Summary: Lies, deception, everything has a price ... what is the price of shame?
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Chapter 2
Walker spent the next week preparing the upstairs room for the new baby. Alex had tried to persuade him to wait, but Walker was overjoyed at the fact that he was going to be a father. Knowing nothing short of telling him the truth would stop him, Alex relented and sat downstairs, smiling at the appropriate times.
"Alex, don't you go to the doctor today?" Walker said, as they sat down to lunch.
Alex sighed, "Yes, I have an appointment at noon."
Walker sat down at the table with his sandwich and handed one to Alex, who turned a bit green at the sight of it. "You want me to go with you?"
"I'll be fine, but I really am not hungry," she said, shoving the plate away.
Walker watched as Alex breathed in slowly, taking several breaths it seemed before she looked more like herself. "Are you feeling sick? Is it already that time? I thought that wasn't till later."
Alex's stomach did start turning flips then. Did Walker suspect her? Did he know she wasn't pregnant at all? Her anxiety must have shown in her face for she felt Walker's hand on hers. "I didn't mean to upset you. I mean really, I am a man. What would I know about these things?"
Alex placed a smile on her face though she felt anything but happy. "No, morning sickness isn't for a few more weeks. I have just been feeling a little down is all."
"Well, why don't you go ahead and get ready for the doctor and maybe he can give you something to make you feel better."
Alex smiled and got up from the table, leaving her sandwich where it was. Her appetite had all but vanished since the beginning of all this. Walker watched her walk away. Alex seemed so happy before she had gotten pregnant, and now she seemed upset all of the time. Maybe he should talk to CD, about it. Thinking about it more and more he decided that was the thing to do.
Alex drove past the familiar sight of CD's and saw Walker's truck parked outside. She clenched her jaw. She wanted to run inside and confess everything to Walker, but she couldn't live with the fact that by telling him she would end up killing him. Pulling up in front of the small white building Alex crawled out of the car. She hated coming here, hated the lies she would be forced to tell this week. Sucking in a breath she walked inside.
"Mrs. Walker the doctor will see you now."
Alex stood up and followed the nurse into the room where she sat on the small sterile table. She hated being here. The thought of Walker sitting at CD's waiting for her to come and share the news of how it went made her feel sick.
"Mrs. Walker, how good of you to keep your appointment," Mr. Suling said, as he closed the door behind him.
Alex glared at him. "It's not like I have a choice is it?"
Mr. Suling nodded his head in agreement. "True, your beloved husband would have been dead weeks ago had you not chosen to go along. Do not misunderstand me. Mr. Sakara is a very respected man in our community and to have his only son turn on him was the worst thing that could have happened. He will kill your husband at the least little hint that you wish to inform him."
"Can we talk about something else, anything else, like how am I supposed to have morning sickness in a couple of weeks?"
"That, Mrs. Walker is not a problem." Mr. Suling walked over to a cabinet and pulled out a huge bottle of something and walked back over to the table. "You will begin taking this twice a day starting next week. This bottle should last you for over a month, but should you run out in that time just return here and I will give you more."
Alex stared at the huge bottle in her hands. The label said it was some kind of medicine but Alex glared at the smiling Mr. Suling and asked what was on her mind. "What is it really?"
"The contents of the bottle is nothing more than ipecac syrup. It will induce vomiting within minutes of taking it, if not seconds so be leery when you use it around Walker."
Alex tucked the medicine in her purse, and took the chart handed to her by Mr. Suling. She was about to leave when Mr. Suling placed his hand on hers as it reached for the knob. Alex pulled away, as if his touch burned her.
"Your next visit we will be discussing how to make you appear a bit bigger. You are supposed to be about two and a half months now. You should start showing some soon."
Alex stared in disbelief at the man. She didn't know what he was planning, and the smile on his face proved it would be anything but pleasurable for her. Alex ran to her car and slung open the door. Once inside the car she stared at the bottle, knowing she was just going another step in the lie she was telling. She knew Walker would be upset, he would fall over himself feeling bad for her being sick. She didn't want to see the worry in his eyes, she didn't want to know that it was all for nothing. Shoving the car into gear Alex took off towards CD's where she was too meet Walker for lunch.
Inside CD's ...
"CD, is she ever going to feel better? I mean she doesn't eat anything hardly anymore. She just doesn't seem like Alex right now. When is that sparkle going to return?"
CD started to laugh, at first a soft chuckle, till he was gasping for breath as the peals of laughter echoed through the bar. "Cordell, you have lots to learn son."
"What do you mean?" Walker asked, seriously perplexed at this point.
"What I mean is when it comes time to deliver that baby you will see a whole other side of Alex. You might just see the little demon in her as she tries to kill you. A woman in labor is a force to be reckoned with. That is if you live through the last month when everything will set her off."
Walker looked a bit amused and a bit terrified. "Alex is the sweetest thing in the world. I have seen her bad side in the courtroom and I will be avoiding that side of her at all costs. But she will begin to feel better won't she?"
"If what I know is true she will feel much worse before she feels better."
Walker was about to ask him how long that would last when Alex walked in looking frazzled. She made her way over to them and flopped down on the barstool, her eyes again looking as if she had been crying. "Do you want some lunch?"
"A sandwich would be good," Alex whispered. She didn't trust herself not to begin crying again like she had in the car so she occupied herself with eating. Walker and CD tried to get her to join into the conversation and after a few minutes Alex felt much better. The conversation had switched to what to get Trivette for Christmas as it was fast approaching and he was nearly impossible to buy for. Alex had given the men a few ideas, all of which were balked at for being too girly.
Lunch now over Walker returned to work and told Alex he would meet her back at the house for dinner. Alex returned to work too, all thoughts for the moment gone but getting ready for her next case. She sunk herself into her work, and it was Miranda who came in to tell her it was way past five and that everyone else had gone home. Alex jumped up from her chair and started shoving papers into her briefcase. Walker worried when she was late and so Alex ran out of the office and to her car.
When Alex pulled up into the driveway at the ranch she saw Walker heading for his truck. Grabbing her purse she jumped out. "Sorry, I got caught up working on a case and lost track of time."
Walker pulled her to him, kissing her gently on the lips. "You know how I worry. I think for that you should be sent to the bath, without bail, until dinner is ready."
Alex laughed at Walker's dry humor, but the swat on the behind, gave her a few other ideas, and she chased him into the house.
Once her bath was over and she was in a nice set of comfortable clothes Alex walked into the kitchen.
"Something smells great in here."
Walker wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to him once more nibbling on her neck. "Yes, something does smell good in here, and I believe it is you."
The rest of the meal set Alex's mind at ease. She had forgotten all about Mr. Suling and his warnings and medicines. She forgot everything but the arms of Walker and the way he held her after they had made love. The weekend was bliss, filled with late night swinging on the porch and even a ride on the horses to the lake for a picnic. Nothing marred the night either as Walker and Alex spent each night wrapped in each other's arms until sleep came, it was perfect, until the alarm sounded on Monday morning.