Summary: Lies, deception, everything has a price ... what is the price of shame?
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Chapter 13
Alex spent the next few days with Walker visiting her at lunch time each day. They would sit out on the porch swing and eat their lunch and then go back inside for a cup of coffee or a glass of tea before he left to go back to work. Today however was different. Alex knew it was Thursday and tomorrow she would go back to see Dr. Suling for the last time. It gnawed away at her, and she found herself crying a lot lately. Walker had excused this as just being hormone overload, and tried to comfort her as best he could.
Alex was standing in the bathroom, staring down at herself in the mirror. She thought she looked hideous. The round stomach to her was nothing but a testament to the ongoing lie. She wanted to cut it open, and reveal the lies she had told. Tears began to roll down her face and she did nothing to stop them, she simply didn't care anymore. Walker was going to find out soon, and then he would leave her. He wouldn't be able to go on knowing that she had lied to him. This was the sight Walker came into the room seeing.
"Alex? Honey, what is wrong?"
"Nothing, just me crying over things I can't change."
"I told you Alex that I love you regardless of what you look like. I meant it Alex," he said wrapping his arms around her, placing a kiss on the nape of her neck.
"How can you love me?" Alex said, then bit her lip before she confessed.
Walker pulled her to him. "I told you Alex. I love you more than the moon and the stars above me. I have always loved you, from the moment I laid eyes on you. Nothing and I mean nothing could ever change that."
Alex cried even harder then. Walker wiped away the tears with his fingers, and picked Alex up, carrying her to the bed, and laying her down on it. "I am going to show you my love for you Alex," he whispered into her ear, kissing her neck and then working his way down till his lips were on top of her stomach. He stopped only a moment, placing several kisses on her navel before sitting up and removing his shirt.
Alex wanted him more than anything. Wanted to feel him near her, to be one with him. She began to unbutton her own shirt and soon they were in the heat of the moment. Alex wanted to scream out loud, the pain so horrible that she thought she would pass out from time to time. Everytime Walker pressed into her it felt as if something were going to explode inside her and yet Alex didn't want him to stop. Walker and her were together, wrapped up in each others arms, and all too soon it ended.
Alex laid beside Walker, both drenched in sweat, Alex panting, trying to stave off the pain. It had been worth it to her to know that she would have this to remember once Walker found out. She loved him more than he could ever imagine, more than she valued her own life. Rolling over she placed a kiss on his lips. "I am going to take a shower."
Walker smiled back over at her. "I will just go into the kitchen a fix us a glass of tea then. Don't be long," he told her, swatting her on the behind as she rolled off the bed towards the bathroom. Alex smiled at him, shutting the door, and then leaning up against it. Only then did she allow herself to wallow in the pain she felt, and it soon overtook her and she found her stomach churning again. Rushing to the toilet she made it just in time before the first wave of nausea brought up her lunch. Alex spent the next few minutes retching, praying it would stop before Walker came back into the room. A few minutes later she sat back down. Her felt horrible, but she kept telling herself it had been worth it.
The next morning Alex woke up and told herself it was not Friday. Walker came in and tried to get her up, but Alex threw the covers over her face. "Alex, get up you will be late for your appointment."
"I don't care!" Alex yelled, from underneath the covers. "I don't feel good."
Walker threw off the covers then, "All the better reason to go to the doctor. Come on now get up. I will drive you if you want me too."
Alex sat up then, shaking her head. "No, that is all right. I'll get ready and be out in a few minutes." Alex put on a pair of the maternity pants, and one of Walker's tee-shirts. It had grown very warm in the past couple of weeks, with Easter soon approaching. Alex had planned on a cookout, now she didn't know if she would even be around to celebrate.
Giving Walker a kiss Alex promised she would come straight home after the appointment, and that she would call if she were going to be late. She drove the long stretch of road to the office, hating every inch closer she got to the dreaded building. Alex pulled into the parking lot and noticed her car was the only one there other than Mr. Suling's. Instantly she grew nervous, too nervous in fact to go inside. She was just about to turn the ignition back on and drive away when Mr. Sakara pulled up beside her.
"Mrs. Walker, I see I have made it just in time. Would you care for me to walk you inside?"
Alex drew back from the offered hand and walked inside. When she opened the door she noticed not even the nurse behind the desk was there. "Where is everyone?"
"We did not wish you session to be disturbed Mrs. Walker so we have closed the office to everyone else. You are our most valuable client."
Alex's stomach started cramping up and she had to hold back the vomit, running to the nearby trash can, losing her breakfast into it. When nothing else would come up she stood on shaky feet, and her elbow was grabbed. "I shall escort you to the room, you don't look so well."
Alex passed by the room she had always gone in and noticed they were walking to the end of the hallway. When she stepped into the room it looked like a operating room, something off a television show. "Why are we here?" Alex asked.
Mr. Sakara escorted Alex over to the table, handing her the hospital gown. "Your last procedure didn't go as well as expected and we felt we need a bit more help this time. I have called in a few experts to help us."
Alex stood there shaking in the hospital gown. "Mrs. Walker if you will just get up on the table we can begin."
Alex slowly got up on the table and watched as she was surrounded by three other men, ones she had never seen before. "I think it is possible, although there is not much more elasticity left I do not think. What do you think Dr. Machun?"
The other man circled Alex, pulling on her stomach, causing Alex to gasp in pain. "I think you are right. It will be difficult but I do think we can achieve what you desire Mr. Sakara. I do not think it would be wise to leave them in longer than a couple of months though in fear that they may burst."
Mr. Sakara nodded his head in understanding. "We only need to remain for a couple of weeks, at which time they will be removed."
"Are we in agreement then doctors?" All three of the doctors nodded yes. "Then we should begin."
"What do you mean begin? What about my opinion?"
"You have something to add Mrs. Walker?" Mr. Sakara asked.
Alex sat up on the table then. "You are damn right I have something to add. The last time you did this I was in so much pain you had to tell Walker I went into labor early. There can't possibly any more room to add another one. Are you trying to kill me Mr. Sakara? Because if you are this could very well do it."
Mr. Sakara, motioned for the other doctors to come over, and they spent a couple of minutes hunched over talking. Mr. Sakara came then to stand beside Alex. "The doctors assure me that there is adequate space left for one more, and really that is all I am worried about. They also assure me that you will survive it. Sure there will be pain, but isn't your husband's life worth the pain?"
Alex started to scream, knowing nothing but severe pain awaited her. "Go ahead Mrs. Walker and scream all you want. We have brought you into this room specifically because it is sound proof. No one will hear your cries for help."
Alex knew then that no one would help her but as the incision was made she couldn't help the small yelp that escaped her. She squirmed on the table trying to stop them from doing this to her, but in the end Mr. Suling came and held her legs down, so that she could move anymore.
"Mr. Sakara, the others bags are trying to migrate out."
"Hurry then and finish the procedure. We can't have anything go wrong at this stage of the plan."
Alex's screams echoed off the walls of the room as another bag of solution was being shoved in. Her skin felt like it was being ripped from her body, and her throat had gone dry. "Just relax Mrs. Walker and it will make the procedure go much more smoothly." Mr. Sakara offered.
Alex couldn't stop shaking. One of the doctors was now pulling her stomach from the left side while another was pulling from the right. Alex couldn't take the pain anymore and with a burst of adrenaline she tried to get up from the table. Mr. Sakara was on top of her before she could get two inches away.
"I told you Mrs. Walker this is for your husband's own good." Alex let out a bloodcurdling scream as the last bag was shoved in. "You see Mrs. Walker all that is left is to stitch you up," but Alex didn't hear anything for she had passed out on the table.