Okay well there's not much to say apart from here you go with the next chapter of my story! And cos i always forget the disclaimer, i think? I OWN NOTHING! If i owned Instant Star the Jommy would've happened a lot longer ago and Sadie would never have got in the way! i like the way i think!

Chapter 5 – On The Other Side

The heat knocked the breath out of her as she stepped out into the warm Californian air. Okay so LA was not exactly where she had planned on ending up, hell she hadn't planned on ending up anywhere, she just went. She realised that coming from Canada she probably wasn't appropriately dressed for the weather. The sweat started to form on her forehead already and she realised that under her coat and jumper she was feeling quite sticky. She peeled off a couple of layers and carried them around. It was a whole lot colder in Toronto. It didn't matter though did it? It wasn't like she was going to be there for long was it? The news of her disappearing was bound to leak soon, she cursed herself for agreeing to be released in the USA. It was just so likely that she'd be spotted. Only Tommy knew that she had always wanted to California and seeing as no-one had been able to contact him she doubted he even knew she was gone. She thought about the array of huge stars in LA and realised that maybe it would take a little while for her to get noticed. She settled down and enjoyed the sun, she could use a bit of color

Sometimes when you love someone you have to let go.

'How is she?'

Sadie read the text again, she laughed and pressed the delete button for what seemed to be the millionth time this week. He had sent her the same message ever since Jude left, hell, he had been sending it before then. She knew Jude didn't want Tommy to know she was gone, so she couldn't reply. She didn't trust herself not to let it slip and she could not be the next person to betray Jude. She settled back in the armchair next to Mason and they yet again waited in silence. They waited for someone to call in with a sighting of Jude Harrison, someone, somewhere, somehow, somebody had to know! Mason practically lived with Sadie now, they helped each other through the pain as much as they could although they still found it so difficult to talk about Jude. Should they look for her? If they did would they find her? If they found her what would things be like? Were they going to go after her? Were they going to look? They both knew that they loved her too much to let her slip away though none of them would bring that thought up, they had to find her.

But if you've hurt them you have to accept the consequences.

If you try to smother them they'll have enough.

Maybe they won't want to come back

Tommy stared down at his cell for the fifth time that minute. Why hadn't Sadie been replying to his messages? He had texted her three hours ago and he still hadn't received an answer to his question. It had been over a week since he had received an answer to that question and he was dying to know what was up. After thinking deeply about it he realised just how worried he was and he resolved to call her tomorrow. He happened to know that Sadie never looked at caller ID so she'd have no idea it was him until she heard his voice and just maybe he could convince her to talk to him. He wanted to call her now but he had promised Emi that he would play Barbie's with her. I know, sounds stupid huh? But the whole being a Dad thing had started to grow on Tommy. He laughed at how soft this little girl had made him go. How much he'd changed. He'd do anything for Emi. He'd like to think that he'd do anything for someone he loved but he knew that the reality he lived that he did nothing of the sort. He'd only ever really loved one person before and he'd destroyed her.

But sometimes when you've caused them so much pain.

They can't go back.

You can't go back.

Sometimes you love someone so much that you can't let go.

Tommy sighed and picked up his cell, he really did need to call Sadie just to find out how she was. He wanted to know how everything was going. He hadn't spoken to her since their last phone conversation that ended with her slamming the phone down on him, so you can understand why he was a little more than nervous. He took a deep breath and pressed the call button.

'Pick up the Pieces' blared from her cell and she sighed rolling over to grope for it on the cabinet. Being typically Sadie she didn't look at the caller ID and when Tommy heard her voice he was secretly glad. Sadie on the other hand knew that if she had looked she most definitely would have ignored the call. There was nothing stopping her slamming down the phone and ignoring everything Tom Quincy had to say, but in her heart she knew he had the right to know.

'Hello?' she questioned.

'Sadie?' he asked.

'Tom I really don…' she trailed off.

He sighed 'please don't hang up Sadie'

She thought about it and she was about to press the red button that would end the call but a wave of curiosity overwhelmed her and she just had to ask him the question.

'Do you love her?' She asked bluntly.

'Sadie now's not the time for…' he stared.

She shouted, 'NO! Tell me Tom! I deserve to know!'

'Sadie I…' he started before she cut again.

'Please Tom,' she begged. 'Please. You owe me at least this.'

'So much it hurts.' He sighed. 'So much I can't stop thinking about her. I hate myself for what I've done to her.' He brushed the tears from his eyes and from the way he said the next line Sadie could tell he was crying. 'I love her so much I can't let go no matter how hard I try. I won't. I love her that much.'

Sometimes you won't let go no matter what you want.

Sadie was awed by the raw emotion in his voice. She had never known Tom Quincy to cry before, over a girl. She was so young yet she had so much power over him and Sadie knew just from hearing his voice that this wasn't some kind of love that would go away. It would last forever.

'Did you…love her…whilst we were…dating? She asked apprehensively.

'Always' he told her. 'Even before I think. I loved her since I got to know her. There's always been a spark there, something electric. Chemistry.'

Sadie smiled mischievously. 'How's Montana?'

'How…Wha…you…howyouknow?' he spluttered.

'Jude' she stated simply. 'Saw the license plate.'

It took a lot of courage for Tommy to ask the next question but he knew it had to be done. He wanted to do it. 'Do you…I mean, can I, um, can I talk to her?'

Sometimes it drives you crazy and you want to make it all go away.

'She's gone Tom!' Sadie snapped her hand over her mouth in awe that she had told him the one thing she promised herself she wouldn't. But he deserved to know, after all he had told her after all the feelings he had expressed and after he'd laid bare his secrets to her, he deserved at least the truth.'

'What do you mean?' he asked hurriedly.

'I mean she left Tom. She's not here any more. Nobody knows where she had gone and there have been no sightings of her anywhere. She left notes for us. There's one she left for you, if you ever came back. She explained everything to me Tom, laid her heart out on the paper and even though I can't read it I know that she had opened her heart in your letter too. She told me about her sixteenth, seventeenth, stolen kisses, and you leaving.' She said honestly.

And sometimes no matter how much you know that you've screwed it up and that you can't get it back to the way it used to be. You always try knowing that nothing else can make you feel that way.

'So you officially hate me?' he sighed thinking he already knew the answer.

'I should,' she laughed, 'but I don't think Jude does, so I can't. I'll be seeing you soon?' it was more a statement than a question.

'In a flash.' He hung up.

And that's when you know it's true love.

Well there you go guys, i'll post the next chapter soon i just gotta type it all up quickly cos im only halfway through it lol.

Please R & R means a lot dudes

xxx