asked me to stay."
"That's gotta be a good sign right?"
"Yeah I think so. We talked some more, ended up falling asleep on her sofa. When we woke up I told her she should think about what I said, then I left."
"You did the right thing, she's gotta make her mind up on her own here."
"I know, but I can't help wishing I'd stayed, or made her come with me."
"She'll come and find you when she's ready to talk; all you can do is be patient."
"I know; doesn't make it any easier though."
He looks at me apologetically, nodding.
"I hate to do this but Gris is waiting for me, so I have to go, sorry."
"No problem, thanks for listening."
"Any time, you know that, catch you later."
"Be careful out there." I offer as he leaves.
My mind immediately going back to Sara, Warrick is right, all I can do is wait.
"Hi." I look up see Sara standing in the doorway looking nervous. Maybe I won't have to wait to long.
"Hi." I reply smiling, I feel as nervous as she looks.
"You okay?" She asks finally walking into the locker room.
"Ask me later." I say, half joking, I'm not entirely sure how I am right this minute.
"Yeah me too." She sits next to me and I fight the urge to lean into her, not sure how she'd react to that right now.
I'm not sure how to handle this situation; the nervousness between us is something new. The arguing and bitching I could deal with, but this is unknown and I don't know what unnerves me more. The atmosphere between us or the fact that I don't know how to handle it.
"I thought a lot after you left pretty much all I did till it was time to come to work."
"And?" I ask as, holding my breath, waiting for her answer.
"And I don't know, I believe you, it's not that, I just don't know."
She believes me YES! I wonder if she'd be okay with me doing a happy dance.
"You don't know about what."
"I don't know if there should be an us." Okay, so maybe the happy dance can wait. "Whether we should just not, I mean look at what's already happened and that was after a whole two days, maybe we should just quit while we're ahead." I think I want to vomit I feel sick, how can she think that.
"But." There's a but? Please let this be something good. "Now I see you, none of that seems important, not as important as being with you, so I'd say I'm more than a little confused."
My heart soars at her word, that's all the encouragement I need not to give up.
"That's okay, you need more time to think, like I said, I'm not going anywhere. Take all the time you need."
"Thank you." She says smiling, then standing up, holding her hand out to me, using it to pull me up when I grab it. "Come on, we should get to work."
"Yeah, let's go."
I go to walk past her, her hand still in mine; I don't get far though because she pulls me back around to her. She's so close I can feel the heat coming from her body. She's just looks at me, not saying anything.
"You okay?"
She just nods; it looks like she's deep in thought. I'm about to ask her what she's thinking about when she leans in; capturing my lips with hers, she proceeds to kiss me senseless, leaving me panting when she pulls back.
"I realise that I've just given you totally mixed messages, but I really needed to kiss you. Sorry."
She's apologising for that, she must be insane. "It's okay, and what I said still stands, although if you feel the need to kiss me in future, please don't hold back on my account."
"Thank you, I'll remember that." She says, and then turns to leave, dragging me with her.
As I leave the locker room I feel a million times better than when I went in.
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