Summary: Lies, deception, everything has a price ... what is the price of shame?
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Chapter 19
Chapter 19
The three men paced the floor for hours waiting on any word about Alex. Walker had long ago taken a seat, his head in his hands, but all three men stood up when the doctor came out."
"You can see her now, but no more than a couple of minutes, and only family."
Walker stepped into the darkened room and walked over to the bed. Alex laid there with several monitors on her, and tubes going in both arms. Walker stepped closer to the bed, and laid his hand on her stomach. Yesterday he had been telling Alex how happy he would be when the baby got there and now it there was no baby. He stared down at the sheet over her, and saw an almost perfectly flat stomach, where they day before it had been swollen with the child inside her.
"Your wife is very lucky she even made it here, Ranger Walker, but it does not look hopeful for her. The blood loss was not that great, in fact it was minimal compared to what we thought it would be, but she is suffering from malnutrition, and severe abdominal scarring. She may not make it through the night."
The doctor then left the room, leaving Walker with Alex. He couldn't see through the tears that were falling now. They had wanted this baby so much. Alex had gone through so much pain and suffering for this baby, and now it was taken from them, taken by Sakara.
Walker was angry, not just angry as he had been before, but angry enough to hunt this man down and kill him. Not only had he taken his child away, but Alex may die. Everything he ever loved would be taken from him, and Walker couldn't face it. Turning around he tore out of the room.
"Walker?" Trivette asked.
"Let him be Jimmy. He needs a few minutes alone. The fresh air will do him some good."
Walker ran till he was outside, walking till he found his truck parked outside the emergency room exit. he opened it only to find the passenger seat marred with Alex's blood. He also saw something blue in the floorboard and reached down to get it when the phone rang. Walker grabbed it thinking it might be CD or Trivette calling him from inside.
"Hello?"
"Ahhh Ranger Walker. I see you followed my directions and found your wife."
"Sakara where are you?" Walker screamed.
"Now, Ranger Walker let us be gentlemen. I have done nothing wrong. You on the other hand have shamed me and my family."
Walker's fury boiled over then. "Nothing wrong! You cut my wife open and took our baby! Where is the baby Sakara!"
Sakara's evil laugh rang out on the phone, and Walker gripped it till his knuckles turned white. "There has never been a baby, didn't your wife tell you? I made her go along with the lie, and she did so. There was never a child Ranger Walker, I merely wanted you to feel the shame that I have felt."
"What are you saying? Alex was pregnant! I saw it with my own eyes." Tears were now flowing down Walker's face.
"I assure you Ranger Walker there was no baby. The sonogram, the doctor visits were all a hoax. As for your wife's pregnant state that was all Mr. Suling, my assistant's doing. Now sure, it was painful for your wife, but she told you nothing, as she was instructed to do. She looked you in the face Ranger Walker and lied to you over and over, and for what?"
"Alex, wouldn't lie to me, you would! Believe what you will Ranger Walker, but I can tell you in detail what happened." Mr. Sakara began telling Walker exactly what had taken place, and Walker's face grew red with anger. He had fallen for it hook line and sinker. Yes, Alex had lied to save his life, but the fact was she lied. She should have known she could come to him, but she didn't.
Walker screamed loud enough to get the attention of a passing car, but one look at his face sent them driving on. "I hate you Sakara, and when I find you, you will pay for everything you have done."
"If and when you find me Ranger Walker. "
Walker slammed the phone down, and headed back inside. He was going to be there when Alex woke up to question her about everything, why she had done it, and why she didn't feel she could come to him with it. He marched all the way up to the fourth floor, thinking all the while, but as he passed the chapel he found himself stopping. Walker went inside and sat down and lost track of the time, until CD came looking for him.
"I thought I might find you here."
Walker motioned for CD to sit down. "How is Alex?"
Cd frowned, "No change, Cordell I am worried."
Walker told Cd all about what happened, and CD listened gasping now and then. "I can't believe it Cordell I just can't."
Walker faced his long time friend, tears glistening in his eyes. "She lied to me CD. All this time she lied to me. She could have come to me and told me, and we could have worked it out."
CD placed his hand on Walker's shoulder. "Cordell Walker! Alex is a woman, not a ranger. She wouldn't know to come to you with something like this. The man told her he would kill you for heaven's sake, and just think about what he has done to her. He cut her open Cordell! Your wife right now is up there fighting for her life because of that sick bastard."
"Why CD? Why didn't she just tell me?"
"Because she loves you too much and was trying to protect you that's why."
Walker sat there for a few minutes and thought about what CD had said. Alex had been at the mercy of Sakara, and the man had killed his own son. He knew then that Alex had tried to tell him. There had been times when she had said something casual, and he had taken it to mean something else. Walker wanted to simply die. In one day he had lost the baby he thought was his, that was never there, and now Alex laid upstairs possibly dying.
"Did the doctor say anything, about Alex that is?"
CD looked to be struggling on whether not to tell Walker. "What is it CD?"
CD looked Walker straight in the eye. "The doctor said he had never seen anything more brutal in all his life. He said that Alex had not only been gutted like a fish, but that she looked to have been tortured within the last few weeks."
Walker stood up then, horror written on his face. "Oh! All that pain she was in. I thought it was from the baby. CD what did he do to her?"
"There is only one person who can answer that Cordell, and she is upstairs right now fighting for her life."
Walker felt so ashamed. "Thank you CD, for showing me how stupid I can be sometimes."
"Think nothing of it Cordell. Now go on get out of here. I will do enough praying for us both. Alex is going to need you to pull through this. Cordell, it doesn't look good."
Walker took the steps two at a time, not being patient enough to wait for the elevator. He wanted to see Alex, wanted to tell her to hold on for him, that he needed her. Walker felt so stupid for thinking anything bad about Alex. He knew now that she had suffered at the hands of Sakara, just like his own son had. He rounded the corner on the fourth floor to find several officers surrounding Alex's room. His heart quickened and he took off towards it.
"What is going on here. Let me through I am her husband."
Trivette heard Walker's voice and came through the crowd of people. "Walker! Alex is gone, he took her, and all he left was this," he said, shoving a note into Walker's hands.
Walker looked down and read the note.
I have her, and you will never see her again. How does it feel to have lost everything you ever cared about?"
Walker balled up the note, a new sense of rage filling him. He didn't say anything as he turned and walked away, and he didn't stop walking till he again found himself at his truck. Walker unlocked it and grabbed his gun from underneath the seat. The gun had been a present from CD years before, and he carried it in the truck as a backup. It was then that the phone rang. Walker grabbed it up on the second ring, it was Sakara on the line.
"You wife doesn't look to good Ranger Walker."
"Where are you Sakara? Show yourself to me like a man!"
"What joy would I get from that? The only thing you need to know is this." Sakara preceded to tell Walker everything, about how he had told Alex what she had to do, to giving her the medicines to make her sick and even about how they had enjoyed cutting her open.
"Your wife screamed and begged in the end Walker, but even she was not strong enough once we finished. Now you know what it feels like to be alone. Now you know my shame."
Walker screamed, "Bring her back here! She can't make it without medical help!"
"My point exactly Ranger Walker."
The phone went silent then. Walker had been listening for over an hour about all the things Alex had gone through. He was a fool. a stupid fool who for a moment had doubted her and now she was gone. Sinking to his knees Walker felt the tears coming. They flowed down his cheeks, dripping off his beard onto the dirt beneath him. Alex, his whole reason for being was gone, in the hands of one of the most ruthless men he had ever known.
His tears had turned to choking sobs now, as he sank completely to the ground. "Why!" he screamed to the skies above before he lost all control and wept openly. There Walker laid in the dirt, alone, not caring who saw him. He was a lost in his own despair now, a man who had the only love of his life ripped away from him. He was in every sense of the word broken.