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Draco entered Grimmauld Place stunned. It hadn't looked this divine when last he was here. Now it actually looked like a real home. He was here because his mother had requested to see him. When he asked where she was the elf that met him showed him to her office where she sat in an armchair beside the fire drinking a hot chocolate delicately. If he was being honest she looked fantastic and a lot younger then she had looked too.
"Mother you asked to see me and it sounded urgent is everything alright?" he asked bending down to kiss her cheek.
"Hello Draco. Please have a seat. Kreacher please get Draco here anything he would like to drink. We need to have a talk Draco and I am sorry to say you are going to hear many things about me you don't like and don't know!" she said as he visibly balked. It could be anything and he wasn't sure he was ready for that but then again when would he ever be ready for something like that. He took a deep breath releasing it again.
"Kreacher I'll take a hot chocolate with a dash of baileys and some chocolate chunks on top please!" he said as Kreacher bowed and left returning in a few minutes with the drink requested. Draco took a sip and smiled at the yummy taste.
"I don't know if I ever told you that my parents were abusive but they were. They never physically hit their children, no, what they did was worse. And I do mean much worse. When I was born as is the case with most pureblood girls and boys their parents will seek a reputable match for them to be married to. My parents found one for me, Lucius who in their own opinion was perfect for me which we now know he never was. However there was a problem as I couldn't marry him as I was and suffice it to say that didn't suit them so they took matters into their own hands!" she said seriously reaching for a tissue that she didn't use. Draco looked stunned.
"I um didn't know that. What did they do to you?" he asked delicately.
"I was not suitable for Lucius because I was too young so they used a potion to magically make me old enough to go to school with Lucius and marry him. I was actually seven but their potion made me appear to be eleven years old. I went to Hogwarts early and I do mean very early. No one ever figured it out because the potion was a Black family potion designed to make sure no one ever noticed except the person to whom it was given. I did eventually notice" here she paused and took a drink of her hot chocolate and shed a few tears stunning Draco. She seemed highly anxious and nervous. He wanted so much to comfort his mother but couldn't do so yet until she was finished.
"Lucius and I married whilst still in school and while he thought I was seventeen but in actuality was thirteen, I became pregnant with you. I had you at the age of thirteen but supposedly seventeen and it was in one word heinous. I suffered so much extreme agony and what made it worse was that I received no support from Lucius at any point. When they delivered you and the heinous agony ended my heart was so extremely full of love. I adored you so much and I still do. When I looked at Lucius however my heart was once more broken. You see he told me he was bitterly disappointed you weren't a girl. Later on I tried to get him to have more children with me so I could experience a good labour but he wouldn't let me. I know something was wrong with me but never realised about my age. I'm so sorry Draco!" she said sobbing as he ran over and hugged her tears in his own eyes.
"Oh mother I'm so sorry to hear that. I didn't know he was so harsh to you. I think when one doesn't wish to see something they do not see it. I knew he was harsh to say the least with others but I never realised he was also harsh with you. I was so damn busy trying to please him when I knew I never would but didn't wish to face it. I didn't wish to face I had become a failure. Oh mum I love you so much!" he said cradling her close.
"Oh Draconis you were never a failure. He was the failure I can see that now. When I found out what my parents had done to me eventually I was disgusted beyond belief. When I told Lucius too he appeared to be disgusted initially and then simply said he didn't care about it and that I should get over myself and move on. I am currently thirty five now and will continue to age normally from now on. Also I must confess I am eight weeks pregnant and delighted to have this opportunity back again. Lucius had been so vile with me that I was concerned I could even have any more children not that I told Harry that of course. Are you ok with that sweetheart?" she asked as he looked stunned to the core.
"To be honest mum yes I am. I have been doing some serious thinking and have come to some revelations on my own. I came to these revelations shockingly late in my life but I have done so none the less. I have realised I did everything I ever did to try to gain approval from Lucius something I knew in my heart of hearts he'd never give me. I never knew he wished I was girl but in hindsight I should have as he mentioned me being a girl often enough in my presence. I guess I just didn't connect the dots. Congratulations mum you deserve some happiness in your life and if you get that from Harry Potter then fine!" he said shedding some tears of his own. Lucius had been so vile to Narcissa.
"He never cared about either of us unfortunately. I had hoped as you grew up he could learn to love you like I did but it wasn't meant to be. I want you to understand Draco I did hate my parents for what they did and I did resent severely my awful labour but I'd have done it again in a heartbeat to have you. You never disappointed me much and even then it was because of Lucius' influence. I am just happy you bonded with Ginevra. You may or may not have heard that the Weasley's now have no children after Arthur disowned Ginevra. They are all either Black or Prewett children now. They no longer wished to remain in their lives which I can say I understand. I assume Ginevra has spoken fully with you about what happened to her?" she asked as he balked.
"Yes that and more. I didn't realise that in my second year she was the one behind the attacks in the school being possessed by an evil horcrux diary of the dark lords which father gave her. I was disgusted by it. She was essentially possessed by a teenage Voldemort who made her do all those things. I am not sure if he knew what he'd even given her but it could have killed me and I could have killed him when I found out about it the other day. He is lucky he's not here or I might have. How could he be so senseless though? I know he was a death eater but seriously?" he asked as Narcissa gasped.
"I know about the diary but he led me to believe it had been stolen and he was happy it was gone because it gave him creepy and evil vibes. What a liar. I have no idea why I'm even surprised. Draco I want you to be the godfather of my child when it arrives. Harry and I have discussed it and there is no one who would deserve the honour more. I want he or she to have the life Lucius didn't let either of us have and I want you to be a part of that life with them. Harry wants Luna to be the godmother. I think it's a great idea. Don't look like that Draco she got better!" she scolded as he rolled his eyes.
"I know she did but it's hard for me to forget how silly she was in school. The fact that neither herself nor her father realised they'd been tampered with says loads given all the nonsense they constantly spouted. It will be fine don't worry. For the record you've always been a great mum and this time will be no different I'm sure. It was Lucius who was the bad apple!" he said before turning serious once more.
"I have a confession of my own to make as well. I suffered for a long time with depression and did something a few months ago but it's not something I ever discussed. You must understand I was in an exceptionally rough place and did feel there was no way out for me. I cut into my arm using the closest knife I could found and essentially gauged out the chunk of skin with the dark mark on it. I almost died but thankfully Saint Mungos could save me. I didn't wish to live knowing what I'd been forced to do, I couldn't take it. I now have instead of a mark a feint scar. I have since gotten medication and I am better. Being with Ginny helps me tremendously. She is the light of my life mum. The sunshine in my sky! Oh god I sound like such a pansy but I love her so much mum. I'm so sorry!" he said crying deeply as she hugged him closely to her chest sobbing lightly.
"Oh Dragon I am so sorry you ever felt like you had no choice. At least you did seek help. You must know that whenever you need a break or anything at all you'll always be welcome here. You'll always be keyed into the floo network here but I do have one condition though. If you walk in on anything at all you are not allowed to freak out. That may never happen but I needed to add it in just in case it ever does. Come on let's get some lunch. How about Puccini's today? I'm craving some carbonara right now!" she said with a slight chuckle as he smiled at her gratefully. They left the house having a great lunch and a much needed deep catch up. When she returned in the evening she felt lighter than she ever had. She walked up to their bedroom and undressed herself fully. Harry wasn't in the room but as she undressed herself she looked at herself in the long mirror studying her body. Her tummy had a slight swell to it and her boobs were the largest shock. A small percentage of woman got extremely large boobs very early in pregnancy and she was one of them. They were very tender and sensitive. She walked into the bathroom and climbed into the warm bath she'd asked Kreacher to prepare for her. It had been a great day.