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Chapter 6 – No Turning Back.

She was really beginning to ache now but Jude Harrison was not a girl to give up so easy. She was getting that feeling, that she would have to move from California and it was a shame, she was really starting to like it there. It was just too risky staying in one place for too long. Especially in a place where her music was recognized and therefore made it a whole lot more likely that her face would be recognized. She was a far bigger star in America than she had thought but for some reason the people didn't seem to be recognizing her. Okay, so she was thankful for that thought, but she couldn't help but feel a little upset, couldn't she?

Going the wrong way down a one way street…

The lyrics of one of her earlier songs came back to haunt her, she sighed at the truth in her words, ironic. She felt like a criminal, like a runaway from a jail and in a way she

was, but what she didn't realise was that the cage was one she had created herself, one she had locked herself into and one that only she had the key to. Her heart.

As she looked in the mirror of the dirty pubic toilet that she was forced to use to scrub up in she gasped at just how different she felt she looked. Was the sea air polluting her already fragile mind? She sighed. She was Jude Harrison rock goddess, she had vowed to keep her bright red hair and deathly pale skin. She realised just how much she had come along and how she had grown up with the help of her friends and family and the people at G-Major, even though one by one they had deserted her and left her to fend for herself. She wasn't one for trying to be the victim but she couldn't help it because she was and whether she liked it or not she had been through so much that no girl her age deserved.

Again when she gazed back into the mirror she had flashbacks as to how good she looked when she had gone blonde and despite the criticism that Sadie had thrown at her when she unveiled the new color she remembered the look of sheer an utter surprise etched into Tommy's features. Now the girl staring back at her had mousy brown hair and she had to admit it. She looked HOT! The tan and brown hair was a good look for her after all. With that she ran out of the bathroom and straight into a young man of what she thought was around her age.

'Oh My God! I'm so sorry!' she shouted haphazardly.

He smiled back. 'Hey it's okay. You're Jude Harrison right?'

Shit! It was times like this she wished that her music hadn't been released in America. She had to think of something quick, she must look like a total dork.

'Uh no, I get that a lot though. I'm just a sad old look alike.' She smiled. 'Hence the brown hair, not blonde.' She motioned to her head. 'I wish though right?'

'Totally.' He replied. 'I have cousins in Canada and my little cousin wishes she could be Jude, I mean she's successful and she's talented. It helps that she's totally hot too!'

She smiled at the last comment thinking he hadn't noticed. He knew she was lying, he'd heard some unconfirmed reports from his cousin in Toronto that she was missing. Not saying anything though.

'I'm Josh by the way.' He said.

'Mackenzie' she replied. ' I gotta dash though. Later!' she called looking over her shoulder and smiling.

That was so close, she sighed. It was way to risky, how could she know that other people hadn't made the same assumption and acted upon it calling the press. Airport it was then, she had to go somewhere else. She debated going back to Toronto and admitting that she'd made a mistake, but she didn't want to give them the satisfaction of knowing just how fragile she was. She put on the tough punk princess who's old enough to look after herself act but inside she was so fragile and that was all since she had her heart broken one to many times. She didn't want Sadie to know how much she needed her, needed him. Plus after all she had confessed Sadie probably would have killed her. But then she could see all of them again, she could start recording again, if they'd have her, with Kwest. Music was her life, it was what she could see herself doing forever, what she wanted more than anything was to get another hit record out and she had just enough inspiration to write a hundred songs on heartbreak and frustration.

That was it settled then, she was going back to Canada, to her friends, to Sadie, to her Dad. It was quite a long walk but it did give her a lot of time to clear her thoughts and decide if going back to Toronto was really what she wanted. And apart from the sleeping rough she was thankful for the vacation she had, she would definitely avoid sleeping on the floor as much as she could in the future. She laughed, she was able to do that much more now, being in California had really helped her loosen up.

She was running to get her ticket to go home when a man grabbed her arm almost roughly and pushed some tickets into her hand.

'Free ticket to London…ha…HAHAHA…she loves me, she really loves me' he shouted jolly and happy. She wished she could be like that, she could say he loved her.

London. Maybe that wouldn't be such a bad idea. Nobody would know her there, nobody would recognize her. No-one would know about Jude Harrison, at all. She could start fresh, new name, new life. Mackenzie Brooks, she remembered her childhood friends names and mixed them up, that was the new her. She looked at the flight time and realized that she had barely half an hour to check-in and board, almost two late. She ran off in the direction and before she knew it she was sat on the plane halfway over the Atlantic Ocean. She had never been a fan of flying and to tell the truth she was feeling kind of crap at the moment. She had a few hours left to contemplate what she was going to do but what she did know is that she was gone. No turning back.

'Hey Tom.' Sadie tried to greet him cheerfully and be friendly but inside she wanted to rip him to shreds for making her baby sister leave like she did. The little girl hopped out of the car and grabbed Tommy's hand. 'And…little cousin?' she asked hopefully.

'Nice try Sadie.' He grimaced. 'This is my daughter Emily' he retorted wryly.

'Emi!' the little girl interrupted. 'I'm Emi, nice to meet you Miss Sadie.'

Sadie noticed what a beautiful little girl she was. She had Tommy's eyes and there was just something about her that was distinctly Tommy, yet there was some kind of an exotic flare to her. She was definitely Tommy's daughter, or at least related to him.

'Good to meet you too, Emi.' Sadie smiled back at the child. 'Come on in Tom' she said turning to him. 'Mason is already inside.'

'Why is Mason here?' Tommy shot back uncomfortable, he still didn't know Mason was gay.

'Jude loves him.' Tommy's face fell. 'He's her best friend, he's been there for her none stop since you left. He barely left the house.'

Tommy sighed defeated, at least their love was purely friendly. 'Me and Emi are moving back here. My life is here and truth is we don't like Montana, holds too many sad memories. My job was here, my friends were here and…' he broke off but Sadie knew that he was about to say that Jude was here. Only she wasn't, in fact she was far from here and she wanted to hurt Tom because it was his fault.

'So this is why you left?' she questioned nervously.

He smiled. 'Yeah, her mom died is the story. I didn't even know about her until…'

'You could've told her you know?' she said.

'Oh yeah?' he snapped. 'What was I supposed to say huh Sadie? Oh by the way Jude I have a four year old daughter who I have to stay at home and take care of? That would have been a real relationship starter.'

'You didn't have a relationship Tom.' She retorted. 'You were too busy telling her to forget everything happened. She would have understood Tom why can't you see?'

He knew Sadie was right but he also wanted to know how she knew about that. She knew what he was thinking and flashed him the letter Jude had given her before wordlessly pressing the envelope into his chest and leaving him to lock himself away and read.

Kay, there's chapter 6 and i hope you liked it! please read and review!

Luv Sofi xxx