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Chapter 3 - Love To Leave You

I'm so sorry D, but I can't do this any more. I just can't face it. I've tried, so hard, but with everything going on with him I just can't seem to get my head sorted, it's messed up. At least I got you a number one. See you on the other side.

Jude

Darius stared in shock at the note sitting in front of him on the desk. It was definitely her that left it. He realised just how much pressure she had been under and knew that when he had noticed her struggling he should have helped more, because now she was gone, she had cracked. She wasn't going to come back. He was going to have a talk with her today, about the pictures of her drunk that had appeared at G-Major, instead he decided that to save her trouble he would just pay off the ransom guy so she didn't have to suffer any more. "God D, you're gettin' soft.' He muttered to himself. He was deep in thought when Mason burst through the doors of G-Major, a look of sheer horror on his face. 'Sh..She..She's Gone!' he stuttered.

Darius showed the note he had received from Jude to Mason and Mason tried to relax, he couldn't but it was worth him having a go. He'd got somewhat of a longer note than that belonging to Darius, but he couldn't show it to him, it had even more details about her leaving and also a lot more as to why she had left, and a lot more about Tommy. He wanted to show it to Darius, maybe then Darius could give him some ideas as to where she had gone and maybe they could find her. But he couldn't betray her, so many people had shoved her feelings into the gutter, he was the one she believed in and he couldn't let her down, he loved her.

Looking down at the letter in his hands he really couldn't believe that she had gone, that she had left him this letter, he had to read it again, to make sure it was real. Who was he kidding, he knew it was real, but the way she had phrased the letter sounded like her talking, yet she was talking better than she had spoken to him ever since Tommy had left. He wanted to hear her voice again in his head and he smiled though the tears were splashing onto the paper.

Mase,

I'm really sorry to be leaving like this, I know its really sudden but I can't deal with it any more. It's what he does to me Mason, the way he makes me feel, how I can want to hate him so much but still somewhere there's that love that we had right from where we started. It's the way he can affect me Mason, I just can't take it any more. After what happened on my sixteenth birthday I knew, well I thought I knew that he couldn't hurt me any more, but I was wrong. Him leaving me made this seem a whole lot more real. I gave him my everything and I thought that I could trust him, that I could believe in him again, and I was wrong, so wrong.

I don't even know what to do now, I don't know where I'm going or what I'm going to last with but what I do know is that I can't be found, I don't want to be found, I don't need to be found. I just want to get away, escape, I don't know. But I do know that I have thought about ending it so many times, just to get away and I figure that if I did then I wouldn't ever get the chance to come back, and I figured that I could always come back if people accept me but you know. I love you and I'll miss you. Forever.

Jude x

Sadie finally woke up but she was still completely oblivious to the complete and utter scene of chaos that was unfolding inside the confines of G-Major. She sighed and managed to force herself to make the dangerous trek down the stairs to the kitchen. She wondered why she hadn't heard Jude yet, normally Jude was up really early and she was downstairs making breakfast for Sadie. Usually it was a massive feast, and then Jude would sit looking blank whilst not touching any of the food she had made for Sadie. She knew that Jude wasn't due at G-Major that day, after they had seen the stress she was under they decided to leave her to have a couple of days of rest. She entered the kitchen ready to make the breakfast herself. There were some notes on the table that she approached to study.

This is for him, well…if he ever comes back. I trust you.

The second envelope had just a single word on the front, and though it wasn't her name she knew that the note that lay inside it was meant for her.

Sorry.

Sadie opened the envelope tentatively and as she read it the tears began to slowly spill down her face.

They splashed onto the word 'forever' in his note and the ink she had used to delicately write the letter smudged into a pool of think water. He read the last lines over and over again and hoped that maybe the next time he read them they wouldn't be there, they would disappear, but they didn't. He had no idea of the desperation she had been feeling, she had so obviously loved him, and she had thought about ending it to get away from the thoughts of him. He hated Tommy. Hated him. Hatred. It was a strong word but he knew that because of how much he had hurt Jude, his producer and who he thought was his friend had hurt her so much, he wasn't allowed not to.

As she walked down the street Jude tried to formulate a plan, but the sick and harsh reality was that she had run away, and she didn't know at all what she was doing, where she was going and she hated to admit it to herself, but she didn't have a plan, not even the slightest idea of where she was going to go. All she knew was that she had to escape from this, from everyone and no matter how much she loved Sadie and Mason she knew that after this she had to be strong, and she could not see them again. Ever. She hesitated on whether she should go and try to find Tommy, he couldn't be stupid, he must have realised that she had seen the license plate on the back of the car and the car that was from Montana, but she didn't want him to see her like this, to see what he had reduced her to. She didn't want to be doing this, to be thinking of him, this was the reason she had left, to forget him, and forget him she was going to. She was free now, to do as she liked, no restraints just herself holding back, and she didn't want to be. She turned on her heel and ran, relishing the fresh air as it hit her in the face biting icily at the skin of her ears and nose and cheeks turning them a rosy red color, her fingers were burning with the cold and the breath her lungs were receiving did nothing to satisfy her growing hunger for oxygen as she continued her sprint through Toronto. She couldn't stop, she was flying, she was on top of the world, and for a moment, just one moment, she was free.

Okay guys, so there's the end of yet another chapter of this story, I can tell you that bar editing the story is completely finished, and I'm in the process of thinking of planning and writing a sequel. Sorry to bore you with my pointless rambling but just another round of me begging you to please leave just one tiny weeny itsy bitsy little review, just cuz I luv ya all for reading n reviewing!

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Peace

Sofi x