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Okay so i thought i'd add another chapter for this story now to save you guys from waiting, i want to thank you all loads for your reviews cause i honestly wasn't expecting any good ones, i will post the next chapter after i get a few more reviews.

Enough of me rambling i shall get on with chapter two :D

Chapter 2- Freedom Finds the Needy

She woke up with a start, breaking out in a cold sweat yet again and gently began to recall the nightmare she had just experienced. It was the same one she had been plagued with for the last week or so and it was always about him. As if her days were filled with thoughts of him, he had to occupy her dreams as well. He had to affect her this way, and she hated it.

Sadie had set her alarm for 2.30 and sure enough she soon heard the all to similar gasp wafting through from her sisters room, and she heard her sister sidle into the bathroom. Now it was Sadie's turn to cry, she couldn't let Jude see she was torn up inside, she had to be strong for her. She cried because of all of the pain that Jude was feeling. She cried because Jude was feeling all of this pain and there was absolutely nothing she could do to make it go away, in fact, she didn't know what would be able to do that. She didn't really know what had gone on with Tommy and Jude, prior to him leaving, but she knew that Jude had feelings for him, and most importantly, Tommy felt for her back, just as strong. She wasn't stupid, she could see it every time they were together.

Tommy had told her that she was the only person he had kept in touch with, and not to tell anyone, but it was always to ask her the same question; 'how is she?' right when she first read the text she wasn't sure who he was referring to, but the more she thought the more obvious it was that he was talking about Jude. At first she was hurt that he was asking about Jude and not her, when she was the one he had been dating, but she realised just how close Tommy and Jude were, even through their music, it was obvious. And suddenly it became obvious why they had broken up. He hadn't really wanted her because he hadn't loved her. He loved Jude.

Her thoughts were interrupted as Jude opened the door to her room and silently creeping over to Sadie's bed before falling into her open embrace sobbing. Sadie wanted to ask her what was going on, to almost give her the third degree, but she wanted to be there for Jude, she wanted to comfort her, so she contented herself with rubbing her hand up and down Jude's back in what she hoped was a comforting gesture, showing Jude that she could trust her and that no matter what she would be there for her. Always.

She looked at Jude, or at least what used to be Jude, there was very little of the old Jude left any more, this was just a shell, an empty shell, she was fading away. Her skin had paled even more and become a brilliant white color luminous against the darkness of the room. Sadie looked into her eyes, the heavy black bags stood out even more against her pale skin. Her eyes, once brilliant and blue, were grey and glazed, sinking backwards emptily into her head. There were tear marks etched into her skin, burned on there. This was a ghost. Sadie held onto Jude, afraid that if she let go, Jude would disappear she was so thin. Sadie just couldn't get her to eat anything, not since he left, she was so afraid that Jude was going to wither away. Jude clung on to Sadie crying silently, but Sadie could tell by the way her body was shaking that she was crying.

Sadie finally gave in and broke the half hour long silence.

'What's going on Jude? Please, tell me, I want to help you, but I cant if you don't open up to me.'

Jude sighed, 'It's him Sades, I let him get to me. I promised myself that after my sixteenth birthday I wouldn't let him do it to me again, I wouldn't let myself get into that position again, but I failed. Failed, and now it hurts more than ever. He's messed with me again and I just can't do it anymore, it hurts too much Sadie!'

Sadie was dying to ask more but knew that she was lucky Jude had opened that far, and she didn't want to scare her into not talking again, so she knew she had to be content with the response she did get. She wished that Jude could trust her enough to tell her the whole story. Someday.

Jude crept back to her room and settled into her bed. She knew Sadie had wanted to ask questions, but she respected Sadie for not trying to push her into opening up. She knew how much Sadie had liked Tommy and she didn't want to ruin it for her.

So why was she still here? Why did she stay if she felt like she was letting everyone down? Everyone let her down. Shay left her, for her rival of all people. Jamie, well in a way he was still here but she managed to drive him away in a loving kind of sense. Spied hadn't wanted to be her boyfriend any more, and sure they all still hung out, she still worked with the band, she still felt the loss. Kat hated her, she had told her that much, that she couldn't be friends with her when she wanted everything Jude had. It was her mother and father betraying her that hurt so much. Her dad with Yvette started things off but back then she still had her mother. She was the last person Jude had expected to leave, but she had not wanted to be there with Jude either. And finally Tommy. The one person she truly loved and he had to leave her too. Now she had nothing left, nothing but Sadie and Mason, and she loved them so much, but that didn't stop her asking herself the question;

'Would they really notice if I was gone?'

'How is she?' The message blared on the screen of her mobile. Rather than giving him the usual reply and saying she wasn't talking to anyone but she was okay, Sadie decided to tell him the truth.

'You're killing her Tom. She's empty, there's nothing left in there.'

She never normally got a reply from Tommy, God knows she had tried asking him all sorts of questions, he never told her where he was no matter how many times he asked but she had tried with a whole lot of other questions. When was he coming back? Was he going to explain why he left? Was he even coming back at all? But he only asked about Jude and nothing else was said, he didn't even answer her calls, so when the phone rang and his picture flashed up on the screen she gasped and almost dropped the phone.

'Hey' she said although apprehensive.

'Sadie, have you spoken to her?' he rushed.

'Last night Tom. She finally cracked, she had the dream, nightmare even, again. She won't tell me what happens but I hear her shouting at you to come back, not to leave, not to do this to her again. Again Tom. What do you keep doing to her?' she pleaded.

'I'm sorry Sadie, I just can't tell you. I promise you though I never meant to hurt her.' He tried to apologize to her but she wasn't having any of it.

Sadie spat back, 'You're far from hurting her Tom, she's dying. Everyday a little bit more of Jude disappears. Soon she'll be gone.' She hung up the phone.

He let his hands catch the tears as they fell freely down his face. He didn't care that he was crying, and he didn't care that he had been doing it a lot just lately. He had finally realised just how much she loved him. She loved him to the point where she was ready to give up everything for him. It was a shame he wouldn't do the same thing for her, but he knew he wanted to. He would never forgive himself for how much he had killed her.

She put the final touches on the notes for everyone and she placed Sadie's on the kitchen table, dropped a few tears on it and closed the door behind her. She glanced once back at the house and whispered 'Sorry' before walking on to the bus stop.

Okay so that's all from me for the day but I promise to have the next chapter up soon, that is if I actually have any readers!

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Peace Dudes

Sofi x