What I would do to take away this fear of being loved...allegiance to the pain. Now I'm fucked up and miss you.
You know it's dumb to be different. It's dumb to be special. It's dumb to think people can ever change. It's really dumb to think people will ever love you for being different. How could they? It is your fault after all. They just wanted a perfect little girl. Then she turned out to be gay and got shunned from everyone.
I'll never be like you...
Said they could fix her, but she'd rather kill herself than be fixed. They made her feel like she was messed up, like she was broken. When the only thing messed up was their beliefs.
I would give anything to change this fickle-minded heart, that loves fake shiny things. Now I fucked up and I miss you.
They thought isolating her from her friends and forcing her to go to church would cure her. Instead it tore her apart.
I'll never be like you...
Day after day after day she'd reach further into the darkness. Glee, was her sanctuary until she was outed. So she quit glee club. Then found out the Cheerios were talking about her and no she didn't stand up for herself. No she quit the cheer team. She was in an endless battle with her friends, family, church, and within herself. There was only so much a girl could take.
I'm only human, can't you see? I made, I made a mistake. Please just look me in my face. Tell me everything's okay. 'Cause I got it, ooh never be like you.
I'm only human, can't you see? I made, I made a mistake Please just look me in my face.Tell me everything's okay. 'Cause I got it, ooh, never be like you...
One day she went to the bathroom in her room and took out a pack of razor blades from her medicine cabinet. She turned on the cold water of the bath tub and plugged the drain. She got in and hissed from the cold of the water. Next she did something that she couldn't take back and honestly she wouldn't. She almost died that night, but her father who was luckily a surgeon found her.
Santana then realized she never wanted to die. She just wanted to breathe again. So her parents made a decision... it was supposed to be for the best. Only it wasn't...no it wasn't.
And her story begins.